I was never able to understand the concept of greatness I've just never was
able to understand that concept of greatness and as time went on and I've
gotten older and I'm from I met many journeys on people that I met on my
journey and people who I've read about on my journey I read that um all
greatness the majority of greatness in itself doesn't come with goodness the
two don't coexist with one another and I spent all my life trying to become great
because I had such a low self-esteem and and I realized I'm late in life my
family's ever late in my life that um all great men are not good man and then
so I try to embark on a whole different career and try to become good but what's
the concept of good being a floor mat I never understood the concept of good the
concept is good is pretty much then I must be a politician because politicians
always striking for goodness and always trying to win votes some people and only
way only thing that we went both because they believed that we're good so how do
we live in those two dimensions at once you want that greatness for self
gratification but you want goodness from a human perspective and I and I really
have no idea and no clue how to I am how do I juggle both of them and being
harmony and then in all actuality they don't exist you have to pick a side
I respect the person who's willing to die for what he truly wants even if it's
love even if it's a woman whatever is it that he truly believed them and that I
believe that he he it transcends him to that um that level to UM demand
it's a lovely sensitive for instance um I look at love with a command to just
rise to your greatest potential you know and that's how people should feel the
objectives should be derived to their best potential in life if it's to lose
thirty pounds if it's the past test they should be to win a fight the to be
admired by people all over the world it should allow you to rate rise to your
greatest potential that you look at yourself in the most grandest fashion
my mother um she's a Southern woman from the Virginia area and I'm what I found
out later and I'm I only can remember for a small period of my small real
small increment of my life that I lived in vessel Stuyvesant in the early middle
70s eventually we had the move we were evicted we had to leave the house all of
our friends who had really politely decorated the concrete outside so we
have to me and my brother I guess forget to sit on the furniture
the way to my mother can get a place for us to stay and it was just after that
was pretty much hard times welfare when we moved to Brownsville which was a much
more aggressive neighborhood and it just wasn't good it was just some
crime-infested drugging fest in the neighborhood and it was very aggressive
and my mother had know a lot of men her and her friends know a lot of men there
wouldn't be um it wouldn't be a normal for me to uh come from one of my friends
house I come outside a man and the woman that's in my mom one of my mother's womb
I my mother's in the room when a man in a woman we can't go in the room but we
have to stay outside in the kitchen perhaps or the living room and we can't
go in the back of the room until that finish and that's just how our life's
been and as time went on I've learned to what people were in the back that I
would and they fell asleep I will go in their
pockets and take their money and that's just how it been that's just what it was
all about I don't have to steal at a younger younger younger they're yummy
yeah very young learn how to steal another well my mother friends were in
our house they were drinking I learned to go in their house and the fights came
and robbed the house where they were downstairs drinking with my mother and
that's just some that's just well into jail and my life they used to bully me
in school and so I never went back to school so well my mother used to send me
to school I was yes people hanging around the school walking around the
school and after you know normally we have security guard the truant officer
they see me I would take off and run I hide in the building I've had the
building but I'm normally um my mother knew I wasn't going to school then I met
some guys one day and they did to ripping me off and they really they I
have no money and then but on lunchtime I was going schooling eat lunch and then
leave school again so especially when they had been meatballs and spaghetti so
um one time these guys um they wanted to rip me off and I have no money to
actually do you want to fly birds with me sorry what do you mean did you want
to fly with us and then I realized that they um they took me this abandoned
building but they wanted me to get my milk the milk was climbing the fences
don't milk crates over to them and I didn't understand why they wanted to no
crate but I did it anyway because I was kind of scared but and then they had to
go to this abandoned building I didn't know what they were gonna do to me in
that building you know so when I want to be I saw on the roof they had pigeons
and then after that I never went to the UM I never went to school again once I
was friend that had a pinnacle and I could beat these guys flunky then go to
the store for them and if the birds will harbour there in horrible condition so
the birds will fly for a little while in their land on another roof and then make
me get up and going that route shouldn't keep the bird off the roof so I would go
to all these rules that the lady birds flew on and scare the
birds off hoping that they would go back to the roof where the guys were and I
took that pretty cool cuz I took one in because at least somebody wanted me do
something for so the next day instead of go back around walking around school I
went to the pigeon coop and the guy saw me and he said excuse me young man this
is what you're doing and they started throwing bricks at me and why they were
on the roof and I said hey hey I just came around to see your guys need me to
do anything for y'all today like help with the birds I go to the store food
that's all but they had thought that I was coming back around and steal their
birds and I had no concept of stealing birds back then I just wanted some place
to hang out instead of walking around the streets all day so I will be on the
roof with these guys who I didn't know who might have killed me also right so
um this year go and then they throw out some ACOTA strong get some cigarettes
and get a knee-high soldier after don't break Sammy you know it's our girls
stiff and so the guys go like this school is over and stuff but they tell
me um we're going to the center tonight we're gonna go to them the after-school
center this is where um I don't know the poverties trucking people people living
