Every traveler has a home of his own
And he learns to appreciate it the more from its wandering is a quote by Charles Dickens
And there is a very deep truth in this,which I will explain in this video.
So around last week I had been thinking
I would give a whirl to my videos and come up with something totally new and different.
In other words, I attempted to make some change.
You see, there are many types of change two of which includes
change you make on the outside while maintaining the essence and
change on both the form and essence, and I think the change I was trying to make was
the second one, or at least it turned out it was.
So the new ideas that I came up with for a change were
Korea vlogs and entertainment
but pretty soon, I realized this is not what I want to do.
Don't get me wrong,
I'm not judging or belittling people who regularly vlogs and whose job is to entertain people.
I actually admire them.
For example, I love Casey Neistat's vlogs He has fantastic editing skills,
and his videos are amazing, no doubt.
I also like Liza Koshy's YT channel.
She both vlogs and entertains, and every single video of hers is so funny,
creative and it's never boring, and she is just not afraid to be herself in her videos.
But what I'm trying to say is just because it suits them doesn't mean it suits me as well.
Their home doesn't have to be the same with my home.
So what do I mean by home?
Another quote about home that I want to share is:
Home is a feel not a place, and I absolutely agree with this because I now know
exactly how home feeling feels like.
It's quite difficult to explain and even if I do some people don't understand it
but it's not what I feel only in a specific place or
with specific people or in a specific job or things.
It's a feeling that I feel during the process of doing something and after I finish doing that something,
whatever that is.
And I'm always unconsciously in search of that home feeling.
Whatever I do I need to feel that home feeling, and whenever I feel like there is no way I can feel
home feeling in this certain thing, I don't do it.
I say no or I stop if I was in the middle of doing it.
That comes from my gut feeling, and it's usually right because I mostly end up regretting if I don't follow it.
Does it mean that I only get to do the things that give me pleasure?
No absolutely not. I have to risk some sort of
pain,
sacrifice, some embarrassment, and
misunderstanding,
but that home feeling makes them all worth it.
It makes me happy. My happiness depends on that home feeling.
But while I was attempting new things for a change last week
I didn't feel that home feeling at all.
So to name a couple of things that I tried,
I tried vlogging and went to places that I didn't necessarily felt like going;
the result being
not only had I failed at getting good clips
but also I couldn't genuinely enjoy the moment and I was so tired at the end of the day.
And also I tried
beatboxing...
Of course I don't mean I didn't have any fun nor did I not do my best.
It was fun and I did my best to learn it.
But that fun was not equal to my home feeling and I missed that feeling. I missed my home.
The whole week I was busy trying to make a new change, I was away from home.
I was wandering away from home, and after that wandering,
I realized that what I have always had was
home feeling and that I should be very grateful for that.
When my home feeling is manifested outside, it usually takes the form of
teaching, writing and
learning a foreign language.
Of course, I can also find that home feelings when I'm having a conversation,
when I'm dancing,
volunteering and many others.
Like I said, it's not limited to a particular action.
What I mean is,
teaching and writing and learning foreign languages are what give me
home feeling in a consistent basis - it rarely fails to.
People ask me, as always, when I try something new:
"Why are you going to China?" as if they are expecting one specific reason.
But the thing is, I don't have just one reason.
The number one reason I'm going there is to be happy,
to feel my home feeling to keep on teaching, writing, and learning Chinese in better conditions.
So all things considered, I decided China would be the best location for me to go now.
I'm not going there to have fun. Or just to travel.
I'm actually gonna work there and have a job
But that doesn't mean I'm going to be last free and less happy,
because I'll be my home anyways,
and I'll figure out the rest of the details as I go.
I hope to find my own
physical home as well someday where I can upgrade my home feeling.
Tbh, I don't have that kind of physical home.
There is no specific place where I feel like I'm completely
free and safe and that I totally belong here.
But I wish to someday build that kind of home,
the place I would miss terribly much when I'm away.
And hopefully my journey to China,
although I'm not sure how short or long it may be,
help me get closer to finding that kind of house of mine.
So I really passionately suggest you seek out for what consistently gives you home feelings.
You might have already found it, or you might think you found it but it's actually not quite bad, but regardless
I hope you never stop searching.
I believe everybody is talented.
Everybody's an artist and genius, and there are talents that haven't been
cultivated in so many human beings.
Be brave enough to try something different to find it.
Just like getting your own perfect physical home takes time
so does your spiritual home.
I don't regret trying
beatboxing and many other things that don't suit me, because it helped me learn what doesn't work for me,
what doesn't give me home feeling.
And I'm still going to keep on looking.
Although I feel fortunate to have found some of it,
I don't want to settle and be complacent because that only makes me miserable.
Of course even if you don't find your home, there isn't going to be an absolute disaster in your life.
Actually, you don't have to find it.
But,
I really hope that you be brave and take courage to find it. It's really not that difficult, you see.
Being brave to follow your heart actually makes you free, because you are no longer
contained in other people's standard and opinion
but your own.
It means you care about your spiritual well-being
way more than material things.
And once you find it, you will realize how important that is and
truly truly appreciate it.
Thank you so much for watching
and I will see you in China in my next videos.
It might be China vlogs, it might be book reviews, my thoughts,
whatever it is
I will keep on making videos wherever I am because YouTube definitely gives me home feeling and
keeps me moving forward
Anyways, bye guyzz
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