Waching daily Oct 17 2018

Hello everybody, welcome back to decaffeinated photography, I'm Josh and

There's no Alex today. The reason for that will be explained in just a little bit. So keep on watching

So in this past month, we're trying to make a decaffeinated photography. Not just a YouTube channel

we've got a couple gigs coming up and we're very excited for those but we value our

Creativity not going to rag on anybody doing this professional sort of corporate commercial

Weddings and all that you can also be creative doing that stuff

But we also want to try and say something with our platform try to do stuff that

Is not usually talked about thought about even or just try to reinforce stuff that is already there in the world

But we think we have a different take about it as you guys know

Alex has been doing a full time course at Deakin University. And right now he's approaching the end of his third year

Meaning he's gonna graduate next year. So at this current time right now, I was I'm doing this video

He is actually setting up his photos to be shown at an Exhibition, which is pretty crazy

Who would have thought that people want to see his photos? I don't mean that in a bad way

I mean, that's just you know, it's it's a crazy thing. It's a big thing. He's showing it off to the world

Except not really just the people who are invited to this exhibition

The reason why I'm making this video Alex does not know I'm making this video by the way

Being half of decaf and more importantly my friend. I am extremely proud of him. I want to showcase

his work to the world and by the world

I mean you guys to subscribe this or anybody that happens to come across this video

Alex just been putting his heart and soul and putting so much effort into this blood sweat and tears into this set of photos that

This is not all gonna be shown. We shot a whole lot more. I did help him out every once in a while

I didn't have much to go with in the creative process

It's all from his brain his his brainchild his brain baby with you guys. I want to get to the depths of

Why Alex made these photos and what he's trying to say?

So we're gonna head to the exhibition you and me right now

We're gonna sit down with him and talk to him and do a little interview

And talk to him about what he's trying to say and why he's trying to say what he's trying to do

And why are you trying to do it and what the process was to create these photos the exhibition starts at 6:30 right now. It's

5:45 I should probably get ready probably take a shower shared in three days. Don't disappoint me Alex

that is all I have to say for the ending statement of this section of the video and

I'll catch you guys there

Alright next missions over and we want to welcome our very first guest in this series of interviews

That is probably not going to be a series Alex Papadopoulos

Congratulations, first of all, thank you. Thank you for coming to show thank you. Thank you. Very honored to be here

Yeah, get into it then. All right, so you had your first exhibition? Yes. I did. I sure did Tim

we always like to set it up and

I stressful. Yeah quite stressful. Yeah, everything was going wrong everything that could have gone wrong went wrong

But I went to all the swipes went back. It took me four four and a half hours to install my my part

Isn't that it was a real moment? Yeah loved it

Yeah, it will a well Bella save it was well received lots of people liked it

I think though the biggest ones in the exhibition. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah the old one took up the whole wall

Yeah

Was really happy with it. And I don't know if shamil is watching but shamil is my mehar me if it was yeah

That's the one for you shamil. I don't know what would have happened to me so much. Love. I'll hopefully I'll see you soon

And Hagin Hagin helped me out as well. So I'm given two shoutouts today that worry about big conception the conception

Okay, what what spurred you to want to talk about gender stereotypes? And okay. Well that type of stuff these phrases that are used in

You know everyday society and contemporary society that are quite negative

I had the phrases that I wanted to use because it's a phrase that I use myself

Yeah, have you used I don't think about them. I say man up. I say don't be a prick

I just say it. It just comes out

But what does that actually mean? Do we actually think about what it means?

I never did I do now and so yeah someone still do you say you still use these phrases?

I didn't II one that would maybe sneak into my very cap would be Derby a book

but it's one of the worst ones that yeah, but if but even then

Doesn't really they might slip yeah. Yeah, I think I think for me it's definitely it doesn't matter

Yeah, but I find myself talking to myself that way something you thought about like there's things that people thinking of them themselves

I think it's things that people say to themselves and it's also things that people say to each other and get told from others

There's the things that I've been said to me as well like the man up

I don't know if they're gonna throw shade but my

Ex-girlfriend and her mom said that to me like man have fun grow some balls that like really resonated with me

So now when I hear it, I kind of like like oh, it's a terrible thing to say to someone

Yeah, it's totally to say someone but especially under the the worst context. That's what like that's what makes it the worst thing

Yeah, you say come on man up man. Go for the bowl in tips. Like what? Yeah, it's like it's alright

Okay, because that's where masculinity is thrived upon

Now in another context where you got like a girlfriend of something saying it to you it really like hit hit time. Mmm

Yeah, one more thing. The reference is Barbara Kruger

I don't know if any of you guys know Barbara care whose work who is

Really? Well known for her white text with red borders you see anything

Ah Barbara Krugers, I was in there and I had like the phrase that I want to further songs with the gender stereotypes

how could we contextualize my work and

Actually have it in a form where people can be like, oh I see that for gender stereotype

But I also see that for feminism. I also say that for another reason. Yeah, I think it all works really well, so just

Together really? Well. Yeah that really striking read text in this like lush sort of greenish

Places. So yeah now we've talked about that

I'm sure the audience at home want to know like what you shot on why you chose that camera no shot on my xt2

It's the thing that I'm most comfortable with at the moment

There's no other real logical reason you can print pretty big with them and that's what I want to do with

So this one I think Josh talked we set up the frame and then Josh - okay

We showed you a couple more. They didn't make the cut. Yeah as well. Yeah, which are again ski against the wall bench

