Hi, I'm really hungover and I thought to make things better I would sit in front
of a very bright window, and then actively encourage my face to
break out by doing some face paint. And I've just sat here like creatively
paralyzed because I don't know what to do - for about half an hour - so I'm just
gonna, I'm just gonna go for it and talk at you for a little bit.
Let's moisturise with my industrial-sized bottle of moisturiser. I think I'm just gonna accept
that this is probably not going to be good, he says his eyes lying slightly
knowing that he really wants it to be good but never mind let's just do it.
Let's just do it, Jon, do it do it do it do it. So some of you remember that I
used to do face painting videos on here and I did it and I called it like creative
process, I think, or approach or something. I was like I kind of want to do
one of those again at some point and then the situation arose last week when
I created the Jon goes running video. I made that and I made a whole load of
notes afterwards because I was just like I have a lot to say about this and how
I'm feeling about it, so basically as I said I have had that video in my head
for about four years. I finished the run, I had this this
shit ton of GoPro footage and I was like I want to do something with this and I
want it to be more than just a compilation of clips I want to do
something special with it because I think it deserves that it's a nice memory.
And that immediately put loads and loads of pressure on me so I was
like I want to be great how do I make it great and I came up with the idea that I
wanted to turn it into a game of some sort but I didn't really know how
to do it. I tried to start that project like at least twice even to the point of
tweeting a still from the video and saying that everyone had to hold me
accountable to making it and then three years later I still hadn't made it.
What am i doing, what am I doing, I was gonna make like a
mask thing but I don't even know if this is... do I wanna do drag makeup? Do I want to
do drag makeup I'm like I'm a bit scared of doing drag makeup because I always
think has to be perfect because I've watched so many perfect Queens on
RuPaul's Drag Race, fuck yeah I'm gonna do drag makeup.
So skip to about two weeks ago and I realized that I
have like two or three full days completely free that I don't have any
responsibilities or work to get done and I was like: now, now is finally the time
to make this bloody video, and so I sat down to do it. I have no idea where this
foundation came from- oh I didn't even prime... To do literally every effect in that
video I had to follow a tutorial on YouTube because I am still learning how
to do like After Effects and stuff which is why like the whole thing is like a
massive mishmash of styles because basically I'm replicating other
people's tutorials exactly without having the time to actually change it to
fit what I wanted. That in itself was a little bit annoying that I didn't feel
like I had time to play even though I'd spent four years waiting to do this
project, 'cos I decided I was like right and really give myself like a week to
make this or something. We're need more coverage! And so I spent about two full
days getting the bulk of the work done and that involved a lot of like ah just
really complicated stuff, really heavy effects and stuff that... I don't
know, like it was good but also I just don't know... like I got to the end of
it I just don't know whether it was worth it or not because like it was so
I could pick so many holes in that video like nothing really makes sense
and it was a very frustrating position to be in and oh I don't know I was just-
and it just got to the point where I was exhausted by it the whole thing that
just made me tired and I was sick of it and I didn't love it. I exported it and
normally a video for me takes about like 15 minutes maximum to export I think
this video took longer than two hours I don't know from experience that like if
you export a video then inevitably there's going to be something wrong with
it, so you always have to treat the first export as the first of several.
I just got to the end of it I looked at I was like you know what I'll just click
publish, cuz I just I'm not going to do any more to it even though there were so
many things I wanted to do to it other funny jokes to put in, or an
adjusting like, I don't need to go into specifics... and it was like
conflict and tension because I was grappling with the perfectionist
in me. I have nothing to glue my brows down or hide them so I'm just gonna try
and paint over them. And there were other things as well like I kind of I'd sent
myself a deadline because I knew that if I didn't I'd just never get the thing done
but also there were lots of other thoughts going into
like I knew that this was actually quite like a personal video that actually I
thought in terms of like views and stuff was never really gonna do very well.
It's like looking at a friend of a friend's wedding photos like don't give a shit.
Let me just buff this out with my old watercolor brush.
You know what, I think I'm being too much of a perfectionist right now I think I'm
gonna stop using brushes let's see how we go with just fingers, it's so messy.
Of course as soon as I decide to make this a fingers-only look my camera
decides to die and I have to you know touch it. I can't even remember where got
to I think I was talking about the fact that in an ideal world I would have
like said goodbye to that video for two weeks and then um come back to it
again and then spend actual time on it but that's just not what happens. I think
I find it frustrating because I always I've never really experienced creative
blocks before and then it's just happening I'm just like oh god it's
actually as difficult as people say it is and I was thinking lol a if someone else
has thought and I always just tell them to like just just do anything just play
something just do something it doesn't have to be good it just it's like make
it shit! I was just telling myself to do that now and I just wasn't doing it
anyway this is what I'm doing it's gonna be shit let's just go run with it.
We'll do eyeliner - eyeliner... - it's gonna be great.
Let's contour for the gods. Let's just use this fecal colour this should be very
easy to do to replicate maybe a five-minute look altogether very
wearable particularly as they are alike different... okay fine.
Apart from like disgusting spot popping videos, like makeup tutorials are one of my
go-to just watching any video on YouTube like something that's going to interest
my fascinates me how people can change their faces and like it's definitely one
of those situations where am i I'm watching it and I get to the end of the
tutorial just like sitting in my pants just watching not doing anything
alongside and I get to the end and I'm like like well I can do that now fine let's
watch another one.
Okay that's a significant amount... it's okay we're gonna
highlight there we go I've just just created a really cute button nose
that's absolutely tiny that's barely there. You know what I'm gonna do with my
vaguely clean fingers, I'm gonna set myself a timer how long should I give myself
I'm gonna say five minutes because I think any longer than that and this is
just gonna... we all know the direction this is going in already...
Lips! Need to think about lips what we're gonna do I feel like lips is like though
I have done quite nice makeup before but then as soon as I put lips on it's like
oh that's definitely a man in drag like it's really pretty, then it's like boom no.
Three minutes three minutes okay where's the black, speed up speed up speed up.
Lets change the angle, okay that's actually quite good. One minute
forty eight, fuck! Let's go. Oh, oh my god. No no fingers left! Oh dear what we need I
need some brows, how do I... let's wow that just ruined everything I mean it was all
going so well... no yeah oh my god that's that ombre brow thing right like nothing
and ah okay do I have any fingers I can turn this off? What do we think? Right I'm
gonna give myself two more minutes because there's more stuff I actually
want to do to this because I'm having fun!
Honestly glitter just improves everything, a little bit of
highlight there you know? Oh everything's so much better now.
Everything's great, look at me. Do I want to do my lashes?
Tacky, Jon, wait until it's tacky. I've
done this so badly. That's quite fun... I feel like I should we do
some kind of like inspiring speech at the end of this about pushing yourself
out of your comfort zone and try new things but like, I just... oh my god.
So thanks for watching my tutorial guys I hope you can replicate this at home
it's very easy the products are very cheap all you need is a bit of shame.
I need to do a thing they do at the end of videos on one side the other side
- completely asymmetrical. I'm trying to do the Detox thing... "Now I read ya!"
Goodbye, I'm still really hungover.
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