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THE MURDERS OF AGATHA CHRISTIE

Daddy?

Daddy, are you asleep?

Mummy, Daddy won't wake up.

Marie! Emma! Come quickly!

Come on, we'll have a photo.

I love you, Varga.

Five little pigs all going home

One, two, three, four, five

Five little pigs all going home

Five, four, three, two, one

FIVE LITTLE PIGS

What do you want? You've been following me since yesterday.

Amazing, Inspector Lampion. You spotted me even though I'm the best at tailing.

- You know my name? - I've read about you in the press.

Let me introduce myself. Detective Leblanc, specialist in adultery cases.

I'm not married.

A sense of humour too!

Discretion is crucial for a good detective. Let's not talk in the street.

I'll invite you to lunch.

No. I have work to do.

A criminal to lock up?

A report to write up in triplicate, most urgently.

Have you ever had potjevleesch made by the chef Anglès?

So, what do you say?

It's excellent.

I'm talking about my offer, not the food.

You're very kind, sir, but I already have a job,

and a boss whom I respect and admire.

Respect and admire...

That doesn't pay the bills.

How much do you earn in the police?

Not much, it's true.

But I have hopes. The chief inspector promised me a rise.

And you'll never get it. You know that.

Don't you have any ambition?

A man of your calibre?

I know Larosière. He's not a bad cop, but...

He's bad-tempered, it's true.

He's often unfair.

But he's brilliant. He's the best.

Lampion!

Ménard!

The inspector still hasn't arrived.

I've been waiting for an hour.

He went to get a sandwich.

He's baking the bread? Are you joking?

No, sir.

Get lost, then!

Larosière is blocking you.

You'll always be overshadowed by him.

No, he's not like that. He can be generous.

Even if he doesn't often show it.

Practically never.

I try very hard to find human qualities in him, but it's not easy.

He's manipulating you.

You're young now, but you won't be forever.

Thank you for the lunch.

And for the conversation.

Alright.

- You were looking for me? - Yes, I was.

Robbers are robbing, murderers are murdering, and I'm looking for Lampion!

- Is there a murder? - Shut up. What's this?

- My desk. - Is this your desk?

- It's a mess! - Well done. It's in a muddle now.

- Are you laughing at me? - Sorry, but that's my filing method.

Your filing method? I've been looking for the Poulard report for hours.

And I've been yelling your name in the police station for hours!

I may not have quite finished the Poulard report, but you're unfair.

I don't care about being fair.

You are my subordinate and you'll obey me.

You're nothing, Lampion. You're worthless.

I made you and I can break you like that!

My method is: tidy this up in three minutes!

Now!

You've gone too far!

RESIGNATION

Five little pigs all going home

The first one sleeps in prison

One, two, three, four, five

Mama...

My daughter.

My little girl.

I'm an old woman.

You're a woman now. You're so beautiful.

They told me you were dead.

Everyone lied to me for all these years.

I hate them.

No, Marie. It was better this way.

I didn't want you to grow up with your mother in prison.

Your life is elsewhere. You must forget me and be happy.

I can't.

Not any more.

I was a sad and silent little girl.

The girl who'd lost her parents.

The pity everyone has for you stops you being really happy.

Mama...

Time's up.

Don't come again.

You're so much like him.

Mama...

I didn't kill him.

ONE MONTH LATER

The camera's useless.

Paid for in cash by the cuckold.

- Which one? - Mauberg.

The investigation isn't over. There's no proof...

He's coughed up. Move on.

Look. You can't see a thing.

She's laughing. A laughing woman is an easy woman.

Anyway, her husband gave her a slap. It's all fine.

- Mauberg beat his wife? - She'll calm down for a bit.

Right.

Anyway...

I've got a case on the go.

A case with a pretty little bit of skirt.

It would be a crime to keep her waiting.

Come in, my dear young lady.

No wedding ring yet? No, don't say anything.

You have doubts about your fiancé.

You're upset. The Leblanc Agency is here to serve you.

Young ladies in distress are Detective Lampion's speciality.

I have no doubts about my fiancé, but I do about this agency.

I've wasted your time. Goodbye, sir.

Wait, miss.

If you've come this far, you must be in need of help.

Come in, please.

- Miss...? - Miss Dumarchand.

I used to assist Chief Inspector Larosière in his police investigations.

Without boasting, I solved a great many.

Sit down, please.

I'm listening.

I always thought my father died of a heart attack.

Daddy, are you asleep?

Mummy, Daddy won't wake up.

Varga... Varga!

Daddy.

I was told my mother died of grief soon afterwards.

I was taken to an aunt in the South. She brought me up.

I'm going to get married soon, and...

And you've discovered a terrible secret.

My mother has been in prison for 15 years for the murder of my father.

Why have you come to see me, Miss Dumarchand?

My real name is Varga.

My mother has always said she was innocent

and that my father killed himself.

I want to know what happened 15 years ago.

I don't know if that's a good idea.

My father, Diego Varga, was an artist. His paintings are valued. I have money.

Well, I will have when I come of age in a few months.

It's not a question of money. It's just...

It's possible that the truth won't be what you want to hear.

Are you refusing?

I didn't say that.

My mother didn't kill him. I know.

At six years old one doesn't remember much.

I know it. That's all.

It's up to you to prove it.

I was just passing and I saw you.

I know we had a difference of opinion, Chief Inspector. I'm sorry.

But a new career has opened up for me and I thought we might...

What might we do, Mr Lampion?

Make jolly conversation like old friends?

Talk about this splendid suit you're wearing,

paid for with easy money earned from people's misfortune?

You and I are in different worlds now. I am and always will be a man of ideals.

I therefore have nothing more to say to you.

You pushed me to the limit, Chief Inspector.

Whatever I do, nothing ever pleases you.

Good evening.

As you like.

I'm doing very well without you too.

Good evening.

- Sir? - No dessert, thank you.

I know you were going to telephone, but I'm impatient.

- Have you seen my mother's lawyer? - Oh, yes... Yes.

So, according to Mr Chlezw... It's impossible to pronounce.

Chlezwarski.

My fiancé is from a Polish family.

Does he think my mother's guilty too?

He defended her.

He could even have obtained a lighter sentence

if your mother had fought alongside him.

But he avoided the death penalty.

That's not what I'm interested in.

Do I seem so delicate, Mr Lampion?

People have always lied to me.

I'll never lie to my children.

I don't need to be protected.

Alright.

The poison, hemlock,

was found in Emma's bedroom.

She served the poisoned beer to your father.

He must have suffered terribly.

- What was the motive? - A crime of passion.

Your father's mistress had moved into the home.

A young woman?

Only 20 years old, yes.

According to my understanding, he didn't hide anything.

He was open with everyone.

Your mother couldn't bear it.

You deal with cases of adultery all the time.

Do all deceived wives kill their husbands?

Your mother didn't even defend herself.

She insisted on the improbable theory of her husband's suicide.

Why improbable?

Because your father seemed like a man of pleasure

who thought only of himself and his art.

I'm sorry.

Let's go through the Chlezwarski file.

We can look at the facts with hindsight. Between us we'll find something.

Unfortunately the file was burnt in a fire at the offices of Mr...

your mother's lawyer, two years ago.

What can we do? You must find a solution.

Chief Inspector!

- What? - Wait for me.

Get in, then.

You think I'd have the skills to make a good detective?

Well, you've caught me on the hop...

I never get a chance here. But I'm clever. Very clever.

I'll be in the archives two minutes.

I'm not daft.

I hear Lampion came to take the air of the police station.

That's what he said. He even visited the archives.

And how long was he in the archives? Long enough for a big breath, a puff,

or long enough to be thoroughly permeated?

Or long enough to make a complete fool of you, Ménard?

Dambressan!

- Go to the archives. - This man is a crucial witness...

Listen. I give the orders, you carry them out.

A file is missing. Find it.

I can't find it if it's not there.

Dambressan, do you think I'm an idiot?

No, of course not.

- Ménard? - No.

Or a comedian?

No. I want the name of the file that's missing, you simpleton. The name!

Shut up and go!

Get to work, Ménard!

Miss Demeusy?

Jeannine Demeusy?

Yes.

Five little pigs all going home

The second one is full of sorrow

One, two, three, four, five

It was a very sad business.

Why do you want to write a book about it, Mr Lampion?

Well, let's say that the tragic fate of the characters has moved me.

I'm fascinated by the complexity of the characters and the drama that occurred.

I'm passionate about literature

and I need you to help me get close to the truth, to transcend it.

I'm sure you understand.

Yes, perhaps.

I don't write but I find constant pleasure in reading.

I'm rereading The Human Comedy at the moment.

Me too. I love Flaubert.

So, you were Marie's nanny at the time.

No, I wasn't.

I was responsible for the education of Colette, Mrs Varga's half-sister.

I have the appropriate qualifications and culture.

And for your information Balzac wrote The Human Comedy.

I don't know what you want, but you're a liar. Get out.

Wait, I can explain...

Climb on your motorcycle and skedaddle.

I'm here at the request of Marie.

Is Marie here?

She recently learnt of the tragedy and it's very hard for her.

Please... She needs to go back to that time and I can't help her without you.

That summer life changed, things became unravelled.

Yes.

It all started when that woman arrived.

You should have finished a long time ago, Colette.

Concentrate.

- It's Diego! - Colette...

You're late. We expected you yesterday.

Did you bring me my pastels?

I can't stand the old bag. Won't you dismiss her?

You're still such a little pest.

Even more so.

Emma was waiting for you too. She didn't say anything.

But I saw she was sad.

Something cropped up.

That was me.

Darling, this is Alice.

I'm going to paint her portrait.

It's bound to be brilliant.

I suppose I should prepare the blue room.

Yes.

- That will be the most practical. - I love blue.

Will you show me my room?

This way.

- I can tell I'll like it here. - I think you'll like it too.

- Colette has run off again. - Yes, madam.

Did you pass my husband?

She's called Alice. Diego wants to paint her.

She's really very beautiful, isn't she?

I find her... a little vulgar.

And young.

So young.

Mrs Varga didn't confide in me, but she was worn down and in despair.

She had reasons but I don't know if she killed him.

Varga thought only of himself.

He was a monster.

His art was like him.

Violent. Obscene.

I hate his paintings.

I like restraint, Mr Lampion.

Vulgar displays of sentiment make me feel sick.

She was even worse than him.