Obviously, this one is a better one. You can see the footy in the

Background. Yeah, everything the bridge Ron. I wanted to make it central. Yeah, nice meeting lines here on the left

You can actually see like there's a turn in her face. There's actually like she's actually saying that to someone and on the right

She's actually chasing something. Yeah, she and her body her body language is very like very mathematical in it. Yeah

Yeah, this one I afraid that in a similar nature to the previous man up one

I wanted to keep the same form if I were to be nice to have some cookies in there

Yeah, that's something that's an oversight from me if there was another oversight. That was that don't be a prick

I had to spend two hours with my cat trying to

Get her to play nice with me indoors go to a state Drucker put it down and then she would go like sniff it well

Up to it not applying this through it's a really nice photo and the dappled light as well

She definitely knew she was posing like I have no doubt. She knew she was posing for photos

It's actually it's testing a perfect pose. But yeah, and this one is welcome. Wow this one there's another cat in there as well

Oh, there it is. Oh my god

Yeah, this one was a fifty focal length

It was pretty dark in there and I wanted to the depth depth of field

We needed a bit of range and in a bit of foreground and background

Depth and I think that one's really good because it's actually mid notice Bloor

Probably not the most flattering and I'm you know, I hope he's okay with me using it. I'm really happy with it

Didn't Betty. Yeah, thank you. Thank you Joshy boy came I came prepared to the exhibition

I didn't know he was making a video about it. So he did definitely rock up with the camera. Toby not surprised. Yeah

Yeah, it was a nice surprise

Remember to subscribe like give us a like and comment down below what you think of a work and we'll check this website up

Yeah, I can take a look at the five images here. Yeah, and don't forget to check out Jimmy

I'll reveal on Hagen Kamil and Hagen in the description Neville Hagin Hagin has done a series on eyes and shamil on

Miniature cars so it's very very nice. Yeah, those ones ninja cars also one of the favored ones

So yeah, thank you to deacon and thank you - yeah, it's apartment and very good everyone and we'll also link

The Instagram for this Deakin graduate form so you can see all of them that Instagram. Yeah if you want

Thank you have to let us thank you for watching coming to be working hard

We've been working hard and come out with some really really cool videos soon. All right photo shoots going cool black worry, whatever, huh?

Thank you for coming Alex. Thank you, baby. It's a pleasure having you here with no charger bring here

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Best surprise honeymoon present... in Paris! - Duration: 7:16.

you thought I was joking

hello to another day in Paris I loving it and yesterday was a day for eating

then today is the day for shopping right babe no it is we're going to a couple of

steps shops one is

we just went to this amazing little shop club saj got way too many goodies well I

feel insanely spoiled visage I got so many cute goodies two Blazers that you

saw a couple of dresses shirt shirt I'm so excited to wear them around Paris

look how cute he is look at this look at that such an outfit

if I ever saw one off to shop more we're gonna shop till we drop or until my feet

hurt too bad in these amazing closure issues

but I got no first innings down

explain where we are we are in best departments

it's not a department we're in the best space in Paris that has every thing you

could ever imagine in terms clothing call glory

versus any pinkie good

you in debt and everything that you would never eat

every kind of the things you need it's all things that you want none of the

things that you probably actually need to send your buddy on we're having your

speech your sims too slow you'll never see it

hey it's don't up here was that I bet you didn't know that I have my own

brand comment this laundry

you thought I was joking

so secret's out my lingerie brand so much and I didn't even show you first

half of it but it's master than there the dogs are Barkin

so we're headed back to go down I found a purse that I'm in love with

they didn't have the color so we're going to store an extra hotel see if

they had one now you say with me

and by the first in a long time

it might be time

okay we did it we shop till we drop I'm still saving our difference in their

inflatable elements the realest really cool

jacket

we did it we shopped we're about to drop into chairs and at a cafe and a solidly

fair you watch all over we're very tired all

right

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The 10 Most Mispronounced English Words - Duration: 12:21.

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KNIT TIPS - How To Knit Argyle - Duration: 2:37.

This is a technique for creating an Argyle style pattern on a field of two

row garter stripes. It's actually much simpler to create than it looks.

It's similar to slipped stitch color work in that you're only ever working with

one color at a time. This version involves a 12 stitch repeat

but the basic stitch technique is the same for any version. You're working on

the base of two row garter stripes so for this row I'm using my main color,

this light purple. So you're going to knit up to the point where your

instructions call for a left-leaning stitch.

To make the left leaning stitch, with your right needle reach down to the last

stripe of the same color. Pick up the bottom loop of the stitch that is half a

stitch to the right of the next stitch on the left needle. So this is the stitch

below, and then this is the bottom loop to the right. So we're looking for this

loop right here. You're going to place the loop on your right needle, knit the

next stitch, then pass the loop over the stitch you just knit. So the loop is on

my right needle, knit the next stitch, and pass the loop over.

And that creates your left-leaning stitch. Keep knitting until you get to

the point where the instructions call for a right-leaning stitch. To make the

right leaning stitch, with your right needle reach down to the last stripe of

the same color. Pick up the bottom loop of the stitch that is half a stitch to

the left of the next stitch on the left needle, so this loop here. You'll place

the loop on your right needle and knit the next stitch, then pass the loop over

the stitch you just knit. And that creates your right leaning stitch. You

can create different versions of the argyle stripe pattern by changing the

spacing between the lifted stitches which alters the width of the Argyle

diamond. If you enjoy this stitch technique, you can play around with it

and make it your own!

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Shane Dawson's Brand New Netflix Series?? - Duration: 7:44.

