Good morning, everybody. Happy Tuesday, September 25th, 2018. I just got back home from my meeting
I'm about to head to work and for breakfast just gonna have
Usual bacon egg and cheese sandwich with some coffee
and
I will talk to guys in the next clip. Hopefully you're having a great day. Talk to you guys soon. Good evening
Everyone it is your boy Jay and welcome
To be and the vlog talk today. I went to my meeting I had
a great meeting today and went to work had a
Eventful day again at work, but I've got a lot of stuff done
For my channel, which was good
Found up some cool news today that I was featured on a
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Instagram post video right now
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and it's just cool to be mentioned and
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One of their top videos for the week. I've been on their list a couple of times before
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Yeah, and that's pretty much it, I think I'm gonna combine today in tomorrow's vlog
Right now I'm working out videos and videos and uh
yeah, it's uh, it's
Uh, it's a big thing that I'm trying to do and I
Didn't begin by taking this much work
Good morning, everyone happy
Wednesday September 26 2008 een. Just got out of my early meeting and
got to share something that I never thought I would share and
It's a it's a
Really good sense of relief and I'm so happy I did it
I'll talk to you guys more about it later at the end of the vlog
Waiting for mom to pick me up from my meeting and then I'm gonna head to my doctor's meeting and pinna cup
Always a good time
my uncle is my physician, so
Usually spend more than 30 minutes there. So we'll see how long this
appointment takes
Talk to you guys in the next clip
What's up? Everybody is later in the day. I just came back from my
doctor's meeting
Yes, so my doctor's meaning we left
We left my house at 8 o'clock this morning. Got to the doctor's office at 11:00. My appointment was at 12:00
Didn't leave the doctor's appointment until like 3 o'clock
Stopped by in and out for lunch
didn't get home until
5 o'clock
finishing up my special video for Sunday and then I'm gonna go meet up with my sponsor to talk about
My sobriety so I will catch you guys on the next clip
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So right now it is the end the vlog talk. Let's talk about the day
today I started my day off at my a meeting and
Some notes. I wrote down today were
It's good to start off your morning
With a because it's kind of like a gas station. It's your time to fill up and
you're like the car and you need gas and
You need gas to get your day started in order to get the engine started and I thought that was a great analogy
Because getting up for these 6:30 in the morning meanings it's a little bit tough but
Well worth it well worth it because a lot of lot of good things came out today
So in today's
Meeting I shared that I held a lot of bitterness in terms of certain things in my life
Not know need to know the specifics about it. Just know that
When I was drinking I would I would hold a lot of resentment and
When I say I would hold a lot of resentment it would be in
Bitterness and
After I spoke
Someone wanted to interject and say that
You can change bitter to better by just changing one letter
So you should try that in life instead of being better and knowing you're going to be bitter
you should strive to be better and
That was even more
reinforced with my meeting with my sponsor today
Where he said?
the
Goal for you the goal. You should set every morning is to be a better man than you were yesterday
and that speaks volumes that
Was like the BAM like a lightening here lightning strike striking me here and
Telling me, you know, let your ego
Go and just trust in the higher powers plan, and you may have some rough spots
But that's all part of the plan and you have to just trust
That you'll find the way out of it
Which is
What I learn and that is
I've learned that a is a program of skills
It's basically taking instruction and using those skills in real life
I've said this before being sober is the easiest part of my recovery. It's all these other things that I have to deal with
real-life
things that are related to my character defects and
This program of skills that
That someone calls Alcoholics Anonymous is the tools to get used to
Letting things go and
learning to get
over things and the more that you use your tools the more easier it gets so
An analogy that I can relate to is that when I first started playing the piano
at age 8 I
Wasn't the best I was pretty good
but if I didn't practice every day and set myself up for a regimen
Where I had to finish my homework before I even started practicing
piano and I was so excited to practice the piano and I would sit at the piano for
Hours if you talked to my mom or you talked to my family, I'd be that kid playing the piano on weekends
I'd be playing the piano I wanted
To to thrive and be good at what I did and I
Was a pretty damn good piano player
I think that if I continued my studies in piano
I would be a virtuoso. No doubt. No doubt about it. I can show you all these awards that I've won
in competition and
I'm pretty proud of that and I think that my work ethic with
trying so hard in piano
Got me through school
To help me graduate near the top of my class as well as getting me into college and grad school. So I