A capricious little vixen.

Unbearable.

Who? Alice?

Nasty.

Cruel.

I'm hungry.

I'd like a snack.

You can eat later.

The light's perfect.

What about me? What am I?

You...

I must save all my energy.

It's your loss.

- Who was the man that arrived earlier? - A childhood friend.

Turn your head a tiny bit. Stop.

He comes every summer.

He shuts himself up in his laboratory with his flasks and books.

You can't hold a pose, can you?

- How old is Emma? - 32.

Really?

She looks it, doesn't she?

Oh, the lady's all wet.

The rain's warm. It's like being in the shower.

The maestro is in a foul mood. I thought we'd never stop.

I'm quite numb.

Alice is a friend of Diego's. Well, she's his model for a few days.

Jean-Charles is a childhood friend of Diego's.

Jean-Charles Humbert, professor of botany.

The conversation at dinner will be fascinating.

You're all red and sweating.

This heat is most uncomfortable.

And sweating, my dear young lady, is a physical phenomenon.

Yes, I know. It must be embarrassing, though.

Colette.

When you're dry, perhaps you'd like a cup of tea?

Oh, no.

I'd think I was getting old.

Everyone sitting around with their cups. Can you imagine me doing that?

No, I can't.

I prefer beer.

If you don't mind, I'll drink beer for these few days.

- Jean-Charles. - Yes?

Shut your mouth. You look like a frog.

Boss...

Chief Inspector, Mr Lampion.

I see you keep up appearances in your profession.

You look like a real racer.

A slight mechanical problem.

I'm not surprised. You learn quickly.

Your job as a snooper holds no secrets for you now.

- I don't understand. - Really?

How long do you think a theft from police premises will get you?

I only borrowed it. I was going to put it back.

Really?

By sneaking in after dark like a vulgar little cat burglar?

If I'd asked, you'd have said no.

Of course.

You've stooped very low, Lampion.

The lure of money, I suppose?

Not at all. I'm doing my work.

And do you know what?

My work is recognised and well thought of.

I feel that I'm valued.

And there's no one making me feel I have no talent all day long.

Yes, I earn money.

And I feel that I'm someone,

not just the incompetent subordinate of Chief Inspector Larosière.

I won't have any, thank you.

- Are you almost on duty? - Indeed.

And if I remember rightly, your liking for alcohol

allowed a murderer to strangle a young woman under your nose.

- That's low. - Sorry, I'm stooping to your level.

That said, you run no risk of another blunder with the Varga case.

A fascinating case, 15 years old.

A story of sex and the eternal love triangle with the murderess behind bars.

It is indeed possible that the murderess is already behind bars,

since you didn't lead the investigation.

- What do you mean? - In the Vallabrègues case

you had an innocent man locked up.

And that man died in prison.

I should have left you to stew in your crass ignorance.

I taught you everything, Lampion. Everything!

And here you are, proudly collecting cuckolds' horns like trophies.

I challenge you to solve this case before I do.

The investigation is closed. You can't reopen it.

That's my problem. I'll solve the case in two days,

while you'll still be floundering around.

I would no doubt make better progress if I had a copy of the file, sir.

It's a minimal disadvantage for someone so brilliant.

Nevertheless, I'll be a good sport.

The young mistress, Alice,

is now Mrs Henri Lavalette, of Lavalette Factories.

Did you know that?

No.

She's already on her third husband.

Mr Lampion.

Larosière.

I trust him, Mama. He's bound to find something.

I'm sure the investigators missed a detail at the time.

I'll get you out of here.

- There's no point, darling. - I don't understand you.

We can't do anything if you don't help us.

I don't remember. I was too young.

You must talk, defend yourself. I can't stand seeing you like this.

If you don't believe in it, whatever I do is useless.

Marie, you must let the dead sleep in peace.

- We must wake them so they can speak! - Stop it now.

I don't want a new investigation.

Nothing is important to me now. I died when he did.

Marie couldn't get to sleep.

She may be very young, but she feels things.

I'm sorry, Emma.

- I'm really sorry. - I know, Diego.

You're always sorry.

Yes.

This girl...

She's very beautiful.

She's everything an artist can dream of.

Is it different this time?

Are you in love?

Tell me.

You can't leave me like this.

Madam refuses to see you.

Tell Mrs Lavalette that I won't keep her long.

Try again, please...

- I can come back later. - You're not welcome.

If you come back, I'll set the dogs on you. Is that clear?

Yes, very clear.

Chief Inspector? Haven't you gone to lunch?

I don't like eating alone. Go outside, Dambressan.

Find somewhere else to scatter your crumbs.

Five little pigs all going home

One, two, three, four, five

The third one is a bachelor

Look, this is enough now, Mr...

Lanterne, like a light or a torch.

I don't care.

This is the second time you've forced your way in. I've nothing to say.

The day before the murder, Emma, her husband Varga and three other people

went to your laboratory.

There's nothing there. No plants, no decoctions, no memories either.

Nothing to write a chapter of your book with.

This is harassment and it's not allowed.

- You've left me no choice. - Police!

- Where's the troublemaker? - Here.

Chief Inspector?

You shouldn't have come. I can deal with this problem.

So where's the maniac?

Leave this place, Dambressan.

Now.

Chief Inspector?

Right. Now the introductions have been made,

let's start again.

The day before the murder, Emma, her husband Varga and three other people

went to your laboratory.

Conium maculatum.

Poison hemlock.

Not as good as Poison Ivy.

What?

Obviously you don't know about dancing girls in the music halls.

Don't make that face, Jean-Charles. You know me. I love to tease you.

- It's poisonous, isn't it? - Yes, indeed. Highly poisonous.

A few grams of the green fruits are enough in theory

to cause the death of a human being.

I've distilled a flask of it.

Let's see. Where is it?

Here it is.

- It stinks. - Yes.

The smell is like the urine of mice or cats.

- Especially if you crush the leaves. - We can do without it, thank you.

So three drops and... poof!

Poof, yes...

The Athenians used it for those sentenced to death or ordered suicides.

I don't understand any Latin.

It's Greek. From Plato's Phaedo.

A terribly boring thing describing the death of Socrates.

But perfect for revising your Greek.

Instead of fiddling, you can translate for the young lady.

No, I want to have a swim.

Please, Colette, do as your teacher asks.

So...

Socrates said that his legs were becoming numb.

He lay on his back. His body grew cold and rigid.

When the cold reached his heart. Socrates would be gone.

What? It's rather a pleasant death.

I'm going for a swim.

Of course, the account seems rather sanitised to me.

It's actually very painful.

Socrates's serenity doesn't match the convulsions,

the bulging eyes or contorted face of those poisoned by hemlock.

Hence the theory that the Greeks' lethal drink also contained opium and...

And what happened next?

- When Socrates died? - No, in your laboratory.

I think everyone left.

- Are you sure? - It's such a long time ago.

I think Emma stayed inside on her own for a moment.

Yes, that's right.

I exchanged a few words at the door with young Alice.

And Emma joined us.

Unfortunately I only discovered the poison was missing the next day.

Poor Emma. She was at the end of her tether. It was sad to see.

Varga had pushed her to the limit.

He was often unfaithful, wasn't he?

Geniuses can be forgiven for much.

Diego should have been more careful. Emma had already been violent.

Really?

She was a child. She disfigured her half-sister who was then only five.

The girl was marked for life. It was an act of pure spite.

You say one thing, then the opposite. Was she gentle or violent?

- Victim or executioner? - I don't know!

You're confusing me with your questions. I live here with my books.

I don't know anything about women and I don't want to harm anyone.

I don't understand why the police are interested in this case again.

I told you it's not an official investigation.

Your testimony at Emma's trial was damning.

I told the truth, Chief Inspector. Nothing but.

I've had more than enough.

You've gone too far, do you hear?

- I'm sick of this too. - No, stay here!

It's too easy. Whenever there's a problem you run away.

I'm not running away. I'm going to paint.

Can't you see you've gone too far this time, Diego? That I could kill you?

It's true. You should kill me.

It's not nice to listen at doors.

So the girl caught you in the act of curiosity?

It wasn't intentional.

And I wasn't the only one listening.

No?

When I went out on the terrace, Alice was there.

I don't want to see you any more, Diego. Go away. Go away!

Emma finds it hard to accept the inevitable.

Are you seducing another girl? Don't you ever stop?

- No, I... - I'm joking.

When will you relax a bit?

Do you think I'm going to paint you like that?

- I'll be two minutes. - Yes.

It's not my business, but this is an impossible situation. It'll end badly.

- No. - Yes.

No, I said. It's a beautiful day.

- Diego... - I don't have time.

I warned him, but he never listened to me.

How did he behave with you?

Diego?

He was... my friend.

And were you his friend? Was he capable of real friendship towards you?

He teased me sometimes, it's true.

But, yes, I think...

You're annoying me with your questions.

You said it's an unofficial investigation. I don't have to answer.

Indeed.

Goodbye.

Goodbye.

I'm confused.

You'd almost think she blames me for bringing up the past.

- I'm feeling discouraged. - That's not like you.

Have you found anything out?

Nothing very new.

Well...

Nothing to take us in the direction you hope for.

Your mother might be right. There's still time to stop this.

What did Jeannine say to you?

She doesn't like Alice much.

Draw the curtains, please, Annette.

Are they lace?

Yes, Calais lace.

I think it's quite ugly.

Let's say we don't have the same tastes.

It's true. I don't like your furniture much either.

My parents have more or less the same style.

I'll change it all when I live here.

Diego, I'd like a glass of wine.

Sorry, I'm not sure I understood you.

When you live where?

Here.

Enough, Alice.

I thought Diego had spoken to you.

He really should have done.

We're going to get married.

Impossible. He's married to Emma.

We'll do it when the divorce comes through.

- Why? - Be quiet and eat.

I don't like beetroot.

It's very good for you.

You will eat. Full stop.

- No, I won't eat. - Leave the table, then.

Why are you lashing out at her?

That's right. Defend her like you always do.

Her attitude is intolerable. You're unbearable.

Go to your room.

I'll be better off when you're divorced.

In September you'll go to boarding school.

I won't! I won't go!

I posted the form this morning.

I hate you! Your paintings are lousy! I wish you would die!

Don't you have anything to say to me, Diego Varga?

Or are you too much of a coward?

You couldn't have stopped yourself and kept quiet?