Hi guys thank you so much for tuning back in it's a pleasure to see you all

back and I've had some great feedback from the last video and I thought I

would do another video in today's video I'm gonna be talking about Shane

Dawson's brand new Netflix series guys or should I say Shane Dawson should have

a Netflix series and in this video I want to talk about why Shane Dawson

should have a Netflix series and why I think it would be good for Netflix as

well I think we can all agree that changed my new series is brilliant it's

really good fact would you say it's Netflix standard yeah I would say it's

Netflix standard in my opinion anywhere personally I watch a lot on that - the

flitter I watch her on Netflix and comparing from Shane's series to Netflix

and I think Shane's series is actually a better than a lot of the documentaries

on Netflix so we've clarified that one further now over the past couple of

years we've seen a massive change between 16 and 24 year olds moving more

online to YouTube and Netflix you know we can see from the statistics this TV

shows being axed we all know a big brother if you're from the United

Kingdom you all know we well you will know that channel 5 is just acts Big

Brother and Channel Five's target audience for Big Brother it's between 16

to 24 a lot of 60 24 year olds as we can see from statistics have moved away and

now are online and are watching YouTube and they're watching Netflix there's not

a lot more people watching on the demand on TV everything's changing guys and

that's the thing we need to try and keep up and that's one of the things I would

say about TVs done for I see a lot of negativity online I never mentioned a

chance mentioned a lot of youtubers a mentioning about the BBC and a lot of

media and really criticizing our youtubers and I find that really it's

it's quite a kind of upsetting because surely we only be working together

especially with the future changes I know there's been some numbers thrown

around quite recently that over the next couple years YouTube subscribers are

going to double or something on YouTube even the amount of people users that

come on a YouTube is going to double so we really need to start working together

because soon a lot of our TV will be online

I honestly think by 2030 or around that time guys that you're not live TV

probably won't be live TV as we know it it'll be

Netflix or it be streamed or be some sort of streaming service we all do it

you know I'm actually one of the one of the few people that actually still watch

people and show off I believe it or not and and do i watch your live no I don't

do you know I watch you guys i watch your on-demand i watch it a couple days

after and watching them bulk just like a lot of people do and I think that's one

of the main things and I think over the next couple of months we really do TV

stations meaning we really do need to start working together because YouTube

is a dominant force we can see from what she is doing

she and his created something that is getting millions upon millions of views

every single day he uploaded one last night it's really got 7.5 million views

and that is in such a short space of time and that's what getting to guys

should should Shane Dawson be on Netflix well in my opinion you should be yeah

you should be and I think because of the YouTube you know the new YouTube

algorithm and I know D monetization I'm a little bit about D monetization myself

and I know that it's a bit of a nightmare with for YouTube with the

money side of things I don't really want to get into that I'm being honest but a

lot of youtubers are complaining about it so surely the more popular youtubers

will end up ditching mutes you can gone over Netflix would that be a thing and I

could actually see there happen an act that the size of Netflix now and the way

things are going with Netflix and there's been plenty of youtubers going

over there surely Shane Dawson should be next if this content is created in the

professionality the quality the depth to here series you know it's not just saw

of a camcorder going right is Jake paula sociopath there's so much depth to every

single episode that he does in regardless if you love Shane Dawson if

you don't have shown yes Shane Dawson I think we can all agree that he's

creating something regardless if you like it or not he's creating something

that is crazy and it is changing the way we watch TV on YouTube the way we watch

things on YouTube if you hadn't looked at YouTube ten years ago you would have

seen you know videos like jackass videos where people are doing crazy stunts and

that still happens and that sort of popular audience as we can see from the

poor brothers and you know that's still popular on YouTube however I really feel

like Shane's creating a new wave of youtubers what I've noticed quite

recently especially looking YouTube's algorithm and doing a lot of

in-depth review tube the D monetization has really changed a lot of ways of how

YouTube creates and how it pushes content at the top and a lot of

youtubers are sitting at the making you know less and less and we can't see

enough from looking at other youtubers as subscribers count players and how

people move one of the things that Shane has done is he's being different and

he's been consistent and that's the thing guys would you know a question

that I'm probably gonna hear is what people move to Netflix to watch in

series well if you look at statistics of how many people and they're small in the

announced was over a hundred and thirty million or something subscribers if we

look at how many people are actually subscribed to Netflix would she and

actually generate more money for Netflix because with more people from YouTube

drip over to Netflix now what I don't want to happen and this is not what I'm

trying to say at all because this would be a disaster I'm not saying everyone

should leave you can go to Netflix cuz that's not what I'm saying what I'm

saying is how amazing is this guy's that someone that has started off on YouTube

it's now creating content big enough and popular enough took a twenty million

views per video and as high-quality as a Netflix series you ask me should she

endorse and be on Netflix I would watch it and I'm sure there's plenty of more

other people that would watch her it's nice that he's on YouTube but as a

supporter of Shin do I want him to jump to the next step into Cedar Desert if

that next step and my opinion I think he does and that's what I want this video

to be about guys I really wanted to kinda open you know a lot of people when

they watch videos they don't really see the negative sides of online media and I

really feel like quite recently there's been quite a lot of churn at the moment

with the way online media is I never mentioned it in his recent video with an

interview with the BBC it was so such a shame to see she

endorsed and create something so incredible and so popular and so well

proceed preserve preserve perceived perceived in YouTube and still to see

BBC just go on about the money side of things were not really interested about

how much shins make and I'm sure that he's making all this money if he is

making all this money and well of course can he make money I'm sure that he is of