look back at those things and I
think I tried to relate to a and how
For a period of time when I was drinking a lot all of that work ethic went away. It was more of
trying to suppress stress and try and suppress all these things that I didn't want to deal with by drinking and
Now I have even more reason to be a better person and to
Try to trust in the higher powers plan in my journey and
Today was a very uplifting day. Not only with my a meeting
Seeing my doctor my primary care doctor
My health concerns have
Pretty much gone away
the things I was worried the things that I was worried about in my
assessment and in my
vitals they
are pretty much gone, and I'm
Very thankful for being sober and it's not
just being on the medicine or
not drinking
It's really trying hard in life to be a better person and I think and I do believe that in being a better person
It can help you with your health
Because I think that the more stress you have in life the more debilitating it can be and the more
In many ways it can mess you up not only in your brain, but internally we organs and things like that
Something else that happened to these that I reached out to
Some of my my friends my brothers and just just to do like a check-in just to see how you're doing
because it's been a long time since we've
Chatted and it's nice to know that
They answer there they answer their
Texts, or they answered their phone call and it's good to know that I have a great support system there and that people
Still have my back
I
admit that I've done a lot of things in my past to
Push people away and to cause people to
just walk away because it's easier to do that than to deal with someone who is so erratic and
So messed up in his mind and his ego
especially while drinking and
Who got caught up in?
So much petty stuff I look back and I'm just like breath shut up like I think I would be friends with myself
If I was if I
were
To be put in that situation if I were outside of my body and seeing it and seeing myself spiral or unravel
As a third person, so I'm truly grateful for my friends and there's this great quote that I read somewhere
not in the big book, but I think it was on Pinterest and
It said do you want to know who your real friends are dot dot dot?
then get sober and
Now being sober I really do know who my real friends are and I'm totally grateful for that
So instead of reading from my daily companion I want to read from the big book today
on a paragraph
that
means a lot and
Yeah, it is
The seven of sobriety I am so excited in three days
I will earn my 60-day chip and I can't
Believe it. I really really can't believe I've gotten this far
I think I said two vlogs ago that I got to day 55 sober and
Now Monday 57 sober and it's crazy
I've gone to two for three four or five or six for them for 49 today is my 49th meeting in a row and
I am still on my journey of 90 meetings in 90 days, and I can't wait to
Put a check on that box and move forward to my next goal. But again one day at a time
So let me read a quick paragraph from the big book and that's how we'll end
Today's vlog and it goes a little something like this
and
Acceptance is the answer to all my problems today when I am disturbed is because I find some person place thing or situation
some fact of my life
unacceptable to me and I can find no serenity until I accept that person place thing or situation as
Being exactly the way is supposed to be at this moment
Nothing, absolutely nothing
happens in God's world by mistake
Until I could accept my alcohol
Alcoholism I could not stay sober unless I accept life completely on life's terms
I cannot be happy
I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as
On what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes so that is where I'm at in my sobriety
I am
Slowly yanked step 4 and
Right now my sponsor has me
On this assignment where I have to reread this chapter and totally understand this chapter
in the book and then I will have to start making my
list of
Resentments list of things where I
Was wrong and need to make amends to
And that is a step that I'm very very scared about
and
I
Have trust in
The higher powers plan that this is definitely an important step
To go through and the only way to
Get through the program is to go through the steps
So I should not fear this and I should be accepting of this and I should be ready
Spiritually to finally sit down and write this out and I
Can see them I yes I am I have fear about the same time. I'm excited. I'm excited to
Face this on head-on because I am that type of person that will
try to avoid
Things like this. So I
Hope that you guys got something from the reading today and from my talking as always
And I hope you had as good a day as I had today or even better
And if you didn't have a good day, just remember that
you can wake up and start your day fresh and
try to remember that tomorrow is a new day and that
It's up to you. It's your choice whether or not you want to make it better than it was today
So with that said, let's end the vlog the way we usually do remember to be confident
Be humble
No, that's the wrong order
Remember to be confident be honest be humble and most of all be well
Thanks for listening. It's your boy Jay. And you guys have a great evening. I will touch you guys tomorrow
peace
My head is heavy to
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