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as soon as you get in you just put your legs up in the air and this wham your

hooha is like

one minute you're meeting the doctor and trying to figure out how

to pronounce his name and the next minute you're who-ha is cracked open like

a walnut on Christmas okay and the clinic stopped taking one at 8:30 now do

you think that you had listened to my story about me being trapped in my room

Jesus fix it we're gonna stick home happens for a reason

hi thanks for clicking on simply Tanika I am Tanika if you are new here welcome

hit that subscribe button let's hang out awhile if you are returning welcome back

let's get those babies ladies

hi how are you oh I'm Tanika thanks for jumping I want to be sure my story with

you it's a story about loss but it's also story about hope and strength and

courage so thanks for joining and I hope you enjoy the story right has arrived

it's hard right I was

yeah I don't know I was obviously hopeful and hopefully recycle it was I

guess six of one half a dozen of the other or whether a chest or not but the

thing was if I didn't as I'm just I just keep waiting for a up and last time I

didn't make it to test a so that was like my hope and prayer was to make it a

test day so I did do that so thank you and you know we keep on keeping on again

I would have expected some HCG to have shown up on one of the tests I thought

there was a painting on the very first one and Cheyenne thought she saw

something off camera but looking at it on the screen you don't see anything but

it's not like stark stark white um okay if you can see that like there's a very

faint line in there there we go so that it's in Reverse alright so that is what

I'm seeing that very faint line this way on this one so but this one I think the

test is the sensitivity is 25 and this other one is Wendy's I would have

expected to see something there and that one looks pretty white to me you know

and then you know of course clear blue you don't have to squint or gas and just

straight up to

not very everybody's home here in the radiologist

office and waiting for my HSG Cheyenne is filming me thanks for coming we just

found that she's not going to be able to go in with me that apparently radiation

I'm not a good idea to have visitors so this is the before I took I've taken six

seven all they recommended to take tylenol before the process started I was

originally meant to have this done at 1:30 or 12:30 and there's a mix-up with

the intern so I take in for time and then now I'm back and it's later in the

afternoon it's 4:30 I know we could see the darkness and so it's dark outside

and so I took two more so I've had a total of six howl and so yeah they

recommend you take tylenol before and that you bring a panty liner apparently

there's going to be leakage afterwards

one minute you're meeting the doctor trying to figure out how to pronounce

his name in the next minute you're who is cracked open like a walnut on

Christmas

but snowing you guys it's like I'm gonna snow

and I'm here an ob/gyn office and put my underwear match but they're over there

and my back so I'm just waiting for the

scared the receptionist was asking me how my fertility treatments are going

because she was with you and I she's the one who called me actually and told me

the HCG dropped

she's like a receptionist slash nurse or whatever

what my name is hopefully more than YouTube family so I'm supposed to be

going to to get my blood work done today and I was already running late and then

as luck would have it I'm stuck inside my building the door will open you see

how the devil do busy now I'm supposed to be keeping my adrenaline down for

this blood test and I'm sure it's gonna be shot up call the maintenance man he

talked to me for 20 minutes about the $400,000 both he and his wife have in

the bag here's the neighbor Darrell you see him he's trying to get me out now

imagine if it was a fire you December 10 but we're gonna stay home we're gonna

get this plow worked up because up and waiting on the stand for how long and

it's gonna come back Oh

okay and the clinic stopped taking one at 8:30 now do you think they can listen

to my story about me being trapped in my girl

but Jesus fix it we're gonna stay calm happens for a reason

I'm gonna I'm walking to the subway right now and yeah I'm gonna do a little

meditation when I get on the subway yeah it's gonna be alright

right everything's gonna be all right okay I'll talk to you guys a little bit

the subway I see the Express train across the track so I can hop on that

one and then I just shoot down to 59th Street

how would you guys with me to keep me company I don't forget I tried to

meditate

it's 9:22 I have made it to 57th Street which is where RMA is and testing ends

at 8:30 I am right I ain't gonna be ready I just want to make sure that the

hang do this FSH today because remember they pushed me back to tomorrow that

puts me a type of day 3 which is what we were trying to avoid so fingers crossed

it was I'm sorry it was 50 all right so sit this cycle out and then next month

on cycle day 2

okay so how is my iPod working okay awesome

what was the FSH this time seven point seven nine oh wow

okay all right understood the doctor's office endured a

little retail therapy no happy Valentine's Day to me continues hi Oh

it's testing fertility fan first thanks for clicking on simply Tanika

I am Tanika and I've kind of my baby don't shirt um yeah thanks for checking

in on me today so today is Sunday February 18th and the time is 53 thanks

Minnie and we're gonna do the test I woke up earlier and I did first morning

urine in a cup so I have that here yeah I don't I don't have a lot else to say

let's just wait

trying to do two tests I think I don't necessarily always lead with that I'm

going to be a single mother by choice because I think the the interesting part

of my story that I want to share is that I'm 46 and there's not a lot of that on

YouTube so but I am a single mother by choice or attempting abusing a lot of

our choice and you know for very personal decisions for so it's not

something that I go into lightly it's obviously very expensive

it's very emotional it's very time consuming I'm spending about $2,000 per

cycle to do this so it's not something that you just go into lightly and you

guys have been with me this last bit of the two-week wait and there's a lot of

angst in it there's a lot of angst and a lot of stuff going on but ultimately

this is what my heart wants and so I talked about this in my 1% video will I

regret it more if I don't tire if I do try it I think if I don't try I'll

regret it so that's why I'm moving forward but yeah there's there's a lot

of stuff going on there's this but for me I think you don't necessarily have to

have two parents to be a happy kid like I was raised by my mother and ultimately

or eventually my stepfather but you know people are like Oh every kid deserves to