course but I'm more interested really on the content that he's creating and how

he's done it how he created contents all good why is he

done it that's what I'm more interested in as a supporter and someone that loves

YouTube let me know in the comments what you think about that that's just me you

know I'm a boring person let me know what you think

subscribe please drop me and follow follow me on Instagram and all social

media I've got some exciting things happening so brand new content new

camera software and new new things happening and honestly guys it's been a

pleasure but the things I do want to just mention guys before I go is no I

love YouTube and I don't think youtubers should leave YouTube so please don't

think from this video I'm saying that or because YouTube is being life-changing

for me as it has been for many other people and of course I don't want our

favorite create a sleeve YouTube but what I would love to see is she and

creating series and maybe getting on Netflix and it'll be fantastic anyway

guys let me know in the comments let me know what you think let me know an

Instagram let me know on Twitter let me know what you think because it means the

world to have your comments as long as they're positive anyway guys see you in

the next video

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Pumpkin Bread Recipe - Amy Lynn's Kitchen - Duration: 2:59.

Hi everyone, I'm Amy!

And today I'm making pumpkin bread.

This is a really nice fall recipe

and it makes two delicious loaves of pumpkin bread.

So let's get started!

Preheat your oven to 350 degrees

and take a large mixing bowl

and add 3 1/2 cups of flour,

1 1/2 teaspoons of salt,

2 teaspoons of baking soda,

1 teaspoon of cinnamon

1 teaspoon of allspice

and 3 cups of sugar.

Now make a hole in the center.

And then add 4 large eggs,

2/3 cup of water,

1 cup of vegetable oil

and 2 1/2 cups of canned pure pumpkin.

Now stir this together well.

Now spray 2 loaf pans with nonstick cooking spray.

Evenly divide the batter between the two pans.

Now just bake this in the oven for about 1 hour

or until a toothpick inserted in the center comes out clean.

Then remove them from the oven and let them stand for about 10 minutes.

Then remove the bread from the pan and place them onto wire racks to cool completely.

And here it is...

delicious pumpkin bread.

And you can change this recipe by adding some chopped nuts and raisins to the batter before baking.

For this recipe and many more check out my website at

amylynnskitchen.com

You can also find me on instagram, twitter and facebook at amylynnskitchen.

[bloopers] And here it is...

[laughing] Oh my gosh, I can get

pumpkin bread. And here it is... pumpkin bread

[laughing]

Something's not right!

Something's just not right here!

[laughing] Pumpkin bread!

Delicious pumpkin bread.

And this recipe can change... ca.

Ohhhh... I still can't get this.

And here it is...

delicious banana bread

[laughing] no banana bread

Ohhhhhh...

Oh my gosh

Banana bread!

Pumpkin! Where did I get banana?

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TWO TIME 【MEME】 - Duration: 1:32.

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O PODER DA TERAPIA FLORAL - Duration: 2:02.

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giffgaff presents A Monster Family - Full Film (2018) - Duration: 4:15.

Good morning, beautiful.

There you go.

Good boy.

Ahhh.

Stupid bats.

Hi Esme.

Hi Frank.

The worms are chewy today.

It's not the worms, it's your cooking.

Shut up, or you're doing the dishes.

Mum, I wanted to ask you something.

Are all families like us?

What do you mean?

I don't know. We just seem..

..different

Don't be daft.

Eat your soup.

Ahh.

Don't worry.

<We have found the girl>

You'll be safe now

<I repeat we have found the girl>

Miss. Miss.

Welcome to your new home, Esme.

We are your new Mummy and Daddy.

We've got you some presents.

<And smile.>

Monsters, bad.

Humans, good.

Do you have any questions?

I think you are the most beautiful woman I have ever met.

We're so happy to have you.

And to make it official,

all we need is for to you to sign

here.

I'm not sure about this.

But don't you understand what we're offering you.

A life of luxury.

You ungrateful creature. Sign it.

Sign it. Sign it.

No. You're not going to make me sign, anything.

Oh. No, no, no.

<paparazzi chatter>

In London today, the rescued orphan known as the Monster Girl

finds herself in the centre of a media storm.

Yes, we have rules. Yes, we have contracts.

I know.

But families don't need contracts.

I'm going to say no to commitment.

No to social norms.

No to looking nice, just for the sake of looking nice.

I'm gonna make my own choice,

and yeah it might be a bit weird,

and a bit err and a bit what you doing.

But I'm gonna choose my family.

My monster family.

It's nice to have you back.

It's nice to be back.

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Way back home - Shaun (숀) - Piano Cover wizardrypro - Duration: 1:54.

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$ไปช่วยมิกกี้เม้า หาบ้าน!? |ซับไทย| - Duration: 2:02.

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Only I Can Insult My Mom - Duration: 3:31.

(computer dinging)

- Jesus, my mom sent me another article

about someone's phone exploding and starting a fire.

- Oh, she must really be worried

that that's gonna happen to you.

- She's constantly sending me neurotic emails.

Like, every week, I get these sensationalist articles

about the dangers of Lyme disease

or aspartame or tap water.

- At least you only have to deal with one paranoid parent,

some people have to deal with two.

(laughing)

(building dramatic music)

- Okay, well fuck both of you.

- Katie, what the hell?

- You called my mom paranoid,

or did you already forget that that happened?

Only I can talk shit about my mom.

- I didn't say anything.

- Yeah, but you laughed at Grant talking shit about my mom.

Nobody but me gets to laugh

when somebody talks shit about my mom,

which is also something that nobody but me gets to do.