the projects they have a center there you Center and they go to in there
playing music they got a jam in the center so we're gonna go to the center
and so um oh man I'm listening so I said okay I want to go to can I go and I said
okay yeah sure you can come but I'm a young kid had no concept of you had to
wash yeah and so when I went to the sinners as I still have all the stuff
guitar of stuff from being an opinion cook helping to build a coop so you know
we have tar paper so we have to put tar to put the tar paper in the coop and
when doing on a little um home design network on there right and so I'm I have
tire on me and I have bird done on me and so when we go back I never went home
and washed I just had the same clothes I had and when I went there the kids dad
was gonna lose their Pro Tools they all had new clothes on and they all
laughed at me and everybody felt laughing me and I was
getting a bouncer laughing - and one of the guys that was on the roof he had
said um won't you come around here look like
this engine will wash and he said meaning after roof with a burglar you
met me today even though that guy wasn't in his pigeon but he was there he was
looking for one of those other guy his brother he was older he said meet me at
the roof so you hear me sure they meet me a picnic were you where today and I'm
when I'm assuming I'm like a schmuck oh so um I want that I met him early in the
morning just like we go to school so I met him at the pigeon coop and from then
on me and him started robbing houses because I was younger than him so he
would tell me they're not gonna ring the doorbell knock on the door and if
someone comes over say you're looking for this guy he'd give me a Jewish name
or something or give me some name he s knew what to say the right stuff of what
neighborhood and I didn't know I didn't then they found out nobody there he
would pick the lock he bet the kid picked the locks we were going
everywhere I'm gonna find money guns Jimmy it was just why I was just such a
rush being into my house and you see them and then luxury then it's yours and
he didn't give me much money but he bought me a lot of clanks with some
clothes he said you go back to the ceiling looking like this and then I
went to that Center than those it was a whole different of it was totally
different everybody wanna be my friend they were
so my head at the time I was younger at the fun time you had only I came for now
digital it's a digital right the digital walked remember that stuff we had
digital watches and long gene watches and I was just a young look at myself in
ten oh my oh my name in ten but I'm I had one once I had a long gene where I
said nothing it was a gold watch at one time and I had two digit quartz but I
like to digitize cuz I was a kid I liked to see the numbers light up kick you
kick you kick you I can't even tell time back there but I had the watches and
stuff and they used to call me dirty Mike dirty Ike and it wasn't because I
had bad cold always had the best clothes I always had was on the pinion coupe and
always got him dirty and tall and I would never change my clothes and we're
I would never do that I would never change my clothes to put on some raggedy
clothes and be seen and raggedy clothes could I've been traumatized from that
experience when I went to the the daycares and after-school Center so I've
always just wear my nice clothes on the pinnacle and they always get dirty and I
would just go home and change the trinamool nice clothes you know
till this day I'm the same way always make sure they have nice clothes on no
matter wherever I go I'm playing with pigeons if I'm playing soccer and I'm
picking up the garbage and it's just um I'm gonna just have been a squirrel I
mean since them guys humiliated me that they're never had them this is really
interesting when I met cuz I even though the street kids and I would come weather
like a tough guy I never had an ego I was never really jealous of anybody I
never really thought most of myself much of myself but when I met cussing I
started talking because I'm he made me believe that I was a god
he made me believe that um friends console sated no cuffs cuffs I say now
you see you hear this cuz cuz I had a really fun I had this really make
lemonade let me tell you saying all the prophets all the gods you ever know
about if they had a Sunday cousin meet my fighter know why cuz he's my fighter
but this guy always come he says I'm on my mind to get the better of me your
mind you don't have your mind on your work you're not being discipline he
really really knew that he always believed that his mind could heal
anything he believed if he had cancer is mine Cahill can't he was a strong
believer that your body only purpose was to carry your brain you know he was just
some amazing and most of its fighting was mostly psychologically he believed
on physical physical actuality of boxing was only ten percent when the mind was
90 percent he always believed in improving
self and strengthen in your mind and you really couldn't do that just by talk you
had to do it by action and practice number the animal but a sophisticated
animal smart animal the lying in the Fox you know me I call so I could beat the
vicious guys and I got was smart the slickster so I was um I'm pretty much
director when after that apartment pretty much but then what really was the
turning point is that there was nobody that could reach the core like Cusco no
one could um inspire me Muse more than that he wasn't let no one say anything
negative about me and I'm an any fighter someone said something negative about me
he was the old man he would attack them literally
yes physically
you only know by Allah when in negativity to even sleep through my um
anything seek to my psychic know everything with that I'm I'm invincible
I'm a savage I'm ferocious and the smartest Savage I don't even think that
way anymore he always had me read mostly um books about war called von Clausewitz
yeah um this guy was pretty interesting guy he had really read Nietzsche and
this is why I custom read all those books cuz was pretty much of an
intellect but he was an intellectual and philosopher about war and he thought
fighting was a form of war you know and he took fighting with um cuz really
thought he was like born 2,000 years to world he should have been a Roman
gladiator or something because he believed he believed fighting was um
your opponent surrender his total destruction and he didn't think of it as
um even though he said it was savage and ferociously you had to do it in such a
relaxed and calm state you know without any emotions and I'm totally emotional
guy all over the place so that thing you're saying work out but um that's
