Thứ Tư, 24 tháng 5, 2017

Waching daily May 24 2017

What's up everyone! It's Becca from MTP,

and welcome back to our channel.

Today we're going to compare and comment on

the awesome duo brought to you by Huawei: P10 and P10 + .

Bigger the better or small but compact?

Let's find out.

Let's start with the design.

Both have aluminum bodies with front glass panel.

P10 + version comes with IR blaster which P10 doesn't have.

It might be a deal breaker for some,

depending on what you want in the phone.

Some might never even use it.

The size is one of the biggest traits.

Huawei P10+ has a 5.5 inch IPS LCD display,

While Huawei P10 has a 5.1 inch IPS LCD display

which makes it 71.17% screen to body ratio.

Now let's talk about software.

Both devices run on Android Nougat 7.0

on top of the Huawei's own EMUI 5.1 interface.

Huawei p10+ runs on 6 GB of RAM

and it can come with 64 GB of 128 GB of storage,

opposed to Huawei P10 and it's 4 GB of RAM

and possibility of 32 GB or 64 GB of storage.

Benchmark tests showed surprising results though.

It turns out the multi-core scores were a bit bigger on the Huawei P10.

Both of these phones run smoothly in games, apps or content streaming.

But again, P10 scored just a little above P10+.

Why is that, you ask?

Well, we believe it's mostly because of the screen resolution.

P10 plus which has a bigger screen runs in 1440 x 2560 pixels,

versus P10 that has a smaller a screen but runs in 1080 X 1920 pixels,

which means that P10+ needs to deal with more pixels

with the same processor then the p10 has to.

Hence, slightly lower overall score.

Now, in the camera.

In P10 you will find dual Summarit lenses

with 20 MP monochrome sensor and 12 MP RGB sensor.

While the sensors in the P10+ are the same type

and feature the same megapixel count,

they're actually Leica's Summilux sensors

which should provide sharper and brighter shots.

Moreover, unlike the f/2.2 aperture in the Huawei P10,

the camera on the P10+ offers f/1.8 aperture.

You can see what we mean when we compare these photos.

Especially when you zoom in on the details.

But to be completely honest, the difference is really small overall.

See for yourself.

We just randomized these photos from both phones,

and put them in a slideshow.

Let us know if you can tell the difference in photo quality.

Because we can't.

So which one do you like better?

Let us know what you think in the comments below.

And that's all for today's review.

It's always a pleasure guys,

and thank you so much for watching.

www.mytrendyphone.eu

For more infomation >> Huawei P10 vs Huawei P10 Plus | Which One Should You Buy - MyTrendyPhone - Duration: 4:31.

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Essence of Murli 25-05-2017 - Duration: 6:36.

Om Shanti !

Today's Murli Date Is 25th May 2017

Essence: Sweet children, you should have love for the soul.

While walking and moving along, practise: "I am a soul. I am talking to a soul. I mustn't do anything bad."

Question: Which of the Father's orders must Brahmins definitely follow for as long as the sacrificial fire created by the Father continues?

Answer: The Father's order is: Children, for as long as this sacrificial fire continues, you definitely have to remain pure.

You Brahma Kumars and Kumaris who are the children of Brahma must never indulge in vice

Anyone who disobeys this order incurs severe punishment.

When someone even has the evil spirit of anger, he is not a Brahmin.

Brahmins have to remain soul conscious and never become influenced by vices.

Song: O Traveller from the faraway land.

Essence for dharna: 1. After becoming a Brahmin who belongs to the sacrificial fire of the knowledge of Rudra,

don't perform any actions that would make your conscience bite.

Never become influenced by any evil spirit.

2. In order to become a complete helper of the Purifier Father, remain constantly pure and cheerful.

Churn knowledge and continue to smile.

Blessing: May you have a right to self-sovereignty and use your mind, intellect, sanskars and all physical organs according to the routine.

Souls who have a right to self-sovereignty make all their physical organs function under their orders with the power of yoga.

Not just their physical organs, but even their mind, intellect and sanskars

have to function under the directions of their master as routine.

The masters are never influenced by their sanskars,

but they are able to control their sanskars and use them as an elevated routine.

They also enter relationships and connections with elevated sanskars.

Souls who have a right to self-sovereignty cannot be deceived even in their dreams.

Slogan: Imbibe the speciality of humility and you will continue to achieve success.

To the sweetest, beloved, long-lost and now-found children, love, remembrance and good morning from the Mother, the Father, BapDada.

The spiritual Father says namaste to the spiritual children.

We spiritual children convey to spiritual Baapdada, our love our remembrance, our good morning & our namaste namaste

Om Shanti !

For more infomation >> Essence of Murli 25-05-2017 - Duration: 6:36.

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Compex Tecnologia - Drops - Site Survey - Duration: 1:14.

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watercolor abstract art tutorial - art journal page - Duration: 10:48.

watercolor abstract art tutorial

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Episode 34 - The Simple Veggies - Duration: 5:39.

Hi, I'm Erin and this is Our Wyoming Life

Potatoes are a humble vegetable.

They are requirement of a starchy side dish on the dinner plate.

They can be pretty boring.

But when fresh from the garden, they can be transformed into something magical.

Add some spicy or sweet garden onions to the humble potato and now we're getting somewhere.

In life sometimes simple is best and the garden reminds us that even a boring potato can taste

better when home grown.

I love home grown potatoes.

They are tender and buttery.

I always grow 2 rows of them.

One row of Yukon gold and one row of Red Pontiac.

They both make excellent new potatoes and when picked and eaten fresh they have thin

skins and a tender texture.

Before we plant we have to get the garden ready.

Manure needs added.

Mike uses the tractor to make quick work of this job.

Well aged manure gets added to the outdoor gardens every two years.

After the manure is spread on the garden the international tractor gets used to till the

garden and work in the manure.

Every year potatoes are the first crop that gets planted outside.

The garden is long and I swear it's impossible to plant a straight row without a string.

This year potatoes will go right in the center of the garden.

It's important to rotate where your potatoes grow every year to prevent disease.

It's been 3 years since potatoes have been grown in the middle.

After the string is up I can start digging holes.

I use a garden stake to evenly space the potatoes.

I dig a 6 inch hole or so for each potato.

Then it's time to get the potatoes ready.

Seed potatoes have been purchased from the local feed store.

They need to be cut so that each hole can be filled.

The only requirement when dividing seed potatoes is that each section has an eye.

The eye is where the new potato plant will grow from.

Potato chunks get placed in each hole and then before they are buried we make sure that

the eyes are facing upward.

In a few weeks the leaves will emerge from and the ground.

These plants will get almost 2 foot tall, they will bloom pretty little purple flowers

and then a few weeks after they are done blooming potatoes will be able to be harvested.

Onions always go next to the potatoes.

Even though crops get rotated every year is seems certain things just go next to each

other.

For the past several years onion plants have been ordered from Dixondale Farms.

The plants get shipped to me sometime around the first part of May and they always produce

huge beautiful onions.

This year we are growing Walla Walla, Ringmaster White, Redwing and Lancelot Leeks.

The onions need to be planted in a trench.

A good old garden hoe is the tool for the job.

The onions get unbundled and placed in the trench.

They get planted pretty close together.

We will thin them as they grow.

By the end of the season we will have softball size onions.

All the different varieties of onions get planted the same way.

Once place in the trench we push the dirt back on them.

Fried potatoes and onions from the garden are a thing of beauty.

Crispy on the outside and tender on the inside, they are one of our favorite summer side dishes.

New potatoes fresh from the garden are so different from a potato that has been placed

in storage.

I highly recommend digging your potatoes throughout the season so that you can enjoy their deliciousness.

If you have never ordered onion plants from Dixondale Farms I would definitely steer you

to them for your next season.

I was never able to grow big onions until I started ordering from Dixondale farms.

The plants always arrive healthy and produce consistently large, tasty onions for me year

after year.

As the potatoes and the leeks grow they will be hilled.

That is a simple process that just requires piling the dirt from the row around the plant.

This helps the leeks grow big and tall and stay white and it will help the potatoes produce

more.

It also helps avoid sunburn on the potatoes that happens when they poke through the soil.

A sunburnt potato will have a green skin.

It's still edible it just needs to be peeled to remove all the green color.

In all honesty hilling potatoes doesn't always happen around here.

I get busy and don't get around to it.

If you don't hill your potatoes it's not the end of the world.

They will grow just fine without hilling.

I swear, as I do every year, that I will hill the potatoes.

And then we will have so many potatoes we won't be able to give them away!!

Please comment, subscribe, like and share our videos for us.

We can't do this without you.

If you have any garden questions feel free to reach out and I will get you the answers

you need.

Thanks for joining me in Our Wyoming Life.

For more infomation >> Episode 34 - The Simple Veggies - Duration: 5:39.

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Detection of end-stage cancer disease is full in Vietnam Cause World Thought - Duration: 6:49.

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CoD 2 Spanish Civil War ► Act VIII - Mission 24: "Taking Burgos" [ALTERNATE HISTORY ENDING] - Duration: 26:04.

"This video is not based on historical events. Here you can see an alternative version of the end of the Spanish Civil War that has nothing to do with what really happened."

The Battle of the Ebro lasts for 3 hard months.

Republican forces manage to get to the city of Gandesa in August,

Which becomes a fundamental enclave for which both sides fight with courage.

Under the slogans of vigilance, fortification, resistance... loyalist troops defend with great force all terrain gained during their advance of summer 1938.

But the large Italo-German aid received by the rebels is overwhelming against the few reinforcements that the Republicans have.

Rebel superiority in aviation is almost 50 to 1.

There are 180 Nationalists tanks for each Republican, and the French border remains closed to the Russian material shipments sent to the loyal government.

The situation is critical, and equally desperate measures are taken.

The Republic calls up even the quinta of 1921, effectives that with 17 years will form the so-called "quinta del biberón".

With inexperienced troops and logistical inferiority, the loyalists resist waiting for the worst.

The temporary international detente resulting from the signing of the Munich Agreement indirectly entails the recovery of the battered Republican frontline

and the revulsive that will ultimately decide the fate of Spain.

Eventually relieved, Britain and France are betting on restoring the weak international balance

recognizing again as legitimate the Republican government in Spain.

To this end, France opens its borders for the free entry of Russian material and troops.