- I was just reiterating what you said.

- Hello, you fucking idiot,

you called my mom paranoid, okay?

Only I can say she's paranoid.

- Okay, I'm sorry I said your mother is paranoid.

(sighing)

- Yeah, let's just move on, okay?

Just don't say it again.

- There's nothing really wrong with being paranoid.

I wish my mom had been more like that.

She never worried about anything,

she was too busy being eccentric.

- Yeah, what'd she do?

- Oh, tons of stuff.

She's like the artist type, you know?

Like she would show up at school

in these like sequin dresses

or like cowboy hats, something embarrassing like that.

- Oh man, that is crazy.

(laughing)

(building dramatic music) (whooshing)

(screaming)

- Hey, this isn't my shirt.

- Don't you fucking say anything about my mother ever again.

- Jess, I'm sure you're over-reacting.

- Bullshit, you heard what she said.

That's crazy. - I don't sound like that.

- What do you think?

You think my mother belongs in the nuthouse?

You think she's a nutcase?

- I didn't mean it like that,

I meant it more like, that's fun, like crazy fun.

- Good, you fuckin' better have.

- I'm sorry, really. - (sighing) It's clear

neither one of you were raised by my mom.

She is very relaxed. - How so?

- She's got this great chill vibe.

It's like every day is a day at the beach.

- That is relaxed.

(items crashing) (women screaming)

(table clattering)

- Don't you ever talk about my mother like that.

- That was a compliment. - Really!

- We swear.

- It was a compliment when you said she was relaxed?

- Yeah, that's a nice thing to say about somebody.

- Yeah.

- Yes, I do see how that would be a compliment.

I apologize, I can be a little rash.

- (chuckling) Well, you sound like my mom.

- That's too bad. - Yeah.

(building dramatic music)

- Don't you fucking dare say that.

- No, stop, Katie, no!

- Don't you dare say that about my mother!

(all screaming)

- No, get off of her.

Katie, you're gonna kill her.

You're gonna kill her.

You're gonna kill her.

- Oh, that totally reminds me of my mom.

She was a mob boss, she killed a lot of people.

- Um, sounds like an awesome mom.

- Are you kidding?

No, she's a murderer,

she's in prison, we're all terrified of her.

- Yeah, I was gonna say, that sounds super scary.

- What the hell did you say?

(knife plopping) (screaming)

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The Abusive Jake Paul / Alissa Violet Relationship (Shane Dawson Ex Girlfriend Part 7 Reaction) - Duration: 13:02.

you know how to keep telling all of you that you need to keep people in your

life who tell you what you need to hear and not what you want to hear well

that's what I love about my girlfriend because after my first alissa violet and

Shane Dawson video she let me know that I came off pretty insensitive and

looking back I can honestly see what she means by that so in this video we're

gonna be talking about the serious subject of abuse emotional as well as

physical as well as empowerment so stay tuned

what is everybody this is Chris from the rewired soul where we talk about the

problem but focus on the solution and if you're new to my channel my channel is

all about helping you improve your mental health so what I like to do is

pull things from the YouTube community or pop culture and take these subjects

to try to teach you how to improve your mental and emotional well-being so I've

been doing a lot of recaps of the Shane Dawson series so if you're into that

kind of stuff make sure you subscribe and bring that notification belt so yeah

my my first video I talked about playing the victim my girlfriend was like

letting me know like she just watched it like late last night she's like hey I

kind of disagree with you on some of this stuff about our relationship is

that we can have these kind of like back and forth and debates it doesn't explode

