Hi everybody, it's been a while. Obviously, I took a break. I needed to. Things were
piling up and I got into a creative divot with the videos and I desperately
just need it to walk away. I was putting a lot of pressure on myself to live up
to a new standard of video making because we got a whole new slew of views
and subscribers right at the beginning of the year - which was awesome!
Thank you! Except now I have 17,000+ new subscribers to entertain and please,
and interacting with that many people, good or bad, in the comments just became
a lot. I've always been a big believer in consistency, sometimes to the detriment
of quality. And that was fine when I wasn't trying to please tens of
thousands of you. It was fine when Sarah and I weren't being put under a
microscope and inspected for every little tiny flaw in our logic that could
possibly be there. It was fine even last year when Sarah took a break herself and
I filled in and made more consistent videos myself to fill the space. But then
when we got this whole new group of subscribers all at once, YouTube became a
numbers game for us. We wanted to hit new goals, which we've always set for
ourselves, but now there's a new level of pressure to meet those goals. The problem
was that I didn't know what was gonna happen if we didn't meet those goals and
I didn't know what was gonna happen to the channel if we didn't have videos up
consistently with captions, perfect editing, great sound design,
whatever the case may be. So I was making videos that I was interested in, but I
wasn't feeling amazing about uploading them and it got to a point where I
wasn't even coming up with new ideas for videos that could be done in a short
amount of time without sacrificing quality. I had to stop. I had to go focus
on other things, like reading and writing. I had to be social and, you know, talk to
the people that I worked with. I also had to realize a few things and come to
terms with them. First, that I am not perfect and that my videos will never be
perfect, but that I also don't have to settle for content that is below
my own standard. I should upload videos because I want to and I like them and
I'm proud of them, not because I think you're expecting something from me.
Second, that even if you are expecting something from me all that I get out of
it is some watch time and a little bit of cash. All of that is just a really
crude way of saying that I had to realize that I make content and upload
videos to YouTube because I like to. It's not an obligation, it's a hobby. Third,
that yes, deadlines are certainly important, but that since I'm not being
graded on making videos, I am allowed to give myself some wiggle room, and I'm
also allowed to trust myself with that extra room to make something as good as
it can possibly be before I put it out into the world. I want to be proud of the
things that I make before other people see them. Fourth, it's okay if I want to
be consistent, but in order to sustain that consistency, I have to plan ahead
and I have to give myself the time to work on projects. I also have to be okay
with extensions. I don't have to ask for more time, I just have to let Sarah know
that something won't be up when I told her it would originally. I don't have to
or want to punish myself anymore for not being able to meet a deadline.
It's not good for my mental health, it's not good for my creative life, it's not
good for the channel. I need a creative outlet in my life to feel satisfied. I
need to be making something always, almost 100% percent of the time, but
I can only do that when I'm not focused on forcing myself into a box. I can't
create things if I don't enjoy the process of creation, and I can't give you
anything if I don't like making whatever it is in the first place. So from here on
out I have some rules for myself. First, that I will no longer hold myself to
unrealistic standards. I know what my capabilities are, and I know what I can
get done in a certain amount of time. And I'm not going to push myself beyond
those boundaries. Second, that I will not be expecting anything to come from each
video. The less that I expect from each video, the more that I enjoy what does
come, and the more that I enjoy making the next video.
Third, that I will set deadlines and goals, but I won't punish myself for not
reaching them. And fourth, that I will do my best to be consistent, but I won't
choose consistency over quality anymore. I deserve to push myself creatively, not
drag my feet because of an arbitrary posting schedule that no one except
myself is holding me to. Thank you for giving me the room I needed for my
hiatus, even though it really doesn't seem like anybody noticed that I was
gone. I am excited to get back into making videos and and doing research and
talking about things that matter to me. Thank you so much for watching this
video. I know I haven't made one in so long.
It feels great. Even though I've made this video four
times now. It you liked this video, please click the bell below so you don't miss
any of our other videos, which may not be consistent, but you know what? At least
you'll get something. And if you're not subscribed to The Princess and the
Scrivener, please do so down below, especially if you'd like to see more
videos on Disney, intersectional feminism, pop culture critiques, and more! Sidenote:
me and two of my friends from work want to start a podcast, so if you have any
recommendations for software or affordable microphones or topics that
you'd like for us to talk about, send them my way. One of us we'll see you soon.
Don't know when, and I for once don't care when!

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