Waching daily May 24 2017

Om Shanti !

Today's Murli Date Is 25th May 2017

Essence: Sweet children, you should have love for the soul.

While walking and moving along, practise: "I am a soul. I am talking to a soul. I mustn't do anything bad."

Question: Which of the Father's orders must Brahmins definitely follow for as long as the sacrificial fire created by the Father continues?

Answer: The Father's order is: Children, for as long as this sacrificial fire continues, you definitely have to remain pure.

You Brahma Kumars and Kumaris who are the children of Brahma must never indulge in vice

Anyone who disobeys this order incurs severe punishment.

When someone even has the evil spirit of anger, he is not a Brahmin.

Brahmins have to remain soul conscious and never become influenced by vices.

Song: O Traveller from the faraway land.

Essence for dharna: 1. After becoming a Brahmin who belongs to the sacrificial fire of the knowledge of Rudra,

don't perform any actions that would make your conscience bite.

Never become influenced by any evil spirit.

2. In order to become a complete helper of the Purifier Father, remain constantly pure and cheerful.

Churn knowledge and continue to smile.

Blessing: May you have a right to self-sovereignty and use your mind, intellect, sanskars and all physical organs according to the routine.

Souls who have a right to self-sovereignty make all their physical organs function under their orders with the power of yoga.

Not just their physical organs, but even their mind, intellect and sanskars

have to function under the directions of their master as routine.

The masters are never influenced by their sanskars,

but they are able to control their sanskars and use them as an elevated routine.

They also enter relationships and connections with elevated sanskars.

Souls who have a right to self-sovereignty cannot be deceived even in their dreams.

Slogan: Imbibe the speciality of humility and you will continue to achieve success.

To the sweetest, beloved, long-lost and now-found children, love, remembrance and good morning from the Mother, the Father, BapDada.

The spiritual Father says namaste to the spiritual children.

We spiritual children convey to spiritual Baapdada, our love our remembrance, our good morning & our namaste namaste

Om Shanti !

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Detection of end-stage cancer disease is full in Vietnam Cause World Thought - Duration: 6:49.

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CoD 2 Spanish Civil War ► Act VIII - Mission 24: "Taking Burgos" [ALTERNATE HISTORY ENDING] - Duration: 26:04.

"This video is not based on historical events. Here you can see an alternative version of the end of the Spanish Civil War that has nothing to do with what really happened."

The Battle of the Ebro lasts for 3 hard months.

Republican forces manage to get to the city of Gandesa in August,

Which becomes a fundamental enclave for which both sides fight with courage.

Under the slogans of vigilance, fortification, resistance... loyalist troops defend with great force all terrain gained during their advance of summer 1938.

But the large Italo-German aid received by the rebels is overwhelming against the few reinforcements that the Republicans have.

Rebel superiority in aviation is almost 50 to 1.

There are 180 Nationalists tanks for each Republican, and the French border remains closed to the Russian material shipments sent to the loyal government.

The situation is critical, and equally desperate measures are taken.

The Republic calls up even the quinta of 1921, effectives that with 17 years will form the so-called "quinta del biberón".

With inexperienced troops and logistical inferiority, the loyalists resist waiting for the worst.

The temporary international detente resulting from the signing of the Munich Agreement indirectly entails the recovery of the battered Republican frontline

and the revulsive that will ultimately decide the fate of Spain.

Eventually relieved, Britain and France are betting on restoring the weak international balance

recognizing again as legitimate the Republican government in Spain.

To this end, France opens its borders for the free entry of Russian material and troops.

Franco resolves a frontal attack to the front of the Ebro ignoring his generals, who recommend an offensive on the weakened north of Lerida.

But the arrival of new Russian fighters is decisive to counter the superiority of the Nationalist air force, allowing to secure the outposts by land.

With the help of British battalions integrated into the International Brigades, Republican forces manage to strengthen themselves first

and repulse in a matter of days the questionable rebel front offensive in days of battle marked by the aerial war.

By the end of October, the Nationalist connection of the north with the Mediterranean is broken.

Catalonia, much of Aragon, and the Levant are thus secure in Republican hands.

The expected but late naval cooperation of English ships in the Spanish Levant is decisive in the offensive on the southern territory.

With the Peninsular Midwest and much of the French border in Republican hands, the Russian reinforcements arrive without difficulty in the southern part of Spain.

The effective tug-of-war executed by sea and land, and the withdrawal of large numbers of Nationalist troops from the Andalusian coasts to reinforce the north, harassed by an air attack, now renewed and with vigor,

ends the insurgent domination of the most southern part of the country.

With Madrid and the south secured, the Republican government initiates at the beginning of 1939 an attack plan to corner the territory located between the Meseta and the south Andalusian part.

Meanwhile, confrontations continue in the north.

The Republican plan to surround Navarre and isolate it by taking advantage of its dominion in Aragon

works thanks to the international support and the opening pact with France.

