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- [JAMES] So did you know that the majority of viewers on this channel watch my content

on a smartphone? This is incredible for a few reasons.

First off, YouTube Analytics are detailed enough to tell me not only what type of

device people watch my stuff on, but what country they're from and what the average

gender of my users are. Yeah, it's not perfect but it's really an incredible thing think about.

Second off, let's talk about watching content on a device that can fit in your pocket.

This is something that we all take for granted nowadays, but we

don't really realize how revolutionary this is. I remember back when I was a kid

growing up in Texas during the Bush presidency - the young Bush's

presidency, I was a late 90s kid after all - and going on many a road trip with

my parents to New Orleans. Now, I could have brought some games to play on my

trusty GameBoy Advance, which by the way was an SP, not a Micro like this one that I'm holding, but I was much too

cool for that. Instead I brought some of these: GBA video cartridges.

Does anyone remember these? How you could watch TV shows and movies on your GameBoy Advance?

- [COMMERCIAL ANNOUNCER] TV Shows on the go! It's GBA Video!

- [JAMES] Granted, there wasn't much on each of these cartridges. You either had one

movie or a couple TV episodes, but the novelty was still rather awesome, despite

the fact that the video quality on these things wasn't the best, especially compared to those

newfangled portable DVD players. However, it looked decent enough when played on an actual

GameBoy Advance screen. Plus, being on a cartridge meant you didn't have to deal

with some of the not-so flattering aspects of a portable DVD player. Funnily enough, my

parents actually had a portable DVD player at this point, but I think I opted

for these instead for this particular trip mainly because I got way too

annoyed by the DVD skipping whenever we'd hit any sort of small bump in the road.

Nintendo clearly wasn't the only company to realize that there was a

market for selling kids incredibly compressed versions of their favourite TV

shows and movies in a portable format. Remember VideoNow from Tiger? I had a

friend who actually had one of these as a kid, and trust me, as bad as SpongeBob

may look on a blown-up GameBoy Advance screen, at the very least it wasn't in black and white.

So with that long-winded introduction out of the way, let me ask

another question: who remembers Sonic X? I know 4Kids aired it in the US, but my

only memories of actually watching this show as a kid was catching some episodes

on a random TV station while on a trip to Singapore. I remember in particular

catching the episode where Sonic went up against Perfect Chaos and being like "oh,

cool, that's the water monster from that Sonic Adventure game. I kind of want to

play that game again." I'm kind of assuming that was the point.

When it comes to actual GBA video cartridges I had as a kid, I mainly just had Nicktoons

and Pokémon. I didn't know Sonic X was on this format until I was well into my teens

when I went back and actually watched a few episodes. However, today for this video

that I promised to do for my 7000 subscriber special and, oh whoops I'm past

10,000 now, we're taking a look at the first two episodes of Sonic X as shown

on a GameBoy Advance cartridge. Oh boy.

So welcome to Stuff We Play, where today we aren't even technically talking about a

video game, but if that's cool to you why not subscribe? Sonic X for GBA Video.

Of all the Sonic "games" out there, this is the one I get asked to review the most,

next to Sonic '06 of course, but what makes it so special? Well nothing really.

It's the first two episodes of Sonic X, but in a compressed form on a Game Boy Advance cartridge.

Granted, there is SOME interaction. You can fast-forward and

rewind each episode, and there's also a menu you can go through to select each episode

or, you know, to view the credits by themselves, because I know that's what I

always loved the most as a kid. But really. that's it. As far as gameplay goes, my DVD

copy of Yu-Gi-Oh! The Movie has more going for it, so I don't think it'd be fair to

review Sonic X for GBA as a game, because it's not. It's essentially just a video

format. So, what we're instead gonna do is go through each of these two episodes in-depth.

I'll give you my thoughts along the way and then, at the end, I'll give you my

thoughts on Sonic X as a whole and ultimately see if going back and

watching it after it not watching it for, well, it's definitely been years, let's see if

my thoughts have changed at all. So now, let's get right into it.

Upon starting up this totally-not-a-game, we're greeted with the American theme

song for Sonic X. Hear that? How he's got to go fast?

That's the magic that memes are made of, kids.

As bit of a nice touch, the intro only plays upon booting up the cartridge, but then does not play

during either of the two episodes. I like that. That's a nice addition.