have two loving parents yeah they deserve to have that like that

should be their god-given right but it doesn't always happen that way and I'm

here to tell you I'm one of those kids like my father straight-out told me when

I was fifteen he didn't love me you know so it was we would hope that we would

have loving parents but we don't it's not a guarantee just because you have a

mother and a father and you know who your father is if he's going to be there

and be available or your mother for that matter you know I don't discriminate

women walk away from their children as well so I think that has informed my own

relationships and for that reason I have trust issues so I've never like been a

person who was like I'm absolutely going to get married and

always fascinated when I meet those people so I do ask them like how long

did you know you wanted to be married and what made you do it and so in a lot

of times people who have you they're known since they were children or very

early in adulthood like early twenties that they wanted to be married I have

never wanted that so there's a timer let's see what we got

all right positive energy maybe Josh I don't know

what here we go let's see so I can score it properly I don't know don't worry all

right we're here we're on the elevator science it has a four point one seven

four point seven really review rating so we are

what's the room number of vitality 305 really because the signs pointing that

way yeah it says right here 305 arrow that way 304 here we go 305 it

smells good too all right we're here

here is the

hi guys so I'm in the treatment room and I'm undressed from the waist down but I

got to keep my socks on so yeah we're gonna start charlie baby down all right

as promised today is the big announcement for the giveaway baby dust

and TTD stuff

can you guys see me I'm in here playing with the toys

so Kady that's what I'm gonna call them dumb donor showed me how to do this with

my Apple watch to make the phone play so it's on there can you see that I got the

white ones and then I got this little lens from Amazon that is like a wide

angle and you could see my water um yeah it was like 12 bucks I said okay fun

you're on camera I got the wiring Lily and I had a good dinner we did we had

appetizers and dinner and then I think I'm gonna take this off there let's see

I can't really angle that though we're just playing with toys now it's on a

little tripod yeah we were meant to just have dinner and so we had appetizers and

dinner had the lobster roll and she had tartare she had two types of tartare one

was tuna and one was salmon and then we split the chicken kale Caesar which I

posted on Instagram because you know we're not we're foodies and then we had

a nice red wine from California and we finished off with some cocktails with

like not a lemon drop because I don't like sweet drinks it was um vodka and

lemon zest and something else it was really good nice and tart so I've made

it back to work meeting it all went really really well

like the sperm count was off the chain it was like over a hundred million and

it only needed to be over ten million the only thing that was a little wonky

was the morphology was 1% and they like it to be for person

but because the count is so high one percent of a hundred million it still

beats four percent of ten million so and motility was fine but the extremely

exciting news that I'm kind of dumbfounded is she agreed to do IVF with

my own eggs so I'm like over the moon starstruck baffled dumbfounded and

excited yes I would start a new cycle next week she said that would be too

soon for IVF because I'd have to get trained on how to give myself the shots

and all that but I could do I you I and then go into IVF IVF would be two cycles

so one would be egg retrieval under anesthesia and then they would do it see

and send them off for PGS testing and then once those come back oh it has to

be great a B or C whose boobs are these

you

I just love Deidre pieces so I put her in there um she is a frequent commenter

and just an all-around good person who lives out in Hawaii and loves to cook

and is for me has been very open and willing to share information which I

appreciate I feel like that's kind of the basis of

all of this is like positivity positivity and sharing information and

for me Deidre is really embody that so thank you teacher it's a little card

it's got baby dust in it so you guys can see what it is and then the little box

with the onesie is there the cupcake socks are there these are the Opie Ches

and the HP T's home pregnancy test and then here's a little year one thing that

is not good for sperm staying alive is saliva yes saliva so you don't want him

spitting or licking you don't want to be licking before you are baby dancing and

that's the dancing to make the baby the other sex have at it lick suck do you

think but for the baby dancing you don't want to do that so cuz the sperm will

die and so I know some of you were like well how much saliva will girl mind your

business if you don't have that much saliva why

are you having oral sex don't worry about it

but if it's sloppy if but there's a lot of slob if you pop it on the knob don't

do it why your baby dancing okay hey Pam I just left the post office so four of

the seven boxes got mail so the first one I'll do the cheapy first a little

fresher stick I guess they keep foot doesn't there to keep them fresh okay so

it's darker

well it's darker than it has been right but it's not as dark as that

Jocelin but it is something a darker than her husband oh I got this Myrlie

phrase I couldn't even see that before because I don't have my glasses on I

thought I had the and it's a solid Oh God okay we didn't even get the flashing

some - so it's happening um good news is I'm not panicked because I got some baby

batter that's more than get a lot of it all right I gotta get to the clinic guys

I will talk to you in a little bit

you

so what do we got

how are you today is Sunday July 1st woohoo

I am coming to you with a special update today because Friday on June 29th I hit

a thousand subscribers I am coming to you with this special what's up

fertility fan how are you today is Sunday July 1st and I'm coming to you

with a special update because Friday June 29 I hit a thousand subscribers yay

thank you guys so much I wanted to celebrate with you my channel was eight

months old on June 20 it did work on my vision board so I wanted to go over that

with you guys and close up the blog with that

so I started some sort of progression so change your future is where I started

and we're gonna go to start to finish is where I end faith is the predominant

thing on this board because I feel like I need a lot of faith to make this

happen God then also bonus baby because I

realize I have one child already made I'm badly secondary infertility so bonus

baby bold and beautiful this is about my parenting journey I am on bring people

together how do you help I want to get 10 million so as you know I recently got

to its thousand subscribers the next step in YouTube world is 10 oh it's not

even 10 million its ten thousand but maybe that's some sort of subliminal

against a million I want 10 lose weight improve equality

alright BAM I made it outside gonna walk I forgot to mention today's weigh-in day