By the end of March, the strategic triangle formed by the French border with the entry of troops, the southeast coast, and the area of Madrid, gets its job:

to corner the Nationalist enclaves in pockets of fierce resistance like the north of Andalusia and Extremadura, Navarre, Burgos, and all Galicia.

With the civil war completely internationalized, and the growing support of European democracies, the Republican army is preparing to attack Burgos and thus behead the Nationalist government.

A large number of troops from the International Brigades are concentrated north of Madrid, ready to join the offensive captained from the west of the Aragonese lands.

Burgos, April 30, 1939

The first assault on Burgos has been a success, but Navarre requetés have managed to distract attention from the Aragonese front. The Republic must count only on the International Brigades to continue its advance.

In spite of the aerial harassment to the enemy, the High Command has ordered to not lose an inch of terrain, while waiting for the bulk of the army from Zaragozan lands. A combined attack could end the resistance of the Nationalist government once and for all.

General, pilot Brezhnev reporting for duty.

Comrade Brezhnev! It's good to see you!

Sir, I've come to inform you about our mission in Germany.

I am aware of the excellent work you have done in Germany, comrade.

These documents have been shown by Negrín in the Munich Agreement. Thanks to them, we have managed to regain the support of France and England.

Even the USSR is generous again with the Spanish people, and has sent a contingent of soldiers to finish stifling the rebels.

Hasn't Miss Barrena come with you?

Comrade Marion is in a meeting with the International Brigades commissars to coordinate the assault on Burgos.

Perfect. We will continue to defend the positions, and we will end the Francoist resistance in the area.

Yes, my General! Our brothers from the Red Army will know how to treat that fascist scum!

Long live the revolution!

Live!

Death to fascism!

Death!

The time has come, comrades. The enemy is hiding in the center of the city of Burgos and has no intention of surrendering.

In our hands is the possibility to end this fratricidal war that has bathed our country with blood.

Let's finish them!

Let's go! Stay with the tanks!

Marion, I've fought against that man! He's one of Mussolini's dogs!

Don't worry, let him explain himself.

My name is Matteo Ferrero and the comrade is right. I fought for the Nationalists when the war began, I admit it.

I have made many mistakes in this war. That is why I am here today, with my men at your side, to amend them.

Comrade, you may join us. The enemy of our enemy is our friend.

Thanks for letting us fight alongside you.

Surrender, General Franco! We have neutralized all of your troops!

We will cut your throats!

Keep calm, brother, there's nothing else we can do. We've been defeated and we have to accept the defeat.

I just hope the Spanish people remember me as a man who fought for his fatherland. For Spain!

Stop with the speeches, they aren't going to be useful now!

You betrayed the legitimate government of your country and you also allied with dictators of foreign powers! You and your commanders will be judged for all your crimes! Arrest him!

Marion, what are you doing still here? Are you worried about anything?

No, everything's okay - the war is over, we've captured the rebel leader... I should be happy.

But I know there's still a lot to do, and Hitler won't change his plans.

Matteo, aren't you going back to your country?

I should return to Italy, although as long as Mussolini remains in power it will be difficult to return. And if I do, I'll have to stay hidden for some time.

Yes, it would be best. To disappear for a while. In the end, we all have to become shadows. The shadows of war.

"The life of the surrendering adversary is unassailable; no combatant can freely dispose of it. What is not the behavior of the insurgents? Nothing matters. Ours needs to be." - Julián Zugazagoitia

"This video is not based on historical events. Here you can see an alternative version of the end of the Spanish Civil War that has nothing to do with what really happened."

The capture of Franco and the members of his government leaves the main Nationalist enclaves isolated and uncoordinated.

The early centralism carried out by Franco is discovered as its main weakness when the government of Burgos falls and the different rebel plazas act independently.

In this scenario, the southern territories of the center of the Peninsula and north of Andalusia

are strategically very vulnerable to Republican attacks.

France and the United Kingdom recognize their direct support to the Negrín's Republican government, while Germany begins the withdrawal of troops to concentrate them in new fronts.

By the end of April, surrounded and weakened by the bombings, Navarre troops surrender to the Republic.

Despite this, much of their troops will continue their particular guerrilla warfare in the foothills of the territory halfway between Spain and France.

The coastal cities of Galicia and northern Portugal receive a wave of fugitives that pile up in the Atlantic ports trying to escape.

Few get it. They do not find the necessary cooperation on the part of the German ships,

and Republican troops take the last insurgent plazas.

Eventually, an announcement signed by Azaña himself announces on April 30 1939 the end of the war.

In the present day

with the rebel army captive and disarmed

Republican troops have achieved their last military objectives.

THE WAR IS OVER

"The only war won is the one that doesn't start."

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Assembling the Birthday Trampoline - Duration: 3:50.

Hey guys! Today we are going to set up my

daughter's fifth birthday present. We got

a trampoline. It's not a huge one; it's

one of the eight-foot ones with a net

enclosure. So my dad and I are going to

get it set up and surprise her. Stay

tuned and we'll just kind of walk

through it with this little time lapse.