So the first episode here is the pilot for

the series itself, and according to the back of the box it goes as follows -

- [DILLIN] When the heroic hedgehog smashes into Dr. Eggman's heavily guarded compound to

snatch the 7th Chaos Emerald, Eggman panics and initiates Chaos Control.

Blasted into a confusing new world, Sonic soon becomes the target of a high-speed police squad

that'll stop at nothing to get their man... or their hedgehog!

- [JAMES] Special thanks to Dillin Thomas for reading these synopses, by the way, but with that let's plunge into

our first episode: Chaos Control Freaks.

They say first impressions are everything, and the first actual impression I'm given of Sonic X is... remarkably strong!

It's a dark and ominous night, with Big the Cat off somewhere being lazy.

Meanwhile over that the Dr. Eggman building, trouble is brewing.

Suddenly, Sonic is there and doing what he does best: infiltrating the mad doctor's

lair amid a barrage of attacks from various robots. Suddenly, Sonic gets

sucker punched into the air, but thankfully Tails and Amy Rose are there to

save him through the power of plot convenience. Sonic manages to safely make

it into the lair via a power ring while Tails and Amy have a near-death

experience, only to be saved by Knuckles. As you can already see, one episode in and

they're trying to introduce us to literally every character they can.

Meanwhile at the top at the tower, Dr. Eggman is doing what he does best, as

any good evil genius does: brooding and monologuing.

Also,Cream the Rabbit is kidnapped because... I guess Eggman has a thing for rabbit girls?

This never gets explained. Now would be a good time to bring up an issue I'm

noticing hereL the sound mixing is off. At several points it seems like the music

is quite a bit louder than the characters talking. Just listen to

when Cream is speaking here. - [CREAM] (Almost inaudible speaking.)

- [JAMES] I'm not sure if this is an issue with the GBA video format itself or the WONDERFUL

job that 4Kids always did with its anime dubs, but it's annoying regardless.

Anyways, Dr. Eggman has a Chaos Emerald and plans to use it to get rid of Sonic once

and for all by kil- sorry, by sending him to the Shadow Realm.

Also, Rouge the Bat is there because why not. Sonic arrives to save Cream, but Eggman

threatens to blow him to bits just with the press of a button.

Thankfully, Sonic has a power of overly suggestive retorts on his side! - [SONIC] If you can push it before I can grab it!

- [JAMES] Well, it seems Eggman managed to push it before

he could indeed grab it, and everything explodes. What a way for the series to

end-oh wait we're still going! Sonic is laying in the middle of a busy street

and staring around aimlessly, likely wondering if he's in Hell. Sonic then gets

ambushed by some easily angered cops for being the wrong colour in the wrong

part of town, but manages to escape, though not before beginning on a high-speed

chase down a highway! After making it over a roadblock, the polic take the only

action any reasonable police department would to catch what's essentially a

weird-looking rodent: hire an F1 racing team! Why catch it when we can race it?

This is never explained. Sonic is off pondering about how he managed to end up

in hedgehog hell when suddenly the F1 dude who isn't even important enough to

have been given a name yet shows up. Then, they race and the sequence is something like this.

- ~Can You Feel the Sunshine from the Sonic R Soundtrack Plays~

- [JAMES] Unsurprisingly, Sonic wins and the F1 dude nearly dies.

However, sonic nearly dies as well because he gets vaulted into the air

before falling to a swimming pool, and as we all know: Sonic. Can't. Swim.

Sonic seems to have accepted his fate and is eagerly awaiting the firm embrace

of the Reaper when, suddenly, he gets saved by Chris Thorndyke: a kid with an

annoying voice who unfortunately becomes a regular in this series. This was around

that time when Sega thought that their series about a cartoony blue hedgehog

needed more people and realism in it, though thankfully through the power of

hindsight we all know how that ended up! So the first episode ends on a hopeful

note, with Sonic and Chris meeting and looking towards the future, but honestly

I feel a little mixed. But what will happen next? Well let's jump into the next episode:

Sonic X Episode 2 - Sonic to the Rescue! Would this one be any better or

worse? Well let's see what the back of the box has to say!