like a relationship it's like have you ever been in one of those relationships

were like every little argument turned into this gigantic thing well my

girlfriend like let me know like you know she disagrees with me and I

explained my you know my views and stuff and you know we we disagree on you know

a few things but through talking with her about this like I was like yeah I

can definitely see how this came off insensitive right you know that's

something that I have to check myself on because you know I think sometimes I

worry about over sympathizing with people but then it can swing the

opposite way and just be extremely insensitive and what we got to do is

kind of fun this middle ground alright so let's talk

about abuse real quick video and like I have a large female audience I think my

audience is 82% female so as I was reading through this you know obviously

a lot of you agree with my girlfriend on this subject that's not that's not my

intention with this and I'll explain why pretty soon one of the one of the

comments that really like kind of hit me for some reason was it was very short

comedy said something along the lines of you know I like you you may know about

substance abuse but you don't know about emotion you don't know about emotional

abuse oh my wait what what you don't know me right so let's talk about alissa

violet Jake Paul and emotional abuse so yeah there was definitely abuse in this

relationship okay and it's difficult because Melissa violet you know even

when she was talking like face banks and talking to shame like like they to use

this word abuse because that's a pretty serious allegation you know like with

with these kids they're young that's something my girlfriend reminded me

about too like they're young kids like it's a point that we talk about this

type of stuff so well well I don't I don't know everything about this story

like when it comes to the manipulation and things like that way a lot of what I

was talking about was you know there was a mutual agreement for friends with

benefits and all of that but there's some things that weren't addressing this

interview that came to mind after my first video like it was ever talked

about in the interview life like Jake like spinning on her like that was on

camera like Jake spitting on Alissa violet which is not cool

now as far as the physical stuff like when she shared the story about the cell

phone and him like dragging down the stairs and like there's not a huge fan

personally of like this kind of like roughhousing and everything like it was

fake and sometimes I went over the law to people like

that can go wrong really quick franksen some of them were real like

Alyssa said but like I don't know these are my professional Hollywood actors and

things like that so I just I just think that's a very risky thing so one thing I

do want to talk about too like when it comes to abuse emotional abuse as well

as just like like women and some conversation going on so alissa violet

discusses how she was being slut-shamed right so when she hooked up with Logan

Paul you know people saying yeah horn all these other things right and Alissa

father said something that kind of bugged me and I'll tell you why but she

said you know there's this double standard which I agree and she said you

know people are you know pulling me all these names well they should be calling

him all those names too I don't like that I don't like how it's framed

because basically the way she was saying it it's like well you're being negative

towards me so you should be negative towards him right the way I see that

negative connotation in the first place right I don't know how many of you have

siblings or you know whatever but did you ever get in trouble as a kid just

because you're your sibling got in trouble that's ridiculous

what I'm saying is is that we just need to get rid of this like slut-shaming

like I was talking about this in my live stream this world would be such a better

place if people just quit caring so damn much about things that do not matter all

right like who cares who are Alissa violet

hooks up with who cares who Jake Paul hooks up with who cares how many people

someone slept with like it is absolutely ridiculous

that people care about this type of thing like I don't know what year people

think it is or what you know community like you're like I had somebody

commenting yes about you know we had a conversation

about polyamory and things like that so yeah the whole slut-shaming thing is

ridiculous and I definitely understand what Elissa violet is saying because

like that is something that really fascinates me like why are there these

double standards right - yeah this last part of the video I just want to talk

about abuse and and kind of like my journey and I'll try to keep it short

and sweet but you know this is a conversation I'd only think my

girlfriend and I had up until last night but but yeah I understand this type of

abuse I understand emotional abuse like I'm the son of an

alcoholic mom I was told things as a kid from my drunk mother that you should

have been told as a kid about why you date who you date but because of my

childhood I dated very emotionally abusive women Oh Ryan like I told my

girlfriend a while back like I get why this is hard for men to talk about this

but like I told my girlfriend a while back like it was a text message I'm like

you know what I love about you I'm like you don't call me an idiot when I make

dumb jokes right you know I've been a big deal but for me it is like because

I've dated women who call me an idiot I dated women who call me a piece of

crap every single day and garbage and say I'm never gonna be anything or

anything and you know anybody else I've been with women who threw things at me

and hit me and destroyed my room and my stuff and you know what I mean like

these are the type of women I dated like I talked about that in one of my last

videos like I look for crazy women like I wasn't just you know dating like women

who were like kind of feisty like I dated women who were very very abusive

right emotionally somewhere physically and I

kept in that cycle so when I was talking about girlfriend about this

it comes off insensitive I get that but I had a journey right a journey and

through my journey of recovery like I was taught not to play the victim when

I'm not the Vic entirely and let me explain that so it

12-step programs there's a thing called the fourth step and you break it up into

column so you've heard me talk about this a little bit writing an inventory

you got to write down who harmed you right in the last column you got to

write what your part is there's a lot of people who disagree with 12-step

programs because of this because it seems like we're beating ourselves up

and stuff like that but I completely disagree because like for example when

I'm writing down like my mom was a drunk and you know she said this when I was

five six seven years old dah dah dah dah dah like those things like I had no part

in that like I was a child I have absolutely no part in that you know I

was a victim but what it did was like going through this gigantic list of all

the situations in my life I started separating like what I do and don't have

control over right now one thing I did have control over what's who I dated one

thing I had control over was who I stayed in relationships with alright

these are things that it was very very important for me to understand and this

is what I'm talking about with empowerment because when I looked at

this stuff I'm not always the victim right and I'm not a victim I'm empowered

and that's what I want to offer to all of you and that's that's kind of what I

was I was aiming for and I might have missed the mark in my first list of

violent video and maybe it's because I didn't give you more context around this

but here's the thing like because of this because I wrote this stuff down and

I looked at how I was treated and looked at how I don't want to be treated how I

deserve to be treated I don't put up with that stuff anymore I do not put up

with people who are verbally emotionally abusive to me like I just don't do that

anymore and it's a great feeling and that's why

I get so passionate about this and when I talk about like well you know quit

making these decisions quit making these decisions I get it like ELISA by this 22

she hasn't been through this experience and I think you know sometimes I talk

like more in a broader sense but like I will say this this is why we need more

conversation about mental health and what is or isn't okay in relationships

and we need to empower one another we need people in online

say yo your boyfriend or your girlfriend is treating you like garbage you don't

deserve that so like if you're watching this and you're dealing with anything I

don't care if it's a friend I don't care if it's a family member you do not

deserve this I do not tolerate any of that crap I do not let people call me I

don't even let people call me up and verbally bash me all right like so when

I'm like in the comment section and there's people just like saying stuff I

just laugh about it because like I'm not going to let that affect me but in my

comments is a different story if you like I don't block people because I kind

of like showcasing what jerks people are that's why I don't block them but

anyways what I want you to get from this thing is to take these lessons learned

right I want you to become empowered I want you to know that you deserve better

I hope Alyssa knows that she deserves better right and here's the thing my

girlfriend and I were talking about this this is yet another reason why you need

a few things you need a strong support group

Alyssa should you know stop with a therapist like we need somebody telling

us like that was my problem I never had anybody telling me like Chris you're

better than this Chris you don't deserve this like have you ever heard that term

that you dated your self-esteem level well I feel like a piece of garbage most

my life so that's what I dated right so we need other people to build us up and

that's why I love this community a lot of you build each other up so I want to

let you all know like you don't deserve that you deserve better okay so anyways

let me know down in the comments below like what are your what are your

thoughts on the subject is this something difficult to talk about what's

your experience with it have you learned how to become empowered what advice can

you offer to the other people in this community about how they don't need to

put up with that kind of crap like let's talk down in the comments below alright

anyways that's all I got for this video if you like this video please give it a

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What do you remember from the first time we met?

