Hello everyone! Today is the video, which I wasn't going to shoot.
If I shoot it, cut and publish, you should give me thumbs up for my courage.
I want to share my secrets.
I wear only second-hand clothes, recently I have been deceived, I don't want to work, I'm afraid of giving birth and much, much more.
indeed will I tell you all this?
Maybe, I won't. Let's see.
Secret №1: all my clothes are second-hand.
Secret №1: all my clothes are second-hand.
This is true. I have an elder and unbelievably generous sister, who always gives me her clothes.
I don't know why she gives me everything, what she thinks is extra.
She has given me this mobile phone, several cloaks, shoes, bags.
She always brings me some clothes, including this dress.
These clothes have been already worn.
But. Firstly, we have quite familiar complexions. Secondly, she has a good taste.
Some people can find those clothes which
usual people can't.
They find looks which are really difficult to find.
Good gown but it doesn't fit me.
I should always correct it.
No way!
It can be a decollate. No, it can't, my channel is for children.
Like this.
All this clothes completely satisfy my requirements of the life in decree.
To tell the truth, I haven't bought any clothes for several years.
This is a generous charity from my sister.
Secret №2: I am a creative person.
Secret №2: I am a creative person.
I have graduated music school and now play the piano.
Honestly, I don't have my own piano because I gave it to a girl who entered music school.
I wish I have my own sinthesizer because I write songs myself.
I can't say that I have a beautiful voice but I have a good hearing.
I'd like to release it on my channel, show people.
I don't know, when it will happen. It requires some time to make it well.
Besides, I write stories. I'd like to write my own book.
To tell the truth, I really want to realize myself creatively.
I suffer because of I don't have enough time. This is what my soul demands.
Secret №3: I'm going to make one more YouTube channel.
The fact is that Lera often doesn't understand why I take close-up pictures of Seraphim and don't do it with her.
Why is there a channel devoted to Seraphim, and there is no channel dedicated to Lera?
Why is Seraphim a special child, and Lera is not a special child?
She frequency has such questions in her head.
She asks met to open her own channel. Because she wants to shoot sketchs, challenges, reviews of toys.
I don't have enough time for this, but in the future, I would create another channel.
Maybe someday she will continue it herself.
I really hope that we will succeed.
Secret № 4: I really want the third child.
Secret № 4: I really want the third child.
It's a frequent question: -Do you want to have one more healthy baby?
- I want a healthy one.
Because all genetics, who examined us, claimed that we are genetically healthy.
"You have a healthy daughter, do not be afraid, give birth, it will not happen again"
But no one can explain how it happened that Seraphim was born with a chromosomal anomaly.
We have no guarantees that this won't happen again.
And go through the same stages with another child will be incredibly difficult.
I think, every mother of a special child has asked this questions.
Everyone wants one more healthy child.
The first word, the first steps, that everything is for joy, we have no cramps.
Of course, I want but I'm very afraid of it.
I don't know when I can decide. I can or I can't. But we constantly have this question.
Because Artem wants the third child.
For now, I believe that we won't be able to do this for the next few years, because now we need to develop Seraphim as much as possible.
Lera will demand a lot of attention for preparations to school.
I think that we will raise this issue in a few years.
Secret №5: I don't have a career.
Secret №5: I don't have a career.
Indeed, when I left on the first decree with Lera, I worked as an administrator in a cafe.
This work doesn't suit me, this sphere isn't mine. I did not intend to go back there after the decree.
When Lera was a little girl, I discovered joint purchases.
For several years I was the organizer of joint purchases.
I really enjoyed it because, firstly, when Lera went to kindergarten and usually was ill
For me it was not a problem, because I worked at home.
Now I'm 28 years old. Due to the fact that I have been making joint purchases so long, I have no experience in normal work.
And now, if I get down to work after the decree, I'll have to start all over again.
As if I had just finished university.
Secret №6: I'm prone to fullness.
Secret № 6: I'm prone to fullness.
That's true. I do not like the type of my figure.