Franco resolves a frontal attack to the front of the Ebro ignoring his generals, who recommend an offensive on the weakened north of Lerida.

But the arrival of new Russian fighters is decisive to counter the superiority of the Nationalist air force, allowing to secure the outposts by land.

With the help of British battalions integrated into the International Brigades, Republican forces manage to strengthen themselves first

and repulse in a matter of days the questionable rebel front offensive in days of battle marked by the aerial war.

By the end of October, the Nationalist connection of the north with the Mediterranean is broken.

Catalonia, much of Aragon, and the Levant are thus secure in Republican hands.

The expected but late naval cooperation of English ships in the Spanish Levant is decisive in the offensive on the southern territory.

With the Peninsular Midwest and much of the French border in Republican hands, the Russian reinforcements arrive without difficulty in the southern part of Spain.

The effective tug-of-war executed by sea and land, and the withdrawal of large numbers of Nationalist troops from the Andalusian coasts to reinforce the north, harassed by an air attack, now renewed and with vigor,

ends the insurgent domination of the most southern part of the country.

With Madrid and the south secured, the Republican government initiates at the beginning of 1939 an attack plan to corner the territory located between the Meseta and the south Andalusian part.

Meanwhile, confrontations continue in the north.

The Republican plan to surround Navarre and isolate it by taking advantage of its dominion in Aragon

works thanks to the international support and the opening pact with France.

By the end of March, the strategic triangle formed by the French border with the entry of troops, the southeast coast, and the area of Madrid, gets its job:

to corner the Nationalist enclaves in pockets of fierce resistance like the north of Andalusia and Extremadura, Navarre, Burgos, and all Galicia.

With the civil war completely internationalized, and the growing support of European democracies, the Republican army is preparing to attack Burgos and thus behead the Nationalist government.

A large number of troops from the International Brigades are concentrated north of Madrid, ready to join the offensive captained from the west of the Aragonese lands.

Burgos, April 30, 1939

The first assault on Burgos has been a success, but Navarre requetés have managed to distract attention from the Aragonese front. The Republic must count only on the International Brigades to continue its advance.

In spite of the aerial harassment to the enemy, the High Command has ordered to not lose an inch of terrain, while waiting for the bulk of the army from Zaragozan lands. A combined attack could end the resistance of the Nationalist government once and for all.

General, pilot Brezhnev reporting for duty.

Comrade Brezhnev! It's good to see you!

Sir, I've come to inform you about our mission in Germany.

I am aware of the excellent work you have done in Germany, comrade.

These documents have been shown by Negrín in the Munich Agreement. Thanks to them, we have managed to regain the support of France and England.

Even the USSR is generous again with the Spanish people, and has sent a contingent of soldiers to finish stifling the rebels.

Hasn't Miss Barrena come with you?

Comrade Marion is in a meeting with the International Brigades commissars to coordinate the assault on Burgos.

Perfect. We will continue to defend the positions, and we will end the Francoist resistance in the area.

Yes, my General! Our brothers from the Red Army will know how to treat that fascist scum!

Long live the revolution!

Live!

Death to fascism!

Death!

The time has come, comrades. The enemy is hiding in the center of the city of Burgos and has no intention of surrendering.

In our hands is the possibility to end this fratricidal war that has bathed our country with blood.

Let's finish them!

Let's go! Stay with the tanks!

Marion, I've fought against that man! He's one of Mussolini's dogs!

Don't worry, let him explain himself.

My name is Matteo Ferrero and the comrade is right. I fought for the Nationalists when the war began, I admit it.

I have made many mistakes in this war. That is why I am here today, with my men at your side, to amend them.

Comrade, you may join us. The enemy of our enemy is our friend.

Thanks for letting us fight alongside you.

Surrender, General Franco! We have neutralized all of your troops!

We will cut your throats!

Keep calm, brother, there's nothing else we can do. We've been defeated and we have to accept the defeat.

I just hope the Spanish people remember me as a man who fought for his fatherland. For Spain!

Stop with the speeches, they aren't going to be useful now!

You betrayed the legitimate government of your country and you also allied with dictators of foreign powers! You and your commanders will be judged for all your crimes! Arrest him!

Marion, what are you doing still here? Are you worried about anything?

No, everything's okay - the war is over, we've captured the rebel leader... I should be happy.

But I know there's still a lot to do, and Hitler won't change his plans.

Matteo, aren't you going back to your country?

I should return to Italy, although as long as Mussolini remains in power it will be difficult to return. And if I do, I'll have to stay hidden for some time.

Yes, it would be best. To disappear for a while. In the end, we all have to become shadows. The shadows of war.

"The life of the surrendering adversary is unassailable; no combatant can freely dispose of it. What is not the behavior of the insurgents? Nothing matters. Ours needs to be." - Julián Zugazagoitia

"This video is not based on historical events. Here you can see an alternative version of the end of the Spanish Civil War that has nothing to do with what really happened."

The capture of Franco and the members of his government leaves the main Nationalist enclaves isolated and uncoordinated.

The early centralism carried out by Franco is discovered as its main weakness when the government of Burgos falls and the different rebel plazas act independently.

In this scenario, the southern territories of the center of the Peninsula and north of Andalusia

are strategically very vulnerable to Republican attacks.

France and the United Kingdom recognize their direct support to the Negrín's Republican government, while Germany begins the withdrawal of troops to concentrate them in new fronts.

By the end of April, surrounded and weakened by the bombings, Navarre troops surrender to the Republic.

Despite this, much of their troops will continue their particular guerrilla warfare in the foothills of the territory halfway between Spain and France.

The coastal cities of Galicia and northern Portugal receive a wave of fugitives that pile up in the Atlantic ports trying to escape.

Few get it. They do not find the necessary cooperation on the part of the German ships,

and Republican troops take the last insurgent plazas.

Eventually, an announcement signed by Azaña himself announces on April 30 1939 the end of the war.

In the present day

with the rebel army captive and disarmed

Republican troops have achieved their last military objectives.

THE WAR IS OVER

"The only war won is the one that doesn't start."

For more infomation >> CoD 2 Spanish Civil War ► Act VIII - Mission 24: "Taking Burgos" [ALTERNATE HISTORY ENDING] - Duration: 26:04.

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Above & Beyond a 360° con Land Rover BAR! - Duration: 3:00.

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Assembling the Birthday Trampoline - Duration: 3:50.

Hey guys! Today we are going to set up my

daughter's fifth birthday present. We got

a trampoline. It's not a huge one; it's

one of the eight-foot ones with a net

enclosure. So my dad and I are going to

get it set up and surprise her. Stay

tuned and we'll just kind of walk

through it with this little time lapse.

Alright first step is the user manual;

According to me anyway. According to my

dad, we don't need no stinkin' manual.

Anyway I've got the manual out just

because I don't want to take

anything for granted but we got the

manual and we're getting ready to get it

all set up.

- music -

Instructions were good; it made it pretty

clear on what we needed to do. And I'm

glad did that we read them, but I'm also

really excited about this enclosure

because it's gonna help keep my

five-year-old safely inside.

- music -

Finishing touches! Tying up the enclosure

and here we go: perfect for a little

five-year-old! Dad: should I jump in? Yes jump

in -- over the top of the net. Dad: You can do it

good wait wait what are you doing?

OK. that's it we got it all set up. It's

probably about two hours; Hour and 45

maybe, if we had read the instructions to

the tee. Actually probably wouldn't have saved

us much time: we did do a few

things that we had to redo, but

all-in-all it's pretty quick. Really glad

that my dad helped me do it cuz I if it

was just me I would've stopped. so anyway

oldest daughter is going to be super

excited and I can't wait to show her.

She's inside. Miraculously, she hasn't

come out yet.

But anyway, thanks for watching our our video

on the trampoline and subscribe to our

channel if you want to see more. We'd

love to have you join us. Check out our

Facebook page or our blog and yeah have

a great rest of your day. Bye guys!

you

For more infomation >> Assembling the Birthday Trampoline - Duration: 3:50.

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Living Up to Expectations - Enjoying Everyday Life - Duration: 28:33.

ANNOUNCER: THE FOLLOWING PROGRAM IS PAID FOR

BY THE FRIENDS AND PARTNERS OF JOYCE MEYER MINISTRIES.

[MUSIC]

JOYCE: WELL, HAVE YOU EVER FELT OVERWHELMED BY OTHER

PEOPLE'S EXPECTATIONS OF YOU?

WELL, MY GUEST TODAY KNOWS THAT FEELING ALL TOO WELL.

RUTH GRAHAM IS THE DAUGHTER OF REVEREND BILLY

AND RUTH GRAHAM, AND SHE HAS WAKED THROUGH

SOME VERY DIFFICULT LIFE SITUATIONS

AND FELT THE PRESSURE OF TRYING TO LIVE UP

TO OTHERS' EXPECTATIONS OF HER.

AS THE DAUGHTER OF A FAMOUS EVANGELIST,

RUTH WENT THROUGH A LOT OF THINGS.

SHE WILL JOIN ME IN A FEW MINUTES, BUT FIRST,

WATCH THIS TEACHING.

JOYCE: I'M GONNA START WITH A QUESTION.

WHAT ARE YOU WORTH?

NOW, YOU KNOW, NORMALLY, WHEN SOMEBODY ASKS

THAT QUESTION, THE FIRST THING WE THINK OF

IS OUR FINANCES OR MAYBE OUR JOB POSITION

OR OUR ACCOMPLISHMENTS.

IN THE WORLD, WE LEARN HOW TO TIE

OUR WORTH AND VALUE TO WHAT WE DO.

BUT IN GOD'S KINGDOM, HE WANTS US TO UNDERSTAND

THAT OUR WORTH AND VALUE IS WRAPPED UP

IN WHO WE ARE IN HIM, NOT WHAT WE DO.

I'M GONNA SAY IT AGAIN.

YOUR WORTH AND VALUE IS NOT DETERMINED BY WHAT YOU DO

OR THE IMPORTANT PEOPLE YOU KNOW OR THE JOB TITLE YOU HAVE,

HOW MUCH EDUCATION YOU HAVE.

YOUR WORTH AND VALUE IS DETERMINED

BY BEING A CHILD OF GOD.

AND I CAN TELL YOU WHAT YOU'RE WORTH.