so I am NOT waiting myself yet I'm gonna exercise and then shower and get on the

scale cuz you know you don't want that extra sweat weighing you down

ha ha tipping the scale against you so yeah once I'll get back our weigh-in and

I'll have you guys along for that talk to you in a bit

I have a meeting with the doctor it's scheduled for August 20th to discuss my

next steps at that point we will be discussing if it's right for me to move

forward with IVF when it's right for me to move forward IVF I had met with her

in June and we kind of went over the protocol of it you know logistically

like what it would be what it would entail that we would have XE which is

when they take one individual sperm and fertilize the egg or they implant it

into the egg an attempt to fertilize it it's not a guarantee of fertilization so

we kind of talked about that and then left it at that I was in the middle of a

cycle so we weren't sure if that one was gonna be successful or not and obviously

it wasn't that's why I'm here now talking about my rode idea and so the

next meeting is August 20th so I'm out in Central Park I am in beast mode today

like I have so much energy from I think working out this morning maybe the food

I was like I have to go for another walk I have to go I'm doing a light walk cuz

I was at work and it's cool out here I start on my sweater I think if I get

warm I didn't take that off I don't want to go back all sweaty

but yeah I'm like and I figured I'd have to weigh-in tomorrow tomorrow is today

is day five right because we started actually on Sunday so today is day five

so tomorrow's the weigh-in maybe that's driving it too I'll

probably work out again when I get home I have to be in work tomorrow early so I

won't be doing it then but yeah beast mode

that's how I gave it up y'all I've made it through my exercise and comment on my

30 day video and so yeah I'm out the door and it is nice and bright and sunny

gap I know you can see this I'm gonna Cape its fall got my cape on every

superhero needs a cape right simply sneaker I am she vlogging weekdays about

my fertility sex ed misrepresented reproduction who no getting knocked up

will be such a production one year later my womb is still empty yet I remain

Tanika simply ain't too much 47 years old single mother by choice

encouraging woman to leverage their voice now that you know who I am

welcome what's up fertility fam we got to do what

let's get those babies ladies

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BABYMETAL - Distortion LIVE Good to see them (Eng Sub.) | SuzieNice Reaction - Duration: 6:46.

Hi, guys. I'm Suzie. Welcome back.

Do you feel anything wrong?

Ya, I'm a little late to shoot the video and now the sun is going out for dinner. Lol...

Anyway, back to the topic. We were just watching the MV of the starlight together. If you don't, please do.

And I told you, probably because Su and Moa didn't show up in the MV, which made me feel disconnected from the MV and song somehow.

Then I came across the idea that I need to watch their latest live version of Distortion.

To clam my restless heart.

Well, plug your earphones in, please.

Are you ready!?

Let's GO!!!

So so so nice to seeing them.

I was a little immersed in the look on their faces.

Believe it or not. They brought me a lot of happiness in this short period of time.

Oops, I was so concentrated I just had Su and Moa in my world,

and there is a moment I completely forgetting I'm recording.

I'm so satisfied with my decision. Looking at their live versions is completely different from the feeling of their not appearing MV.

At least it worked for me. It really made my heart peace.

Like I said, there is a moment I completely forgetting I'm recording.

I'm completely lost in the world ,where only have Su, Moa and myself. Lol...

Feeling they become mature, wheter in their performance or appearance, I'm so happy for them.

I don't know if it's weird to get that feeling. But I just feel that. >_<

Although there is a pity that Yui did not perform with Su and Moa like before.

Anyway, whatever she chooses to do, I wish her all the best.

And there's an unfamiliar face in Kami band.

So he's a new member? I don't think so, I didn't see that news.

I'm glad that I chose to watch this video, and it turns out I did feel better after watching this video. I hope they all have a better future.

Originally planned I will listen to a few more songs I'm interested in, but as you can see,

the night is coming way faster than I thought it would be, so I can only pause.

It should be our first time listening to Babymetal songs in the dark. Funny, Hmm.

I hope you do not mind it.

Then, if you like my videos, please give me a big thumb up.

If this is your first time watching my video, Welcome.

I will share all the awesome bands on my channel, I bet you like it.

So don't forget to subscribe and hit that bell up, then you won't miss anything.

You can also follow my Ins, FB and Twitter, where I'll let you vote and comment on the songs I should react to.

Thank you for everything you have done for me.

And I will see you in my next video. Bye.

I'm going to have my dinner.

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Tristan Prettyman - Who We Are - Duration: 4:21.

I would grant all your wishes

If you promised me a thousand kisses

I will never, love another, like you

So give me all your secrets

your fear and doubts,

honey you don't need them

I will never, find another, like you

And the airs getting thin

Where the wings meet the wind

We see it

We can feel it

And we know this

I believe in something more

All the days that came before

Led us right to where we are

Right to where we are

It's all written in the stars

We've already come so far

And we can't change who we are

Ah ah who we are

I don't have all the answers

But right now is all the matters

I could never

Love another

Like i loved you

And we don't have to understand

Fate always has the upper hand

And fate choose me and you

I believe in something more

All the days that came before

Led us right to where we are

Right to where we are

It's all written in the stars

We've already come so far

And we can't change who we are

Ah ah who we are

And the airs getting thin

Where the wings meet the wind

We see it

We can feel it

And we know this

I believe in something more

All the days that came before

Led us right to where we are

Right to where we are

It's all written in the stars

We've already come so far

And we can't change who we are

Ah ah who we are

💙💙💙

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A new start. A new day. | FortuneMC Factions #1 - Duration: 14:27.