We love each other.

I don't want to hide it. Tell her, Diego.

Yes, say it, Diego.

It's true. End of discussion.

Everyone knows I would kill Varga rather than leave him to you.

It doesn't mean anything. It was just words.

Maybe, but it's a fact that your father wanted to divorce.

He was going to leave her.

I'm sorry, but it's possible that in spite of everything Emma is guilty.

No.

No!

Five little pigs all going home

The fourth one is too haughty

One, two, three, four, five

May I help you, madam?

This should be enough.

I don't understand.

Mrs Lavalette! Please sit down.

Cash the cheque and forget about this case.

I'm investigating for Miss Varga. I've already been paid.

I forbid you to search through my life with your filthy hands.

My husband has enough influence to close this agency.

I don't doubt it, but I've made a commitment to the young lady.

Tell her that her mother stole my life.

That her punishment was far too light.

I'd have been pleased to see her head cut off and in a basket.

My dear Emile, you're much too sentimental.

I don't think so. It's a question of ethics.

Oh, such grand words!

Good Lord, Lampion! No ethics can resist such a sum of money.

You've been on the case from the start. I'll let you tell the young lady.

You're too kind.

I'm sorry, but I cannot.

I couldn't look myself in the face if I gave up.

And I can't have Lavalette on my back. So we'll forget it.

Anyway I need you on the Prévost case. Watch the house on the Rue Lafayette.

You can go as soon as you've sorted out the detail of the Varga case.

I don't like your methods.

You're mercenary and cynical.

Goodbye, Mr Leblanc.

I'm sorry.

What am I to do with your excuses?

- I understand. - No, you don't.

You have no idea of the hopes I placed in you.

Even worse, you don't care. You see only your gain.

How much did that woman pay you to drop my case?

Wait, Miss Varga.

Sit down and let's try to find a solution.

You're pathetic, Mr Lampion.

Tell Mrs Lavalette that I won't give up.

Marie!

Are you alright?

Are you OK?

It's nothing. I had a fright, that's all.

- The car was aiming straight for you. - No.

It happened because of you. I was angry with you and didn't pay attention.

I'm still worried.

Don't try to be a hero. You're not up to it.

Leave me alone!

What now?

No, Mr Lampion. Don't come in. I don't receive renegades.

I'm going to write a note saying so to Ménard.

I made a mistake.

Pardon?

I was wrong. I made a mistake.

You made a mistake? You, Lampion?

You surprise me.

Leblanc is only after money and he has no principles.

You were rather more cutting when we last met.

I wasn't thinking.

Please forgive me.

Very well. Close the door.

No, the other way round.

With you outside it, Lampion.

I have a request, Chief Inspector.

I'd like to return to my post.

If you could speak to the chief constable...

Look, Emile, you're in luck.

I'm a good fellow. Yes, I really am.

I don't mind trying, but I can't promise anything.

It will be difficult, it may even be pie-in-the-sky.

Thank you, boss.

And stop buttering me up like that. It's annoying.

Where have you got to with the Varga case?

- I had to stop my investigation. - Very well. I'll continue on my own.

No one can buy off Chief Inspector Larosière.

Something odd happened.

Marie was the victim of an apparent accident,

but it might have been an attempt at intimidation.

- Why? - I don't know.

To prevent her raking up the past, to force her to stop.

No. It doesn't make sense and it no longer concerns you.

I'm now going to have to find you a place somewhere. Thank you, Lampion.

- Excuse me. - Not at all.

I can't wake up my daddy!

Mummy can't either! He's all dead...

No!

Diego!

Right, you have to be very, very careful.

It seems like nothing, but it's very hard to apply a stamp really straight.

Look. Like this.

Your turn now.

Don't worry. With a bit more practice...

The kepi looks very nice.

The moustache on the other hand...

He's a new man since you came back.

Tell me about you and this boy.

- Samuel? - Sam.

He's kind.

And serious too. Perhaps a bit too much.

No, that's good.

He's finishing his studies to be a lawyer.

He looks like a little boy when he takes off his glasses.

I approached him.

I think I loved him right away.

What next?

He wants us to go to America.

It's such a long way away. Why?

He says the coming years will be terrible here.

The world is changing.

It's such a long time since I knew anything about outside.

Already?

Daddy, are you asleep?

Listen, Marie.

Go and fetch the others quickly. Run. Hurry.

Hurry up!

Oh, you idiot. I can't do this.

- I'll stop. - Aren't you well?

Don't move. I'll be alright.

My muscles are stiff. It happens.

My goodness. I've fallen in love with an old man.

Very funny.

Am I disturbing you?

My neck hurts. Can I relax for a bit?

Yes, relax. Go and have lunch.

Get lost, both of you. I want to be alone.

- Chief Inspector...? - Larosière. Jean Larosière.

We were introduced at the chief constable's reception.

It's a pleasure to meet you again.

First a detective, now the police.

Have you been spying on me for long?

What an ugly word. No, I didn't want to disturb your solitude.

What are you looking for?

I really don't know.

I was trying to imagine this place

populated with laughter, voices and tears.

And I suddenly saw you

also listening to the voices of the past.

You're wrong, Chief Inspector.

I don't burden myself with memories. Memories are for weak people.

You're right.

One suffers less.

"In the lonely park frozen like glass

Two forms recently passed."

"In the lonely park frozen like glass

Two ghosts recalled the past."

"The sky was so blue and hopes so high."

You've missed your vocation.

I like Verlaine.

Goodbye, Chief Inspector.

See you soon.

Beautiful and cold Alice.

- Chief Inspector Larosière, please. - He's busy.

But he called me.

In that case, it's the last door on the right.

Thank you.

Rule number one: always say the chief inspector is busy.

What is it, Lampion?

I need the witness statement of...

Look in the cabinet and be done with it.

Sometimes one sees things and interprets them wrongly.

No. I know what I saw.

In the visiting room I had a sort of flashback.

I saw my mother wiping the prints off the bottle with her skirt.

That's concerning.

She was wiping the evidence.

I'm the daughter of a murderess.

I didn't want to lie to my fiancé and my children later,

but now I don't know. I'm scared of being a coward.

- Are you still here? - I'm going.

I was just wondering why she would wipe her fingerprints.

Why do you think a murderer removes clues?

With a slight effort you should think of it.

Mr Lampion?

It's just that everyone saw Emma serve the beer to her husband.

It doesn't make sense. Her action served no purpose.

Why is that detective...

My God.

Inspector Lampion is the most gifted police officer of his generation.

Diego!

Diego, my love!

What have you done to him?

You've killed him!

Calm down, Alice.

No one has killed Mr Varga. He's clearly had a seizure.

Tell her.

Of course, I'm not a doctor.

But one might believe it... I might believe it...

Someone stole some hemlock from my laboratory.

What?

Diego has been poisoned.

We must call the police.

It's impossible. No one could have done that.

She's the one who did it.

She served him the beer.

She killed him.

She did it.

Oh, Emma, my God!

I didn't kill him. I didn't kill him.

I didn't kill him.

Varga killed himself.

I liked to call him by his surname.

Right, let's say suicide for a moment.

- Varga didn't steal the poison. - No, I did.

Why?

I don't know. It was on impulse.

My life was falling apart. I felt bad. I thought about ending it all.

Colette had just read the last moments of Socrates.

It seemed like a gentle death.

Believe me, it's nothing of the kind. It's violent, painful.

Leave me alone.

I was judged. I'm entitled to be left in peace.

I'd like to know why you didn't defend yourself during your trial.

You have nothing to say to me?

Who are you protecting, Mrs Varga?

Tell Marie she must put this behind her.

Colette?

- Don't tell me you're drinking beer. - No, it's for Diego.

I was horrible to him yesterday evening.

Give it to me. I'll take it to him.

I'll talk to him about the boarding school.

- Really? - Don't worry. It'll work out.

For you too?

Yes. No doubt.

Five little pigs all going home

The fifth one is very naughty

One, two, three, four, five

May I show you in?

Miss Lemercier.

Thank you for coming so quickly.

I don't understand. Have you reopened the investigation?

Not exactly. Thank you, Lampion.

Have you been able to speak to the chief constable?

Unfortunately he doesn't want to know. Be patient, my friend.

If you please.

You're making progress. Your "urgent" stamp is almost perfect.

I miss her. I don't know why she refuses my visits.

- Perhaps she's ashamed? - Of what?

She didn't kill Diego. I know her too well.

She might have hit him or pushed him over a cliff,

but she's not capable of premeditation or coldness.

She said she thought about ending her life.

Did you notice how low she was?

No. But I was a carefree young girl and she always protected me.

She was very jolly with me.

Emma!

Emma, look!

I've caught lots.

- Help me catch them. They'll run away. - Very funny. They pinch.

Catch them!

I'll try, but put it down.

Oh, no... It's the old bag. Hide me quickly, Emma.

I'm looking for Colette.

I haven't seen her.

Sorry, Jeannine. This is our dinner that's trying to escape.

She'll drive me mad.

Colette!

Colette, she's gone. You can come out.

I'll work this evening, I promise.

Varga never stops.

- Do you think Alice is beautiful? - Yes. Very beautiful.

I think she's stupid. You'd think she's never read a book.

Yes, she's half stupid and I'm half pretty.

When you feel ready, we'll go and see a top surgeon in Paris.

No. No one's going to touch my face.

It's mine and I'm keeping it.

I love your face.

I could never stop her feeling guilty.

With reason, after all.

No. After all, I bear no grudge against her.

My mother adored me. She took no notice of Emma. It was as if she didn't exist.

I was four or five years old, unbearable, capricious.

That day I must have overstepped the mark.

My sister was ironing and she threw the iron in my face.

It was an act of anger, not an attempted murder.

How was your relationship with Diego?

We loved each other, even though we argued all the time.

Jeannine Demeusy?

Miss Demeusy...

She said there was a violent argument between Diego and you

the day before the murder.

Really?

I don't know. If she says so, she must be right.

I was a nuisance. I played tricks on him.

One day I even put worms in his bed. He was furious.

And then I lost him.

Emma too.

It was as if I was an orphan.

Will you be able to help my sister, Chief Inspector?

If she's innocent.

You don't believe she is either?

I didn't sleep a wink all night.

The youngest has chickenpox.

- Will you come with me, Lampion? - Have I got my job back?

The post of inspector isn't for gadflies.