EVERY ONE OF YOU IS WORTH THE SON OF GOD.

"FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD THAT HE GAVE

HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON THAT WHOEVER BELIEVES IN HIM

MIGHT NOT PERISH BUT HAVE EVERLASTING LIFE."

"YOU'RE PURCHASED WITH A PRICE," 1 CORINTHIANS 6:20.

GOD PAID A TREMENDOUS PRICE FOR YOU,

AND YOU BELONG TO HIM.

YOU DON'T BELONG TO YOURSELF.

YOU MAY THINK YOU DO, BUT IN REALITY,

YOU BELONG TO THE LORD.

1 CORINTHIANS 6:20: "YOU WERE BOUGHT WITH A PRICE

[PURCHASED WITH A PRECIOUSNESS AND PAID FOR, MADE HIS OWN]

SO THEN, HONOR GOD AND BRING GLORY TO HIM

IN YOUR BODY."

AND I THINK WE MIGHT GO ON TO SAY,

"AND WITH YOUR LIFE."

ARE WE GLORIFYING GOD WITH OUR LIFE?

ARE WE GLORIFYING GOD WITH OUR LIFESTYLES?

ARE WE GLORIFYING GOD WITH OUR CHOICES

AND OUR DECISIONS?

ARE WE GLORIFYING GOD WITH OUR THOUGHTS,

WITH OUR WORDS, WITH OUR CHOICE OF ENTERTAINMENTS?

CAN I TELL YA SOMETHING?

GOD'S NOT INTERESTED IN JUST HAVIN'

A SUNDAY-MORNING RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU.

HE WANTS TO INVADE EVERY SINGLE AREA OF YOUR LIFE.

YOU KNOW, YOU CAN JUST GO SIT ON A CHURCH PEW

ON SUNDAY MORNING AND JUST BE A MISERABLE SAINT

INSTEAD OF A MISERABLE SINNER.

[AUDIENCE LAUGHING]

JOYCE: IT'S ONE THING TO BE LOST AND BE MISERABLE.

IT'S ANOTHER THING TO BE SAVED AND STILL BE MISERABLE.

SURELY, WE CAN UNDERSTAND THAT JESUS DIDN'T DIE

SO WE COULD BE MISERABLE.

[AUDIENCE APPLAUDING]

JOYCE: AND MURMUR AND COMPLAIN AND GRUMBLE

ALL THE TIME, BE UNHAPPY, HAVE NO PEACE,

WORRY ABOUT EVERYTHING.

HE DIED FOR US TO HAVE A DIFFERENTLY QUALITY OF LIFE.

AND HE BOUGHT US BACK FROM THE ENEMY.

I SAID, "HE BOUGHT US BACK FROM THE ENEMY."

[AUDIENCE CHEERING]

JOYCE: HE PAID FOR US AND HE BOUGHT US BACK.

NOW, ANYTHING THAT YOU HAVE PAID FOR

AND BOUGHT, YOU HAVE A STRONG SENSING

THAT IT'S YOURS.

AND YOU REALLY DON'T WANT ANYBODY ELSE MESSIN' WITH IT.

IT'S YOURS, YOU CAN DO WHAT YOU WANT TO WITH IT.

WELL, WE HAVE BEEN BOUGHT AND PAID FOR

WITH THE PRECIOUS BLOOD OF JESUS CHRIST.

WE NO LONGER BELONG TO THE DEVIL.

BUT THE NEWS TONIGHT IS YOU NO LONGER

BELONG TO YOURSELF EITHER.

[AUDIENCE APPLAUDING]

JOYCE: WELL, NOW, YOU HAVE FREE WILL

AND YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU WANT TO.

I'M NOT SAYING THAT YOU CAN'T.

YOU CAN LIVE ANY KINDA LIFE YOU WANT TO.

AND YOU MAY, YOU KNOW, LIVE A COMPROMISING LIFESTYLE

AND STILL SQUEAK INTO HEAVEN, BUT YOU WON'T BE HAPPY,

AND YOU WON'T HELP THE KINGDOM OF GOD,

AND YOU WON'T BE A GOOD WITNESS TO OTHER PEOPLE.

BUT TONIGHT, YOU CAN DO SOME TURNAROUND

AND MAKE SOME DECISIONS.

WE ALL HAVE TO COME TO A CRISIS POINT IN OUR LIFE.

AND MAYBE SOME OF YOU HAVE ALREADY BEEN AT THAT PLACE

AND YOU'VE MADE A REAL SERIOUS DECISION

ABOUT YOUR WALK WITH GOD.

I BELIEVE MANY OF YOU HAVE, BUT I'M ALSO WELL AWARE

THAT I'M NOT JUST TALKING TO THE ROOM

AND PEOPLE IN THIS ROOM TONIGHT.

THERE ARE PEOPLE ALL OVER THE WORLD

WATCHING BY TELEVISION IN 80 DIFFERENT LANGUAGES,

AND I WANNA MAKE SURE THAT YOU KNOW THAT YOU REALLY

DO NOT BELONG TO YOURSELF.

YOU HAVE BEEN BOUGHT WITH A PRICE,

AND GOD EXPECTS YOU TO SURRENDER YOUR LIFE TO HIM.

WE NEED TO CONSECRATE OURSELVES TO GOD.

AND "TO BE CONSECRATED" MEANS "TO BE SET APART

FOR A SPECIAL USE AND A SPECIAL PURPOSE."

YOU JUST AREN'T LETTIN' GOD HAVE CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE.

NOW, IT'S GONNA BE A FIGHT TO START WITH,

I'LL TELL YA THAT RIGHT NOW, 'CAUSE YOUR FLESH IS USED

TO RULING THINGS.

AND HOW MANY OF YOU KNOW THAT OUR FLESH

CAN JUST REALLY THROW SOME FITS?

[AUDIENCE APPLAUDING]

JOYCE: BUT OH, WHEN YOU FINALLY MAKE IT THROUGH, WOW,

DOES LIFE GET SWEET.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO COMPARE YOURSELF

WITH OTHER PEOPLE.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO TRY TO IMPRESS PEOPLE.

YOUR WORTH AND VALUE'S NOT IN WHAT YOU DO.

YOU CAN DO WHAT YOU DO FOR RIGHT REASONS.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO GET UPSET IF YOU DON'T DO EVERYTHING

PERFECT ALL THE TIME.

BECAUSE YOU BELONG TO SOMEBODY THAT'S GREATER THAN YOU ARE

AND GREATER THAN ANYBODY ELSE OUT THERE.

[AUDIENCE CHEERING]

JOYCE: SO, WHAT ARE YOU WORTH?

THE BLOOD OF JESUS CHRIST.

WHAT ARE YOU WORTH?

ALL THE DEATH, THE MISERY, THE PAIN THAT JESUS

WILLINGLY TOOK ON HIMSELF.

AND HE WOULD HAVE DONE IT IF YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN

THE ONLY PERSON ON THE EARTH.

THAT'S HOW MUCH GOD LOVES YOU AND THAT'S HOW

MUCH YOU'RE WORTH.

JOYCE: WELL, I HOPE THAT WHAT YOU'VE JUST HEARD

WAS VERY HELPFUL TO YOU.

NOW, I WANT YOU TO REMEMBER THAT YOUR WORTH AND VALUE

IS NOT DETERMINED BY WHAT YOU DO

BUT WHO YOU ARE IN CHRIST.

RUTH GRAHAM JOINS ME NOW TO TALK MORE ABOUT THIS SUBJECT.

WELL, RUTH, THIS WHOLE "IN CHRIST" PHRASE,

IT'S ONE THAT WE UNDERSTAND PRETTY GOOD NOW

BECAUSE WE'VE BOTH HAD TO LEARN WHO WE ARE IN CHRIST.

BUT YOU KNOW, I WAS A CHRISTIAN FOR A LONG TIME AND I NEVER EVEN

HEARD THAT PHRASE, NOR DID I UNDERSTAND IT.

SO, I KNOW YOU'VE GONE THROUGH SOME DIFFICULT THINGS

IN YOUR LIFE.

SO, WHY DON'T YOU SHARE WITH US ABOUT YOUR STORY?

RUTH: WELL, YOU DON'T HAVE ENOUGH TIME.

BUT THE LORD, TO MAKE ME AWARE THAT I WAS IN CHRIST

AND THAT CHRIST WAS IN ME, BUT THAT I WAS LIVING MY LIFE

THROUGH HIM, BUT HE HAD TO KNOCK OFF

SOME EDGES AND IT WAS NOT EASY.

BUT I MARRIED YOUNG.

I MARRIED WHEN I WAS 18, WHICH IS TOO YOUNG

TO BE GETTIN' MARRIED.

AND MARRIED A MAN WHO BECAME UNFAITHFUL.

AND AFTER 21 YEARS, I DIVORCED HIM.

AND IT BROKE MY HEART.

I'D GROWN UP AROUND HONORABLE MEN.

NEVER DREAMED THAT THIS WOULD HAPPEN TO ME.

DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO REACT.

DIDN'T WANNA TELL ANYBODY.

I WAS ASHAMED.

I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONE TO BLAME.

I HADN'T BEEN ENOUGH OF A WIFE.

I HADN'T BEEN A GOOD LOVER, OR WHATEVER.

SO, IT TOOK A TOLL, AND THEN I BECAME DEPRESSED.

AND NOBODY IN MY WORLD HAD EVER BEEN DEPRESSED

'CAUSE WE WEREN'T ALLOWED TO BE DEPRESSED.

YOU CERTAINLY SHOULDN'T GO TO A COUNSELOR.

SO, I WAS REALLY CAUGHT BETWEEN THESE THINGS,

AND I WAS TRYING TO LIVE UP TO WHAT EVERYBODY

THOUGHT I OUGHTA BE AND WHAT I OUGHT TO DO,

AND BE A GOOD MOM AND A GOOD WIFE

AND A GOOD HOUSEKEEPER AND DO THINGS.

UNTIL IT JUST GOT TOO MUCH AND I BEGAN

TO THINK ABOUT SUICIDE.

AND WENT HOME ONE SUNDAY AFTER CHURCH,

LOOKING FOR RAZORBLADES.

BUT MY HUSBAND USED AN ELECTRIC RAZOR,

THANK THE LORD.