- [DILLIN] Sonic learns that his buddies, Cream and Cheese, are being held at atop

secret military base, so Chuck hatches a plan to save them. The mission goes

smoothly - until Sonic finds the base is booby-trapped! Then it's a full throttle

race against time to a startling last-minute surprise!

- [JAMES] That was, once again, the incredible Dillin Thomas reading that. Definitely go check him out y'all!

But anyways, that sounds like quite an adventure, so let's spin dash right into it!

The episode begins with Chris on the phone with his stuck up sounding mother, whom he is

lying to, saying that he found a cat in the swimming pool. She's like "yeah, whatever."

So, it's cool for Sonic to crash at Chris's place. I should mention, by the

way, that Chris's family is loaded. Like, Bill Gates levels of loaded, as is

evident from the mansion, butlers, and multiple swimming pools.

This was obviously a choice made by the creative team behind Sonic X because the majority

of children world round will likely relate to no one better than a posh, spoiled, little brat.

So, Chris finally asks the question on everyone's mind - - [CHRIS] Where and when did you learn to talk, Sonic?

- [JAMES] Sonic replies by just shrugging. Then, Chris's dad calls and

screams at him for a bit before Chris tries to feed Sonic cat food. Because, of course,

you knowm something that walks and speaks like a person eats cat food and not, you know,

food food. Sonic and Chris then watch some TV and we

see a recap of the past episode's events. We are also introduced to Doc Brown, who is

Chris's grandpa. Upon seeing Sonic for the first time, Doc Brown's initial reaction is

to try to inappropriately touch him with a screwdriver.

Suddenly on TV, we see that Creme the Rabbit has once again been kidnapped.

Cream has been taken by the government of this country (America?) to the

mysterious Area 99. They're planning to use her for...something? It's never explained.

Doc Brown and Chris give Sonic and infrared

scope and help him break into the mysterious government base that

apparently everyone knows about. Sonic then locates an air vent and manages to

get in without prompting attack. He does, unfortunately, hurt his ass in the process. - [SONIC] It feels like I have skidmarks on my butt!

- [JAMES] Sonic's stealthily sneaks suspiciously through the secret base as

Cream fears for her life. The base's electrical power then gets shut off... somehow.

Sonic then manages to smash into the lab where Cream is being kept. He busts Cream

and her pet Chao, Cheese, out of their cell and they make a mad dash to escape

the base while getting shot at. Don't worry, though. As this is a 4Kids dub,

the bullets are all non-lethal. Sonic and Cream nearly get shot in the face by what I

can only assume are Nerf balls, but not before all of the guns aimed at them get

destroyed by a swarm of mechanical paper airplanes. Our heros nearly get trapped

again, but thankfully Tails shows up in his plane through the power of deus ex

machina, and rescues them. It is now revealed that it was Tails who was

responsible for cutting the base's power and creating mysterious mechanical paper airplanes.

Afterwards, they all go back to Chris' house and, since he's loaded, they all

decide to crash with him and his senile grandfather.

Tails and Grandpa Doc Brown hit it off together, and Tails then deduces that

they've all been transported by Dr. Eggman to a mysterious faraway world, and

that all of their friends are somewhere here as well. However, it is soon

revealed that Dr. Eggman himself has also been transported to this new world

and that he is plotting to take it over. To Dr. Eggman, it doesn't matter what

world he takes over as long as it's a planet and he's ruling it with an iron fist.

The episode then ends and we cut to credits, which anti-climatically have no

music and just have this still image in the background. So despite its issues, I think

that Sonic X Episode 2 actually ends on a really cool note.

Dr. Eggman is finally PROPERLY here and I'm excited to see what he does in future episodes.

The real question, however, is how did that episode itself, or rather both

these episodes, hold up? Well, I feel mixed on the package overall.

Along with there being absolutely no practical reason to watch anything via GBA Video anymore,

Sonic X itself is just a very flawed show. I just don't care for many of the new X-exclusive

characters such as Chris, and as with many anime series such as this, I

remember there being a lot of filler episodes.

However, it did have its high points.

There are some great moments throughout the rest of the

series, especially once Shadow the Hedgehog it brought into the mix.

But then we got to the final season of the show ,where it pretty much becomes Sonic

except Star Trek and kind of messes itself all over since, after Sonic Adventure 2, they decided not to

adapt Sonic Heroes or really any of the other Sonic games such as the Sonic Advance Series.