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Dance Moms: Dance Digest - "Collateral Damage" (Season 5) | Lifetime - Duration: 5:07.

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Como conseguir que Explorer sea mas estable en Windows 7 - Duration: 5:47.

Hello again Infonauta, welcome or welcome to a new installment of your YouTube channel Infoductiva ...

this time I bring you a very interesting video

for windows 7 users where I'm going to explain what to do to

get our browser

of windows is more stable ... interesting right?

We begin ...

good first of all we should

remember that our windows

is managed by the browser

let's say that the desktop and the taskbar within a single process ... that is to say that these 3 things: the explorer

the desktop and the taskbar

they are really in the execution of a single process

yes ... it's a process

multithread

but actually

is the reason why if something or any of those 3 things cascates, one of those three things

it's a problem and it's ... let's say it freezes, it's going to freeze the other two, then ... as soon as the explorer

let's say it slows you down then you realize that

the whole machine is blocked ... this already

have you seen it on more than one occasion, right?

does not sound strange to you what I am telling you, no?

as well

To avoid this

There is a technique by which we can make the explorer is within a single process of such

way that if I'm browsing the internet and it freezes and we say it's

breaks

stays

slowed down, this, doing it in a separate process will not affect us neither to the desktop nor to the taskbar ...

you will understand what is interesting about this trick, right?

How do we do it? ... we're going to start ... regedit

which is the registry editor ... we give it with a right button to

execute it as administrator

asks us for the administrator password or that we give him permissions to make changes

as is logical, we give them

and here we have the record totally closed

well ... we'll have to find the next key that will be HKEY_LOCAL_MACHINE

SOFTWARE

Microsoft

we deploy

Windows we will go down until we find the W ...

unfold ... do not get confused with other windows ... simply windows to dry ... unfold

we go to the CurrentVersion

we also deploy

and here inside we have to find in the E Explorer

well we already have it ...

below here

we have to add

a key of Value DWORD that is to say of

word with right button new 32-bit DWORD

we give him

the name that we are going to put

it will be

Always

AlwaysUnload

AlwaysUnloadDll ... be very careful with the uppercase and lowercase

I repeat you have to be meticulous

with the uppercase and lowercase letters because if you get confused

in one letter this is not going to work

Well, we have already made the key DWORD

we double click and then here we will indicate

a Value 1

we give you to accept

and this fundamentally what is going to do

is that in every Windows Explorer shutdown

what he is going to do is empty his memory

of the dlls that belong to the explorer so that we will have completely separate the internet explorer process

with the other process in which it is originally that is

the one that affected the desktop and also affected the taskbar

so that we only have to close the registry editor and restart our machine to see and notice this advantage ...

Well that's it

thank you very much for sharing my videos on your social networks ...

thank you for subscribing and for giving the notification bell ... very many

Thanks for your comments and for your Likes ... see you

in a new installment of your YouTube channel

Infoductive ... See you soon Infonaut ...

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(القناص) HUNTER X HUNTER) // Gon Freecss) - Duration: 1:47.

his eyes has shined

his right hand rose up with determination

in the silent night

who is the resister and the adventure?

in the face of the flood

he keep the rest away from his eyes

he dare a competitor in the scene

he Throws and hits the targets

he always look up to make fairness come true

and his father picture in his dreams

he wakes up in the sensitive heart

love to all people around

what ever the cost of difficulties

the hunter hero will always stay

patient and loyal

he working hard

and he will always be prepared

he Throws and hits the targets

he always look up to make fairness come true

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Đừng Quên Like Và Đăng Ký Cho Video Mình Nhé

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September/October 2018 (Partial) Wrap Up: LatinxAThon, LatinxBookBingo, + More [CC] - Duration: 19:17.

Hello everybody, my name is Cara, and today I am here with my wrap up for Latinxathon

and for LatinxBookBingo and for a few other books I read in the last few weeks.

I will link my TBR video down below because that has all of the info on the challenges

and the hosts and everything about that.

So the first one I finished was Love Poems by Pablo Neruda, and this was translated by

Donald D. Walsh.

This edition does have the English and the Spanish, so I was planning to read the Spanish

side first and kind of check myself with the English side: unfortunately I REALLY overestimated

how much Spanish I remembered, so I think I do want to eventually try to read these

again in Spanish but I pretty much focused on the English part [this time] because I

wanted to get as much out of the poetry as I could.

I really enjoyed this; I think if I had read them a little slower or a little more spaced-out

I may have enjoyed it even more, but that is obviously like completely on me.

These are really lovely poems and I gave it around a 4.5 stars.

Next I finished Certain Dark Things by Silvia Moreno-Garcia.

And this is kind of a, I don't know if it's postapocalyptic but it's an urban fantasy

that's also like a vampire noir novel?

With like mystery and crime and things like that, it's a really interesting mix of genres.

And I really enjoyed this one.

We follow two main characters, one of whom is a boy named Domingo who's living on the

streets of Mexico City and he is a human, and then the other character is Atl and she

is a vampire descended from the Aztecs.

And these two kind of have to team up because Atl is on the run from people who killed her

family and who she retaliated against and there's all of these vampire clans that are

kind of competing.

And like I said, I thought this was really well done.

I thought the worldbuilding and the integration of the vampire lore into modern life was done

really really well, like it felt so believable and so plausible, almost?