SO I DIDN'T FIND ANY RAZORBLADES.

BUT IT WAS A WAKEUP CALL.

I REALIZED I HAD THREE VERY PRECIOUS CHILDREN

DEPENDING ON ME.

AND I REALIZED I HAD TO REACH OUT FOR HELP.

SO I DID REACH OUT FOR HELP.

AND THE FIRST PERSON THAT I TALKED TO

WAS MY BROTHER-IN-LAW, WHO WAS A WONDERFUL PSYCHOLOGIST.

AND HE SAID, "RUTH," HE SAID, "YOU'RE NOT CRAZY."

AND I THOUGHT, "OH," 'CAUSE I THOUGHT

I WAS GOIN' CRAZY.

BUT WHEN YOU'RE TRYING TO MAKE THE ABNORMAL NORMAL,

THAT'S CRAZY MAKING.

AND SO, I WORKED THROUGH THAT.

AND UNFORTUNATELY, QUICKLY FELL IN LOVE

WITH ANOTHER MAN AND HAD A REBOUND MARRIAGE

THAT LAST FOR ABOUT 3 MONTHS, AND I FLED HIM AND CAME ON HOME

TO SEE MY PARENTS AND WONDERED, "WHAT WOULD THEY SAY?"

YOU KNOW, THEY WARNED ME NOT TO DO IT SO QUICKLY,

AND, "THIS ISN'T GONNA WORK."

BUT I THOUGHT KNEW WHAT WAS BEST.

AND DROVE UP TO SEE 'EM.

IT WAS A 2-DAY DRIVE, AND JUST ALL SORTS OF QUESTIONS.

WHAT WAS I GONNA DO WITH MY CHILDREN?

WHAT WAS I GONNA DO NOW?

AND AS I ROUNDED THE BEND IN MY PARENTS' DRIVEWAY,

MY FATHER WAS WAITING ON ME.

AND AS I GOT OUT OF THE CAR, HE WRAPPED HIS ARMS AROUND ME

AND HE SAID, "WELCOME HOME."

JOYCE: OH, THAT'S AWESOME, THAT'S GREAT.

RUTH: THERE WAS NO RECRIMINATION.

THERE WAS NO BLAME. THERE WAS NO SHAME.

IT WAS JUST TOTAL LOVE.

AND THAT WAS SUCH A GRACE FOR ME, JOYCE.

IT CHANGED MY LIFE.

JOYCE: SO, YOU MEAN, HE ACTUALLY RESPONDED

THE WAY GOD WOULD.

RUTH: THAT'S RIGHT, EXACTLY.

NOT THAT HE ALWAYS DID 'CAUSE HE'S NOT GOD.

I KNOW SOME PEOPLE MIGHT ARGUE WITH ME ABOUT THAT,

BUT THAT WASN'T THE END OF IT.

THEN I HAD TO BUILD MY LIFE, AND THAT WAS DIFFICULT.

AND I MARRIED AGAIN.

I MARRIED A VERY FINE GENTLEMAN THAT I WAS CRAZY ABOUT,

AND IT ENDED UP THAT WE HAD-- OUR FAMILIES

HAD KNOWN EACH OTHER, AND--BUT I BEGAN TO SPEAK

AND WRITE AND DO WHAT I FELT GOD HAD CALLED ME TO DO,

AND HE BECAME VERY THREATENED AND DIVORCED ME.

SO, HERE I WAS AGAIN.

AND I THOUGHT, "OH," YOU KNOW, "WHAT AM I DOIN' HERE?"

AND I WAS SO EMBARRASSED AND SO ASHAMED AND SO HURT.

BUT I PICKED UP AND WENT ON.

AND THEN ANOTHER MAN SHOWED UP, AND HE STARTED SHOWING ME

ATTENTION, AND I THOUGHT, "WELL," YOU KNOW?

HE WAS A PASTOR AND HE WAS A COUNSELOR

AND HE'D KNOWN MY FAMILY FOR A LONG TIME.

AND I THOUGHT, "WELL, THIS LOOKS LIKE IT WOULD BE WORK

AND HE COULD MINISTER WITH ME."

AND SO, WE MARRIED, AND IT WASN'T LONG

BEFORE I REALIZED THIS WAS NOT-- HE WAS USING ME.

I MEAN, HOOK, LINE, AND SINKER.

HE HAD A TERRIBLE ACCIDENT.

AND WHILE HE WAS IN THE HOSPITAL,

I FOUND OUT HE'D SPENT ALL MY MONEY AND I WAS BROKE.

AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT I WAS GONNA DO.

AND HE WAS INCAPACITATED.

BUT THROUGH THAT, GOD WAS SO FAITHFUL.

AND JOYCE, WHAT IT SHOWED ME

THAT ALL MY LIFE, I'VE BEEN IDENTIFIED WITH A MAN.

I WAS MY FATHER'S DAUGHTER.

THEN I WAS MY HUSBAND'S WIFE.

AND ALL THAT WAS MY-- JOYCE: THAT WAS WHAT

GAVE YOU WORTH.

RUTH: YES, AND THAT I WASN'T MYSELF,

AND I WASN'T WHO I WAS IN CHRIST.

I WASN'T TAKING THAT ON.

I WOULD HAVE TOLD YOU THAT, "OH, I'M IN CHRIST

AND CHRIST IS MY SECURITY," BUT THAT WASN'T REALLY TRUE.

AND SO, IT TOOK A LOT OF-- THE LORD HAD TO REALLY PEEL BACK

THE EDGES AND SAY, "RUTH, THIS IS WHO YOU ARE,

AND YOU ARE WORTH A GREAT DEAL.

YOU ARE OF VALUE.

YOU ARE CHERISHED BECAUSE YOU ARE IN ME."

AND I JUST, THAT WAS AN EYE OPENING FOR ME.

JOYCE: I THINK IT'S GOOD TO BRING THESE THINGS

OUT IN THE OPEN BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH THE BIBLE SAYS,

"GOD HATES DIVORCE," HE DOES NOT HATE

DIVORCED PEOPLE.

AND WHO WOULD HAVE EVER THOUGHT THAT BILLY GRAHAM'S DAUGHTER

WOULD HAVE HAD THOSE KINDS OF PROBLEMS?

AND THERE ARE A LOT OF UNREALISTIC EXPECTATIONS

THAT ARE PUT ON PEOPLE THAT ARE ATTACHED

TO OTHER WELL-KNOWN PEOPLE.

AND I KNOW ONE OF MY CHILDREN, WHEN I ASKED HIM,

"WHAT WAS THE MOST DIFFICULT THING FOR YOU

GROWING UP?" BECAUSE THERE

WERE SOME CHALLENGES.

AND HE REALLY THOUGHT ABOUT IT AND HE SAID,

"YOU KNOW, IT WAS OTHER PEOPLE'S EXPECTATIONS OF ME."

HE GOT SO TIRED OF HEARING, "WELL, I WOULDN'T EXPECT

JOYCE MEYER'S SON TO DO THAT."

AND SO, HE WENT TO A CHRISTIAN SCHOOL

WHERE I WAS A PASTOR AT THE CHURCH.

AND IT'S SO FOOLISH WHEN PEOPLE DO THAT TO CHILDREN

BECAUSE ANYBODY'S CHILD HAS TO HAVE TIME TO GROW UP,

JUST LIKE ANYBODY ELSE DOES.

AND SO, YOU'VE HAD QUITE AN INTERESTING LIFE.

SO, HELP US, HOW DID YOU OVERCOME THAT?

'CAUSE THERE'S GONNA PEOPLE COME TO OUR CONFERENCE THIS YEAR

WHERE YOU'RE GONNA SPEAK THAT ARE GONNA HAVE

SOME OF THE SAME KINDA PROBLEMS, AND THEY'RE GONNA BE

VERY RELIEVED TO HEAR FROM YOU AND FROM ME

BECAUSE WE'RE PEOPLE-- WHO WOULD EVER THINK

THAT TWO PEOPLE WHO HAD EXPERIENCED WHAT THE TWO OF US

HAVE EXPERIENCED WOULD BE DOING WHAT WE'RE DOING TODAY?

RUTH: AND ISN'T THAT THE GRACE OF GOD?

I MEAN, I WOULD NEVER HAVE EXPECTED

THAT THE LORD WOULD EVER DO ANYTHING WITH MY LIFE.

AND MY CHILDREN HAVE HAD DEFINITE PROBLEMS.

I HAD ONE DAUGHTER WITH AN EATING DISORDER.

MY SON WAS DABBLING IN DRUGS.

MY OTHER DAUGHTER HAD TWO BABIES OUT OF WEDLOCK.

I MEAN, WE WERE A MESS.

BUT WHEN WE WERE GOING THROUGH IT,

I REMEMBER TELLING THE LORD, "LORD, IF YOU CAN EVER USE THIS,

YOU'RE WELCOME TO IT."

AND I NEVER DREAMED THAT I'D BE SITTING WITH JOYCE

AND TALKING ABOUT MY PROBLEMS, BUT GOD IS USING THIS.

AND I'M VERY GRATEFUL THAT HE DOES USE US.

AND I KNOW, FOR ME, I WAS IN THE SCRIPTURE

EVERY DAY, IF IT JUST A PHRASE OR A VERSE OR A CHAPTER.

DOESN'T HAVE TO BE A LONG PORTION.

BUT I WAS IN THE SCRIPTURE EVERY DAY

AND I JOURNALED EVERY DAY.

I WILL GO BACK OVER EVERY NEW YEAR'S

TO SEE WHERE I WAS AND IF I'VE PROGRESSED.

AND SO THAT JOURNALING, BEING IN THE WORD EVERY DAY--

AND COMMUNICATING WITH GOD DOES NOT NECESSARILY MEAN

YOU HAVE TO GET IN A PRAYER CLOSET AND LAY DOWN.

IT MEANS THAT YOU JUST ARE TALKIN' TO GOD.

AND I DO THAT ALL DAY LONG, FIRST THING IN THE MORNING,

YOU KNOW, I'M TALKIN' TO GOD.

AND I ALSO REALIZED THAT I HAD TO HAVE FRIENDS.

WE HAVE TO BE IN COMMUNITY.

WE CAN'T BE ISOLATED.

I HAD ISOLATED MYSELF BECAUSE OF

PEOPLE'S EXPECTATIONS.