I remember...

seeing your headshot

like on a mood board for a runway show that we were about to walk in together

and I remember saying,

"Why do I want to have a sex with that woman?"

When I first saw your photo

Yeah, I remember

like getting changed with you and like noticing that our outfit was like super similar

and getting put, I think right behind you in the lineup.

We were actually walking together.

Yeah

In the same exact outfit.

In the same outfit?

Same outfit.

Yeah, puff puff

It was really puffy.

So puffy.

Like embarrassingly puffy

But, like cute

Yeah

Yeah

When do you feel closest to me?

Well, when umm

we made out that one time while watching RuPaul's Dragrace

No, that was like-

It was actually the the night that we met.

I remember like...

I remember thinking our relationship was gonna go in a totally different direction

when I first met you.

Well I, you know-

I feel like in the future, one day- you know

Maybe, heyy

It's the genitalia thing.

- That's literally it! - That's it!

But I didn't even know about your genitalia when I first met you, I was-

Obviously I was like attracted to your personality

Yeah

No, I'm kidding

No, I really was

See I would, but the prob-

Last time I slept with any guy,

it was like that guy who kind of looked like the flock of seagulls and I literally didn't know what to do

I was like

and I just I couldn't do that to you.

I couldn't deprive you of:

You know, servicing - I mean

I don't know

I don't know!

I don't feel closest with you when I'm being...

sexual with you.

It's more when I

Don't have anybody else to turn to.

Like you're that person in my life.

So, yeah.

You're like my confidant, you know?

I feel the same way

Like I feel like, I feel closest to you when I come home after a long day

and we don't need to talk.

No matter what we're doing, even if it's really mundane. It just doesn't feel awkward or off

and it can be filled with silence and I am so

surrounded by noise all the time with like, you know

the press and people, like constantly hitting me up through social media and my work.

It's just it's nice to know that there's one person I can be silent with.

Yeah, meow

What's one thing I don't understand about you and why do you think that is?

That's a big question

I'm gonna get some water for that question

Oh

Well there- yeah, okay

Yeah

Oh, yeah that thing

Yeah, well

But it's okay.

No, it's good. It's it's actually fine. It's good that you don't understand everything

because I am a standalone human being at the end of the day.

Yeah, and you gotta have some mystery

I gotta have some mystique about me or else, you know

One thing that I think that you might not understand

is my experience

culturally, my experience with my family being, you know

raised by an interracial couple and

going and visiting those two respective families and entering into those two different worlds.

I think that that is something

that very few people get to have.

And I feel lucky- I want to bring you to my-

- We're going in a few weeks, I'm going to go down - to my Mom's house

Yeah, well I want you to meet-

But, it's like

Yeah, if you meet my family

like my immediate family,

It's gonna be a different experience because we were raised in love and acceptance

and we were encouraged to be ourselves

authentically and all of that because my parents

had to fight for the validation of their love alone.

But when you visit my Southern Baptist family in North Carolina, that will be the culture shock for you-

I can relate though, my Dad's a Trump supporter

My you know, I mean, I don't really like using the term dad but one of my parents is a Trump supporter

And then the other side is very Catholic.

Yeah

So there can be a relatability

I mean as a person who- you know, my birth certificate has an F on it.

And I've always felt like that F stood for failure

you know because I just failed to pass or failed to be good enough to be an acceptable woman.

When I wear a dress down the street I get these looks and when I see a job opening for, you know female

Bartender or whatever. I know that whenever it says female, they're not talking about me.

Yeah

No matter how I try and I feel really alone in my identity a lot of times.

Yeah

And you're a person who really strongly identifies as a 'He' and you do have a lot of queerness around you-

But don't even say that because that's not true.

Ah, that's something that I don't know about you.

No, I've said it.

I don't have a preferred gender pronoun whatsoever

Really?

So my preference is not 'He' and I know that- I thought you knew that.

I did not know that.

In our talk that we did at the Phluid project,

that's the first thing I said.

Like, my name is Cory Wade. I don't have a preferred gender pronoun.

That means you can call me 'He' and I will respond. You can call me 'She' and I will respond.

You can call me 'They' and I will respond.

You can call me unicorn. You can call me galaxy- anything.

I remember that part, yeah

But that's what-

But I guess it's cuz like, maybe that-

I mean, I remember you saying that, but I guess like I've never seen I've never seen-

I've never seen it in action.

Oh, it's in- it's in full throttle, full force,

full action Hanny.

RD: Um that's amazing C: I promise you that.

But I still-

I will cherish and love that.

But I didn't know, I'm so sorry like I-

I've always kind of assumed that you're very in your male identity.

Because you're very-

What about me...

and how I act or even dress sometimes

RD: Well, yeah C: gives you that impression?

Well your dressing can definitely be a lot more

across societal norms or spectrums.

Yeah

But I guess that like inherent knowledge of like what is our body to ourselves

and I've never had a conversation with you

I don't think ever,

being like: this is how I deeply, truly feel in my heart and you know

you said "I feel deeply-

I didn't feel male because male for me was something to constantly live up to.

I was raised with 3 straight, cis

brothers, who were brought up, you know- put into sports.