I really loved Domingo as a main character, like he's so funny and awkward just sweet

you know, and despite the fact that he's grown up in some really difficult circumstances,

he does have a really good heart.

Atl I did like as well, but I think it took a little longer to get to know her.

There was especially one part where it felt like her character development almost like

back-tracked a little bit, in a way that wasn't quite explained by the plot, by like what

happened in the story, but other than that I did enjoy her.

And something that really stood out to me that I thought was really well-done and really

chilling was the complete disregard for human life in this book, from a lot of the vampire

characters of course, but also from a lot of the human characters who had been around

vampires a long time or who just were not good people, like it was really horrifying

and uncomfortable to see how easily they could kill someone or they could destroy some--like

it was just really interesting and again it like made my skin crawl but I think it was

a well-done area of the book.

There were only a couple of things that I wasn't as much of a fan of in this book; one

of them is completely my own fault and that is I didn't realize that this was like kind

of a film noir kind of take-off: there was a lot more gore than I was expecting in this

book, so that was not so much fun for me.

And then another thing I didn't like was there was one character in particular who's really

trying to get Atl back, he's um one of the enemy vampire clans and his--his pursuit of

her was like uncomfortably sexual, like he--he specifically wanted to catch her and rape

her, I think that's explicitly stated at one point, and I just felt like that was unnecessary,

like I don't think we [the readers] needed that to be convinced that he was a bad person.

And there were also a few things about the ending that I didn't completely love, like

I respect the author for doing them but I was a little unsatisfied and I wish that could've

been done maybe a little differently.

But other than that I thought this book was fantastic and I gave Certain Dark Things 4

stars.

Next I read a book that was not for either of the readathons and that was Trial By Fire

by Josephine Angelini; this is the first book in a trilogy and I actually buddy read this

with Lori from Lori and Thomas.

And this book *laughs* I really, really didn't like this one.

Basically we follow this main character Lily who struggles a lot with chronic illness in

our world and then she one day gets transported to this kind of parallel universe where the

parallel version of herself is kind of like the dictator of this world and there's like

this science, this like magic system that's based on science.

We're just following Lily as she sort of figures out who to trust as she teams up with people

who may be trying to take down her alternate self.

So like I said I really didn't like this, I didn't get much of a sense of Lily as a

character, I really didn't like the characters in general.

There's this really unnecessary love triangle that's not really a love triangle 'cause you

know she--who she's gonna pick the whole time.

I really didn't like the love interest, what was his name?

Rowan?

He was super irritating.

I thought the worldbuilding was like really sloppy, like on the surface the magic system

based on science, it kinda sounded like a cool idea but the execution was just really

lazy and by the way this is um, it takes place in Salem, so there is some kind of like alternate

history Salem witch trials, which again sounds interesting *laughs* but it really wasn't!

And I don't buy into a lot of the character motivations, like especially Lilian's sister

Juliet, like I--I do not understand why she didn't um *laughs* why she didn't speak up

to her sister, like I understand that her sister's really powerful but they clearly

have a good relationship, like, I don't know, maybe when your sister starts killing people

you should like...say something about it?

There's also like this really uncomfortable element of the magic itself where it got really

really weirdly sexual...a lot.

*laughs* Like every time they had to use magic they were like painting Lilian's--or Lily's

naked body.

There was no reason for the magic to be written that way I think, and it was just really odd.

There was this one incident that's sort of like a magical like brain version of assault,

and the way it's written, it feels very similar to sexual assault, like it seems like that's

the way we're supposed to take it, is like this is equivalent to rape, almost, but then,

that's inconsistently handled because later on Lily just kind of recovers from it and

people stop asking her about it and she stops like thinking about it and it just felt really

weird.

Like I think if you're gonna use an allegory like that, you should do it for a purpose,

and you should handle it well, and it should be consistent, and this was none of those

things.

So I really, really didn't enjoy this, I gave it 2 stars, I will definitely not be continuing

the series.

Next I finished another book that was not for the readathons and that was Saints and

Misfits by S.K.

Ali.

This is an ownvoices book about a Muslim teenager named--named Janna and she is sexually assaulted

by a very prominent person in her mosque; he's very well-respected, he is seen as this very holy,

very good person so she feels like she can't say anything about it to people because nobody's

going to believe her.

And then in addition to all of that she's dealing with a lot of family tension between

her brother and between her parents and she has a crush on a boy at school who is white

and Christian.

There's a lot going on in this book, and I really really loved it.

I really loved Janna so much; I really connected to her on a really deep level.

She's one of those characters where on the surface we seem like very different, but a

lot of the ways that she thought about the world and that she reacted to things and like

some of her flaws and strengths I think are very similar to my own, and I really just

connected to her.

And I really really loved some of the side characters as well, especially the female

friendships and how well-developed those were and how we got to see that first impressions

of people are not always true.

And I just think this was a fantastic exploration of the way that people can abuse a position

of power or a position of respect in order to take advantage of people and especially

of young girls, and I think that was handled really well.

There's of course a trigger warning for sexual assault for this book, and I also want to

say that that incident, we see that incident, and it's not nearly as graphic as some portrayals

of that that I have read, but it was such a visceral experience that later on when Janna

would have encounters with this person again or she'd be thinking about it, I would actually

feel my heart rate speed up because it was such an intense physical experience and I

think the author did a really good job of portraying that and of really communicating

that terror and that helplessness to the reader.

There were some places where the writing felt a little bit disjointed, but that eventually

went away and I just felt like everything else about this book was so well-done that

even though I had that small caveat I still ended up giving Saints and Misfits a strong

5 out of 5 stars.