And there's Dambressan, who's very good.

But anyway I still have hopes.

Chief Inspector!

Chief Inspector, wait for me!

Apart from Emma, who else could have a motive?

Jean-Charles. Maybe he was sick of being Varga's punchbag.

- To the point of killing? - Sometimes it's very hard to bear.

- What do you know about it? - I'm just supposing.

Right. Anyone else?

- There's Colette. - Ah, yes.

Colette didn't want to go to boarding school.

Your thoughts are pertinent, my dear Emile.

Thank you, boss.

And thank you for the opportunity to continue the investigation with you.

One progresses in an investigation by discussion.

A police officer, however brilliant, always needs a partner.

Someone who asks the right questions.

Ah, team work.

Training an inspector, moving forward side by side.

Unfortunately, sometimes one doesn't choose the right person.

Where are we going?

We have an appointment with the past.

Five little pigs all going home

One, two, three, four

- Five little pigs all going home - You're it

Now I've found you we'll see each other often.

You haven't changed, Miss Demeusy.

Am I still an old bag?

- Shall I take off the covers? - No, there's no point.

- Thank you for coming. - Alice isn't here.

She won't come.

Yes, she will. She lost her life and her youth here.

The hopes and dreams of a young woman were destroyed that summer

with the death of Varga.

Don't tell me you pity her.

It's true. Without her nothing would have happened.

I'm a mature man. The fragility of youth affects me.

The vulnerability of youth is so unpitying.

Still as pompous, Chief Inspector.

Alice!

Spare me any gushing. This isn't a reunion of friends.

Indeed.

There's no need to say I look like him.

You bear a grudge but you know nothing.

I know enough.

Love gives one every right.

- You're in my light. - I was at your viewing yesterday.

I know.

You don't go unnoticed.

I know.

- Is that a compliment? - Yes.

You're really very beautiful.

- I want a portrait. - I don't do them.

I want one.

Look at me.

- I'm going to fall in love with you. - I won't resist.

Diego sacrificed everything for us.

Emma knew it. She killed him.

You weren't the first girl he took a shine to. She knew that too.

After a few weeks he came back.

I think unfortunately this time Emma realised it was different.

You mother was suffering so much. It hurt to see her like that.

Diego noticed. He realised the harm he was doing to those around him.

He saw no way out other than taking his own life.

Miss Varga is no longer a child who needs to be told stories.

It's true.

I just want it to be over.

Obviously Diego's egocentric personality rules out the idea of suicide.

I still think he killed himself.

The meanderings of the human soul...

Please! What do you know about it?

You're just a pathetic old virgin. Diego was a man, a real man.

The fact that I'm not married doesn't mean I don't see things clearly.

And I'm a man too.

Really?

Thank you for saving me. I'm aching all over.

Diego only thinks of himself.

You're right there. He'll make you unhappy.

Pardon?

You're making a mistake.

I'm here. I have money... You'll lack for nothing.

Alice, I'm crazy about you. You're driving me mad.

I think I got carried away.

You're ridiculous.

Still no woman in your life?

It could be a nice motive for getting rid of Varga, couldn't it?

And you had poison within easy reach.

You're mad!

Varga belittled you. You were his punchbag.

Why didn't you mention the theft from your laboratory?

I was going to.

I thought Diego was alone while Alice went to change.

But Emma was with him when I arrived.

It was mid-morning.

It's really cruel, Varga.

Excuse me. Diego, I must speak to you.

I see no one wants to let me work today.

Alice is cold, Emma is at war with me over Colette, and now you.

Diego, I'm not at war with you, I brought you a beer.

Jean-Charles, he won't budge on the boarding school. Help me persuade him.

Not now. Go away, please...

I realised later she'd just poisoned him.

But how could one have imagined...

She was so normal.

You're not talking about suicide any more.

Varga had all the women at his feet and when you finally came out of your shell

you were scorned.

How did you feel afterwards? Jealous? Furious?

That's enough! This is unbearable!

There's one culprit and it's Emma.

She sat down to lunch without a trace of remorse.

And during that time she knew Diego was dying.

What's going on?

Emma!

What's that face? Don't you like it?

You're wrong. I love oysters.

Any more for anyone?

Alice?

No, I'll leave them for you.

That's kind. For once you're leaving me something. I'm very touched.

You're not eating, Jean-Charles. Are you well?

I'm a bit worried. I must go back to my laboratory.

I'll just have a coffee.

I'll take Diego his.

Thank you, Alice. I'll do it myself.

Can I come too?

Of course, darling. Come along.

She was here... Sitting here.

She was eating.

Then she got up. She knew she would find him dead.

And she still took you with her.

You're lying!

She never could have acted like that.

You're right. Emma's behaviour was odd in several ways during that morning.

She was bruised, wounded, abandoned, thinking only about dying.

In the morning Jean-Charles heard her arguing violently with her husband.

She shouted that she could kill him.

And shortly afterwards she was calmly talking with him about Colette's future,

she took him a cold beer and had a jolly lunch with her friends.

Strange, isn't it?

At the trial you also testified to the row between the couple.

I was on the terrace. She shouted so loud it was hard not to hear.

She knew she'd lost Diego. I can still hear her voice.

As if it were yesterday.

"I could kill you."

Can't you see you've gone too far this time, Diego?

Can't you see I could kill you?

You're a swine, an egotist and a coward.

Emma, let's be adults. There's no point in rowing. In two days I'll be gone.

You can't do that to me after 12 years of marriage. Not like this.

Diego, please. I can put up with anything. Stay.

It's over.

I'm sorry, Emma.

I love Alice.

You're a real bastard.

I hate you! I hate you!

I can confirm it.

Making a threat in anger is one thing, but carrying it out is another.

- He's right, Marie. - No.

He's wrong and so are you.

My mother did it.

I can understand her action, but she did it.

It's hard, my dear,

but it's best to face the truth.

That's very true, Miss Demeusy.

The truth sometimes takes a long time to draw out,

but in the light of your memories I can tell you that Emma is innocent.

What about my memories?

I saw her wiping her fingerprints off the bottle.

Yes, she did that.

But she was wiping someone else's fingerprints off.

Yours.

You've gone mad.

You had a blazing row with Diego the day before the murder.

Possibly, but it has nothing to do with it.

You have a lot of imagination.

You'd already played a number of tricks on Varga.

Yes, childish things. Worms in his bed.

Vinegar in his water.

Emma didn't let you testify at the trial and sent you to school

in order to keep you away. She sacrificed herself for you.

Colette, don't tell me you're drinking beer.

No, it's for Diego.

I was horrible to him yesterday evening.

Give it to me. I'll take it to him.

I'll talk to him about the boarding school.

Really?

I'd forgotten.

With Diego's death I forgot I'd stolen some catnip from the laboratory.

I didn't put it in. It would only have caused stomach ache.

It was just a bad joke.

I'd never have hurt him.

How could Emma have thought...?

My God...

I didn't kill Diego.

And I'd never have let Emma be accused instead of me.

I wanted to testify.

It's true. But Mrs Varga insisted you be sent to boarding school immediately.

I had to obey.

Colette loves my mother. This is absurd. You're wrong.

Yes, it's absurd, but faced with her husband's body

Emma lost her head, believed it and wiped off the fingerprints.

Hence her refusal to defend herself at the trial

and her unlikely hypothesis of suicide.

It's so unfair.

She wrote to me after the verdict.

She kept saying it was better this way.

She didn't take the trouble to tell you she was innocent.

She just wanted to convince you to keep silent.

What a fascinating and touching story.

One might almost believe it.

What else are you going to pull out of your hat, Chief Inspector?

Who's the next culprit? Me?

I'm used to being hated.

I'm the one who always brings about a scandal.

At the trial the jury would have liked to judge me.

Judge me and find me guilty.

I wondered about a few points, unimportant details.

They weren't raised at the trial.

For example, where was poison found?

Good grief.

Well, it was only in the glass. The bottle didn't contain any.

So?

Make an effort and think about it, Mr Humbert.

Emma wiped the bottle and therefore...

She didn't know it didn't contain any poison.

Anything else, Lampion?

Yes.

What did Varga say when he drank his beer?

Everything tastes horrible today.

You're very welcome.

Sorry, darling. At least it's cold.

I'm cold.

- I'll fetch a shawl. - Hurry up.

Alice.

That's the look I want.

You're magnificent today.

"Everything tastes horrible this morning."

I deduce that he had already drunk something that tasted horrible

earlier in the morning.

How quickly does hemlock take effect?

Maybe two hours...

Tell me, Mr Humbert. When Emma remained in your laboratory,

you had your back to the open door.

Tell me...

I hope I haven't been too boring.

Frankly, botany... All these flowers cut and dried...

I prefer real life.

What do you call that?

Oh, yes.

An unimportant detail.

It's even more than that.

A supposition based on nothing.

Concentrate more on the threats made by that madwoman just before she killed.

You have two witnesses.

You're right. That violent scene is the key to the case.

On one side, Jean-Charles overheard and interpreted a few sentences.

And on the other side, you, Mrs Lavalette.

The only person who heard it all.

What did the couple really say in the drawing room?

Chief Inspector, you're going too far. Alice... Mrs Lavalette, I mean...

She and Diego really loved each other. They were very much in love.

Thank you, Jean-Charles. I don't need anyone to defend me.

The years have passed, but you're still pathetic with your hangdog face.

- I loved that man like crazy. - I know.

You were Juliet, but Varga wasn't Romeo.

Another of your inept metaphors.

This has gone on long enough. I can't waste my time.

Mama.

- Varga. - I don't want to discuss it.

Do you want me to watch you leave without a word, without a tear?

I can't, Varga. You're destroying my life.

Look at me.

Look at me!

I know I'm not 20 any more. I can't compete with her.

Goodness, Emma. After all these years, anyone would think you don't know me.

I was infatuated with Alice, but I always come back to you.

I'll finish the painting in two days. Be patient. Then she'll pack her bags.

You mean she's no more than the others? She's another fling?

She's a nuisance. If it wasn't for the painting I'd have left her long ago.

- You disgust me. You use people... - She'll get over it.

I just want to finish my painting.

I've had more than enough. You've gone too far, do you hear?

I'm sick of this too.

No, stay here!

It's too easy. Whenever there's a problem you run away.

I'm not running away! I'm going to paint!

Don't you see you've gone too far this time, Diego? That I could kill you?

