hey guys my name is Amanda and welcome back to my channel
so I wanted to do this video because I want raise awareness on the mental
mental health community and stuff like that because I suffer from it and I know
a lot of people that follow me do also because you guys always tell me your
stories and stuff so I want to talk about anxiety and anxiety attacks in
particular anxiety is something that I faced for a long time ever since I can
remember like since I was 12 and it's something that I still don't know how to
cope with fully and I don't know what to do when I'm having anxiety attacks
anxiety attacks like they feel if they're taking over your body they feel
like you're being suffocated into something they feel like you can't
breathe and you can't get up and you don't know what to do and that's how I
feel when I get anxiety attacks I feel like my world is crumbling down I
feel like my brain is literally vanishing and I just don't know what to
do I feel this heavy like board stuck on top of my body and I just feel helpless
and lonely and that is just how I feel and I know that I'm not alone because I
have people that support me from all sorts of scapes and I know that I am
worthy of something but my body and my brain and my whole entire being is
telling me that I'm not I get anxiety attacks for several things I get anxiety
attacks when I'm nervous about something I get anxiety attacks when I overthink
something I get anxiety attacks when I literally just sit there without
anything in my mind and that is just how it is and that's just how my life is and
I want to talk to you guys about this because I don't know what else to do I
am fortunate enough to have a boyfriend who literally will be there for me no
matter what whether it's 5 a.m. or 5 p.m. he will literally listen to me talk
about God knows what when I'm feeling like this and I'm very grateful for that
but not everyone gets that opportunity and not everyone gets that not everyone is
that lucky to have someone there for them and if you are not lucky and if you feel
like you're alone you have no one to talk to this video is for you if you are
sitting there in your bed on your chair on the floor on your couch in the middle
of nowhere and you feel like you're alone and you feel like you don't know
what to do and you feel that anxiety building up building literally building
up in your body just breathe just take some breaths breathe in and breathe out
breathe in and breathe out try to clear your mind of whatever it is bothering
you try to clear your mind negative thoughts try to clear your mind
of the nervous thoughts try to clear your mind of the bad things that it's
telling you because they're not true none of them are true your mind is
telling you that you don't deserve love if your mind is telling you that you're
a failure if your mind is telling you that you're fat
if your mind is telling you that you literally shouldn't exist just block it
out I know that's hard to do I know how
that's fucking hard to do but you need to be able to do that to be able to get
past these obstacles when I have anxiety attacks I can't breathe properly I hyperventilate
I cry I literally think of the most worse things in the entire world
and I curl up into a ball in my bed and I wonder what the fuck is going on with
me that is what I think about I think about what the fuck is going on with me
why am I like this why am i fucked up like this but I don't think about the
fact that there is something inside my brain that is going on right now and I
don't think about the fact that I have a mental illness I think about the fact
that I'm fucked up that's crazy that's fucking crazy that people think about
that it's crazy because I don't know it's just crazy
this videos probably all over the
place but I just I need to get my thoughts out there sometimes and I
want to and I feel like this is one of the best ways to do it because you can
ramble and then you could just edit it after to make it sound like more any
more sense I've had anxiety attacks since I was about 12 and now they're for
different reasons obviously because people evolve
people change your worries change those things but it's also something that has
stuck with me since I was 12 and im now 20 so its eight years later and i still
get anxiety and I still get in anxiety attacks and you know what it's okay
because you learn how to cope with it you learn how to deal with it and my
mental illness is not going to make me not get to where I want in life because
I'm not gonna make it I'm not gonna make this take over my life I'm not gonna
make it take over my body I'm not gonna make it take over my career goals
because it's just a part of me now at this point and I'm gonna live with it
and I'm gonna learn how to live with it for the rest of my life and I want you
guys to do that too I want you to learn how to live with your illnesses I want you
to know that there will be someone there for you whether it be a human being like
face-to-face connection whether it being someone you call whether it being someone
you write to anything like that there will be that one person at least one
person for each person in this world that will be there for you to help you
to motivate you to help you cope with these things there will be someone and
if you're losing that strength if you're losing that power if you're losing that
will to keep going just please please please please for the sake of it text
one person and tell them how you're feeling whether it be your mom your dad
your grandmother if they know how to use a phone cuz mine doesnt, whether it be your
best friend your boyfriend someone you met over the internet that is probably
maybe dealing with the same things just please reach out to someone because your
life is valued and anxiety attacks can seem like a little thing to people
because people don't realize how much they really take on your body and how
exhausting they could be some people don't get that and that's okay because
not everyone knows how to handle it and not everyone experienced it before but just
know that your life is valued and that you are important
and you should not let these attacks and all these things take over your body
and take over you because you're special and this literally I went from
here to here to here you know but that's okay because my mind cannot think in a
straight linear line my mind goes everywhere so but if you got one
thing out of this video just one thing even like half a little thing out of
this video maybe that means I did something right um we're gonna hope I
did um but seriously I'm gonna leave some links down below if you everyone I
reach out to someone who don't want to talk to about it phone I'm gonna leave
phone numbers below so if you're ever wanting to call someone's you can um but
don't make these illnesses don't make these attacks take over you don't let
them control you because they can't they can't if you don't let them I hope you
guys enjoy this video if you did please give it a big thumbs up and subscribe to
me below, mental illness is not a joke please if you or someone you know is
struggling please try and help them or help yourself please yeah if you liked
it give a thumbs up subscribe below and I'll see you next time and remember
live life dont think twice, im outta here
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