Now we're getting back into the Latixathon and LatinxBookBingo books I read, and the

next one is Love Sugar Magic: A Dash of Trouble by Anna Meriano.

So in this book we follow our main character Leonora, and her and her family run a bakery.

Leo learns that this bakery is actually magical in nature in addition to selling the ordinary

kind of baked goods, and she decides that of course she wants to be a part of it; she

doesn't want to wait until she's old enough to help and she wants to start doing magic

right now.

And predictably, chaos ensues from that.

I absolutely adored the sister relationships and all of the family relationships and their

interactions and how complex and sweet they were in addition to also having those very

believable fights that you have with your family.

I was actually really surprised to learn that Anna Meriano does not have sisters because

I feel like she really nailed the sister dynamics of this book so well.

I love the worldbuilding, I love the like kitchen magic of this book, and I also really

love the way that the author has such a talent for creating these little snapshot scenes

that really stand out to me, and like a lot of the interactions between the sisters or

between the girls and their parents, just so many of those were really beautifully done

and they felt so clear and strong.

And there's also a moment where Leo is remembering coming home on Christmas Eve from Midnight

Mass and she gets out of the car and there's snow falling all around.

I have seen very little snow in my life, but the way she describes that really made me

feel like this was a tangible memory and I just think that was so beautifully done.

There's only one thing that I didn't love about this book and that was the fact that

Leo kept certain things a secret for I think longer than was believable.

Like I understand she's a young kid and she wants to do things herself and she's not gonna--like

you know, she's headstrong, she's not gonna run to an adult every time something goes

wrong.

But we also see that Leo is a very very intelligent girl, and she does seem to understand like

the danger of what she's playing with, because this--this magic is not all like sugar and

spice, you know pun intended, like there are some darker things that can happen or go wrong,

if you don't know what you're doing, and I feel like Leo seemed to be understanding that

and then she still wouldn't go to anyone for help *laughs*.

I just felt like that went on a little too long to be believable, but I loved this book

overall, I gave it 4.5 stars, and I am definitely going to be reading the sequel.

Next I finished The Head of the Saint by Socorro Acioli, and the translation is by Daniel Hahn.

This was for the prompt to read a book by a Latinx author that is NOT from a Spanish-speaking

country; this book was originally written in Portuguese because the author is from Brazil.

So this book is about a boy named Samuel and when his mother dies he goes on this trek

to find his father because it was his mother's dying wish, and he ends up in this little

town and he's barely alive, he's starving, he's dying of thirst, and he finds sanctuary

in this hollowed-out statue of a saint['s head].

And he decides he's going to live there for a while until he can kinda get back on his

feet and then he's gonna leave, because his one remaining family member completely rebuffed

him and he now has nowhere to go.

And then he realizes that he can actually hear the prayers that people are saying to

this saint, and he doesn't know why this is happening, nobody else can hear them.

And because Samuel doesn't believe in this whole saint thing, he decides that he is going

to make some money out of this.

So he figures out ways to answer the people's prayers and wishes and give them what they

want and predictably that kind of spirals out of control.

And along the way this kind of turns into this story about this one small town and this

community and this mystery of what happened in the past of this community that has made

people think of it as cursed.

There is a lot going on in this book, it was a really interesting one and it's surprisingly

short [about 180 pgs.] for how much is going on it.

And I did enjoy this overall, I like the atmosphere and the setting and the writing and I really

liked the feeling of...not magical realism, but like this blurring of the line between

the physical and the supernatural, like the possibly supernatural.

I do want to point out though, for some reason I went into this book thinking it was a middle

grade and it is not! *laughs* Because Samuel actually meets one of his friends, like his

best friend in the whole book, he meets him by finding him about to like masturbate in

the head of the saint, with pornographic magazines, so definitely not a middle grade.

I do think this story was really well-done, it's a really weird one, like I don't know

how to explain it or how to really articulate my thoughts on it or who to recommend it to

or anything, it's just one of those books where like you read it, and you just...sit

there and think about it for a while afterwards.

And I gave The Head of the Saint 4 stars.

Next I finished Esperanza Rising by Pam Muñoz Ryan.

So we follow our main character Esperanza who grows up very wealthy in Mexico and then

one day a series of tragedies forces her and her mother and some servants of theirs to

flee to America and start a new life.

She and her mother end up going to the migrant worker camps [in California] and this is also

in the middle of the Great Depression, this book is set in the 1930's, and there is so

much discussion of workers' rights and immigration and working conditions and strikes.

Esperanza's character development is just so beautiful to watch because she goes from

this very sheltered, very privileged girl to somebody who has to really face the suffering

that other people go through, and she really starts coming into her own strength as a person

and you see how intelligent and kind and strong she's been all along.

There are some really beautiful family relationships, and I'm kind of like rambling a little bit

because this book was just such an emotional and powerful experience and I gave this one

5 stars too!

Next I finished Wild Beauty by Anna-Marie McLemore.

This book is about a family of women who all have magical powers and they have been living

on this garden, or on this land, for generations and they grow these beautiful magical flowers

and they are also cursed so that if they ever fall in love too deeply, then the person they

love will disappear forever.

And then one day a mysterious boy appears in their garden and everything kind of happens

from there.

So this is another book that's gonna be really hard to explain and that's because...I--like

this book was very popular a couple of years ago and I heard the synopsis over and over

and it didn't really grab me, like I didn't think it sounded bad but it wasn't something

I was necessarily wanting to pick up right away, but...I adored this book so much!