Alright first step is the user manual;

According to me anyway. According to my

dad, we don't need no stinkin' manual.

Anyway I've got the manual out just

because I don't want to take

anything for granted but we got the

manual and we're getting ready to get it

all set up.

- music -

Instructions were good; it made it pretty

clear on what we needed to do. And I'm

glad did that we read them, but I'm also

really excited about this enclosure

because it's gonna help keep my

five-year-old safely inside.

- music -

Finishing touches! Tying up the enclosure

and here we go: perfect for a little

five-year-old! Dad: should I jump in? Yes jump

in -- over the top of the net. Dad: You can do it

good wait wait what are you doing?

OK. that's it we got it all set up. It's

probably about two hours; Hour and 45

maybe, if we had read the instructions to

the tee. Actually probably wouldn't have saved

us much time: we did do a few

things that we had to redo, but

all-in-all it's pretty quick. Really glad

that my dad helped me do it cuz I if it

was just me I would've stopped. so anyway

oldest daughter is going to be super

excited and I can't wait to show her.

She's inside. Miraculously, she hasn't

come out yet.

But anyway, thanks for watching our our video

on the trampoline and subscribe to our

channel if you want to see more. We'd

love to have you join us. Check out our

Facebook page or our blog and yeah have

a great rest of your day. Bye guys!

you

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POST-IT BIL | #CokeTVBucketlist - Duration: 6:18.

-Jonas! -Sorry... sorry!

Yes... ehm...

-Hello and welcome to... -CokeTV Sweden!

-Welcome! -Woho!

I'm Athena, and right next to me is Sp4zie.

-Are you excited? -Yes, I'm so excited. Can't you tell?

-Yes, that's great. -I just screamed in your ear.

-Let's go! Can I pick one? -Wait, wait, wait...

Wait, that wasn't good. Now!

-Oh, upside down. -What does it say? What does it say?

"You have to park a car that's covered in post-it notes".

Eh... Did you say "park a car"?

-Yes, I don't have a driver's license so you'll have to do this one. -Are you serious?

I can't park a car. I shouldn't even be allowed to drive, that's how bad I am at parking.

I think this sounds like a great idea.

-Of course you do, because you don't have a license. -No and that feels great. Let's go!

But don't blame me if we crash!

Step 1 is to figure out how many post-it's we'll need for the car.

I can already feel that these are way too few. We need a lot of post-it's.

100!

And then you turn it. Turn... turn... oh no! Look what happened.

-Parking: Done. -Okay.

-Ish. -Yes, ish.

-Now we just have to get post-it's. -Let's go and get some.

-But where can we find them? -I know a place. Come with me.

-But where...? -Come on. This is going to be... I've got some ideas.

Come on!

Hurry, hurry! Get out.

Hello vlog! -Hello there.

Now we're on our way to the place where we're going to park the car and put post-it's on it.

I can tell that you're getting more and more nervous as we get closer.

That's because I'm the worst at parking, I really don't know if this is going to work.

- I'm excited at least, it's going to be fun. -Me too!

Let's do this!

And here's the car!

The car?

The car!

Nice.

Oh great...

- You're ruining the car. Perfect. -But it's okay because we're covering it in post-it's.

So that's cool.

This is going great, huh?

- Yeah, but it would be great if you could help a little. -Yes.

Achoo!

-Oh my god. Bless you. -Sorry, thanks.

To work with Athena has been just fine.

I don't feel like she's taking me as seriously as I want.

Ah! Be like the sun.

Jonas? What are you doing?

Working with Jonas is quite... special.

Help me up!

I mean, we're not really from the same world.

Okay, let's just keep going, huh?

Dream team

There we go. Now it's just one door left.

Wait! I've got an idea.

Let's do that.

-That's great. -Yes.

Why didn't we think of this earlier?

- Sick idea. -Yes.

Really good idea.

Okay, step 1 is done. The post-it's are on.

Step 2: You have to park the car.

Are you wearing the seatbelt? Good.

This feels a little hard.

I think this feels really good. You're going to do great.

I'm just afraid that this won't work that well.

-Because I'm really that bad at parking as I mentioned earlier. -Ah, let's go!

I guess we just have to get this going.

-Are you ready? -Yes!

One more thing. When I'm parking the car, it's really important that you keep quiet.

Okay?

-What I've learned is that I have to keep close to... -Look how long this seatbelt is.

-No we're not going to turn on the radio. Be quiet please. -I'm bored.

For real!

Why are you getting in the backseat?

I don't understand why you are getting in the backseat! Hello?

Wait.

I'm just a little bored.

Come on...

-Jonas! -Sorry... sorry.

- You're stressing me out! -No, it's cool.

Oh look at your hair, it's so nice.

Do you see this hand?

-This is wrong. -I'm going to keep quiet.

This is not right. I have to do it all over.

I can get out and help you.

-Like you haven't helped me enough! -I'll do that.