Yes, you should kill me.

I'm just a monster, an egotist.

But, Emma, I love you.

Don't touch me. I've had enough.

I'm tired. I don't want to see you any more, Diego. Go away.

Go away! Go away! Go away.

Emma...

- You're not serious... - Yes, I am.

I'm very serious.

Leave with her.

I want you to leave with her.

I can't live without you.

I don't want to lose you, do you understand? I love you, Emma.

Keep me.

Keep me, Emma. I'll do whatever you want, I swear it.

I'm yours, Varga.

I don't ever want to go through this again.

I thought Varga was too cruel.

I wanted him to tell her the truth without delay.

You killed him, Alice.

He destroyed your dreams and you killed him.

They should have executed you.

Are you so mad that you still think Diego loved you?

He couldn't stand you any more.

He was leaving you. That's the truth.

What did you talk about on the terrace?

Nothing. Diego arrived and I think Alice went to change.

Do you think I'm going to paint you like that?

I'll be two minutes.

You did indeed go to change, but not only that.

Where had you hidden the poison?

In my handbag.

Are you ready?

Are you going to row with me too?

I love you.

I love you too, sweetie.

No, I mean... I really love you.

There will only be one man in my life. I know that.

No one else but you.

You really are a child.

- You've never taken me seriously. - Of course I have, my angel.

Shall we get on?

Yes.

I can't stand being here with your wife.

- Are you still fond of her? - No.

I've almost finished. Then we'll be together.

- You promise? - Yes.

Just you and me, my love.

Thank you.

Oh, it's horrible.

And warm too.

Later, on the pretext of fetching a shawl,

you placed the bottle in Emma's chest of drawers,

where the police discovered it.

Varga painted until his strength failed.

He was painting the face of the woman who was watching him die.

He said it would be his masterpiece.

He lied to me. He wanted to get rid of me.

I could have put up with anything, but not lies. That was dirty.

Such a coward.

The worst thing was to hear her pity.

I would have crushed her without remorse and she defended me.

It made me sick.

Come with me, Mama.

No. I'll stay here, in this house.

Emma, you can't stay here alone. Marie is right.

I'm used to it. I don't need anything.

I don't want a life without Varga.

She doesn't love me.

Of course she loves you.

She's always loved us, but Diego has taken up all the room.

Chief Constable, I was only doing my duty.

Giving an innocent woman back her liberty.

Pardon?

Oh, it would be a very great honour, Chief Constable.

Good day, Chief Constable.

I need to celebrate this.

A good lunch is exactly what I need.

The chief constable is very grateful. Without my discretion and tact,

there could have been a scandal. I'm being considered for a medal.

- What about me? - What about you?

Why are you looking like that? One might think you're not pleased about my medal.

Yes, I'm very happy, but you could have talked to the chief constable about me.

No, it wasn't the right moment.

But I took part in the investigation.

Where did I put that piece of paper?

- We worked as a team. - You were brilliant, Emile. So?

You could have talked about me getting my job back.

I decided there was no point.

Really?

Here it is.

It's my resignation.

I know the problems with paperwork and I know you,

so I didn't send it.

- I didn't think that I said either. - Chief Inspector...

Oh, no need to thank me.

What do you say to the potjevleesch made by the chef Gervais Anglès?

It's a marvel! Let's go in.

What are you waiting for?

That's an order, Inspector Lampion.

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Hey everybody and welcome to the video.

This is Josh here.

And this week we're doing another AMA.

I had polled you guys for your best questions

last week on the youtube channel and as always you came

through strong So let's just jump right into the questions.

First question comes from Anthony Monda

and he had asked who's the first fitness YouTube

or you watched That was a great question Anthony So the very

first YouTube fitness video I had ever seen

was obese to beast —

John's loose skin insecurities video.

This actually was right towards the end of my

own weight loss journey.

And I was kind of coming to terms with the fact

that it was going to have loose skin.

John was really what inspired me and gave me the courage

to start doing all of this.

You know seeing his confidence really helped me through my

journey of dealing with the mental side

of having loose skin and through that I also found

Brian Turner immediately after.

So Brian Turner and John were the first to kind

of fitness you tubers I've ever watched.

Next question comes from Alex Mays.

Have you looked into weight loss with jumping rope.

I'm getting mine in tomorrow.

And many people have seen amazing results.

I lift weights but want to be shredded.

So hopefully this will help remove that layer of fat.

This brings up a couple of good points.

Jump rope is a great form of cardio.

So definitely any activity that you want

to try and might enjoy is always going to be a positive.

But the other side of this you know

you you said you lift weights but you want it to be shredded.

The only way you really get shredded is through your diet

you know weight is lost in the kitchen and not the gym

more often than not lowering your body fat is going to make

you appear a lot more muscular.

And the best way to lower your overall body fat is through

the kitchen and through your diet.

Next question comes from Mary Webster.

Do you celebrate hitting your goal weight.

And if so how.

You know my goal it was something that was kind

of a moving target.

My initial way down you know when I started to lose weight.

I wanted to be under 250 pounds.

And then as I got further in know I wanted to be at 200

pounds high about 200 pounds.

I'd be good to go.

I got closer to the two 20s and decided 180 was going

to be my number.

So I didn't really have a set you know this many pounds I'm

going to be finished forever.

At that time.

So it wasn't really a definite celebration at that point.

But this was probably six or eight months after my

initial bulk of my weight loss I decided to lean

out from 180 down to 170.

I was the leanest I've ever been.

You know I currently sit now between 180 and 185 depending

on the day when I get down to 170.

I went on a pretty epic cheat day probably

wasn't the most ideal of things.

But you know I still feel like such a novice

at that point compared to how I approach things now.

So I did have a really fun good cheat day.

Not much other celebration though.

Next question comes from Katrina Colusa

and she asked Would you ever get another cat

or another pet in the future.

So most of you probably know I'm an obsessed cat dad.

I have my almost 1 year old British Short Hair

kitten named Wolfie.

He's around here somewhere.

He was just laying in front of the camera

down here a second ago.

I did grow up with dogs and I love dogs.

Unfortunately right now with Camille and I schedule

we just don't really have the time for a dog right now.

We actually have talked about getting another cat

wolfie is a very selfish boy though.

He yells and runs around for our attention all day every day.

I'm kind of terrified to see what life would be

like if we had another cat.

I think he would just be far too jealous.

So as of right now definitely no new animals

anytime soon but I'd love to get a dog at

some point in the future.

Potentially another cat.

If I think Wolfie could handle it.

Katrina asked another question as well how do

you get yourself to cook instead of buying takeout.

Great question.

I think the biggest most important impactful

thing for me is just prepping my food diligently.

I spend an hour or two on my day off and I prep

food for the entire week.

No it's not every single meal breakfast lunch and dinner

but it's all the meals.

I know I'm going to be at work or I'm going to be busy.

It doesn't have to be any certain kind of food.

Just make whatever food you like track it freeze

some for later in the week.

That's what I always do.

The other big point I want to bring up though.

Allow yourself to eat out every once in a while if you're not.

You know people will completely banish eating out

when they're on a diet just because that's

bad and I can't do that.

When you completely restrict something.

It kind of has an effect of making you want it more.

So schedule time every week where you can go out to eat.

And you can enjoy yourself and just allow yourself

to have that and I think it makes it a lot more

manageable for you to not do it.

The majority of the time if you know there is a time

and a place where that's OK.

All right.

Next question comes from Sachin sakin.

Apologies but you had asked.

Love watching your videos.

Any plans on a daily vlog.

Absolutely not as much as I love making videos.

I work right now about 80 hours a week and I can barely

keep up with two uploads a week.

So there is just no point in my future where

I could ever see myself being able to produce

a video every single day without massively degrading

the quality of what I'm putting out.

Next couple of questions come from Bob for leader

and he had asked what books have changed your life and how do

you manage your time with so much.

Great question.

I've been pondering that book question since I saw

the comment pop up yesterday.

I don't have any definite gotos.

I personally read a lot of fiction.

I like to read for enjoyment and a lot of my learning

comes from audio and podcasts so I usually listen to a lot

of educational content but I read a lot

of fiction content.

You know something on the Kindle versus listening to it.

It really forces me to engage and I think it's helped a lot

with my attention span just read for fun and really sit

down and just focus on one thing.

I'm a big fan of every book that Tim Ferris's put out.

Also a couple of Gary's books that I've read Gary Vaynerchuk

and Tim ferriss have both had significant impacts

on my business strategies and a lot of the mentalities

I have for productivity.

More recently tools of titans and tribe of mentors

by Tim ferriss.

He interviewed different people that are experts

in whatever they're doing and kind of tries

to deconstruct how they work and how they think Lord

of the Rings is one that's probably my favorite book or at

least one of my favorite books.

More recently Ready Player One and Armada by Ernest Cline.

We're both two just thrilling books to read.

Aziz Anzari Modern Romance was surprisingly substantial

you think of them as this comedy actor

and you know it just kind of all fluff or for fun he.

That book had so much good info and it was just

such a more substantial and scientific book.

Than you'd expect coming from someone like him.

I read when I can but it's not as big

of a part of my life anymore as it was at one time.

All right and the second question the comment here

how do you manage your time with so much

on this is something that is always a work

in progress and a struggle for me.

I am generally working 12 to 14 hours a day seven days

a week and that's the only way I can fit in what I can fit in.

That being said you know my work sometimes is doing

something like this where I'm just chatting about

things that I enjoy or it's cooking

or it's going out on a hike and filming a video or traveling

and filming a video.

You know I try and make all the things I'm doing

with the YouTube channel.

I try and make them as fun as possible and things

I enjoy as much as possible because if you're enjoying

the work that you're doing it makes it a lot

easier to get through.

That being said I do have a full time job

outside of the youtube channel.

But I also have to do that is a struggle to get

through it specially as I get more serious with this.

I would ideally have a lot more free time than I do

right now but I'm just doing the best with the situation

I have.

And I think people have a lot more time than they realize

and I think people waste a lot more time than they should.

You just have to really optimize and plan and prepare.

Realize you're going to have to make sacrifices.

You know I really don't have any free time anymore.

So I'm hoping at some point I can be a little more

financially independent and work on my own things

on my own terms and my own time and live off of it.

That's the plan at least but we'll see.

It always take far longer than anyone realized

this to get to that point.

So our next question comes from last call he had asked

fries onion rings or tots.