I know this is going to make some people mad, and I know a lot of

people have memories with this show, and it's certainly not as bad as something like, say,

Sonic Underground, but if you really want to watch a Sonic cartoon,

you're better off watching Sonic Boom or even going back and watching the

Sonic SatAM cartoon from the 90s, which is still great by the way.

Maybe I'll look at that at some point. So I guess with that polarizing conclusion out of the way,

let me know your Sonic the Hedgehog memories, whether they be with games, TV shows, or otherwise,

down to comment section below, and while are at it, subscribe to Stuff We Play

for more great content like this, or even back us on Patreon, because every

dollar and from Patreon does go back into the channel itself. So that thank you

very much for watching, stay classy, and... I guess, I don't know, maybe it's time I

finally look at Sonic the Hedgehog for Leapster.

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Starting Winter Prep at the High Tunnel Greenhouse - Duration: 9:31.

Hi I'm Mike, I know its gonna sound crazy, but it is only 33 degrees out here

And that means its time to start getting ready for winter on the Project List on Our Wyoming Life

Hi and

welcome back to our Wyoming life. Where we explore the ranch and life and escape the

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a new feature here on Our Wyoming Life called Life Streams. They are like our livestreams

but they are totally off the cuff and unscheduled and you never know when they might happen.

Yesterday for example, we found bubbles and went live as we made sure it was him, and

got them moving back toward home. It was a lot of fun and if you don't that the bell

turned on, you might have missed it. Moving right along, today its time to hit

the project list and winter is fast approaching, in fact we have snow in the forecast, not

much but that snowflake is hard to ignore. There will be many more following it soon

enough. The project list is an ever expanding and

contracting list of things that need done around here and as part of our winter prep

we are going to be working at the high tunnels today.

Erin will be growing in these high tunnels all winter long. Although this is the only

second year of us doing this, we have learned over last winter that it can be done. Spinach,

lettuce, radishes, carrots and many other cold hearty crops will be harvested throughout

the winter and taken to our winter farmers markets which take place one day per month

from November through May. By growing all winter long, we can not only

continue to supply fresh vegetables to our community but also help out with our monthly

income, on the flip side it keeps us almost as busy all winter as we are in the spring,

summer and fall. Today we are working on the high tunnels.

With temperatures dropping down in to the low 30's at night we are only days away

from a good hard freeze. The high tunnels will keep the temperature of the interior

a few degrees above outside temperature, its not much but its sometimes enough to protect

a crop as our freeze will often happen then we will have a few more days or even weeks

of nice weather. Weather this morning is a bit chilly but as

the sun rises in the sky it does start to warm up, but with that comes the wind which

doesn't help. The whining you hear is the wind generator that is right by the tunnels,

the higher the pitch, the more wind there is.

Our main project for today is to finish sealing up the end walls of the new high tunnel, above

the garage door, gaps have been left for the installation of them. Now that the doors are

installed we can seal up that area and hold some more of the warm air inside the tunnel.

Today we are unloading 2x6's , some pressure treated and some just regular whitewood. The

whitewood will be used on the end wall project and the pressure treated lumber will be used

on the older high tunnel which I will catch you up to speed on our plan for that in just

a few minutes. The gap above the garage door is roughly 9

feet wide by 4 feet high. We get a start by installing a crossbeam the width of the door

at the bottom of the opening. By cutting out some of our framing, we can

create an area on each side to slip the cross piece into, then its attached to the existing

framing. Because our sheathing is in 8-foot pieces

we are too wide to just cover the gap with just one, we are going to have to use two

and by adding a vertical support piece in here it will give us something to attach our

exterior sheathing to, and strengthen it. We also remove some helper blocks I installed

while putting up the previous sheathing and get it out of the way for the new lumber.

With a dimension of over 9 feet cover we cut two pieces of OSB sheathing to 55 ½ inches.

Using our same ledge blocks we took off the wall, we then attach them to the bottom board

to give us something to rest our sheathing on. When you work by yourself a lot, you have

to come up with a second pair of hands quite often. Then very carefully due to the wind,

lift it into place. Wind love to grab anything it can, and I don't want to follow this

thing off the ladder. After one piece is in place the other can

be hoisted up, checked for fit, taken down, adjusted then finally screwed into its home.

