Hi you guys!
This is Megan here, and this is my draw my life video, and I hope you guys enjoy.
So...
To be honest with you, I don't really
...
Really, don't know what to talk about
Myself in general *sigh* like to be honest with you, I think my life is personally boring and
...
not that extreme...
So I decided to talk about something else and it's gonna be an emotional ride
But first off,
Let's just start off simple.
I'm Megan Alexandria Denter
Dislikes...
let's see
I don't like:
spiders,
slow walkers, birds for some odd reason, and insects
For likes I like drawing (obviously),
singing,
dancing,
playing video games,
dogs/puppies,
and sleeping in
Personality-wise.... I mostly everywhere XD
March 31st 2001 is when I came into the world
Boyfriend-girlfriend at the time, they never even thought about having me until I came...
so, they decided to get married, after I was born
However, they always had arguments with each other, so they were about to get a divorce when I was like a little girl
But then my mom said,
"Hey, I'm pregnant again!"
so my dad decided to stay around for a little while
March 14th 2004
is when my little sister was born
it's actually my first memory ever
Her name is Tristen Brooke Denter
Now we really...
don't get along as well
...
because you know regular sisters, but really we
really, do love each other a lot
We just get into a lot, A LOT of arguments
And that's totally fine by us like we get along right after like five minutes later
But even right after she was born
They kept getting into fights so that didn't really help the situation
Around any of us, it affected us greatly, so they finally got a divorce
in February 2007
It seemed like my mom
found another guy, and she had an affair on him
(Dad, is what I meant)
So Dad moved out and that really worried us
Not only that in my mind, but I was being abused
even by my own mother
I
...
Didn't know what to do
I complain to myself
I beat myself up after my mom hurt me
After the kids bullied me and calling retard
my mom saying
"Hey"
"You only have Asperger's?"
But that was only a misdiagnosis like I actually have ADHD
So right after me and Tristen told the counselors about our experience with our mom
our dad finally got custody of us
But as soon as that happened our mom disappeared
A year later
after she disappeared
...
We were under supervised visits with our mom from then on
but she then told us one day during the summer that she had cancer
(Cololn Cancer, to be exact)
As nine and six-year-old girls we didn't really understand and we were thinking
"Should we trust her?"
But then we started believing her after she lost her hair and she grew weak
July 4th 2012
We moved from Anaheim all the way to Draper, Utah
to help his
(our dad)
beloved new girlfriend, Stacy, with her kids
to helping them to go to college
Since we didn't tell our mom at this time
She was really disappointed so from then on we drove then flew to California to see her
But even then just flying down to see her
It was just a train wreck every single time we get into...
stupid arguments that I didn't agree or she didn't agree with
and it made everyone uncomfortable
Just every single day from then on after she abused me
I just thought about how she's gonna hurt us next so I kept my guard up
I wouldn't let her get near me
or talk to me
Just thinking to myself I was like why is everyone protecting her
She's a jerk, but I guess that's what I thought
June 2nd 2017
I woke up from my bed
with a heartache
at 5 o'clock.
I was like
"What's going on?"
Why is this...
Why am I waking up so early?
But then I decided to shrug it off and go to school like nothing had happen
I finally got out of school with a happy mood
That school is over!
But then I saw my dad slumped on the kitchen counter
And I asked him
"What's wrong?"
And he told me the news
...
My mom passed away
four o'clock,
California time
this morning
We all got it out
...
Together but even now my dad says I'm going through the grief stage still
Now I'm just thinking about how I treated mom when she needed my help,
and I just left her
And the time when
...
*sigh*
I pushed her across the room
telling her that she should die already from her cancer
The time I told her
"Hey!"
"I'm gonna draw yeah one day!"
...
and I never did
idk I just
felt
so
angry
for no reson
And I keep thinking to myself
"Why am I even here when I treated someone that horribly?"
Whenever we visit
she take us to Disneyland teaching us how to have fun and still be kids
But we didn't understand
And whenever I got sick
She tried to help me out with her homemade soup say
"Hey?"
"Don't let life get you down like this."
Tried to show me the beauty of the world even though
It's so terrible as it is right now
The last time that we saw her
she told us that
"Hey you're the light of my life, please don't go!"
...
and yet we did
And we didn't say anything
So after flying down a week later
(of Mom's death)
to see my mom's funeral
I went to the cremation room
Everyone told me
"Don't"
"DON'T"
"You're not supposed to deal with this."
and I'm like
"I want to..."
so when I was in there
They showed me a bunch of flowers, and I saw this perfect one
It's a purple flower.
I don't know what it's called,
but it was intertwined
and it really caught my attention
I just thought of how Mom was with me,
and how we could have been together
The regret that I have right now
don't worry
I'm keeping it with me
that may sound bad,
but it's not
What I'm actually gonna do
is carry it around with me.
I'm not gonna let it get the best of me
I'm gonna share it to the world that who
NEEDS
the experience --
Positivity
the brightness of this experience I went through --
It's not all bad
I understand now
My mom always told me
"Never let anything get you down."
And she wanted this to be a happy funeral
she didn't want anyone wearing black
So I wore purple that day
And I saw her get cremated
But really mom
I do miss you,
and I'm so sorry
really am
that didn't talk to you for the last time
I love you
I'm so sry for this emotional roller coaster
Thank you
EVERYONE
for listening to
my story
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