And have you heard of the kooks new song four leaf clover.

What's your dream car.

Question 1 onion rings fries tater tots.

It's a very strong order for me.

Have you heard the new kook's song four leaf clover.

I have not.

Actually I'll have to check that out after this.

And what's your dream car.

I've got two answers to this.

So am I a long running dream car.

It was always a BMW M3 sedan.

Until the Tesla Model S came out.

So either of those would be my kind of lottery cars.

I love the design of the Model S from when it first came out

and the BMW M3 has always just been one of my favorites.

It's either those two cars would definitely

be my dream car.

Last question comes from Minnie Wolfgang

and she had asked I was just bingeing

on YouTube last night and saw an ad for a bedmart

with a scruffy looking bearded guy having a sweet

lay down and a comfy bed.

My question is this is that happy

bearded guy you.

Yes.

That was me.

So I work for bed Mart.

They were actually shooting a commercial at

my store last year.

I believe someone had cancelled last minute

and the marketing director for the company asked

if my wife and I could be in the commercial as the couple.

I had no idea they were going to be using those clips

for future commercials and I also had no idea

that they were going to start YouTube

advertising so I've gotten so many screenshots

in instagram with people asking if that was me.

Yes that is my wife and I. So if you see

a bedmart ad if you're in the Portland

area or in Hawaii.

Only place they can scientifically fit

you to a mattress.

That's my wife and I in a commercial.

All I can find the link I'll add in here for you.

But that is it for the questions everybody.

Thank you again so much for taking the time to ask.

Make sure to like the video if you enjoyed this helps me

out a ton and if you're new here be sure to subscribe

I put out new videos every monday friday and leaving come

coming down below what your vote fries tots or onion rings.

Let's get that discussion going.

But until next time I'll talk to you all later.

Have a good one.

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Bausatzbesprechung / Kit review TAMIYA M4 Sherman 1/35 (English subtitles) - Duration: 19:54.

Hello and welcome to my channel. To the kit review of the M4 Sherman early prodution of TAMIYA in 1/35.

This tank will be part of a diorama again, so you can be curious.

I also bought some aftermarket products again. So let's take a look

The number of the kit is 190

I chose this sherman kit from Tamiya because it has 4 figures

and the set also contains a little bit of payload.

On this side of the box, you can see one of the figures.

Additional track parts, oil and jerrycans, as well as bags, helmets and extra wheels.

Here you can see the tank from above.

On this page we see again the box art.

Here is a text that probably describes the tank in Japanese.

Here is the box art again

The box is very stable and can be opened upwards.

First, we see the construction manual here.

Here is a bag with parts for the turret and the cannon.

There are two sprues in this bag

Here you can already see a figure

The cover of the gearbox and the back of the tank.

Polycaps.

And on this site are whole rollers and parts for the drive sprocket and the suspension.

Here we have the upper and lower hull.

These are two parts

In this bag is also a figure, further roles for the drive and individual track parts.

Overall, in this bag 2 figures.

Here is another figure.

Then there are still parts of the mudguards and other trim parts for the engine compartment

And the decals.

Finally, here are the tracks out of DS plastic

Many people do not like plastic/rubber tracks.

You can also replace them with aftermarket tracks. But they are good enough for my project.

Now let's take a closer look at the content.

Let's start with the construction manual of the tank first.

Here you can see again a photo of the tank. And in several languages, English, German and I believe in French.

The history of the vehicle.

Its development and where it was used is.

When we open the first page, we see above the table of the required Tamiya colors.

as well as the required tools

Here is a note with hints that there are different plastics in this kit.

These must be processed differently.

The construction manual can be unfolded laterally.

Here begins the construction. With the gearbox and the drive.

Then comes the back wall and dust filter.

Here the polycaps are put into the drive sprocket and idler wheel.

Then comes the assembly of the bogie wheels.

Attach the suspension.

The engine cover.

Here you can optionally use figures. The driver and the radio operator, come on extra mounts.

As well as the painting instructions of the figures.

Here the headlights and taillights, as well as the hatches are installed.

All the tools

Here is the assembly of the cannon and the putting into the turret

And the costruction of the canon breach.

Assembling the turret and attaching the hatches for the commander.

At step 11 in the construction manual, there is the painting instructions of the commander.

Inserting the turret and attaching the MG

And the hint how the tracks are put together.

As well as making of an antenna.

And finally the attachment of the last parts and the extra armor plates.

The side skirts.

And all the extra payload you can attach to the tank if you want it.

There are a total of 12 construction steps.

At the end of the construction manual, are the painting variants

Unfortunately, it is not colorful, but that's not a big problem.

Once, in France, summer 1944. In the normal olive green.

Here's a version, the fifth army from Italy in 1944, with stripes.

And from the Army Regiment, second Army division, in Normandy August 1944

There are not many Decals, only the US Army stars and the identifications of the tanks.

Let's get to the parts. We start with the upper hull.

On the surface are nice details

The structure of the rolled steel and the welds are top.

The welds should be a small mistake

Whether this is original welds, I have to do some research myself

The welds on the original Sherman are not deepened but elevated.

Maybe I have to improve this.

But the part still looks very nice with the surface structure.

Here is the lower hull

The tub of the tank is nice stable.

There are not many details. But you would not see much of it anyway.

Let's get to the first bag now.

Here's the sprue E in it

Here you can clearly see that the cannon is in one piece.

You only have to sand a small seam. It's nice that the cannon does not consist of several parts.

Here is the bottom part of the turret

The turret also has a very nice surface that looks like steel.

As well the gun mantlet.

The muzzle brake also consists of a part.

At the end of the video, there will be single photos of each sprue, which you can watch in peace.

Here is a bag containing two sprues.

First, we see the polycabs here

Polycabs are great, so that the rollers can be attached and be dismantled for painting.

Here is one of the figures.

Whether you like the figures or not, you have to decide for yourself. They are good enough for my project.

Here is the rear of the tank and different gear covers for the front.

And the whole tools.

Here is the Cal 50. Browning MG

It looks good for OOTB.

Here are the whole temple, to protect the lights and lamps

And hooks.

There are also two boxes here. These have a very nice wood structure.

With a wash they have to look very good in the end.

By the way, this was the sprue B

Here we have the sprue A with all the road wheels.

This are the bogys.

The drive Sprocket is in several parts.

Also this sprue looks great and you have no flesh.

The Sprue D is there twice and absolutely identical. That's why we will only look at one another.

Here we have either the driver or radio operator. He has a cheeky grin on his face.

There are helmets and bags.

Again parts for another drive Sprocket.

Jerry Cans and parts of the track.

I have to think about which parts I need and which are superfluous.

Now comes the last bag.

With ther sprue F.

There we see parts for the hatches and the engine cover.

And another figure. In the kit are really enough figures.

Another cover for the transmission.

These parts too all have a rolled steel structure

I hope you can see that well when I move the parts here in the light.

Here are the mud guards and the side covers of the track.

These are the water slide decals

They are beautifully sharp printed.

There is hardly any transfer foil. This can be seen well at the stars.

Of course, here is something more, but that must be so.

But all other signs have very little transfer foil.

The decals are also very thin and can be processed very well.

Finally, we still have the tracks.

These are made of soft DS plastic and not rubber.

The details of the tracks are great and sufficient.

We are talking here about a simple Sherman track and not a Tiger II

or a T90 track. They have a lot of details.

Here are still small sprue points. But you can easily remove them.

For my project, these tracks are quite sufficient.

Now we come to the aftermarket products I bought.

I got Set No. 8 from the company Value Gear

Sherman engine deck & stowage set 8 - for tamiya - 1/35 scale.

This set consists of resin parts.

On many photos from the WW2, you can see many Sherman tanks have the payload on the back of the engine cover.

I would like to represent that a little bit too.

That's why I got this set and I always wanted to process something from Value Gear.

Here is a note with hints on how to process Resin the best.

It is best to always use a respirator to saw and grind resin.

The dust is poisonous, it is best to process the resin outside.

To glue Resin, it is best to use super glue.

That's the biggest part in the pack

With a fuel tank, ammo boxes, several blankets and sleeping bags

That's all covered with a tarpaulin

The details are great. Wooden boxes and how cloth are folded.

This part is really nice and I will use it on the Sherman.

Here we have other payloads, with tools, bags and wooden boxes

That's the part that comes to the front of the Sherman. You can see the wooden board well.

Here is a part with larger tarpaulins, these are nicely tied together with a tension strap.

There is still a nice rope and a backpack.

In the set are also two extra wooden boxes and again a large rolled tarp.

What I then use on the tank, I still have to decide.

Here are two rucksacks that can be made to the turret side

These parts will greatly enhance the tank.

I got two additional sets here.

Once from RB models the 12.7 mm Browning M2

You can see the items here and I will unpack it right away.

And once from MASTER Reality in Minuture from Poland.

The Browning M1919

That's for the MG in the turret and in the front of the tank

The original MG of the kit has beautiful details in the back.

However, the holes on the side for the ventilation are missing and the barrel also has no hole on the muzzle.

As with the small MG for the front.

At the weekend I had the chance to hold a real Cal50. Browning M2 in my hands and take a closer look.

I'll show you photos, how it looks in real life.

At the Browning M2 of the kit, I will replace the entire barrel.

I keep the back part

At the company RB models, there are very great accessories, for every kind of weapon.

Here is the new barrel of the MG

and this beautiful part, which is completely drilled out.

The heat protection then comes over the barrel.

This component alone, upgrades the MG properly and it looks much better.

The set also includes new handles.

As well as other small parts.

You will then see the parts again during the construction.

That's the other set now.

Here you can see the Cal 30. Browning M1919

The set contains 2 complete barrels for the MG.

And here you can see where it can be used everywhere. As a normal Turret MG

As MG in the upper hull or as MG on a gun carriage

The set number is the GM-35-005

I bought all this at Sockelshop.de

Here you can see again the MG of the kit

It has no holes.

I will be exchanging both MGs at Turret and upper Hull.

I open the bag and show you the parts.

The set contains two of these parts.

The barrel of the MG and the heat protection

Also this heat protection is completely drilled out.

I hope you can recognize it anyway. the camera's focus does not want to be right.

This part is then pushed over the barrel.

And then it becomes one part.

Now you recognize well, what I exchange with the kit.

Of course there are many more aftermarket products for the Sherman, like from VoyagerModel.