-Then you have to coach me really good. -Yes, yes, yes.

Come here, come here.

Oh my god.

-Oh, this never ends! -Stop!

-Is it done? -Yes!

Woho!

-Perfect! -Boom!

Come and see.

Okay, I'm just going to turn off the tel... I was about to say" the telephone".

-No!! -What?

What was that?

-Did we fail? -No!!

They fell!

-It's just 2 of them, or 3 of them. -Wait, no one's watching...

-Yes! -Yes!!

-Victory lap! -Woho!

What do we feel about that?

It was great. I was really nervous in the beginning, and you were so annoying.

But after a while we did it... together.

It was really fun in the beginning to put on post-it's. I don't know what happened though.

I'm bored.

You can't just walk away.

"I'm walking away, from the post-it's in my life".

Don't forget to subscribe because next week we are back with a new episode, and you don't want to miss that.

A new challenge that's going to be awesome.

Don't forget to leave a comment down below, and tell us what you want us to do.

-Be creative guys. -Yes.

- There's obviously nothing we can't do. -Or is it?

We've got one more thing to do.

-Well... Jonas. -Yes?

This wasn't part of our challenge.

To clean this mess up.

No the note didn't mention this.

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Hội Nghị Bàn Tròn | Trailer Chính Thức - Duration: 1:19.

I think one thing the international community fails to realize

is how the CCP has a direct hold

on all levels of society.

What we have is a vast organ donor pool

which is being killed when a patient arrives

and need an organ.

It is impossible for the Chinese Communist Party not to be watching that activity

and blessing that activity.

If these hospitals are following the directives of the Ministry of Health

that allow them to get that license,

they would have to be doing about 80 to 90,000 transplants per year

Yeah, that's the minimum.

That's the minimum.

If I'm the patient

and my liver just collapsed,

I need to be able to find a liver.

They're able to find a matching organ within 24 hours

They went down on the list

he picked out a name

came back two hours later

with a vial with two kidneys in it.

The kidneys didn't work, he went back three more times.

Since it was two kidneys everytime,

four people were killed.

The first thing you establish is that the volume is simply huge

So the image that we are discussing here of the CCP is not

one that is particularly welcomed.

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FLUCTUATING BOTTOM DYSPHORIA - Duration: 14:03.

Hey guys, my name is Chase So today I'm going to be talking to you about

fluctuating bottom dysphoria

A couple of years ago I made a video about fluctuating dysphoria

And I talked about how sometimes it's okay that you-

Feel extreme dysphoria about some aspect, um,

Like your voice or not having surgery

And then other times you're completely fine with your chest

And you're okay with people touching it and you're to not wear a binder

And that's kind of what I talked about

[Deep inhale]

...Now...

I have realized something

I have mi- this will be my third video about my- my- desire to possibly in the future maybe want bottom surgery

And I've realized that the last two videos that I've made about this

Um, have been almost around the same time of year

I think

I might be wrong on that and like, I'm sorry cause sometimes I record my videos and post it like months later on

Whoops

Um, but, I remember making a video not too long ago, so maybe...

A year- I don't know; it was called "FEEN 4 THE PEEN"

And I talk about how I, really in that moment, really really want bottom surgery

And I really want phalloplasty

And, um, basically if you don't know what phalloplasty is

it's a certain type of, um, bottom surgery that trans men can get

They usually take a donor graft from either your arm, your thigh...

You can get it from the back of- the back of your butt... like, your thigh / butt area

You can get it from your side

There- you can also do, um, the groin one where they take the skin kind of like near your stomach

and the groin area to create a phallus

Anyways, so what I was talking about was more the arm one

Where- this is the most popular one because there is an extra nerve in your arm that they take out

and they connect

I will make a video later on about the specifics of phalloplasty and how it works

But, basically I...

[Deep inhale]

I want this type of surgery

and that's what I talked about in that video

and it's so weird because my... dysphoria... with my bottom... area...

fluctuates...

so much

So, currently in my life, I do a lot of review videos

If you've noticed on my channel, um, for the last like, 5 months

I have had a lot of unboxing videos, a lot of review videos, a lot of comparison videos

about all of these toys that I have

Most of these toys are STPs and packers, but I have a lot that are related to sex

Now the thing with sex, and this is like, TMI- if you don't want to know this just like warning you

Content Warning- Talking about sex

I...

