Waching daily Jul 15 2017

A Letter To My Younger Self What I Wish I�d Known Back Then�

By consciousreminder

What I Wish I�d Known Back Then�

Dear self: Your secret, lonely knowledge is true.

Despite all you have been told, the world that has been offered to you as normal, is

anything but normal.

It is a pale semblance of the intimacy, connection, authenticity, community, joy and grief that

lie just beneath the surface of society�s habits and routines.

Dear self: You have a magnificent contribution to make to the more beautiful world your heart

knows is possible.

It may not make you famous, but you have an important gift, an indispensable gift, and

it demands you to apply it to something you care about.

Unless you do, you will feel like you aren�t really living your life.

You will live the life someone pays you to live, caring about things you are paid to

care about.

You can make a different choice.

Dear self: Do not believe the cynical voice, masquerading as the realistic voice, that

says that nothing much can change.

That voice will call your dreams by many names: na�ve, unrealistic, immature, and irresponsible.

Trust your knowledge that the world can be different, can be better.

You needn�t sell out and live a life complicit in maintaining the status quo.

Trust your inner knowingYour secret, lonely knowledge is true.

Listen to it.

Trust it.

Dear self: You carry a deep yearning to contribute to the healing of the world and fulfillment

of its possibilities.

This is your deepest desire, and if you abandon it you will feel like a ghost inhabiting the

mere shell of a life.

Instead, trust that desire and follow it toward whatever service it calls you to, however

small and insignificant it might seem.

Dear self: The most reliable guide to choice is to follow whatever makes you feel happy

and excited to get out of bed in the morning.

Life is not supposed to be a grim slog of discipline and sacrifice.

You practised for such a life in school; tearing yourself out of bed for days of tedium, bribed

with trivial rewards called grades, intimidated by artificial consequences, proceeding through

a curriculum designed by faraway authorities, asking permission to use the toilet.

It is time to undo those habits.

Let your compass instead be joy, love, and whatever makes you feel alive.

Dear self: When you follow your passion and come fully alive, your choices will feel threatening

to anyone who abides in the dominant story of normal.

You will be reminding them of the path they didn�t follow, and awaken in them the suppressed

yearning to devote their gifts to something beautiful.

Rather than face that grief, they may suppress it � and suppress you as well.

Share your giftYou have a gift that demands to be shared.

For your sake and ours.

Dear self: At a certain moment it will become necessary for you to go on a journey.

It isn�t to escape forever.

It is to find yourself outside of whoever your conditioning trained you to be.

You must put yourself in a situation where you don�t know who you are anymore.

This is called an initiation.

Who you were becomes inoperative; then, who you will be can emerge.

Dear self: Powerful forces will attempt to make you conform to society�s normality.

These will take the form of social pressure, parental pressure, and very likely, economic

pressure.

When you encounter them, please understand that they are giving you the opportunity to

define yourself.

When push comes to shove, who are you?

Dear self: The old maps do not apply in these times of transition.

Even if you try to follow them, even if you accept their bribes and heed their threats,

there is no guarantee you�ll reap the promised rewards.

The university graduates washing dishes and the Ph.D.s driving taxis attest to this.

We are entering new territory.

Trust your guidance.

It is OK to make mistakes because, in uncharted territory, even the wrong path is part of

finding the right path.

It's OK to make mistakesEven the wrong path is part of finding the right path.

Dear self: On this path, you are sure to get lost.

But you are held, watched, and guided by a vast organic intelligence.

It will become visible when things fall apart � as surely they must, in the transition

between worlds.

You will stumble, only to find overlooked treasure beneath your feet.

You�ll despair of finding the answer � and then the

answer will find you.

Breakdown clears the space for synchronicity, for help unimagined and unearned.

Dear self: None of this advice can be sustainably implemented by a heroic effort

on your part.

You need help.

Seek out other people who reinforce your perception that a more beautiful world is possible and

that life�s first priority is not security, but rather to give of

your gifts, to play, to love and be loved, to learn, to explore.

When those people (your tribe) are in crisis, you can hold them in

the knowing

of what you know.

And they

can do the same for you.

No one

can do

this alone.

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A Letter To My Younger Self What I Wish I'd Known Back Then… - Duration: 6:40.

Every Change Of Emotions, Instantly, Triggers 1,400 Biochemical Reactions In Your Body

by Conscious Reminder

If we are dissatisfied, angry, depressed � it is a sign, but also a warning, that we are

making a mistake somewhere and that we need help.

If we ignore the warning, the pain will become stronger.

Oftentimes, to numb our feelings on physical, emotional or mental level, we reach for psychoactive

drugs that have calming effects.

Interestingly enough, other people�s mistakes are always easier to spot, because we rarely

notice when we do something wrong.

Reiki is a skill that helps us, by using energy, to discover whether there is an actual problem,

then we can locate the focal point of the problem, what caused it, what are the consequences

and how we can help ourselves in healing.