But the parts I bought are enough for my project.

So that's it for today.

Thank you very much for your attention. See you again when I build the tank.

I then publish a construction report again and then start with the diorama.

The next video may be an update to the tank.

I'll start building right now.

Thanks again for your attention. Give the video a thumbs up if you like it. Or thumbs down if not

I am always open to criticism.

Until then your Ben.

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PEPPERPOT ANNUAL 2019 - Doctor Who Fanzine - Duration: 4:14.

Hi everyone, I'm Pauline de Pepperpot

and this is a informative message to let you know

we are launching the Pepperpot Annual presales. (Only in French)

All info are available in the description

under this video.

Thank you for giving me your time and see you soon!

What? Some people want more information?

Well, let's discover the…

Welcome to our annual and annoying nature video

to launch the Pepperpot Annual's crowdfunding.

Maybe some new viewers do not know what I am talking about.

An annual is a annual magazine (seriously)

very common for our English fellows.

There is something to everyone:

Pokemon, My Little Pony, Minecraft, Beano,

Football stuffs, Wrestling stuffs,

English stuffs, "I don't want to know what it is" stuffs,

and, of course, there is a Doctor Who one since 1965.

And 2019 one will be available around November.

And when Doctor Who do something, we are doing it too!

This is the third consecutive year that we are launching in this project

of making a magazine which brings Doctor Who and Pepperpot together

and to try to ensure you like it.

And this year, we are going bigger!

The first magazine was 16 pages long,

the second one was 24 pages,

and this year, we are going to a minimum of 44 pages!

With a content more varied and more like a real magazine.

There will also be contributions for other French Whoniverse figures.

That's classy!

Well, I am sure you are already captivated

and money is burning a hole in your pocket. So…

How does it work?

We are using Ulule, a crowdfunding platform

or, in French, "financement participatif", but it is not badass enough.

That is, for us and for you, the simpler and cheaper way

to sell these magazines, which will be available only by this way.

With Ulule, we can buy them in bulk to lower the production cost

and send ourselves your Annuals.

The financing campaign will end around December the 2nd, but don't wait too long as some counterparts are limited.

And how much is it?

The magazine costs 13€, shipping included.

That is 2€ less than the previous one for twice more content.

You can also find on the Ulule project page, in the description,

the different price levels with their counterparts.

Counterparts?

Yes, counterparts.

And you do not tell us more?

Go to the Ulule page, you will not be disappointed.

But do not forget something:

What makes us happy is to sell the Annual.

The counterparts are only extras. Don't ruin yourself.

We would be grateful to you as much as to the ones who take the most expensive counterpart.

And when will I receive it?

Normally, if all goes well, early January.

Actually, we have to wait for the end of series 11 to finish it.

Something else to add?

Yes, otherwise I would not ask myself the question.

The objective to reach is 1000€.

But don't use it to help us financially. We are not making (or very little) profits on it.

To do so, please use our Tipeee or uTip.

And if the objective is not reached, no debit will be done

and you will be able to spend your money in a smarter way.

What about the Peppermate?

Nolwenn in undershirt and Julien in school uniform already had their own page.

So, this time, you can decide on Twitter (link in the description) which of Pauline or Laura

will have her own page in the Annual 2019.

And now?

Well, convinced or not, thank you to have to listen my message. Thank you very much.

I think the most important is to share the project.

To talk about it. To your friends. To your family.

It's the sharing of life. To talk about it. To your friends. To your family.

It's the sharing of life.

The sharing of love.

The love of sharing.

*D'you think they are moved enough?*

There you go, I think I explained it all.

If you have any question, ask them in the comments.

We'll be pleased to answer.

Kisses Zarbis and see you soon!

*The Pepperpot Annual 2019 is only available in French*

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- You often see adverts for building your own fanbase,

conquering Facebook, and mastering the art of mastering.

And it's easy to fall into the trap

of thinking you have to do it all,

and do it all at once.

So you'd be your own press agent,

manager, sound designer, mastering engineering,

and social media strategist.

These are all full-time jobs and who's got time for that?

If you're aiming to be a music producer,

it's definitely gonna be a lot of hard work.

And yes, you're gonna have to learn to mix your tracks.

And certainly, you'll need to promote your music

when it gets released.

But as Stephen Covey once said,

"The main thing is the keep the main thing the main thing."

So let me ask you, what's your main thing?

Maybe you wanna release music on big established labels,

or finish tracks your proud of,

or maybe it's to DJ and play in clubs all over the world.

Whatever your goals, when you

stay committed to your own lane

and focus on your craft,

you'll see more progress than ever before.

You'll finish more and better music,

and gain the self belief you need

to push on and reach your goals.

And when you do need them,

there are experts who'll accelerate your progress

faster than you could ever imagine possible

working on your own.

So if you hear people saying that you have to do it all,

just remember, that's their choice.

They prefer to be a jack of all trades

and you, a master of one.

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MY JOURNEY TO THERAPY | A September 10th PSA on Mental Health - Duration: 18:11.

the last few months have been very very very hard

i came to the conclusion that i have to go to therapy

to schedule an appointment i have to make a phone call

its literally been like 6 or 7 days that im like `i have to make this phone call i have to make this phone call`

i hate speaking on the phone

i pressed it

ahhh

hi people

today i am bringing a different kind of video

because...

yeah, why?

i did- i sc- i coul- oh my god i cant speak portuguese anymore

i didnt write a script because

i want to... omg this is so cliche,

but i want to speak from the heart

it might be a bit confusing, maybe i wont make sense, im already not making sense

idk if u guys know

if you dont know, now you will know, but

the month of September in Brazil is called Yellow September

I cant speak portuguese anymore apparently so i`ll just read the wikipedia entry about Yellow September

"Yellow September is a Brazilian campaign with the goal to prevent suicide. It started in 2015 in Brasilia.

The month of September was chosen because September 10th is the World Suicide Prevention Day

The idea is to promote events that provide a space to create debates about suicide and spread the word about the topic, bringing awareness about the importance of this discussion" - Wikipedia (a very reliable source)

I didnt know it started in 2015

I thought it had been going on for a long time

Apparently its only been 3 years since Brazil started this Yellow September campaign

And what do I want to talk about the Yellow September?

I dont know either

Its a video about my current situation and since it's september now I thought there wouldnt be a better month to speak about this

Firstly, during Yellow September a lot of people post things like "hi my inbox is open if anyone wants to talk and vent, i will answer all messages, feel free to message me, i wanna help" etc

And I think this is a really nice initiative, I really do

You offering to help someone who might be going through a hard time

However... its important to remember not everyone is gonna be willing to talk to a stranger

i personally...

wouldnt s-

i just realized how hypocritical this would sound, i was gonna say

"I personally wouldnt talk to a stranger about my problems, I wouldnt open myself"

But im here in front of a camera speaking to my 26k subscribers about my problems, so yea this is hypocritical

We have to remember not everyone is willing to, not everyone wants to and not everyone is able to open up to a random stranger

Also, even if someone talks to you and you listen and give advice and etc, at the end of the day youre not a qualified person to treat psychological disorders

And Im not trying to offend anyone that is offering this kind of help to talk and vent, but

I see many people acting like this is a solution, you know.

Especially because Yellow September is about suicide

It`s very very hard that you, a "common" person, will be able to help someone with suicidal tendencies in the level that the person needs to be helped

Again, I think its a very nice initiative,

I think that talking CAN help, but

in a lot of cases, to a lot of people,

exchanging messages with a stranger

is not gonna be all the help that this person needs

it might be a little help but it wont be all the help they need

During all months, but especially Yellow September, besides this idea of the 'open inbox', i think its super important we encourage people to search for, what is the thing that can help them?, therapy

A psychologist, a pschiatrist

Some professional help, with people who studied this

and are qualified and that can really help

Depression, suicidal tendencies, anxiety, these psychological disorders are diseases, right

I didnt study psychology, i didnt study what happens inside the human brain, so i am not qualified to help someone that has a psychological disease

Can I try? yes

But at the end of the day i am not the most qualified person for this

Diseases have to be treated as such, so I think its important not only to encourage people to message you to vent, but als-

Someone's calling me

I dont know why I still answer

But its also important to encourage people to search for professional help

I know a lot of people dont have the means to pay for professional help

But, like, Im not...

an expert

I dont know how to pronounce this in portuguese

Anyway, Im not an expert in the topic

But I know that in my city in Brazil, there are some therapy services for free or very low cost

I think every where, there must be a few options of therapy for low cost, you only have to search about it and get info, its important to go after this professional help

I see a lot of people focusing on this idea that talking and venting helps

opening your heart helps, so message me that i will help you

Again, I think its a very kind action

But

Depression, anxiety, these things, a lot of people still dont see it as diseases

and think that only venting will solve it

Ive also seen several people saying like 'therapy is stupid cuz im gonna be paying someone to talk to me', but its not like that

The person studied over 4 years, graduated on that. The human mind is super complex, so talking to a random person is extremely different than talking to a therapist

And I think Brazilians have a certain advantage, cuz therapy is a lot more normalized in Brazil than, for example, here in South Korea

Here in Korea, therapy is something almost unexistent

In Brazil, 90% of the people I know have been or go regularly to therapy

Here in Korea there's still this stigma that therapy is for crazy people, only insane people need therapy

And something a lot of people dont know is that there are alternative types of therapy

When we think of therapy we think about the therapist sitting on a chair here, im sitting on this chair, and we talk

But there are many other types of therapy, idk if you guys knew, but

yea, they exist, i also didnt know until my sister started getting involved in a project about...

whats the name...

dude what is it called??

ugh, guys...

I remembered! Psicodrama! (idk if theres an english word for this)

So my sister started working with psicodrama

and what is that?

its a form of therapy, either individual or in group

that utilizes the dramatization, the theatricality

If youre a very artistic person I think this would be great for you

My sister is not graduated in psychology

And she also does another thing which is called imrpovisation\impromptu games which is also super cool

"The impromptu games are therapeutic and transforming. They help people focus on the right now and react to new and tense situations. When you have to make quick decisions, the impromptu games also help for, as it is a natural response of the body, all it takes is practice. Besides that, the games help the concentration and rationality" - SISTER, My (2018)

(promoting the weekly event my sister does in my city in Brazil)

Anyways, I just wanted to say there are many types of therapy. I also heard about ecotherapy with horses, my cousin did it for a while, it's a thing that exist, you go there, you ride the horse and do therapy.