I use the products to have sex with people

but the person also has sex with me

And that's how I need it to be- and I need it to be 100% equal, like 50/50

Like 50% of the time I do you; 50% of the time you do me

So I know what these products feel like when I give it to someone

and how it feels like on me when I'm penetrating someone

but I also know what it feels like when someone is penetrating me

and I love that and I never want that to go away

because that is a sensation that I really have learned to love and accept

because even though I'm a trans man, and I'm not supposed to have these parts and love them

I do have these parts and I love to use them

but there is a difference between "I love to use them" with "I love them"

and that's the issue that I'm trying to- I'm trying to just-

get these two pieces of my brain kind of situated together and live together

um, and- in harmony

because I don't want to stop reviewing toys

this is my job- I love doing it and I love providing information for the community

so that they don't have to buy expensive $300 STPs and then I review it and it's not really good

then they don't have to spend $300 on something they thought might work

so that's why I do it

and I'm very fortunate that these companies send me products, uh, for me to review

And I'm really really really grateful that Early2Bed sponsors me and sponsors the videos that I make for them

which is fantastic

So, this part of my life is no problem for me

When I'm having sex with someone, if I have a deep emotional connection with them and I'm comfortable using toys with them

Um, being the top, 'cause usually if I'm having sex with someone and I don't feel emotionally connected I'm the one being fucked

Like, I just like, lie there and I'm just like, whatever I don't wanna have to do any effort

and like use things that I'm not comfortable with you because I don't know who you are

So once I find someone that I have an emotional connection with

100%, use all of these toys on me. Let's do it right now, I'll use it on you at the same time you use it on me

Like, not really possible- I mean technically the Realdoe you can like, in and out I guess

But- that's not for here

So I love this part, but I also struggle with really, really, REALLY, wanting phalloplasty

And the thing is that I want a penis, but I don't want to have surgery

And, yeah, obviously that's what everyone's gonna say, but...

[Inhale]

It's very hard for me to accept that I will never have a cis penis

It will never happen- ever, no matter how hard I wish it in my head, it's never gonna happen

and I've had to mourn this idea

I'm still working on that, literally like seven years into this

[Deep Inhale]

It's very hard for me to accept that

Um, but I'm working on accepting it

And I've come to a place where I know I'm never gonna have a cis penis

so I know that I can have phalloplasty

and that's like the second best thing for me

If I'm thinking that the ultimate is a cis penis

But what I've done with this mourning phase of my bottom dysphoria

and mourning the fact that I will never have a cis penis

is I've completely removed that as an option for me

and realized that the only option that is good is phalloplasty

because there's no point in thinking about something I'll never be able to get

Like I'll never get that- ever. You can't chop off a cis guy's dick and put it on you- it ain't gonna work

So, I've accepted that phalloplasty IS the number one thing now

And I- I like it, and it's great, and I know that there's a lot of misconceptions ab-

mis-con-cep-tions about bottom surgery and I'm not here to give you all of them

but a lot of people think that it doesn't function, you can't have sex, you don't have any sensation, you can't pee, you can't get hard, all of these things

They're all misconceptions. You can get hard if you have a semi-rigid rod where you have a pump or a different type of erectile device

You can have balls implanted, you can have sensation, especially if you do the forearm phalloplasty where they take the extra nerve

in your arm... "extra nerve," I mean they do like microsurgery so they like attach the nerve, it's just like this neve [motions to arm] is...

I think is- has more sensation than the nerve that they would take from if you did the- the phalloplasty graft from your thigh

Um...

I mean there's all of these different myths- I'm not here to just talk about that

But I'm telling you that-

The...

Even if you think it's bad, there are so many amazing surgical advances in phalloplasts that have happened in the last five years-

In the last ten years that it is, uh

Even the last two years!

[Deep Inhale]

That is definitely something to look into if you didn't know anything about it; just get informed

But I'm here to tell you that to me that is the number one option

And I am at a place where I really want...

I really, really want phalloplasty

Um, there are very high complication rates for certain aspects

And then there are high complica- low complication rates for other things

[Inhale]

So I'm- I am- I'm at a point where I'm very confused on what to do with my body

I don't feel pressure- 0% by society

by the community, by anyone, by myself I guess

to get a penis because Penis = Man

I'm gonna say that outright

Penis does not equal man

To me? 0 perce- what the fuck is gender

Literally

I don't even identify 100% as male

Like you could literally categorize me as nonbinary- TECHNICALLY

Um...

But don't because I don't identify as that

I just identify as trans, it's whatever

But I'm- I'm- [laughs]

I am at a place where I feel

That the bulge that I have had in my pants for the last...

Whatever- six years of wearing a packer

Is...

And it's been on-and-off by the way, the packer- on-and-off, and now it's been on for like two years nonstop

Um...

That I, I, I need it to be permanent

part of me

and I don't know how to explain that

and I don't know how to explain it to myself

because I do a lot of self-reflecting

I'm in sociology- I'm doing my master's in sociology, like...

I have taken so many classes on gender and the social construction of society

and sexuality, and gender, and sex

and...

I've really had to think to myself,

"Do I feel like I need a penis to be a man?"

And absolutely not. I say that and I want to vomit a little bit

Like I get kind of queazy like, no

That's not it for me

For some people, you need a penis to be a man. That's you, that's your transition, that's your life. You do you.

But for me that's not- that's not it at all

For me it's like...

I...

I feel like this body part was supposed to be part of me anyways

And it has been very hard to accept that it is not a part of me

But now that I know that it's an option that it can be a part of me

I'm like a girl at a candy shop that has seen her favorite fucking little candy and is like "Ooooh!"