IT WAS TOO HARD-- JOYCE: OUR SECRETS

MAKE US SICK.

YOU GOTTA GET STUFF OUT IN THE OPEN.

RUTH: AND WE'RE ONLY AS SICK AS OUR SECRETS.

AND I JUST REALIZED THAT I HAD TO BE IN A COMMUNITY.

AND THAT'S VERY IMPORTANT FOR PEOPLE THAT ARE GOING

THROUGH DIFFICULT TIMES, IS TO BE IN A COMMUNITY

AND MAKE YOURSELF ACCOUNTABLE.

AND I KNOW THAT'S A BAD WORD.

BUT BOB GOFF SAYS THAT "ACCOUNTABLE DOESN'T MEAN

YOU'VE GOT SOMEBODY LOOKING OVER YOUR SHOULDER,

READY TO JUMP ON SOMETHIN' BAD, BUT IT MEANS

THAT THEY'RE HOLDING YOU CLOSE."

AND THAT'S A MUCH GENTLER WAY OF SAYING IT.

AND SO, I NEED PEOPLE TO HOLD ME CLOSE

AND TELL ME WHEN I'M WRONG.

JOYCE: AND A LOT OF TIMES, WHEN PEOPLE ARE HURTING,

THERE'S A TENDENCY TO PUT UP WALLS AND TO WITHDRAW

AND TO WANNA KEEP ALL THIS STUFF TO YOURSELF.

AND PART OF THAT IS OUR PROBLEM, BUT PART OF IT IS ALSO THE WAY

THE CHRISTIAN COMMUNITY RESPONDS TO CHRISTIANS

THAT ARE HAVING DIFFICULTY DOING WHAT WE THINK

WE'RE SUPPOSED TO DO ALL THE TIME.

AND I LOVE, AND I'M SURE YOU DO TOO,

1 CORINTHIANS 1:27 THROUGH 31, THAT: "GOD USES THE WEAK AND

THE FOOLISH THINGS OF THE WORLD TO CONFOUND THE WISE."

AND SO, THERE'S NOBODY THAT'S UNUSABLE FOR GOD.

HE CAN USE ANYBODY TO HELP OTHER PEOPLE.

AND SO, INSTEAD OF WASTING OUR PAIN,

WE NEED TO LET GOD USE THAT PAIN TO BRING GLORY TO HIMSELF

AND ALSO TO HELP OTHER PEOPLE.

RUTH: WELL, AND I LOVE THE TITLE OF ONE OF YOUR BOOKS,

"GOD'S NOT MAD AT YOU."

AND YOU KNOW, SO OFTEN, PEOPLE THINK THAT HE'S

STANDIN' UP THERE LIKE THIS, READY TO FIND

SOMETHIN' WRONG IN US.

AND HE'S NOT.

HE LOVES US.

HE REJOICES OVER US.

HE SMILES AT US.

AND THAT WAS A BIG THING FOR ME TO LEARN.

JOYCE: YEAH, IT WAS HUGE FOR ME TOO BECAUSE

MY FATHER WAS ALWAYS MAD.

I MEAN, YOU NEVER REALLY KNEW WHAT ABOUT.

HE WAS JUST AN UNHAPPY, VERY TROUBLED MAN,

AND OF COURSE, ABUSED ME SEXUALLY,

AND WOULD BEAT MY MOTHER UP ON A REGULAR--

IT WAS JUST A NIGHTMARE.

AND SO HE WAS ALWAYS MAD.

AND YOU COULD DO ONE THING ONE DAY AND IT WOULD BE FINE,

AND YOU COULD DO THE EXACT SAME THING

THE NEXT DAY, AND DEPENDING ON HIS MOOD,

YOU MIGHT GET IN TROUBLE FOR IT THAT DAY.

SO, I REALLY HAD A HARD TIME WITH THAT, FEELING LIKE THAT GOD

WAS MAD AT ME EVERY TIME I DIDN'T BEHAVE PERFECTLY.

AND ONE OF THE REASONS WHY I WROTE THAT BOOK

IS BECAUSE I WAS IN A CONFERENCE ONE NIGHT

AND I SAID, "I HAVE SOME GOOD NEWS FOR YOU.

GOD'S NOT MAD AT YOU."

AND PEOPLE JUST RESPONDED.

THEY WERE JUST, "OH, MAN, THAT'S EXACTLY

WHAT I NEEDED TO HEAR."

AND I JUST WONDER HOW MANY PEOPLE THERE ARE

THAT WALK AROUND FEELING LIKE GOD'S MAD AT THEM

BECAUSE THEY GOT A DIVORCE.

GOD'S MAD AT THEM BECAUSE THEY MADE A MISTAKE.

GOD'S MAD AT THEM BECAUSE OF THIS, THAT,

OR SOMETHING ELSE.

AND YOU KNOW, WE DON'T-- IT'S NOT AN INVITATION

TO JUST KEEP LIVING IN A DUMB WAY

AND KEEP DOING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER.

BUT IF WE ARE WILLING TO LEARN FROM OUR MISTAKES

AND CONTINUE TO GO FORWARD, GOD NEVER REJECTS US.

RUTH: NO, NEVER DOES.

AND THAT'S SO FREEING, TO KNOW THAT HE WELCOMES US

WITH OPEN ARMS AND JUST WANTS-- AND HE HURTS WITH US.

WHEN WE'RE HURTING, HE'S HURTING WITH US.

HE'S NOT BLAMING US.

HE'S HURTING WITH US, AND HE CRIES WITH US.

AND I JUST THINK IT'S IMPORTANT FOR US TO UNDERSTAND

THAT GOD LOVES US THAT MUCH.

WELL, HE LOVED US SO MUCH, HE DIED FOR US.

JOYCE: YES, WHILE WE WERE STILL SINNERS.

RUTH: THAT'S RIGHT, THAT'S RIGHT, WE DIDN'T HAVE

TO CLEAN UP OUR ACT.

JOYCE: THAT'S THE IMPORTANT PART FOR PEOPLE TO REALIZE.

"WHILE WE WERE STILL SINNERS, HE DIED FOR US."

WELL, WE'RE GONNA TAKE A QUICK BREAK, AND THEN

WE'LL BE RIGHT BACK AFTER THIS.

CECE: ALL RIGHT, I NEED TO HEAR YOU LADIES.

WE FOUND OUT THAT WE'RE WOMEN OF GOD.

WE HAVE COURAGE.

♪ OH, YEAH, IT AIN'T OVER ♪ ♪ IT AIN'T OVER ♪

♪ NO MATTER ♪ ♪ WHAT YOU'RE GOIN' THROUGH, ♪

♪ IT AIN'T OVER ♪ ♪ IT AIN'T OVER ♪

♪ GOD'S GONNA ♪ ♪ WORK IT OUT FOR YOU ♪

♪ IF YOU JUST BELIEVE ♪ ♪ IT AIN'T OVER ♪

♪ TROUBLE WON'T LAST ALWAYS ♪ ♪ IT AIN'T OVER ♪♪

JOYCE: WELL, MY GUEST TODAY IS RUTH GRAHAM, THE DAUGHTER

OF REVEREND BILLY AND RUTH GRAHAM,

AND SHE WILL BE ONE OF OUR SPEAKERS

AT THIS YEAR'S LOVE LIFE WOMEN'S CONFERENCE,

WHICH IS SEPTEMBER 21 THROUGH THE 23.

AND I REALLY WANT YOU TO MAKE A DECISION TO BE THERE.

YOU KNOW, THERE'S SOME THINGS IN LIFE THAT WE CAN PUT OFF,

BUT I DON'T THINK THIS SHOULD BE ONE OF 'EM.

SO, TODAY WE'RE TALKIN' ABOUT RUTH'S JOURNEY

TO SPIRITUAL WHOLENESS, AND I'M GONNA GET HER TO TELL US

A LITTLE BIT ABOUT MAYBE WHY SHE THINKS IT WOULD BE GOOD

FOR YOU TO COME.

SO, RUTH, WE'RE SO HAPPY TO HAVE YOU

AS A SPEAKER THIS YEAR.

RUTH: OH, I'M EXCITED.

JOYCE: I CONSIDER IT AN HONOR.

RUTH: WELL, THE HONOR IS MINE.

JOYCE: YOU KNOW, IF PEOPLE WERE TUNED IN

IN THE FIRST PART OF THE SHOW, YOU OPENLY TOLD US

THAT YOU HAVE BEEN MARRIED AND DIVORCED FOUR TIMES,

AND HOW WONDERFULLY YOUR FATHER RESPONDED,

WITH MERCY INSTEAD OF JUDGMENT.

AND I WONDER HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE WATCHING RIGHT NOW

THAT THEY'RE FEELING JUDGED, EVEN BY THE CHRISTIAN COMMUNITY,

BECAUSE THEY DIDN'T MEET OTHER PEOPLE'S EXPECTATIONS.

AND SO, WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU MIGHT BE SHARING

AT THE WOMEN'S CONFERENCE THIS YEAR?

NOT THAT I'M GONNA HOLD YOU TO IT EXACTLY,

BUT THAT, JUST TO ENCOURAGE PEOPLE TO COME.

RUTH: WELL, I'LL TALK CERTAINLY A LITTLE BIT

ABOUT MY STORY AND MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD

AND WHAT GOD TAUGHT ME THROUGH ALL THAT, AND

WHY I THOUGHT I DID ALL THAT.

YOU KNOW, FOUR DIVORCES IS NOTHING TO BE PROUD OF.

I'M ASHAMED OF IT, BUT GOD DOESN'T HOLD ME TO THAT.

AND HE SEES ME AS A BRIDE, YOU KNOW, AND I'M VERY GRATEFUL.

BUT I WILL SHARE THAT AND SHARE WHAT GOD'S TAUGHT ME

AND I WANNA MEET THE LADIES.

I LOVE GETTING WITH WOMEN AND I LOVE HEARING THEIR STORIES.

AND I'M HOPING THAT THEY WILL COME

AND SHARE THEIR STORIES WITH US.

JOYCE: YOU SURE YOU WANNA MEET THE LADIES?

THERE MAY BE ABOUT 25,000 OF 'EM.