And I was too

and we were constantly like measured by how manly we were.

And it wasn't like anything intentional that our parents were doing it was just kind of like

that's what the world does, you know?

So I'm definitely- I would consider myself genderqueer, but I also pass by societal standards

Yeah

in a way that I know you don't.

Like I've seen it with you in real time where I'm like

waiting outside of a bathroom for you because

I'm afraid somebody's gonna say something

because I'm watching their eyes and I see them looking at you when you go into the women's room.

That's what I'm talking about. Like that's that's the

Where you've really, you know

your experience is like totally educational for me being a part of it, being there.

Um yeah

and yeah, yeah, yeah

Meow meow meow meow meow

What's the pain in me that you wish you could heal and why?

Yeah, I think that a lot of times you don't feel like you're enough.

And that

You know, as much as you keep on saying like my destiny

I know I'm destined for good things and know I have a future that's not this, it's something bigger.

I think often times you think that you're not enough. That you're not good enough, you're not pretty enough,

you're not like unique enough, you know

and you just keep on going through these waves of rejection

and I think sometimes you reject yourself over that

I wish that- that's definitely something I wish I could heal for you because I think you're absolutely enough.

Thanks

We just have to find who it is out there who wants to...

Sabotage me. No, just kidding-

I'm a psychopath.

Thanks

Yeah

What do I wish I could heal in you?

I

know that deep down, based on how I've seen you react when

people say certain things to you about your physical appearance.

That you don't know how beautiful you really are.

Oh shucks

I don't get bothered by- I really don't get bothered by physical comments,

RD: but I do get bothered that people- C: I've seen it

No, I don't actually feel ugly when people say it,

I feel frustrated because I know that's the kind of stuff people kill themselves over every day.

And I know if they're saying it to me, they're saying it to other people

and it really upsets me.

That's why I respond to them on social media.

That's why I spend like part of my day,

Educate don't hate, like going on and actually responding to the trolls.

Which you're not supposed to do, but we have a lot of fun with it and we've actually

converted and brought a lot of people over to a more peaceful

Yeah

way of thinking.

I've seen that, and I-

but I've also seen it with people who

know you beyond social media like

lovers and

Oh yeah, for sure.

People who you've let into your life who say

Yeah, really really intimate people

Who say things that I see cut you and I just want you to know

that when they do that,

that's their ugly showing and

that you are beautiful and perfect.

In, not only my eyes, but in so many other people's eyes.

Both of your eyes!

Yeah, in both of my eyes

You're so pretty

So pretty

What do you wish for me in the future?

Ugh

Everything

I don't even think you know how big it's gonna get

but it's gonna get big Henny

and you are-

I think that you are

extraordinary and I just want you to live up to

Your highest version of you and

it's gonna happen.

So, I'm not even worried. It's not even like I have to

C: wish for it RD: It's happening

Yeah

that's the thing about you

like, I'm like I see you

Same thing about you.

Yeah

If shit goes south,

we'll just either live in a tent in my- one of my parents backyards up in Vermont

and make a living collecting eggs and mushrooms from the forest.

But we'll be together

It's gonna be beautiful.

Alright

Awww

Why do you love me?

Meow

Why do I love you?

You know, it's really funny

We first met during the runway show, but the funny thing is is I didn't even want to be a model, I ended up

You know

I ended up going to a lot- to my friend's house and they wanted to be a model

they wanted to be on America's Next Top Model and I was homeless at the time,

I was in a really rough space

She would say, ok, if you come over and you work out with me and help me get in shape

I'll let you crash for the night

So every week I would come over when America's Next Top Model was on

and we'd watch an episode of America's Next Top Model

We would work out to Richard Simmons

and then we'd rewatch the episode and drink a bottle of Jack Daniels and completely undo everything

that we had just done.

But when I watched the show it was the season that you were on

and I saw you just getting slammed for your identity so much

It really

it really affected me really deeply

and when you got eliminated I actually stopped watching. I still don't know who won the season

I didn't care

I was like, "justice was not served" and I always wanted to meet you.

I was like this person is so amazing

and I feel so connected to them and their struggle and who they are

When I saw you, um

It wasn't like this weird bizarre new friends kind of thing

my instinct was- I remember, I think I said

you were just like "Hey!" you were just very friendly

and I was like "Good to see you"

Not like "Nice to meet you" or "Hey, how are you?"

It was "Good to see you" like

we just had like spent the day apart

or we've known each other our entire lives.

and I think that's why I love you.

I think, like

we are people who have existed together for a long period of time even if it's not in physical space.

I think we're just

We have a really really special honest connection. That's headed in the same

Like to the same dimension and I'm really really honored to be in your life.

I Love you

because

You accept all of me and

really understand truly all of me.

And that's why it's hard to like even

grasp to try to answer the question earlier

like what don't you understand about me because I feel like

there aren't very many people out there who do.

The only reason we seem like so much and we seem

so mysterious to most is because of what people are trained to perceive as normal

and I think that

You are like the most normal person I've ever met and no one would ever ever say that about you

You know?

But it's because I see-

That's fair

its because I see myself in you.

Yeah, I just, I love you. You know that.

I love you too

Mm-hmm.

I know that yeah, meow!

We're going to have beautiful babies in the future.

Done.

Yeah, so is the pact still intact?

Yeah sperm donor or marriage.

Marriage

If we don't get married by, you know

Yeah, but no

When we- if we do that, it's gonna be such like a beautiful like queer wedding

that I'm going to be such like an insane planner for.

I can't wait.

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