what he was all about I mean a really scientific way of destroying to him he
armed him Wow he enjoyed hurting the opponent he will
never have a chance and there's a quote in Makaveli the prince and when they say
after you defeat after you defeat the king and you cut off his head you be
audacious and you say what you're gonna do to the next rule and the next con and
the next time prince that you're gonna conquer and that allows them to be
intimidated and um it speaks valium
different levels of success some people's successes I'm not using drugs
not drinking anymore some people's successes making a million
now some other people's success in making a billion dollars
some people's success is not going to prison no more and we had totally
different levels of success I was born with great perception it became from my
street life from being locked up for stealing and facing unbelievable arthur
the young kid had great perception and once i watched this guy fight i just
knew it was a matter of time but i know my time was soon come i know i want to
paint my goal before it existed I knew that I knew it would be champ of the
world before I died I know I wasn't gonna die before I became champ
you know dying is just as glorious as living when you really think about it
because you couldn't have a life if you didn't have death and you couldn't have
death with our life so how can dust be less glorious in life they both went to
intertwine with one another
I wanted to make us proud that was my whole existence for fine I want to make
him proud I never know what I would like to have a fighter
no skin their father so now I understand what some kids must feel when they can't
make their fathers happy because he would do anything for me I was just some
and I don't think that way now I was just um I was just disappointed that it
kills them back then but that was just my main objective because I wanted to
succeed so bad and I was failed and um the fear of not succeeding was worse
than dying so I just wanted to make sure they never got up that was everything my
whole life he's been fighting the world best lie in the world there's nobody on
the planet that could be I could be anybody on the planet and a fair fight
and that's what I always believed you know I never dream think about that now
but just to be in that state of mind I could be anybody that I'm not one day I
said this and I'm I'm so hard I'm sorry I'm so happy that I don't think that way
anymore I was having an interview and I and I start thinking about cooks because
it's pretty you know arrogant and cussed said and I said wanna customer that's it
I was being interviewed and I said how many people in the pool how many people
in this planet afterward around five billion people six billion I thought
could be every one of them and a fair fight and that's what I believed at the
time but it sounds so good say that and I think can't believe I had the audacity
to say that I'm I'm I was a young kid and I was getting put on the front cover
of maybe Ring Magazine at the time Big Time magazine it was could have been
Sports Illustrated but one of these magazine guys got put on the magazine
and there's a bunch of cameras around there and I was feeling myself I was
while smiling laughs with the guys like it was a big shot and then right after
that cuff said I'm grab to throw my mom we clean the gym and I whoa and that's
just what I had to do you know I used to do my place with him into my place you
know they think I would say with other people I would never stay with him you
only had to call me one time and I will be there whenever they hey be there in a
minute
that could eject greatness without being great and that's why I succeeded so much
I would quote book so quote um stuff from great warriors um Pericles and all
that stuff I'm going to be 6,000 people six billion people in a fair fight come
on it can be believed but doesn't necessarily have to be true and I could
reject that belief in the minds of others I'm not afraid to lose in life
I'm not afraid to do anything I won't do anything matter fact I won't do anything
matter sect like my show there's nothing I would do unless I have a possibility
of being humiliated if I can't be humiliated on if I fail I don't want to
do it because only by doing that I would rise to my highest potential without
what the fact that I might be humiliated and I don't want that to happen but when
it does happen then I will truly be humiliated
because when I succeed I truly succeed
a room without a book it's like a body without a soul you know we have to it's
the only way that we could connect the future with the past without that
there's no way that we can come in no way we can know about the future I know
about the feet I know about particularly the past or
the present you know because when you think about history the value of history
is not necessarily scientific but moral by liberating our minds and you know
deepening our sympathies and fortifying our will we are we can control pretty
much history allows us to control not society but our self which is a much
more important thing to do you know I mean and it would allow us to pretty
much meet the future more so than fatality
I've always thought comfort from my opinions no matter where I live I always
have them and I've collect special breeds of pigeon
they're called roller pigeons Sir Anthony Hopkins played Hannibal Lecter
and that great movie he talked about them do you know that a roller pigeon is
you know what a roller pigeon is Barney they claim they climb high and fast and
they roll over and fall justice just as fast towards the earth there are stairs
there's shallow rollers and there are deep rolling
you can breathe too deep rollers or the young will of a roll all the way down
and hit and die it is no surprise that I have an affinity for rollers it is
really something it is really something to watch
they fly higher than all other birds way up on the top of the sky and the way in
the clouds and they just rolled and rolled and rolled down and if they're
lucky they pull out in time before they crash and headfirst into the ground
rollers who are the offsprings of two pairs of deep rollers can do that they
roll so fast that they create a suction and they can't open their wings and it
sticks and if they explode on impact and look terrific to us but it's but if we
put ourselves and we put ourselves into the heart of that bird there's nothing
like that feeling plumb luring down and rolling it is a smorgasbord of endurance
and endorphins both of my parents with deep rollers I was bred to climb high
and high into the sky and tumble down I am truly grateful that I found my wings
before I hit the ground
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