But the thing is, I don't know how to summarize it because the official summary is true, but

that's not the things that I loved about this book, necessarily, AND if I were to tell you

why I loved this book, I think it would kind of lessen some of the beauty and the excitement

of watching the story unfold.

Basically I loved the writing, I thought it was beautiful without being overpowering,

it was really magical and enchanting but it didn't bog down the story.

I really liked the kind of subtle mystery elements of this book, like this is definitely

not like a whodunnit, that's not how it's set up or anything, but really understanding

this family and the magic that is in them and kind of like what happened in their past

and how that's affecting their present and future.

And I also really grew to love the characters.

Like Fel in particular, (he is the boy who materializes), he's just so kind and genuine

and I just...I don't know, everything about him I just like really loved and I wanted

to protect him at all costs.

And I also really loved the interactions of these women and their really strong familial

and like friendship-based bonds as well.

And also there are multiple main [or strong supporting] characters who are bisexual, and

there's another character who I don't know if you could interpret her as genderqueer,

it's not stated for her on-page, but there is a ton of gender identity and sexuality

diversity in this book.

I loved this so much, this book was just like...it was something my soul needed.

This book was just everything I wanted it to be without even knowing it and I gave Wild

Beauty 5 out of 5 stars, obviously!

Next I finished another book that was not for the readathons and that was Surprised

by God: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love Religion by Rabbi Danya Ruttenberg.

I actually follow Rabbi Danya Ruttenberg on Twitter and I really appreciate her writing

on that platform, so I decided I wanted to pick up one of her books and this is the one

I picked up.

I'm just going to read a little bit of the blurb on the back of the book: "At thirteen,

Danya Ruttenberg decided she was an atheist.

As a young adult, she immersed herself in the rhinestone-bedazzled wonderland of late

1990s San Francisco--drinking smuggled absinthe with wealthy geeks and plotting the revolution

with feminist zinemakers.

But she found herself yearning for something she would eventually call God."

So that's kind of like the set-up for this book.

It's about Danya Ruttenberg's like life and journey and her spiritual practice but there's

also a lot in this book about the difficulty of having any kind of--like any kind of idea

of something outside of yourself in today's world.

Like there's a lot of great things about our world of modern conveniences, but I think

she does a really great job of showing how in some ways that makes it very difficult

to find quiet and to find meaning, like you know whatever that means for you, whether

that is religion or meditation or even just you know mindfulness in general, or whether

that is just pursuing virtues or personality traits that our modern world makes it very

difficult to hold onto.

And also like, this book is a spiritual memoir but it's definitely not like preachy *laughs*,

like she's not trying to convert anyone to her particular way of thinking and I think

that this book has a lot to offer for people of various religious backgrounds or of no

religious background.

Like I've read reviews from people of very very different upbringings and beliefs and

there's so many things in this book that really resonate across those, and I think that's

what made it such a powerful and enjoyable book.

And she's also just an incredibly talent writer, like she's--she's so clever and funny and

*laughs* blunt when she needs to be you know.

I also think she did a fantastic job of integrating quotations from theologians and from philosophers

and all of these different people; I think she did a really good job of like using those

in her narrative without them feeling out of place or without them taking over her story.

I just think this was a really great book for the modern world.

It just seems like a book that a lot of people could get something out of, and I gave Surprised

by God 5 out of 5 stars.

And finally, the last book the last book I finished for Hispanic Heritage Month and for

the two Latinx readathons I participated in was Labyrinth Lost by Zoraida Córdova.

So this book is about our main character Alex who is a bruja and on her birthday she kind

of makes a wish or casts a spell intending to get rid of her powers for good.

And it backfires and it actually banishes all of her family to this in-between world

called Los Lagos.

So she has to go on a quest to try and bring them back.

*deep breath* So I ended up being pretty disappointed in this book unfortunately.

First off I want to be clear that there is a lot of animal sacrifice in this book and

I didn't know about that going in, and even outside of that there's also a pet that dies

really tragically and I did not know about that going in so if you are at all sensitive

to those things, to animal death, I would definitely not read this one.

I just think overall there was a lot more blood and gore than I was expecting.

But setting aside those like personal preference things, I just didn't feel like this book

was executed as well as I hoped it would be.

I really had a hard time connecting to the characters or understanding them at all, and

there is a female/female romance between Alex and another girl, and while that was great

to see, I really don't feel like we got to know the love interest at all.

Like, we knew she was pretty, and she was...positive?

There were a couple of side characters that I was kind of interested in, but we didn't

really see them long enough to really get invested in them.

I did really like the worldbuilding; I think that the setting of this book was really one

of the best things about it and I reallly enjoyed that.

Unfortunately I didn't really like the writing style either.

It wasn't--it wasn't that it was bad, I don't know how to explain it but this book was a

slog to get through for me.

I also found Alex to be extremely frustrating for a lot of the book.

So I knew going in that this was gonna be like a "wish your powers away" kind of plot,

which I generally don't enjoy but I was prepared for that, I knew that going in, so that wasn't

so much the issue.

Except that like, Alex continually makes the worst possible decisions at almost like every

point in the book.

It was just so frustrating because there would be these like really obvious things that Alex

shouldn't do and that she even recognized in her own head, like this was a bad idea

and she shouldn't do it, she should do something else, and then she would just...do the dumb

thing anyway?

*laughs* Like for no apparent reason?

And even though I enjoyed some aspects of the magic, like I really liked the cantos

that were included and how those were used and the like worldbuilding and like mythology

or--or the magic of this world, I liked that, I liked some things about that...Sometimes

the way the magic was used felt very inconsistent.

Like over and over there were times where Alex would feel trapped and like she didn't

know how to use her magic to do whatever she needed to do, and then like all of a sudden

she would just like *snaps fingers* get it?