I don't know why I just said that, that sounded really weird

A girl at a candy- why'd I say a girl? Why'd I say a candy shop?

De-transitioning that's why [laughs dramatically] kidding

If I can't get phalloplasty I might as well just de-transition [laughs]

I will say something though, just so that this video isn't super depressing

I have found something that is amazing, okay

[clears throat]

I record a lot of my videos ahead of time so I don't know when this video is going to be out

compared to this next thing that I'm going to be talking about

But, Reelmagik, which is a prothetic company for trans men

Have- have these packers, and they have sent me two to review

I'm currently wearing one

[sighs]

When this review is out, I will put it in the description

If you still don't see it in the description in a couple of months when you watch this video, please, please just comment "Hey, where's that video?"

Because I'll link it to you, because I keep forgetting to like, link my videos in the description, sorry

When I wear this packer, it feels like I have phalloplasty

And to me that's like, I have a- I have a penis! It's mine!

And that's what it feels like

Yes it's not connected to me, but

there is something that they have said in the past

Um, at the Philly Trans Health Conference

If you're gonna plan on having phalloplasty

before you have it, pack big

Because you are not used to having something that is that big on you all the time

Because the thing with phalloplasty is you can't have it small and then when it's erect it gets bigger like a cis penis

It doesn't work like that- you're always gonna be a shower and not a grower

So I pack with the Mr. Limpy small- or Xtra small on some websites

That's- it's small, it's- it's very small and it has big balls but I've learned to love it

and I push it to the side and it's great

But, my phalloplasty, whenever I do decide to have it

IF I do, will never be that big, so...

[Deep inhale]

I have found a packer that resembles what phalloplasty will look like in your pants

after you have surgery

I have a friend who has had phalloplasty

He sends me pictures of him in his boxers and I look at it and then I look at me with this packer on and I'm like oh my god

That's what I'm gonna- this is what I'm gonna look like?!

It's helping me so much to visualize it

And by doing this it's making me- "Can I do this, do I want to do this?"

[Deep inhale]

Can I do all of these activities that I like doing like, running, um...

I was gonna say cooking, that's random, but like

biking, swimming,

Can I do this- these, all these activities

yoga, stretching...

[Inhale]

All these movement type activities I guess, um...

Going to the locker room, anything

Can I do all of these activities with having something that is so big in my pants that I'm not used to

And I'm not meaning so big, I literally mean five inches, like,

That's not bi- like I don't want like a ten inch dick

I'm okay with five, I'm cool, that's fine

So that's the point of this video is yes, my dysphoria is fluctuating

Um, yes do I want bottom surgery

Do I not want it

What type do I want because it- when I, like, "Okay I want it"

I'm like "But do I want urethral lengthening?" because urethral lengthening does really add to the complication rate

And I would like to not have a complication with my urethra

Am I okay to si- sta- sit to pee?

Forever?

Pretty much, I think I'm fine with that, honestly

I don't have dysphoria- that's fluctuated too by the way

I used to like, need to stand to pee, but now I'm like, I really don't care

And I'm just imagining all these life events and just walking around and-

I'm really excited to review this specific packer and I am gonna talk about that more in the review so please, link in the description... on that...

One comes out! I need to be more organized I'm sorry I love you

Sorry, I'm just readjusting the peen

I do need to say though I went for a run with this today and it was like, flying everywhere

I need tighter underwear because or else it's just gonna like- it like ended up with the balls on top

And I was like, yeah, that's what- how phalloplasty looks like

Anyways let me know what you think, I know this is like...

It seems that there are a lot of people who kind of disappear from the internet once they reach a certain part of their transition

I'm not planning on going anywhere

If I do end up having phalloplasty I will document

every... single... second... of it... on camera

For me, and for you. Because I love to share my life with you guys and you guys are like my friends

[laughs] I'm lonely a lot so I have you guys

Is that sad?

yeah... nah...

nah, it's fine it's fine

[sigh]

Anyways, let me know what you think, um, do you have fluctuating bottom dysphoria?

What do you think about, I-

I'm not gonna say what do you think about phalloplasty because I know a lot of people have misconceptions about that and I don't want people talking shit

'Cause, you're allowed to not want phalloplasty

But, it would be nice if you didn't talk shit about people who have had phalloplasty because, please remember,

Those are human beings, and those are their bodies

[laughs] I feel like a lot of people forget that, but

Anyways... and it's not because like, one of my closest friends had phalloplasty that I want phalloplasty either, like

Jesus Christ [sigh]

It's a lot of self-reflecting and it's getting kind of annoying and I would like to talk to a therapist about this, actually

and I've never wanted to talk to a therapist about this

But I feel like I would either need to talk to a therapist who is like, trans

And like, knows 100% about all of this I don't even have to explain one thing

Or I need to talk to a trans person who is like, willing to talk to me about phalloplasty

Who've had the same kind of dilemma as me, but have chosen the route of phalloplasty

And someone else who has chosen the route to not have phalloplasty

Anyways, let me know what you think, I love you so much

Please like, comment, and subscribe- I'm almost at 100k which is literally my dream

forever, I can't beleive that I'm close to this number

So please share this video, um...