So there are alternative therapies you can choose from, it doesnt have to be that thing of i sit here the therapist sits there

Someone is calling me again

BUT, the reason I-

The main-

Ok not the main-

Gosh, idk

One of the reasons Im making this video is because... I have to find therapy

My whole family, but especially my dad has been insisting for years that I go to therapy

I did family therapy one time, I went to a therapist once and never went back, I went to a therapist once with my sister and never went back

And last year, before coming to korea- Oh the condition that my dad put in order for me to come to Korea was that I had to go to therapy

So I went for... 1 month... 2 months top

Last year?

It wasnt last year, it was 2014, before the first time I came to Korea

And... it was awful

There are many strands(?) of psychology, so you have to find one that matches with you

For example, this therapist I went for 1 or 2 months, she was...

psych....what was it called

wait a sec guys i am googling

the therapist i went to was a psychoanalyst

that idk what it is but my sister said it had nothing to do with me, so thats why it wasnt good for me, cuz the type of psychology she followed didnt match my personality

there are other strands of psychology, and it says about the way the therapist is gonna conduct the session, treat you, deal with what you do or say, how they are gonna react, etc. I'm not an expert on this, but trust me, the strand that your therapist follows makes a HUGE difference.

You have to find a therapist that follows a method that fits you, or else its not gonna work well.

This therapist I saw for 1 or 2 months didnt change anything in my life

The reason Im saying this is because ive always been reluctant to go to therapy because all the experiences i had had were not good

I have to find someone that matches me

I dont like opening up, its hard for me, and i dont like seeming weak, so i was always not a fan of the idea of going to therapy

Even though i always told my friends and family they had to go to therapy, yes, im an hypocrite

the last months have been super hard

its been a few months that i came to the conclusion that i need to find therapy

i need to help myself

i accepted that i have to do this after many years of my dad insisting

I have this 'i have to go to therapy' thing in my head since december, which means, 9 months... and i only went to look for it now in august

Here in korea the government offers 5 free sessions of therapy for foreigners who suffer from depression, anxiety, etc

HOWEVER

To schedule an appointment I have to make a phone call

They dont have email they dont have anything, so i have to call

and i found this a bit weird, cuz normally people with anxiety cant really make phone calls

its been 6 or 7 days that im like 'i need to make this phone call i need to make this phone call' and i havent found the courage to call yet

another reason im making this video is cuz i know if i was alone id never call. if it was up to me id never call cuz i hate talking on the phone

but since im talking to you guys through the camera and im being recorded it puts a bit of pressure on my to call

yall are gonna be my witnesses

guys, i hate speaking on the phone!!!

i need to practice what i will say

I DONT KNOW HOW TO SAY IT

I HATE THIS I HATE IT

i hate this so much

im gonna press it

i pressed it

dude

i dont believe this

omg dude, i am... ugh

so that didnt work out as planned

im so mad

dude im so mad

i got several options from an aquaintance of a friend. this was the best option cuz it was 5 free sessions

but i have to wait until next year

the other options i have all require i spend money

i'll have to look them up and see whats best for me

im so angry

the first step has been taken, i made the phone call, YAY

i tried, i tried, i tried

if nothing goes right, next year i'll take those 5 free sessions

but next year is still a bit far huh

i wanted to go to therapy before that

this was not the ending i was expecting

i expected this video to be awesome cuz i would schedule my therapy sessions and yall would be so proud of me

but

it didnt work, so

hmmm

so we didnt have a happy ending this time

but im gonna keep searching for therapy

and remind yall that we are in Yellow September and Sept 10th is the world suicide prevention day

its a month to bring awareness about psychological disorders and especially...

suicide prevention... which still is a big tabboo, so..

i think its very important that this day\month\campaign exists

theres also a big tabboo about talking about this kind of stuff like depression and suicide

i think we have to talk about it. we cant speak carelessly, of course, even the association of psychology (or something like that) has certain 'rules' of how we should and shouldnt talk about it

but we have to discuss it. we cant pretend it doesnt happen, cuz it does, unfortunately.

its a very hard topic to talk about

i hope that anyone watching that is going a through a hard time and was thinking 'should i search for professional help or not', i hope that this video gave you a little push to do it

thats it, guys, searching for help is the first step

i know i took the first step cuz im searching for therapy

im exploring my options

im sad cuz obviously i wanted the FIVE FREE SESSIONS

but its ok, im gonna get over it, ill find something else

even if i have to pay

health is important. would we pay to put a cast on our broken arm? OF COURSE WE WOULD

so we also have to pay to get better inside our heads

idk how to end this video cuz it didnt have the ending i expected

thats it, thanks for watching

b-bye

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Easy Shrimp Fried Rice Recipe - Duration: 3:51.

Hi everyone, its Natasha of Natashaskitchen.com and this is the first video

in our new kitchen. We're making the

easiest shrimp fried rice. This is a

family favorite and it's perfect for a

busy weeknight. This recipe moves fast so

you'll want to have everything prepped

and ready to go. In a medium bowl combine

1 pound of raw shrimp with 1 TSP of corn

starch, 1/4 teaspoon of salt and a

quarter teaspoon of black pepper. Stir it

together and set it aside. Now in a small

bowl beat together four large eggs and

then finely chop 1/4 cup of fresh green

onion. Place a large nonstick pan or a

wok over medium-high heat. When a bead of

water sizzles and evaporates, swirl in 2

Tbsp of cooking oil. Transfer

shrimp to the hot skillet and spread

them out in a single layer. Cook about 1

minute per side or just until cooked

through and no longer opaque, then remove

them to a bowl. In the same pan cook the

beaten eggs, breaking them up with your

spatula and cooking just until no longer

runny. Then transfer them to a bowl,

wipe the skillet clean with a dry paper

towel. Then add another Tbsp of oil

and the green onions and cook until the

onions are fragrant, about 30 seconds. Now

you'll need five cups of cold, leftover,

white rice. Quickly stir the rice with

the onion then spread it evenly over the

pan and cook one to two minutes without

touching it. Stir the rice once and let

it sauté another 1 to 2 minutes. You

should hear the rice sizzling. Drizzle in

two Tbsp of soy sauce and stir

well to combine.

Add one and a half tsp of sesame

oil and don't skip it. Sesame oil gives

stir fry authentic flavor and aroma.

Add 12 ounces of thawed carrots and peas

then return your shrimp and your eggs

back to the pan. Then stir everything to

combine. Now try your stir-fry and add

more soy sauce to taste. I usually add

another half a tablespoon, to a

tablespoon of soy sauce. Stir everything

to combine and take it off the heat. Oh

yes! All right, it is time for the taste

test and I cannot wait. And I can't

believe how fast this came together. This

is such an easy meal and perfect for

busy weeknights and it also makes a

great meal planning option because it

reheats really well. Ok, here we go. And

lots of shrimp for me. I'm a fan and

there's a lot in here too. Ok, get in my

belly...

It is so simple and so flavorful. You

guys are gonna love this and I'm gonna

put those chopsticks down because I am

not that skilled and I'm not that

patient. Okay, here we go. I'm gonna enjoy

the rest of this. Oh and I love that it's

loaded with veggies and so much protein,

with the shrimp and the egg and perfect

use for leftover rice. If you guys like

this recipe, give us a great big thumbs

up below. Make sure to subscribe to our

Channel and we'll see you next time.

Hey, before you go, if you guys want more

easy dinner ideas, check these out right

over here and click below to subscribe

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time we post the new recipe.

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#AKVlog #XXII || Kanada-reissu: LTX ja Shoppailua - Osa 2. - Duration: 16:19.

And finally at the event

Boo! I got, yesterday...

these headphones

These are Sennheiser HD58X

And also a Dbrand Grip case for my phone

And 3 skinis for that

And I bought 4 t-shirts

This, and the Black and red version of this

Also, dark red the event(LTX) shirt

Now I'm leaving to do some shopping

I'll go to BestBuy, maybe at Walmart,

And again in the Real Canadian Superstore

And back to hostel via the nearby grocerystore

And later in the evening, going to fly the drone near to Belcarra

On the opposit shore, I can't remember what

is the name of it, there also is a mountain

I looked up the area from Google Maps

I visited BestBuy and Real Canadian Supershop

I did not go to walmart, cuz I didn't know where it was

and came back via the nearby mart quickly

What I bought from there,

This

I took earlier the Coffee version, Ice coffee

And now I took the chocklate aka. cocoa

Let's test this on video

So this is a local milk

which has different flauvors to it

e.x vanilla, strawberry

Not bad at all

Some cheese

Second pack of this

Basic Nutella ofc

Salted Cashews

New DJI Spark battery

Because I started to regret

only taking 1 spare and 1 in device wtih me

There is 4 battery limit (on plane)

So I hade to choose,

I counted so thart I have 1 spare to buy

cause thought I'd prolly by a gimbal

But ended up not buying

Didn't find any good gimbal

7 port USH 3.0 Hub

2nd latest, pop tarts

And where this camera is now; a new suction cup

And thanks for watching

If you disliked this video the BAD

If you liked it, press thumbs up

Remember to share, and check the links in video description

I don't have yet many vids with subtitles

But will be doing more when time comes

Minecraft vids I'll not be translating

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Tracey Ullman's Show Season 3 Official Trailer (2018) | HBO - Duration: 1:21.

♪ ("L'ARLESIENNE SUITE NO. 2" PLAYS) ♪

Donald, there's some things I really need

to speak to you about.

First, I have a question, and it's a very normal question.

Are you wearing a wire?

Like any lady with a baby, I need to know where's...

-The changing room? -...the bar?

Do you need one of my special massages?

That gets a big, two thumbs up.

Oh, yeah.

We could try that as well.

Angela, I thought we had something special.

Nein.

Your intellect is matched only by your sensuality.

Ooh.

Definitely an infestation.

-Oh, no! -Hipsters.

Can't you put some poison down or something?

-WOMAN: Dame Judy Dench. -What can we do for you?

I'd like a tattoo that will do me credit

when I'm skinny dipping in Saint-Tropez.

Or flashing from the royal box at the Albert Hall.

(IMITATES TRAIN)

(COUGHS)

♪ (SUITE TEMPO INCREASES) ♪

For the love of God!

(SCREAMS)

♪ (SUITE CONCLUDES) ♪

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