I always have to track my nutrition.
Refuse from goodies that I adore. I love sweets, salties, flouries.
All together: first the herrings, then the cake, and then again the herring, then the cake again.
When I relax and start eating this, of course, I'm getting fat.
And even in the comments people often write me: "Are you pregnant?"
- No, I'm not pregnant, I've just eaten two herrings.
I envy those who eat and don't get fat. Very much.
Secret №7: I was recently deceived.
Secret №7: I was recently deceived.
You know, when my channel began to develore, people started suggesting me some kind of services.
All for free, because you are a blogger, you are attractive.
In most cases, I trust people and agree.
There was a girl who introduced as an international volunteer.
She announced that she would help us to organize the treatment for Seraphim abroad.
You know, fraudsters find people who are in a desperate situation.
People trust them, because there is no way out.
Everything started very fast: we called up every day on the phone, on What'sapp.
We was chatting in Vkontakte.
She talked about herself, how many families she helped. She spoke specifically about these families.
We discussed the clinic in Switzerland, in which Seraphim had to be treated.
Discussed the treatment, examination, diagnosis of epilepsy.
Also, she told us that our chromosomes would be repaired.
Like, there are technologies which we haven't dreamed about..
Artem had been claiming that she was strange, that I needed to ask for her documents.
I discussed this question with her.
"Maybe you'll send at least your badge of the volunteer?"
And she answered: "I visit my parents now and when I get home, I will send everything."
At the same time, she was negotiating with the clinic in Switzerland and communicated with the head physician.
Which spoke only in Spanish. She, just, knew this language.
Suddenly, she said that she needed all the examinations of Seraphim we have.
During pregnancy and after childbirth.
She made a deal. The head physician would go somewhere, so it was necessary that day.
I quickly collected everything, found all the pieces of paper, scaned it and sent it to her.
I did not send her any important document: no birth certificate, no policy, no passport.
I sent her just paper with the doctors' conclusions.
Already six months has gone, she has not answered me to any message.
after I had sent these pieces of paper.
Sometimes she is online, she updates the avatar.
But she doesn't read my messages in either Vkontakte, What'asapp, Viber, doesn't pick up the phone, she has just disappeared.
If something happened, and it was not a crook, she could write at least one line.
That something did not work, or everything is canceled, or it has some unforeseen circumstances.
She didn't do that, we certainly concluded that something was wrong in this whole story.
When she disappeared, I and Artem were going to organize everything ourselves.
All the papers are collected, scanned. We could go without her.
We started phoning to the funds. Including, Rosfond, with which she was going to work.
Every one answered us: "We are not engaged in diagnostics, we are engaged in rehabilitation and only in our country"
What for was it? Why did she do all this?
The brain is looking for logic, why she needed it.
Did she do all this to get these pieces of paper?
She spent so much money on intercity negotiations.
She could have painted all these seals in Photoshop.
Okay, she took the photos from Instagram, but she had no document for the child.
I and Artem concluded that she had been planning a fraud, but it hadn't worked.
And she hadn't finished it.
I waited for a month after she disappeared.
Every day I checked if she was online or not. I waited that she would return and explain why she hadn't been answering.
It was a huge disappointment, to understand that we are not going anywhere.
Because I have already imagined that they would help us in Switzerland.
She told me some phrases which are still in my soul.
She said that we would celebrate Serafim's wedding, and so on.
I'm telling this in order to forget it forever.
You can not trust everyone and look at every person through rose-colored glasses.
I'm not cross at her, even if she keeps collecting.
In fact, I just told all this, let it go and forgot.
Everything is going to be better.
If you haven't noticed, it was very difficult for me to talk about it.
Some secrets were ridiculous, such as about secon'hand things.
The last story stirred up my emotions.
I have almost started crying, but restrained myself.
I grow as a blogger, I do not cry anymore.
Thank you very much for listening to me. I will continue saving secrets, to make you happy again.
Or not.
Thank you very much for watching. Bye-bye!
Don't forget to subscribe on my channel!
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