And, let me know what you think

I love you guys so much, have a great day, bye!

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Spying is fun :D - Roblox Framed - Duration: 15:00.

Hi guys :D

My name is TonyVN

And to day we will play Roblox Framed (again)

And now We are loking for <:D (kinda)

And look who we have here XD

Our Target jump into view :P

But of course, everyone even him is immune to potato aim

Who Next?

Mr Chuckle, this is the last laugh u ever have >:)

Im a call an elevator

And im gonna run XD

There u are XD

Now How should i kill him?

Snipe or Knife, which would u like?

Feeds 4 dayz

NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

The reason 4 cut: Bad word detected

Let pick the next location

Let Goooooo!!!!

Dunno why but i got a feeling he uc

Let not contact Mr Gun-Spamer

Target Acquired :D

DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

GET SPOOKED M8

Now Mr Unconcern

I think he concern he going to die

Yep

Turn out Mr Braces is not Uc and He is the next Target

Mr Gun Spamer is now very peaceful and drinking water

Need to heal

Hai :D

BOOM U DED

RUN

NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

And the escape place is taunting meh :(((

LETGOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Can't find meh target

Current activity

Nice ship Pa

U shouldn't show that

BECAUSE U ARE GOING TO DED

Thx Cop :3

GG

Your cuteness can't save u, Mr :3

Hi there >:)

AYYYYY XD

Nice song

Mr gunspamer put it up somewhere pls XD

Target found

FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUU

Welp i have to end the video here

See u guys in the next video

BYEEEEEEEEE!!!!

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FULFILLING MY DREAM 🚘💞 - Duration: 11:40.

Hi

Hi

Hi everyone im Valentina

And today a new video

And a new day

Hello guys, how are you?

Welcome to a new video

Today we woke up in Havana

And we are here in this beautiful park

We are doing a tour, with the old cars

We have a guide that is telling us the all story

And i'm in love with Habana

I love it, it's so beautiful

Has a lot of culture

The buildings are all super big and old

I love it

Look, guys, our car, so pretty.

My dream it's to have a pink car and finally i got it

We are doing the tour in this car

This is like old American cars

I'll show them to you

Too stylish

Look how nice this tree is

it's a giant Ficus

We are now in the second stop of the tour

And is in the forest of Habana

What was shown on the way

So beautiful

Everything it's so green, there a lot of giant trees

And this is at the edge of the river

This is a stop where all the cars on the tour stop here

So i'm going to show you all the old cars that are here

This is our car

This is the car Sami wanted

More masculine, but they gave us the pink one

And i love it

And that river that you see there is the main river of Havana

I forgot the name

The just told me

And look how beautiful this nature is

And Sami that is pretty too.

Oh thank you baby

Look Sami just shaved today

He looks like a baby

But he looks nice

But i still prefer how he looks with beard

Well we are going back to the car to continue with our tour

let's go

We are here in the third stop of the tour

And we are in the biggest graveyard of Cuba

Also is the third biggest graveyard in the world

This graveyard is like an open museum

Because as you can see it is full of statues, very old and very beautiful

And this graveyard was opened in 1871

Imagine the time these tombs have

Here are buried the most important people of Cuba

Famous writers, presidents

Also buried is the person who embroidered the national flag of Cuba

I'm going to tell the story of Amalia

Who just told us our guide

He only speak english that's why i didn't record it

Amalia was a woman that fell in love with his cousin

And his family would not let them marry

Because the cousin was poor and he didn't have a lot of money

But they got married

And they got a son, she gets pregnant

But at the moment of birth she die and the son too

So they buried she here in this tomb

And there is a tradition here in Cuba

Every two years they open the grave and take out the body

And they put the body in a smaller box

Well, and the reason this story is so shocking.

Is because at the moment when she was buried

They buried them together

She was lying down and her baby between her legs

Like she was giving birth to him

And 13 years later

When they came to take out the body

The body was intact, with a perfect skin

And the baby was on her arms

And people not only of Cuba, also in the rest of the world

Come now and make petitions and pray for their families

And also the most interesting thing about this tomb is that it always has flowers

During all days, all year round

And this is because her husband

When she died

has come every day for 40 years to leave flowers to her

So now all the people come now and leave flowers

So now I'm going to ask Amalia for my wish.

We are now in the square of the revolution

And what we see behind me is the tallest tower of Cuba

This is the square where all ceremonies and all important events are make

Also we can see...

I'm like a tourist guide for you guys

Also here in the front

We can see a giant picture of "El Ché"

And also a picture of "Camilo Cienfuegos"

That is here in the front

We are going to drink a Daiquiri

In the most famous bar of Daiquiris, "La Floridita"

Good God the daiquiris were amazing

I could have taken 20 more

So delicious

Now I know why they are so famous.

