So my name is Nicole Ryan and I suppose my brother was Alex Ryan. Last year he
took a synthetic drug at a house party in Cork in the Greenmount
area and four days later he passed away in CUH. The first time somebody ever
said to me something that wasn't great was, you're only getting famous off
the back your brother's death and that hurt - and that hurt a lot and it wasn't a
hurt that just happened it was a progressive one. I remember I was shocked,
I walked away and then the next day I was like....whatever,
what's said is said - I'll leave a go, but I was driving home on the Monday from work
and I just started crying in my car and I didn't know why, but it was actually
someone that had said something to me two days prior that it really got deep
into me and I started to doubt myself. I'm a marine engineer by trade and I
went to college in National Maritime College and I went to college with all
boys. And it was hard because I always had to prove myself because it's a male
dominant area so then I started working for Irish Ferries and I was
working at sea and I was loving life - everything was great and with one phone
call my whole life changed and nothing was ever gonna be the same again. Oh I
saw him and I saw him lying there and he was just...it looked like he was asleep. So
what happened to him was he took a drug that he thought was a synthetic drug - it
was a synthetic drug and he thought he was taking something that was safe
because he thought synthetic drugs were safe and that's kind of the
misconception with a lot of young people - because their synthetic and their fake
they mustn't have deathly consequences. So him and his friends thought they were taking
2C-P and in fact they took a lethal hallucinogenic called the N-Bomb and my
brother was pronounced brain dead on the Friday. And we had a decision to make and
we made him an organ donor so as I speak here to you today there is four pieces
of Alex out there keeping people alive - his heart still beats! So after that I
fell into a very bad place myself. So I thought I had to do something, so what I
did was I started my own campaign and my own adventure and it's called
Alex's Adventure of a Lifetime. So what I do is I go to schools all over Ireland
and I visit them voluntarily, I don't get paid for this, take time off work and I
share his story. I educate young people about drugs and
you know what drug use is and synthetic drugs especially. It helps me keep him
alive in a way that you know people can identify with him. They can see that this
is real and this can happen to anybody. I always say Alex is anybody's child
because he could be any one of you and it can happen so easily. I used to
never think that it would happen to me and you know you read about these
stories and you think - Jesus that's very sad but you're... doesn't really affect me,
but when it does come knocking at your door you know your whole life changes
and essentially what I do is, I want to prevent other families having to go
through what we go through every day. Every day you know we carry on with life
but you wake up a little bit sadder and you go to bed just the same. Everything
is just going through the motions and you know he was 18 years of age and he
had his whole life ahead of him. Every time he'd say oh one day I'm gonna be
famous and it's sad to see that he is famous but he's not here to see it and
it was all...done with one choice that he made. I always say that my brother
made the choice himself which he did. He had nobody to blame for himself but he
was uneducated. Especially with synthetic drugs - toxicity levels and dosages are
very different compared to your elicits you know. What you think you're taking is...
what you think you're taking is a normal dose could end up being double or triple
or even 10 times the dosage if you're taking synthetic drugs and it's very
dangerous for people to start taking them and we think that because they are
synthetic drugs they're safer but they're not, they just have to have the
exact same consequences as the big top dogs your illicit drugs like cocaine and
all that. He wanted to play rugby for Ireland and because he was 6 ft 7,
he was huge you know, he was going to do it. Growing up with him was an adventure on
its own as well you know - he loved playing dress-up, because he was my
younger brother and I loved dressing him up because I wanted a sister and not a brother.
He did things out of the kindness of his own heart because
knew it was right and not because he wanted to be known or he wanted any
praise or anything like that, he just did them because they were the right thing
to do. To have to make a decision of whether to keep him like that for the
rest of his life at 18 years of age - a vegetable basically in a bed, and you
know it was a decision that we made that was very difficult but we had to do it.
But another thing that comes out of it that gives us a bit of hope is his organ
donation and it is something that I would urge every single one of you to go
home and talk about to your parents, because you never know when your last
day may be. You're all in school at the moment - you'll all be faced with this
choice if you haven't been faced already. Drugs are everywhere and they're not
just in the big cities - they're in the small towns in small areas; in colleges; in
nightclubs; in bars, you don't even have to go looking people who come to you and
offer things to you. Well sometimes I wonder you know if I'm doing something
that's worth it; if it's right. How many people are my reaching? Is anybody
listening? But the response that I gotten over the last year that I have visited all
these schools is phenomenal. If you're educated enough hopefully you can make
the right decision and the right choice, because I believe it all starts with
education and us young people - we're not stupid, we're well capable of making good
decisions but sometimes be it your friends are doing it or ye know we're
at a club or whatever, it's very easy to get swayed to doing something like that.
So you know I got a message actually off one glad so I went school before I
finished off last summer. I'm in fifth year in the De La Salle. Your talk was very
inspirational - it was amazing. It must be very hard talking about. You
definitely did Alex proud and he is smiling at you. I've become an organ
donor after the talk because you highlighted the importance of it. I found
the part of both the amount of drugs very interesting and I would never personally
have touched drugs but now when I go to college I never will. As you said you
never know what you're getting and you can take the risk,
drugs of any kind, illegal or synthetic, and I have you to thank for. You and Alex
are saving so many lives. So I guess at the end of the day - getting famous off
the back of my brother's death isn't such a bad thing if it's changing minds
and it's saving lives! Thank you guys.
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