Hey guys I'm Alexander Jasper-Jay and today I wanted to touch on what I was talking about in my last video
in a bit more detail
I intentionally was very vague in that video
and that's because I want to approach this subject very delicately
not only because it's emotionally heavy for me
but because it might freak some of you guys out
who are on testosterone or planning to go on testosterone to hear that testosterone put me in a wheelchair
fret not testosterone is not at fault
my doctor was mishandling my testosterone
anyway she didn't know how to test my levels
by that I mean she didn't know the frequency in which she should be testing my levels
and she didn't know how to read my levels
despite the fact that I had provided all of that information to her with a representative of pflag present
what the fuck
anyway that's not the point of this video
this video I wanted to address a question I got shortly after uploading my last video
and that question was I thought when you overdosed on T it simply converted back into E
and that is true to some extent
your body has a safety mechanism in place
(so) that when you have a surplus of testosterone it will convert into estrogen
and this is to keep the testosterone from doing too much damage to your system
but when you have such a vast amount of testosterone in your system over such a long period of time
I-I was overdosing for three years okay
there's only so much your body can do to accommodate for that
and unfortunately mine couldn't really do anymore
I wound up developing something called polycythemia and something called Raynaud's
and I'll jump more into what those are in another video
I don't have much space or time with this battery on this camera
but I wanted to make this video kind of okay
Yeah I'm here I'm alive and I am slowly getting better
and I am still on testosterone for those of you who are wondering
in fact I did my shot today and I filmed it so
enjoy me freaking out
*ding*
*Shots by lmfao playing*
*ding*
so you may have noticed between this clip and the last one
my shirts changed
the lighting the camera angle its all changed and
that's because it's a few hours later and I edited a video while my camera battery was charging
because it drains kinda fast
but I ordered a new battery so that should be
a problem of the past pretty soon
anyway uh not really what I wanted to talk about
what I want to talk about goes back to the question that I recieved
and I really want to talk about the lack of information
that we have out there about testosterone overdose
people don't know how to spot red flags so
symptoms of testosterone overdose include but are not limited to
blurred vision
headache... seizures
slurred speech
sudden and sever inability to speak
temporary blindness
weakness in the arm or leg on one side of the body sudden and severe
I actually have a combination of these symptoms at one point
I wound up having to be rushed to the emergency room
with a migraine that presented as if it were a stroke
so at twenty-one years old I was rushing to the hospital thinking I was having a stroke
because I was dealing with side effects of testosterone overdose
even though at that point I had been off of testosterone for ten days
this is after I was released from the hospital
that was horrifying and I don't wish that on anybody
so in order to deter that from happening to other people I want to start a dialogue
a conversation about testosterone overdose
and just really get into it
you know it's kind of difficult to convey everything around all that mess
because
for a lot of it I was pretty fucked up
the entirety of the time I was in the hospital I was on dilaudid
and upon my release I was still being given T3s
and then there's also the fact
that
I was feeling very low energy
I was detoxing from testosterone
just was not a great time for my head
felt very spacey
really just swimming through all that it's clouded by emotions
and I would really appreciate if you guys had questions and maybe made this more of a two-way conversation
instead of just me talking at you
'cause that feels a little weird
I feel as if the fact (that) you are told when you overdose on T it converts back into E serves as a great deterrent
because you don't want something intended to alleviate dysphoria to wind up triggering it
I also feel as if that lack of information can be quite dangerous
because you don't really know what red flags to look out for
and unfortunately that was the case for me I had no idea
what red flags
I should be spotting
and honestly even looking back now it's difficult to determine
a lot of the mood stuff could have been attributed to the fact that I have BPD
and then
you know I was working a lot so that's how I wound up dismissing the pain in my feet
headaches I was stressed out like there's a number of different factors
but all of those together should have really told me something
I also just want to encourage you if you are not seeing somebody who specializes in trans care for your testosterone
that you yourself
educate yourself more about your levels
and where they should be at
so you can be more proactive with your care
you don't want to be like me
my doctor didn't know what the fuck she was doing
I trusted her
and I wound up getting really messed up over it
please... be careful
so yeah
peace out scout people I shall see you soon *clicks cheek* bye
*toot*
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