And also this place is famous because

Hemingway used to go there to drink daiquiris

And there they made their special Daiquiri

And he used to drink like 15 per day

And that's why that place is famous

15 per day guys

15 per day guys

we want to drink 15...

But with one we are fine

But without sugar

Yes, he used to drink without sugar

Because he was diabetic

Look behind me you can see our boat

Now we are going back

And we say goodbye to Habana

But we will come back in one week

So if I did not show you enough, you could see more in a week

We are back in the bedroom

The truth is that I'm exhausted.

My feets..

My poor feets are dead

And I came up with the great idea of going with these shoes to walk around the center of Habana

And they are so flat that my feets are hurt so much

And it's also the first time I use them

So I got a lot of foot injuries

Now we are going to rest a little bit

And then we have the dinner

The show

Where are we going?

To the restaurant to eat

The ship began to move

And can not imagine how it feels

It's like I'm shaking all the time

We are like ,Forward to back, Forward to back

Forward to back

Forward to back

No, the truth is just starting to...

Come on let's go Vale

I was in the bedroom all this time

And Sami hates me just a little

Because i was uploading yesterday's Vlog

Finish editing

I finish all the work

But guess what time it is ...

It's 1 a.m.

And we are just leaving

We are going dancing

We are outside

Watching how the boat is moving

You really feel that the boat is moving

I think the first day you feel it more

And then you get used to it

But it moves a lot

Look at the lights behind me.

I have the finger there, watch it move

We are moving forward

We advance

We are moving very fast

The boat moves very fast

The boat is very fast guys

That same

This is the boat at night

That is not the song

How embarrassing how the people look at us

I have a tired face

Well it's 1 a.m

Do not judge me

Im very tired

And we woke up not too early

Goodbye

And that was our reggaeton remix

With all our love for you guys

Hope you guys enjoy it

Good night guys

Good night guys, I hope you liked today's Vlog

If you enjoyed it, give it like

And subscribe to my channel

And leave me all your comments

Because I read them all

But i want to apologize if i don't respond

The thing is that as I am on the cruise I only have an hour of wifi per day

And that hour of wifi at day I use it to ...

And that hour of wifi at day I use it to upload the Vlog of the previous day

So i don't have time to be on the web

Or in Instagram or Facebook

So at the time i finish the cruise i will read all and i will answer everything

I promise

Goodnight , and thank you very much

Love you guys

Bye

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Polly put the kettle on,

Polly put the kettle on,

Polly put the kettle on,

We'll all have tea.

Lola bring the cups and plates,

Lola bring the cups and plates,

Lola bring the cups and plates,

We'll all have tea.

Zizi stop playing hide and seek ,

Zizi stop playing hide and seek ,

Zizi stop playing hide and seek ,

We'll all have tea.

Miki find the cakes and scones,

Miki find the cakes and scones,

Miki find the cakes and scones,

We'll all have tea.

Abbi takes the kettle off ,

Abbi takes the kettle off ,

Abbi takes the kettle off ,

We'll all have tea.

Spread some cream and jam on toast,

Spread some cream and jam on toast,

Spread some cream and jam on toast,

Lets all have tea!

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Advanced Latin: Online Classes with Homeschool Connections - Duration: 2:24.

Salvete! Hello. Welcome to Advanced

Latin. I'm Mrs Henry and I teach Latin

for Homeschool Connections. Whether

you're brand new to my classes or you've

been with me from the start I'm really

excited that you're here and that you're

considering joining this course. This

course is full of rich text. It is at this

stage that students finally get to dive

into real Latin. They get to read letters

that Emperors wrote, that politicians

wrote. They get to read by Saint

Augustine. We get to dive into the Vulgate.

There's so many different things that

students get to explore in this course

for the very first time. There's

something special about reading these

texts in the original Latin, but it's

also very challenging, which is why we

have many resources to help students

work through their translations, the

grammar, as well as the vocabulary.

Depending on the Latin course that

you'll be taking we either use Virgil's

Aeneid this is called Pharr's Virgil's

Aeneid or we will go through the

Wheelock Latin Reader. Both of these

textbooks are fantastic because they

have built-in dictionaries, they have

vocabulary assistance on the actual

pages that students are working on and

reading, it also has a lot of grammar

notes and grammar assistance. Again as

students are slowly starting to learn

how to implement all of those concepts

our beginning Latin and intermediate

Latin. Students can expect to spend time

throughout each week leading up to class

translating a particular assigned

passage. During class we discuss and go

over those translations, we talk about

the grammar, and students can expect to

correct their own mistakes as we work

through each translation together. While

this course is definitely the most

challenging one that's offered at

Homeschool Connections for Latin, it's

very rewarding. Students can expect to

work hard, but to make leaps and bounds

throughout the school year in their

understanding and knowledge of Latin. I

thank you for your interest and for

watching and I hope to see you in

Advanced Latin. Valete!