RUTH: WELL, I MAYBE CAN'T MEET ALL OF 'EM, BUT--

JOYCE: THE ONES THAT WORK, YEAH.

RUTH: I REALLY WOULD LIKE TO MEET THEM.

I GET ENERGY FROM THAT, AND WHAT THEIR STORIES ARE.

BUT I WILL SHARE MYSELF WITH 'EM, YOU KNOW?

THAT'S ALL I KNOW TO DO.

THAT'S ALL I HAVE, IS JUST ME.

JOYCE: BEING AUTHENTIC IS REALLY IMPORTANT TO YOU,

ISN'T IT?

RUTH: VERY MUCH SO.

JOYCE: AND I THINK THAT THERE'S SO MUCH PHONINESS.

AND AS YOU SAID, SO MANY PEOPLE ARE WEARING MASKS.

AND YOU KNOW, I WENT THROUGH A TIME IN MY LIFE

WHERE I TRIED TO BE SO MANY DIFFERENT PEOPLE.

I TRIED TO BE LIKE MY HUSBAND, WHO'S VERY CALM AND LAID BACK,

AND I WAS THE TOTAL OPPOSITE.

AND I TRIED TO BE LIKE MY NEIGHBOR,

WHO WAS REAL ARTSY AND CRAFTY, AND SEWED, AND HAD A GARDEN,

AND I DIDN'T DO ANY OF THAT.

AND I TRIED TO BE LIKE MY PASTOR'S WIFE,

WHO WAS SWEET AND MEEK, AND I WAS LOUDMOUTHED

AND ANYTHING BUT THAT.

AND I TRIED SO LONG TO BE SO MANY PEOPLE,

TRYING TO FEEL LIKE I WAS OKAY, THAT I GOT TO THE POINT

WHERE I JUST DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WHO I WAS.

AND SO I HAD TO LET GOD TAKE ME BACK

TO THE DRAWING BOARD AND TEACH ME HOW TO BE

WHAT HE WANTED ME TO BE, NOT WHAT EVERYBODY ELSE

WANTED ME TO BE.

AND SO, WHEN WOMEN GET TOGETHER LIKE THIS, LIKE,

THIS IS THE ONLY CONFERENCE THAT WE HAVE, ONCE A YEAR,

THAT IS JUST FOR WOMEN.

YOU KNOW, THERE WILL BE A FEW MEN THERE

BECAUSE THEY WORK FOR US OR THEY'RE THERE

FOR A SPECIAL REASON.

BUT YOU GET 25-30,000 WOMEN TOGETHER IN 1 ROOM

AND YOU GOT SOME STUFF GOIN' ON.

RUTH: THAT'S A LOT OF ESTROGEN.

JOYCE: THERE'S A LOT OF ESTROGEN.

AND YOU KNOW, WE HAVE FUN, WE LAUGH, WE CRY.

WE'VE GOT GREAT PRAISE AND WORSHIP.

AND I KNOW THAT A LOT OF TIMES, PEOPLE THINK

THEY CAN'T AFFORD THAT, OR THEY DON'T HAVE

THE TIME FOR THAT.

BUT WE WASTE SO MUCH TIME IN OUR LIVES WITH STUFF

THAT'S JUST USELESS.

AND WE NEED TO INVEST TIME IN THINGS

THAT ARE GONNA REALLY HELP US.

SO, TELL ME JUST A COUPLE OF MORE THINGS

BEFORE WE'RE OUT OF TIME HERE TODAY THAT HAVE

REALLY BEEN CHALLENGING FOR YOU IN JUST GETTING TO WHERE

YOU WANNA BE.

RUTH: WELL, MY CHILDREN'S LIVES

WERE CHALLENGING FOR ME.

MY DAUGHTER'S BULIMIA WAS VERY DIFFICULT

BECAUSE AN EATING DISORDER IS A CONTROL THING,

AND SHE WAS-- OUR FAMILY WAS FALLING APART,

SO THAT WAS THE ONE THING SHE COULD CONTROL.

BUT IT'S ALSO SOMETHING YOU CAN'T CONFRONT.

YOU CAN'T GO DIRECTLY.

SO THAT WAS A VERY BIG WORRY.

AND THEN MY SON'S DABBLING IN DRUGS.

YOU KNOW, HE CALLED ME ONE EASTER MORNING

AND SAID, "MOM," HE WAS ON HIS WAY TO MONTANA.

HE SAID, "MOM, YOU KNOW, I'M SICK."

I SAID, "WELL, GO TO THE HOSPITAL."

HE SAID, "I DON'T HAVE ANY MONEY."

I SAID, "WELL, YOU KNOW, GET A CREDIT CARD."

"I DON'T HAVE A CREDIT CARD."

I SAYS, "WELL, SON, GO TO THE HOSPITAL AND

I'LL TAKE CARE OF IT FROM HERE."

HE SAYS, "MOM, YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND.

I'M ON DRUGS AND I CAN'T GO ANY FARTHER."

YOU KNOW, I WAS MILES AWAY FROM HIM.

SO THAT, I WAS UP THE REST OF THE NIGHT.

AND THEN MY YOUNGEST DAUGHTER SAT BESIDE ME AND SAID,

"MOM, I THINK I'M PREGNANT."

THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN TO OTHER PEOPLE,

NOT TO ME, YOU KNOW?

AND AGAIN, YOU CAN'T SHOUT THAT FROM THE ROOFTOPS,

BUT WE COULDN'T HIDE IT.

AND SO WE JUST-- THE LORD WALKED US THROUGH IT.

WE DIDN'T DO IT WELL.

BUT YOU KNOW, JOYCE, MY DAUGHTER AND I

NOW SPEAK TOGETHER AT CRISIS PREGNANCY CENTER

FUNDRAISERS ALL OVER THE COUNTRY.

AND IT'S JUST A BLESSING.

IT'S A MIRACLE.

I ALSO KNEW THAT SHE HAD BEEN REJECTED BY HER DAD,

SO SHE WAS LOOKING FOR LOVE IN ALL THE WRONG PLACES.

AND I UNDERSTOOD THAT.

AND GOD HAD LOVED ME.

MY FATHER HAD SHOWN ME GRACE.

I COULD NOT DO ANYTHING LESS FOR MY DAUGHTER.

BUT YOU KNOW, NOW WE SPEAK TOGETHER

AND IT'S BEEN A MIRACLE OF GOD'S GRACE.

SO, I WOULD JUST ENCOURAGE PEOPLE,

YOU KNOW, AS MOTHERS THAT ARE GONNA BE THERE,

THAT WHAT YOU'RE GOIN' THROUGH IS NOT UNUSUAL

AND GOD WILL SEE YOU THROUGH IT.

AND YOU JUST HAVE TO GIVE IT TO HIM.

JOYCE: I LIKE WHAT YOU SAID THAT, "WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH

IS NOT UNUSUAL."

I REALLY THINK THAT ONE OF THE ENEMY'S TACTICS

IS TO MAKE US THINK THAT WE'RE THE ONLY ONE.

HOW MANY YEARS DURING MY SEXUAL ABUSE

DID I THINK, "THIS IS NOT HAPPENING TO ANYBODY ELSE"?

AND I JUST HEARD THE OTHER DAY THAT THERE'S

OVER 1 MILLION GIRLS IN AMERICA WHO ARE VICTIMS

OF FATHER-DAUGHTER INCEST, 1 MILLION.

AND YET, I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE.

AND SO I REALLY APPRECIATE YOUR OPENNESS,

AND I THINK IT'S GONNA HELP A LOT OF PEOPLE.

SO, YOU KNOW, PLEASE COME.

DON'T PUT IT OFF, REGISTER TODAY.

YOU KNOW, IF YOU MAKE A COMMITMENT,

THEN YOU'RE MORE THAN LIKELY GONNA SHOW UP.

AND IF YOU CAN FIND SOMEBODY TO COME WITH YOU, THAT'S GREAT.

BUT EVEN IF YOU HAVE TO COME BY YOURSELF,

I REMEMBER PEOPLE WHO HAVE TOLD ME,

"IT WAS HARD TO JUST MAKE THAT DECISION TO COME BY MYSELF,

BUT I DID IT AND IT WAS LIFE CHANGING FOR ME."

YOU KNOW, YOUR WALK WITH GOD IS IMPORTANT ENOUGH

FOR YOU TO SET ASIDE 3 DAYS TO JUST ASK HIM TO REFRESH YOU,

REVIVE YOU, HEAL YOU, WHATEVER IT IS

THAT YOU NEED IN YOUR LIFE.

AND YOU KNOW, EVERY DAY ON OUR PROGRAM,

AND I'LL ALWAYS DO THIS, WE OFFER YOU THE WORD OF GOD

EITHER IN BOOK, CD, OR DVD.

BECAUSE THE WORD OF GOD IS WHAT CHANGED MY LIFE.

IT'S WHAT CHANGED RUTH'S LIFE.

AND IT'S WHAT WILL CHANGE YOUR LIFE.

AND SO, THERE'S NOTHING BETTER TO INVEST IN FINANCIALLY

THAN THE WORD OF GOD.

SO, TODAY WE'RE OFFERING YOU THE TEACHINGS

FROM OUR LAST YEAR'S WOMEN'S CONFERENCE,

AND IT'S CALLED "THE PATH TO GOD'S PURPOSE."

THERE'S EIGHT TEACHINGS.

YOU'LL HEAR FROM DIFFERENT SPEAKERS.

AND I BELIEVE THAT YOU WILL REALLY, REALLY ENJOY IT.

AND DON'T FORGET TO GET YOUR TICKET TODAY

BECAUSE OUR EARLY-BIRD PRICE IS ENDING VERY SOON.

SO YOU'RE NEVER GONNA GET A BETTER DEAL THAN RIGHT NOW.

SO, PLEASE COME.

GOD BLESS YOU, AND HAVE A GREAT REST OF THE DAY.

ANNOUNCER: DISCOVER GOD'S TAILOR-MADE DESTINY

FOR YOUR LIFE WHEN YOU ORDER JOYCE'S TEACHING SERIES

"THE PATH TO GOD'S PURPOSE."

IN THIS SPECIAL SERIES, HEAR JOYCE'S POWERFUL MESSAGES

FROM THE 2016 LOVE LIFE WOMEN'S CONFERENCE,

AND HEAR FROM HER SPECIAL GUESTS,

JOHN GRAY, CHRISTINE CAINE,

AND BETH MOORE.