There is this process of energy exchanges between each of us and the environment we

are in, and it happens, both, consciously and unconsciously.

Namely, what we give we receive.

The universal life energy flows through our minor chakras on our palms and feet.

Placing our palms on parts of our body stimulates the supply of our mind and body with optimal

life energy, healing, balancing of our energy systems and strengthening defensive mechanisms,

what results in improvement in all aspects of our lives.

This involves self-healing at Reiki 1 level and healing of others at the following levels

,starting from Reiki 2 level.

We can also heal animals and our environment.

The gift of this skill, is the possibility to reconnect with ourselves and the environment;

a process that will restore our balance and bring peace and serenity into our lives.

Also, the lessons we learn through Reiki, and the experience we gain from practicing

it, will give us a better perspective and understanding of life and the universal laws.

The mind is the center of our basic, but vital functions, and as we say �We are what we

eat� on a physical level, it is also �we are what we think� on a mental, emotional

and energetic level!

This means that the thoughts we project and the emotional reactions that they cause, affect

the structure of our mind.

Our body, and our lives, are a reflection of our mind.

The Earth�s electromagnetic field, as a huge energetic organism in which we only play

part of a small link in a very long chain, has its own laws.

We are not talking here about and old bearded man sitting in a cloud, counting our good

and bad deeds so later he can reward or punish us.

It is a mathematical-energetic system that functions on

the principle of transferring energy information that has influence, both, on the Universe

and on our field, and thus on our lives as well.

When we think about something intentionally and intensively , we simultaneously send the

energy data that fills the field around us.

Our thoughts trigger certain emotional reactions.

Whenever we change our emotions, for example, from frustration we go to joy, 1,400 biochemical

changes start taking place in our body at that very moment.

When we think of all

the emotions we feel in one day we can see that emotions create many changes in our physiology.

So, it makes sense to begin to pay attention to mental food, just as we pay attention to

the food we feed to our body.

This is one of the keys to better health and definitely slows down the aging process.

Strong negative emotions are just degenerating us, whereas positive emotional states regenerate

and rejuvenate the human body.

Creating thought models by channeling universal life energy helps us tap into the channel

of peace and tranquility of our lives.

In order to understand in on a deeper level and consciously use the energy around us,

we will need the help of the Reiki symbols.

Reiki symbols are significant and very important part of Reiki practice.

They allow you to focus Reiki energy for special purposes.

They are the keys to creating continual and unobstructed flow of energy.

Their power and effectiveness comes to us with the love that allows us to accept the

value we receive as a gift from the Universe.

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HOW I CHOSE MY MIDDLE NAME // Trans Storytime II - Duration: 5:35.

Hi, I'm Jackson Bird and what you are watching here is part two of how I chose my name.

So, I highly recommend that you go and watch part one, if you have not watched it already.

That's where I talk about how I chose my first name and in this video, we're going to be

talking about how I chose my middle name and some regrets that I've sort of had throughout

the name picking process.

So, without any further ado, back to you Past-Even-More-In-The-Past Jackson.

I spent a long time trying to come up with a middle name.

I put off doing any of the legal name changes for a while because I just wasn't settled

on a middle name.

You know, on the one hand, I wanted to go with something like real weird and goofy.

Because like, why not?

I get to change my name.

I get to pick my name.

I never have to be called my middle name so who cares?

I could literally be like, "Danger is middle name."

People'd be like, "hahaha."

"No really. Here's my ID.

Danger is my middle name."

But then I also kind of had the thought like, oh what if I like end up don't liking Jackson

in a while when I'm older.

Maybe I should have like a normal middle name - "normal" - so that I could change my name

to that if I need to at any point.

And then I went back to the like finding a name that really means something and is maybe

after someone really important to me in my life.

And so I thought to one of the most important like male figures in my life during the darkest

time in my life when I was sort of figuring all this out and that was my ex-professor

Eric Selbin, who it still one of the most important people in my life.

But then I realized, my initials would be J-E-B.

Jeb!

Y'know, by the end of the 2016 election, Jeb Bush was seeming like a pretty good candidate,

but at the time, I just - I didn't feel comfortable changing - essentially changing my name to

JEB while Jeb Bush was so much in the spotlight.

And there was another factor, which was I've also had this weird thing where I feel like

"T" is like the best middle initial you could have.

I have definitely read like too much turn of the century literature where authors all

use like their initials and it looks really cool.

So I like, I was really hyper focused on wanting to have "T" as my middle initial.

And that's what most people who were trying to help me brainstorm a middle name like heard

constantly so I actually still have a document in here of all of the T names that me and

my friends brainstormed.

You ready for this? (laughs) This is - these are terrible.

Some of these were jokes.

Although you might be surprised which ones are and which ones aren't.

Thornton.

