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Hello.
So, I want to talk about my disabilities, gender and fashion.
This is actually a video that is inspired by Annie Elainey and Jessica Kellgren-Fozard.
A couple of months ago, when they were at VidCon,
they did a video about disability and gender presentation
and then, pretty recently,
Annie kind of made a video adding onto that about her disabilities
and why she dresses the way she does and it also has to do with her gender identity.
And I just thought, "Well, why not?"
I kinda want to talk about it a little bit,
and it's still Disability Awareness Month and I need a video, so...
So, actually, let's backtrack a little bit.
Years ago, so, probably from when I was 18 up to, like, really, two or three years ago,
I used to want to get as fancy as possible.
And not, like, wear really fancy suits and dresses on a regular basis
but I really put effort into what I was wearing.
So, jeans and really nice shoes
and then the top, maybe a blazer, occasionally.
And even if I was just going out and running errands,
that's what I would wear.
And this was kind of the same when I was doing make-up on YouTube.
I was wearing make-up regularly and I just wanted to look really dressed up.
Now, a couple of years ago, I was also going to the bookstore,
to the cafe regularly, so I just wanted to look, like, really put together and look professional.
But now I've really been laidback on that type of thing
and I don't think it's just because of disabilities
but it does kinda play a role, I guess.
So, when it comes to disabilities, I'm deaf and I have chronic pain.
Deafness doesn't really have much to do with my fashion, at all,
so let's just ignore that part, but the chronic pain part.
A lot of back pain, a lot of shoulder pain.
Head stuff.
You know, really big migraines.
So, I don't like wearing tight clothing anymore.
So, like, bras, the tightness of bras...
I don't really have a whole lot going up here anyways.
That's one big reason why I never really worried about that, to be honest.
But, if I'm wearing tank tops, and I typically wear, like, men's tank tops
because they're looser,
you know there's that big hole that happens in the sleeve area here?
So, you know, I would be wearing really, like, somewhat tight sports bras
because, well, they are on the tighter side, no matter what,
and that really does hurt, so I don't wear them as often.
So, I've also just really moved on to, like, big T-shirts like this.
And, you know, it's really loose and it's easy to get on.
I've had problems with putting things on or...
Actually, you know what?
Putting things on seems to be somewhat easy
but then taking it off is a struggle for some reason.
I don't really understand it.
And it just makes things hurt really, really badly.
And then, when things just get too tight
and it's difficult to move around, I just don't like it.
With jeans, my legs get all messed up and I don't like it.
I don't really like wearing shoes, like sneakers and socks, anymore
because I banged up my foot last year and, ever since, it's been considerably swollen.
It goes up and down, depending on how much salt I eat.
Oops.
And, well, I have a permanent fat foot that doesn't really fit into my shoes much anymore
and that makes it very uncomfortable and difficult to walk,
so I've been wearing more flip-flops than ever
and, now that it's getting colder, I am not happy.
So, yeah, really loose clothing that's like...
I'm, like, this size, right?
Really, if you pull this all the way back.
I'm that size but I wear...
Like, this is a large so it's much looser.
There's, like, this much extra room right here.
It's just... It feels better.
Like, I can freely move my arms,
and I don't have to worry about potentially triggering any pain because of that.
Gender.
So, woman...
Cisgender, woman - pretty much feeling that way.
I grew up as a tomboy and so I would just wear a lot of, like, big shirts.
Some gym shorts.
I still have a pair of gym shorts from when I was 11, believe it or not.
That was pretty much it, and then, as I started growing older,
I started getting more into fashion but it was still more on the boyish side.
I was really into Britpop, so I got the blazers and I got the ties and the jeans
and, you know, the little sweat wristbands
that a lot of people wore during the emo days, right?
So, that was that, but then, after I graduated,
I started getting more feminine and really liking the nice tops and whatnot.
However, when it comes to dresses, I'm not a dress person.
I really like the look of these fancy dresses.
You see 'em on the red carpet and whatnot.
But, every time I put 'em on, so I'll go to a mall
and I'll find a dress I think looks absolutely gorgeous
and I want to have it, but, when I try it on, I almost kind of feel disgusted with myself.
I don't feel like it's really me
and I just feel awkward being in a dress or in a skirt.
I do own a skirt... I used to be really into skirts, actually.
Skirts and high heels.
But then I eventually stopped 'cause, one, they hurt,
and, two, with skirts, I was constantly afraid of, like, lifting up.
I have nothing up here but I got a lot going on down there,
so skirts were kind of a pain in the butt.
But, yeah, whenever I would try on a dress for, like, fancy events,
I... something felt so off about me,
and I just wanted to take it right off and I wanted to get a suit on
or at least, like, maybe a nice feminine top
but get a blazer on because that felt better, and pants.
I do have two dresses, or I have one dress that I have and one, like, really long skirt.
I do like those.
The skirt is leopard print, which I used to be obsessed with when I was younger,
so, and it's long, so it's nice to have when I just want to throw something on and go,
and a dress is more the "I really don't feel like getting dressed,
"so let me just throw this on and go run my errands real quick."
It was a great lounging summer dress to just get things done.
But, when I'm going out, I do... I prefer to wear jeans,
or, if I'm wearing leggings, like a dark leggings, or maybe even jeggings,
so that it looks a little more put together,
and feminine top, blazer, or just the nice top and go.
But, yeah, I've also just been really lazy with my fashion, I think,
which kind of bums me out because, as I look at my friends,
like Stevie and Stef Sanjati,
and looking at all these other, like, fashion YouTubers, like Jenn Im or...
Actually, Jenn Im is probably the only person that I ever really followed in terms of fashion.
But they look so awesome with all these fancy pieces.
And I kind of miss that.
But I keep end up gravitating toward things like this.
And, OK, let's be honest, this is a really cute shirt.
It's cats in a ramen bowl and I love it and I adore it, OK?
So, I have no problems with this.
But I do miss just getting really together.
But I also think part of it is just because I'm at home all the time.
I don't go out very often.
I don't go out to events that often.
So, I feel like, why bother putting in the time to, really, get together?
Even if it's, like, filming for a video.
Like, I'll do this, but, then, I'm pretty much wearing the YouTube uniform.
Put on a shirt and then...
Well, let's be honest, sometimes I just film in my underwear
and sometimes I actually put on pants,
but a lot of the times, it's just in my underwear. (LAUGHS)
But that's the YouTube uniform.
Put something decent up here and then below is pyjamas or anything else.
So, yeah, hopefully, you learned a little bit about, like, disability fashion, gender fashion,
how they kind of merge together.
I really didn't even think about this until I was watching those two videos.
In the description box, I will link below the video with Annie and Jessica,
and Annie's video, so you can learn a little bit more and get a few more perspectives.
And, of course, you're welcome to leave your own stories down below
if you feel like this is something that you can relate to.
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And I will see you later. Bye.
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