ALSO INCLUDED IS A SPECIAL SESSION

WHERE JOYCE, BETH, AND CHRISTINE ALL ANSWERED PERSONAL QUESTIONS

FROM THE AUDIENCE.

THIS EIGHT-TEACHING CD SET CAN BE YOURS FOR A GIFT OF...

OR MORE.

AND FOR YOUR GIFT TODAY OF...

OR MORE, WE'LL ALSO INCLUDE A TICKET TO THIS YEAR'S

LOVE LIFE WOMEN'S CONFERENCE.

FEMALE: SO AWESOME TO, LIKE, WORSHIP WITH SO MANY

THOUSANDS OF WOMEN.

FEMALE: THE WHOLE CONFERENCE SO FAR HAS BEEN

VERY, VERY INSPIRATIONAL.

FEMALE: I LOVED IT.

I LOVED EVERYTHING ABOUT TONIGHT,

AND I LOOK FORWARD TO THE REST OF THE CONFERENCE.

FEMALE: I CANNOT WAIT.

ANNOUNCER: LADIES, DON'T MISS OUT

ON THIS EXCITING OFFER.

SO, CONTACT US RIGHT NOW FOR EITHER OFFER...

OR VISIT US AT JOYCEMEYER.ORG.

GINGER: WE ALL GO THROUGH TIMES

WHEN THE QUESTIONS IN OUR LIFE SEEM TO OUTWEIGH THE ANSWERS.

JOYCE MEYER WANTS TO HELP WITH THAT.

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POST-IT BIL | #CokeTVBucketlist - Duration: 6:18.

-Jonas! -Sorry... sorry!

Yes... ehm...

-Hello and welcome to... -CokeTV Sweden!

-Welcome! -Woho!

I'm Athena, and right next to me is Sp4zie.

-Are you excited? -Yes, I'm so excited. Can't you tell?

-Yes, that's great. -I just screamed in your ear.

-Let's go! Can I pick one? -Wait, wait, wait...

Wait, that wasn't good. Now!

-Oh, upside down. -What does it say? What does it say?

"You have to park a car that's covered in post-it notes".

Eh... Did you say "park a car"?

-Yes, I don't have a driver's license so you'll have to do this one. -Are you serious?

I can't park a car. I shouldn't even be allowed to drive, that's how bad I am at parking.

I think this sounds like a great idea.

-Of course you do, because you don't have a license. -No and that feels great. Let's go!

But don't blame me if we crash!

Step 1 is to figure out how many post-it's we'll need for the car.

I can already feel that these are way too few. We need a lot of post-it's.

100!

And then you turn it. Turn... turn... oh no! Look what happened.

-Parking: Done. -Okay.

-Ish. -Yes, ish.

-Now we just have to get post-it's. -Let's go and get some.

-But where can we find them? -I know a place. Come with me.

-But where...? -Come on. This is going to be... I've got some ideas.

Come on!

Hurry, hurry! Get out.

Hello vlog! -Hello there.

Now we're on our way to the place where we're going to park the car and put post-it's on it.

I can tell that you're getting more and more nervous as we get closer.

That's because I'm the worst at parking, I really don't know if this is going to work.

- I'm excited at least, it's going to be fun. -Me too!

Let's do this!

And here's the car!

The car?

The car!

Nice.

Oh great...

- You're ruining the car. Perfect. -But it's okay because we're covering it in post-it's.

So that's cool.

This is going great, huh?

- Yeah, but it would be great if you could help a little. -Yes.

Achoo!

-Oh my god. Bless you. -Sorry, thanks.

To work with Athena has been just fine.

I don't feel like she's taking me as seriously as I want.

Ah! Be like the sun.

Jonas? What are you doing?

Working with Jonas is quite... special.

Help me up!

I mean, we're not really from the same world.

Okay, let's just keep going, huh?

Dream team

There we go. Now it's just one door left.

Wait! I've got an idea.

Let's do that.

-That's great. -Yes.

Why didn't we think of this earlier?

- Sick idea. -Yes.

Really good idea.

Okay, step 1 is done. The post-it's are on.

Step 2: You have to park the car.

Are you wearing the seatbelt? Good.

This feels a little hard.

I think this feels really good. You're going to do great.

I'm just afraid that this won't work that well.

-Because I'm really that bad at parking as I mentioned earlier. -Ah, let's go!

I guess we just have to get this going.

-Are you ready? -Yes!

One more thing. When I'm parking the car, it's really important that you keep quiet.

Okay?

-What I've learned is that I have to keep close to... -Look how long this seatbelt is.

-No we're not going to turn on the radio. Be quiet please. -I'm bored.

For real!

Why are you getting in the backseat?

I don't understand why you are getting in the backseat! Hello?

Wait.

I'm just a little bored.

Come on...

-Jonas! -Sorry... sorry.

- You're stressing me out! -No, it's cool.

Oh look at your hair, it's so nice.

Do you see this hand?

-This is wrong. -I'm going to keep quiet.

This is not right. I have to do it all over.

I can get out and help you.

-Like you haven't helped me enough! -I'll do that.

-Then you have to coach me really good. -Yes, yes, yes.

Come here, come here.

Oh my god.

-Oh, this never ends! -Stop!

-Is it done? -Yes!

Woho!

-Perfect! -Boom!

Come and see.

Okay, I'm just going to turn off the tel... I was about to say" the telephone".

-No!! -What?

What was that?

-Did we fail? -No!!

They fell!

-It's just 2 of them, or 3 of them. -Wait, no one's watching...

-Yes! -Yes!!

-Victory lap! -Woho!

What do we feel about that?

It was great. I was really nervous in the beginning, and you were so annoying.

But after a while we did it... together.

It was really fun in the beginning to put on post-it's. I don't know what happened though.

I'm bored.

You can't just walk away.

"I'm walking away, from the post-it's in my life".

Don't forget to subscribe because next week we are back with a new episode, and you don't want to miss that.

A new challenge that's going to be awesome.

Don't forget to leave a comment down below, and tell us what you want us to do.

-Be creative guys. -Yes.

- There's obviously nothing we can't do. -Or is it?

We've got one more thing to do.

-Well... Jonas. -Yes?

This wasn't part of our challenge.

To clean this mess up.

No the note didn't mention this.

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Hello everybody ! :D

Today will be some infos xd

At the beginning

You are awesome :)

I want to invite you to my instagram ( link in desc )

And invite to Usznik group (and mine? xd) ''Creative Team''. You can demonstrate your creativity, share fanarts, photos, videos, cosplays e.t.c (link in desc too)

I try to send videos on channel every two days. Unfortunately I have life xd

So it is all :D

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FLUCTUATING BOTTOM DYSPHORIA - Duration: 14:03.

Hey guys, my name is Chase So today I'm going to be talking to you about

fluctuating bottom dysphoria

A couple of years ago I made a video about fluctuating dysphoria

And I talked about how sometimes it's okay that you-

Feel extreme dysphoria about some aspect, um,

Like your voice or not having surgery

And then other times you're completely fine with your chest

And you're okay with people touching it and you're to not wear a binder

And that's kind of what I talked about

[Deep inhale]

...Now...

I have realized something

I have mi- this will be my third video about my- my- desire to possibly in the future maybe want bottom surgery

And I've realized that the last two videos that I've made about this

Um, have been almost around the same time of year

I think

I might be wrong on that and like, I'm sorry cause sometimes I record my videos and post it like months later on

Whoops

Um, but, I remember making a video not too long ago, so maybe...

A year- I don't know; it was called "FEEN 4 THE PEEN"

And I talk about how I, really in that moment, really really want bottom surgery

And I really want phalloplasty

And, um, basically if you don't know what phalloplasty is

it's a certain type of, um, bottom surgery that trans men can get

They usually take a donor graft from either your arm, your thigh...

You can get it from the back of- the back of your butt... like, your thigh / butt area

You can get it from your side

There- you can also do, um, the groin one where they take the skin kind of like near your stomach

and the groin area to create a phallus

Anyways, so what I was talking about was more the arm one

Where- this is the most popular one because there is an extra nerve in your arm that they take out

and they connect

I will make a video later on about the specifics of phalloplasty and how it works

But, basically I...

[Deep inhale]

I want this type of surgery

and that's what I talked about in that video

and it's so weird because my... dysphoria... with my bottom... area...

fluctuates...

so much

So, currently in my life, I do a lot of review videos

If you've noticed on my channel, um, for the last like, 5 months

I have had a lot of unboxing videos, a lot of review videos, a lot of comparison videos

about all of these toys that I have

Most of these toys are STPs and packers, but I have a lot that are related to sex

Now the thing with sex, and this is like, TMI- if you don't want to know this just like warning you

Content Warning- Talking about sex

I...

I use the products to have sex with people

but the person also has sex with me

And that's how I need it to be- and I need it to be 100% equal, like 50/50

Like 50% of the time I do you; 50% of the time you do me

So I know what these products feel like when I give it to someone

and how it feels like on me when I'm penetrating someone

but I also know what it feels like when someone is penetrating me

and I love that and I never want that to go away

because that is a sensation that I really have learned to love and accept

because even though I'm a trans man, and I'm not supposed to have these parts and love them

I do have these parts and I love to use them

but there is a difference between "I love to use them" with "I love them"

and that's the issue that I'm trying to- I'm trying to just-

get these two pieces of my brain kind of situated together and live together

um, and- in harmony

because I don't want to stop reviewing toys

this is my job- I love doing it and I love providing information for the community

so that they don't have to buy expensive $300 STPs and then I review it and it's not really good

then they don't have to spend $300 on something they thought might work

so that's why I do it

and I'm very fortunate that these companies send me products, uh, for me to review

And I'm really really really grateful that Early2Bed sponsors me and sponsors the videos that I make for them

which is fantastic

So, this part of my life is no problem for me

When I'm having sex with someone, if I have a deep emotional connection with them and I'm comfortable using toys with them

Um, being the top, 'cause usually if I'm having sex with someone and I don't feel emotionally connected I'm the one being fucked

Like, I just like, lie there and I'm just like, whatever I don't wanna have to do any effort

and like use things that I'm not comfortable with you because I don't know who you are

So once I find someone that I have an emotional connection with

100%, use all of these toys on me. Let's do it right now, I'll use it on you at the same time you use it on me

Like, not really possible- I mean technically the Realdoe you can like, in and out I guess

But- that's not for here

So I love this part, but I also struggle with really, really, REALLY, wanting phalloplasty

And the thing is that I want a penis, but I don't want to have surgery

And, yeah, obviously that's what everyone's gonna say, but...