Thor.

Thomas.

Taylor.

Tesla.

Tiberius.

Texas.

Tyrannosaurus.

Tybalt.

Terrence.

Terrestrial.

Thunder.

Theodore.

Thaddeus.

Tucker.

Teflon.

Tractor.

Tonks.

Tyler.

Tristan.

Thurmin.

Timothy.

I did get a thumb's up from my mom to uh make my middle name Tyrannosaurus Rex.

Or just Tyrannosaurus.

So I was close to doing that.

Of the many regrets I have during the whole name change process one of them is that like

I kind of wish I had just made my middle name Thrasher.

Like, that's pretty cool.

I didn't realize for a surprisingly long time that if I wanted to do two middle names with

Eric being one of them and the T name being the other one that my initials would then

be E.T.

But as soon as I did, I was sold.

That was like (laughs) I can choose totally normal names, but the

goof part will be that my initials are E.T. and there are some days that I regret that.

'Cause it seems a little weird and excessive, but this is one of those things that...

I feel is like what is hard about choosing your own name, especially as a trans person.

Like, if my parents had just named me that, and I had two middle names, and my middle

initials were E.T. it would just be this funny thing of like what my parents did and maybe

they noticed and maybe they didn't and haha and oh but otherwise your name is very nice

and respectable.

But because I chose it, it's like all of the criticism goes on me.

It's like, man you had one job!

There's just so much more self-consciousness wrapped up in choosing your own name and I

feel like especially as trans people because we're getting critiqued and judged for everything

else and people already think that every thing that we're doing is weird and they don't understand

it and this is just like one more place where they want to be invasive and ask more questions

than they would of anyone else in the same exact situation.

I mean that's one reason that I fell back so hard on wanting my first name to be one

that my mom had already been thinking of.

If I ever want to not elaborate for people, I can just say that and they're like, oh yeah

that makes sense.

And I know it's like, it's stupid to feel this pressure and this self-consciousness,

but like, it's real and I think a lot of other trans people that related to their names.

I mean, if you are trans I would definitely like to hear in the comments if you felt that

or are feeling that or have fears around that.

Uhm, and also, if you have advice on how to not feel that because I know that I should

own it and a lot of times I do.

But y'know, you get those creeping voices coming into your head every now and then.

Or the real voices from people in your life.

You don't even need the little voices in your head when you're trans, people will say it

to you anyways!

And if you're not trans and you're watching, tell me about the story of your name.

Is it the name your parents gave you when you were born?

Do you like it?

Do you know why you got named that?

Were you named after someone cool?

Tell me all of the name stories because also hearing all of those stories might help inspire

any trans people who are looking for a name to name themselves.

But yeah, it is hot as Hades in my room right now, even though it just rained.

You'd think it would be cooler.

It's still so hot.

So I'ma go.

But if you liked this video, please do give it a thumb's up and subscribe, if you haven't,

and also you can "ring that bell" as YouTube would like us to say so you can get notifications

when I put up a new video, which hopefully is gonna be more frequently.

Also, you can follow me on all of the social media at jackisnotabird, including now YouTube.

So excited about that.

And hey, if you're interested in supporting me in any way, I do have a Patreon that you

can visit.

Link in the description box.

And that is it!

Thank you so much for watching.

I'll see ya next time.

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Curiosity Killed my GPA - Letters to July 15 #WithCaptions - Duration: 2:00.

Dear July, I am attempting to study broadly and without

fear, but I am in fact very afraid.

(intro).

Most of my academic career happened while I was being homeschooled or in a cyber school.

I hadn't even stayed in the same physical school for more than one year until high school.

This has put me in an interesting position where I basically just taught myself how to learn.

I am used to learning independently and being guided by my curiosity but am very bad at

articulating and expressing the things that I know because of my isolated learning environment.

I'm great at learning.

I hoard knowledge like it is a scarce resource that we could run out of at any moment.

I just don't know how to explain that to my professors and I don't know how to tell them

that I don't know how to learn the way that they want me to learn.

I don't know how to shut down my curiosity for a long enough amount of time to get through a reading.

I can't do any of the readings without also wanting to see what aspects of culture informed

it, and how the writing has influenced the way we think now, and the author's biography,

and why they used the words they used!

I can't get through anything in time because I have too many questions and no way to answer

any of them in a timely manner!

My curiosity is a distraction sy school.

It has adverse effects and generally results in my failure.

I want to stay curious though.

It's landed me in bad situations time and time again, but it doesn't seem worth it to

get an education if I can't learn anything.

I don't like limiting my brain.

That's why I'm starting to write a 20-page paper that's due in December today.

The semester doesn't start for another six weeks and I'm starting now so I have time

to be curious.

I refuse to sacrifice my values for the sake of academic achievement.

So it's up to me find ways to work around my values in order to reach basic achievement.

Love, Katrina

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