She would just like feel the magic and then it would work?

And you guys know that I am totally cool with having magic systems where the rules aren't

explained completely, but this just felt inconsistent with the way the magic had been set up before

and it felt kind of jarring because there were--like other parts of it had some very

specific spells, but then like Alex could just like willpower herself into knowing what

to do?

And if she could do that, why didn't she do that earlier?

I don't know, there were a couple of scenes that I thought were so beautifully described

and that really stood out to me, there were some things about the ending that I really

liked.

There were things I liked about this book, but overall a lot of it just didn't work for

me, so I settled on giving it 2.75 stars.

So kind of ending on a downer there, but I did have 4 5-star books in that, um, in that

grouping there, which is so wonderful, that never happens for me, so that's pretty exciting.

Let me know if you guys participated in either of these readathons or if you have read any

of these books and what you thought of them.

I will see you soon with another video, and I hope you love the next book you read.

Bye!

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Un esperienza da sogno.. - PureSport Driving Experience @ Cremona Circuit | SPECIALE 200 ISCRITTI - Duration: 6:55.

Good morning friends of youtube and VadoAlMax and welcome to this new video.

This will be a small introduction to the video you will see.

A video that tells of a dream experience, as a dream are the protagonist that you will see in action.

I apologize a little for the timing of publication

because, obviously, a series of events have been overlapped, including the ninth stage of the Play Kart championship. I will leave you the vlog card above. It did not go so well.

even if for the purposes of the classification it turned out that I did not lose much, I'm still in the full play-off zone

in fact, I have perhaps a little too much of it compared to the result.

It's been over a month since I recorded the clips you'll see

And in this month the channel has reached two goals that, although small for me, are really a great satisfaction

First the total 50,000 views. It means however that 50 thousand people have seen my videos in the last four years

since I started to publish the on board from before, and after last year I started to bring other types of videos

as the vlog, and from this year also other topics still always inner in the world of karting

But, one of the goals we say the most heartfelt we say is to break down the wall of the 200 members

We are 203, today is October 30th, so I thank you very much for the achievements you are making to me

In other words, they are truly goals that I honestly did not think that such a niche topic as rental karting could achieve.

I'm really very happy, thank you

Invitation to continue like this, to subscribe to the channel, to pass the facebook page, to put like, share videos on social networks, facebook, twitter and so on

let the community grow, I recommend, remember to click on the bell to activate the notifications because you know google of the times

that is Youtube goes a bit for his cabbage

so this video where you will see me shoot with two supercars

will become a sort of special 200 members even if posthumously here we say

it was an experience of the madonna you will see it yourself, so little talk

I let you enjoy the video

see you next time !!!!

October 4, 2018

a dream experience

So, I just got off the shuttle to do the lap. it's something photonic I have to admit it

I hope I can try a 488 and a huracan

because I'm very curious to see the difference in power delivery between a naturally aspirated and a turbo

I'm very happy to be able to do this experience, believe me, cross your fingers and do not do, do not mess

Shit that a whore

Guys I had the most mystical experience there could be, a driving experience of the madonna, I tried a 458

Amaizing, is a naturally aspirated, but has a progression of the madonna. the brakes we need to take the feeling

because I really did not give, the right driving force, believe me, is really something out of the ordinary

it is the most beautiful experience that could happen to me

I'm very happy

ok there would be the single seater, but that's another matter.

really

I'm very happy, really, I'm very happy, I did only two laps, now the next car I do not know what it will be.

I think there is no better way to conclude this video of this experience of the madonna if not on the roof of the cremona circuit terrace.

amazing track, really

fantastic experience, really

I have to thank the guys from Puresport

I will leave you the link in the description of the facebook page, and also of the site if there is, and also of the youtube channel.

truly, a mystical experience.

try a 458 and a huracan is something exceptional

same concept, that is aspirated, but two totally different ways of understanding it

the first, rear-wheel drive, the second 4x4

I found it a little more easy than 458, really.

it was an experience of the madonna

getting to 230 per hour at the bottom of a kilometer straight here in Cremona is something exceptional, really

the brakes then are something hallucinating, really

I'm upset but

in the most beautiful meaning of the term, it was an experience of the madonna that,

I advise everyone to do, I was lucky enough to do it thanks to my company that organized this two days of

work but also fun

I hope you enjoyed

the onboard of the battle

of the kart race, which I then won, believe me, that

of the final, of the super final with my employer Roberto was something epic

really, it was really a great fight

if you liked this video, I invite you to leave a nice like

to subscribe to the channel, to go from the facebook page

and what to say ..

a dream that has become reality, really

really, I have no words

it's all from your VadoAlMax, see you in the next videos

bye bye

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Metabolizmayı hızlandıran ve yağ yakan 12 besin maddesi - Duration: 2:52.

Herbal TV

12 Nutrients that accelerate metabolism and burn fat

1. Cinnamon

2. Lemon Water

3. Hot Pepper

4. Green Tea

5. Apple

6. Coffee

7. Spinach

8. Water

9. Almond

10. Yağurt

11. Chili Peppers

12. Oat Ezmezi

Fat Burning Tips

For Lemon Water

2-3 cups of green tea per day.

Add chili peppers to your meals

We must consume 10 almonds a day.

Add 1 teaspoon vinegar to your salads for lunch and dinner

Add 1 teaspoon vinegar to your salads for lunch and dinner

You can consume 1 teaspoon of flax seeds into 1 bowl of yogurt. 2 cups of water on top

Increase water consumption.

40-60 walking daily

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