[Inhale]

It's very hard for me to accept that I will never have a cis penis

It will never happen- ever, no matter how hard I wish it in my head, it's never gonna happen

and I've had to mourn this idea

I'm still working on that, literally like seven years into this

[Deep Inhale]

It's very hard for me to accept that

Um, but I'm working on accepting it

And I've come to a place where I know I'm never gonna have a cis penis

so I know that I can have phalloplasty

and that's like the second best thing for me

If I'm thinking that the ultimate is a cis penis

But what I've done with this mourning phase of my bottom dysphoria

and mourning the fact that I will never have a cis penis

is I've completely removed that as an option for me

and realized that the only option that is good is phalloplasty

because there's no point in thinking about something I'll never be able to get

Like I'll never get that- ever. You can't chop off a cis guy's dick and put it on you- it ain't gonna work

So, I've accepted that phalloplasty IS the number one thing now

And I- I like it, and it's great, and I know that there's a lot of misconceptions ab-

mis-con-cep-tions about bottom surgery and I'm not here to give you all of them

but a lot of people think that it doesn't function, you can't have sex, you don't have any sensation, you can't pee, you can't get hard, all of these things

They're all misconceptions. You can get hard if you have a semi-rigid rod where you have a pump or a different type of erectile device

You can have balls implanted, you can have sensation, especially if you do the forearm phalloplasty where they take the extra nerve

in your arm... "extra nerve," I mean they do like microsurgery so they like attach the nerve, it's just like this neve [motions to arm] is...

I think is- has more sensation than the nerve that they would take from if you did the- the phalloplasty graft from your thigh

Um...

I mean there's all of these different myths- I'm not here to just talk about that

But I'm telling you that-

The...

Even if you think it's bad, there are so many amazing surgical advances in phalloplasts that have happened in the last five years-

In the last ten years that it is, uh

Even the last two years!

[Deep Inhale]

That is definitely something to look into if you didn't know anything about it; just get informed

But I'm here to tell you that to me that is the number one option

And I am at a place where I really want...

I really, really want phalloplasty

Um, there are very high complication rates for certain aspects

And then there are high complica- low complication rates for other things

[Inhale]

So I'm- I am- I'm at a point where I'm very confused on what to do with my body

I don't feel pressure- 0% by society

by the community, by anyone, by myself I guess

to get a penis because Penis = Man

I'm gonna say that outright

Penis does not equal man

To me? 0 perce- what the fuck is gender

Literally

I don't even identify 100% as male

Like you could literally categorize me as nonbinary- TECHNICALLY

Um...

But don't because I don't identify as that

I just identify as trans, it's whatever

But I'm- I'm- [laughs]

I am at a place where I feel

That the bulge that I have had in my pants for the last...

Whatever- six years of wearing a packer

Is...

And it's been on-and-off by the way, the packer- on-and-off, and now it's been on for like two years nonstop

Um...

That I, I, I need it to be permanent

part of me

and I don't know how to explain that

and I don't know how to explain it to myself

because I do a lot of self-reflecting

I'm in sociology- I'm doing my master's in sociology, like...

I have taken so many classes on gender and the social construction of society

and sexuality, and gender, and sex

and...

I've really had to think to myself,

"Do I feel like I need a penis to be a man?"

And absolutely not. I say that and I want to vomit a little bit

Like I get kind of queazy like, no

That's not it for me

For some people, you need a penis to be a man. That's you, that's your transition, that's your life. You do you.

But for me that's not- that's not it at all

For me it's like...

I...

I feel like this body part was supposed to be part of me anyways

And it has been very hard to accept that it is not a part of me

But now that I know that it's an option that it can be a part of me

I'm like a girl at a candy shop that has seen her favorite fucking little candy and is like "Ooooh!"

I don't know why I just said that, that sounded really weird

A girl at a candy- why'd I say a girl? Why'd I say a candy shop?

De-transitioning that's why [laughs dramatically] kidding

If I can't get phalloplasty I might as well just de-transition [laughs]

I will say something though, just so that this video isn't super depressing

I have found something that is amazing, okay

[clears throat]

I record a lot of my videos ahead of time so I don't know when this video is going to be out

compared to this next thing that I'm going to be talking about

But, Reelmagik, which is a prothetic company for trans men

Have- have these packers, and they have sent me two to review

I'm currently wearing one

[sighs]

When this review is out, I will put it in the description

If you still don't see it in the description in a couple of months when you watch this video, please, please just comment "Hey, where's that video?"

Because I'll link it to you, because I keep forgetting to like, link my videos in the description, sorry

When I wear this packer, it feels like I have phalloplasty

And to me that's like, I have a- I have a penis! It's mine!

And that's what it feels like

Yes it's not connected to me, but

there is something that they have said in the past

Um, at the Philly Trans Health Conference

If you're gonna plan on having phalloplasty

before you have it, pack big

Because you are not used to having something that is that big on you all the time

Because the thing with phalloplasty is you can't have it small and then when it's erect it gets bigger like a cis penis

It doesn't work like that- you're always gonna be a shower and not a grower

So I pack with the Mr. Limpy small- or Xtra small on some websites

That's- it's small, it's- it's very small and it has big balls but I've learned to love it

and I push it to the side and it's great

But, my phalloplasty, whenever I do decide to have it

IF I do, will never be that big, so...

[Deep inhale]

I have found a packer that resembles what phalloplasty will look like in your pants

after you have surgery

I have a friend who has had phalloplasty

He sends me pictures of him in his boxers and I look at it and then I look at me with this packer on and I'm like oh my god

That's what I'm gonna- this is what I'm gonna look like?!

It's helping me so much to visualize it

And by doing this it's making me- "Can I do this, do I want to do this?"

[Deep inhale]

Can I do all of these activities that I like doing like, running, um...

I was gonna say cooking, that's random, but like

biking, swimming,

Can I do this- these, all these activities

yoga, stretching...

[Inhale]

All these movement type activities I guess, um...

Going to the locker room, anything

Can I do all of these activities with having something that is so big in my pants that I'm not used to

And I'm not meaning so big, I literally mean five inches, like,

That's not bi- like I don't want like a ten inch dick

I'm okay with five, I'm cool, that's fine

So that's the point of this video is yes, my dysphoria is fluctuating

Um, yes do I want bottom surgery

Do I not want it

What type do I want because it- when I, like, "Okay I want it"

I'm like "But do I want urethral lengthening?" because urethral lengthening does really add to the complication rate

And I would like to not have a complication with my urethra

Am I okay to si- sta- sit to pee?

Forever?

Pretty much, I think I'm fine with that, honestly

I don't have dysphoria- that's fluctuated too by the way

I used to like, need to stand to pee, but now I'm like, I really don't care

And I'm just imagining all these life events and just walking around and-

I'm really excited to review this specific packer and I am gonna talk about that more in the review so please, link in the description... on that...

One comes out! I need to be more organized I'm sorry I love you

Sorry, I'm just readjusting the peen

I do need to say though I went for a run with this today and it was like, flying everywhere

I need tighter underwear because or else it's just gonna like- it like ended up with the balls on top

And I was like, yeah, that's what- how phalloplasty looks like

Anyways let me know what you think, I know this is like...

It seems that there are a lot of people who kind of disappear from the internet once they reach a certain part of their transition

I'm not planning on going anywhere

If I do end up having phalloplasty I will document

every... single... second... of it... on camera

For me, and for you. Because I love to share my life with you guys and you guys are like my friends

[laughs] I'm lonely a lot so I have you guys

Is that sad?

yeah... nah...

nah, it's fine it's fine

[sigh]

Anyways, let me know what you think, um, do you have fluctuating bottom dysphoria?

What do you think about, I-

I'm not gonna say what do you think about phalloplasty because I know a lot of people have misconceptions about that and I don't want people talking shit

'Cause, you're allowed to not want phalloplasty

But, it would be nice if you didn't talk shit about people who have had phalloplasty because, please remember,

Those are human beings, and those are their bodies

[laughs] I feel like a lot of people forget that, but

Anyways... and it's not because like, one of my closest friends had phalloplasty that I want phalloplasty either, like

Jesus Christ [sigh]

It's a lot of self-reflecting and it's getting kind of annoying and I would like to talk to a therapist about this, actually

and I've never wanted to talk to a therapist about this

But I feel like I would either need to talk to a therapist who is like, trans

And like, knows 100% about all of this I don't even have to explain one thing

Or I need to talk to a trans person who is like, willing to talk to me about phalloplasty

Who've had the same kind of dilemma as me, but have chosen the route of phalloplasty

And someone else who has chosen the route to not have phalloplasty

Anyways, let me know what you think, I love you so much

Please like, comment, and subscribe- I'm almost at 100k which is literally my dream

forever, I can't beleive that I'm close to this number

So please share this video, um...

And, let me know what you think

I love you guys so much, have a great day, bye!

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just do what I do when I have problems - Duration: 0:06.

Just do what I do when I have problems.

MEME

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Hội Nghị Bàn Tròn | Trailer Chính Thức - Duration: 1:19.

I think one thing the international community fails to realize

is how the CCP has a direct hold

on all levels of society.

What we have is a vast organ donor pool

which is being killed when a patient arrives

and need an organ.

It is impossible for the Chinese Communist Party not to be watching that activity

and blessing that activity.

If these hospitals are following the directives of the Ministry of Health

that allow them to get that license,

they would have to be doing about 80 to 90,000 transplants per year

Yeah, that's the minimum.

That's the minimum.

If I'm the patient

and my liver just collapsed,

I need to be able to find a liver.

They're able to find a matching organ within 24 hours

They went down on the list

he picked out a name

came back two hours later

with a vial with two kidneys in it.

The kidneys didn't work, he went back three more times.

Since it was two kidneys everytime,

four people were killed.

The first thing you establish is that the volume is simply huge

So the image that we are discussing here of the CCP is not

one that is particularly welcomed.

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