With that it looks like we are done, our blocks are taken off and it looks pretty good, but

its only an illusion. Anywhere air can get into the high tunnel

it will. It will never be air tight but keeping out as much as possible will help maintain

temperature on the very cold nights and days. Above the door is gap that will allow air

to rush into the inside, we have to do something about it and luckily, I have some left-over

weather-stripping from somewhere that will work just fine. Its about 9 feet long, and

using short screws with washers to keep them from pulling through the rubber of the weather

stripping we can lay it in place and attach it.

As an added piece of security to keep the weather stripping in place we are also going

to add another 2x6 over it. After cutting it to length we get it in place and temporarily

hold each end in place with a screw. Then we very securely attach the two boards together.

The wind is still picking up, so rather than work on the other end. Let's take a look

at the other high tunnel for a minute. This high tunnel lost its cover this spring, not

a deal breaker as Erin was able to grow in here all summer long still, but now its time

for a new cover to go on. The new cover has arrived and is being stored

in the shop but some modifications are going to be made.

The ribbon board along the side here holds the cover on and allows the sides to roll

up. On the new tunnel we used 2 strips of wiggle wire to attach the cover, adding security

and piece of mind. We are going to do the same with old one and that means we are going

to have to replace the existing 2x4 ribbon board with a 2x6 one to allow the extra room

for the wiggle wire channel. We have 2x6 pressure treated lumber for this purpose as condensate

can roll down the inside of the plastic and end up at these boards.

They will be placed right on top of the old ribbon board, to be used as a guide and then

attached to each other and then then the frame of the high tunnel.

But that's later today, for now, I am going to go and finish up the other end of the tunnel,

basically the same procedure and then I can come work on these.

There's always something on the project list, sometimes it's the mundane and sometimes

it's live or die but it all needs done, especially if you want warm dinner and expect

to sleep in your own bed tonight. I think the next couple of project list videos

are going to be getting ready for winter, something that always sneaks up on us and

adds to the workload. At the conclusion, we will be doing away with my summer hat, and

moving putting my winter felt hat back on, a symbolic sign that winter is here on the

ranch. Last year we burned it, I think this year,

something a little more epic and devastating is in store, should be a lot of fun.

Thanks for coming and hanging out for a bit today, I am back to work but please be sure

to subscribe and if you like what you see, give us that thumbs up, it really does help.

Until next time, have a great week and thanks for joining us in our Wyoming life.

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Nobody Wins: Contrapoints, The Aesthetic, and Negative Representation - Duration: 28:05.

so, natalie wynn of the youtube channel contrapoints released a video called The Aesthetic, and

i have... feelings.

which shouldn't come as a surprise, seeing as natalie has a long history at this point

of provoking, uh, "feelings" in her audience.

and i'll just lay my cards out right now: i like The Aesthetic, and i'm a pretty big

fan of natalie's work in general.

i even have a shirt, so, yeah, i'm biased.

but it's also clear that plenty of people who like the contrapoints

oeuvre just as much as, if not more than, me didn't

just dislike this video, but felt actively wounded and, in some cases, betrayed by it.

and that... sucks. and i'm conflicted.

because i don't like to see people hurt by media,

and i don't like to see people in a position like natalie's, as someone who is a rare beacon

of representation and optimism for a marginalized community,

apparently playing fast and loose with the expectations they know their audience has.

but, again... i like The Aesthetic, and my natural inclination is to defend the

things i like when i think they come up against unfair criticism.

and, yeah... i do think some of this criticism is unfair, which, under the circumstances,

will come across as glib, reductive, elitist, and tone-policing no matter what i do.

but i just want to say it explicitly, for posterity:

my intention is not to belittle or invalidate anyone who has mixed or negative feelings

about this video.

i'm not interested in saying that anybody who didn't like it, or who was harmed by it,

or who decried it based on its potential to do harm, is wrong or bad or not entitled to

their take.

this is just me trying to work through my own conflicts, and yeah, it's a reaction,

but i'm not judging the people i am reacting to.

we can all agree that this video is problematic, but i'm wondering... what do we gain, critically,

by ending the conversation there? if something is "problematic," doesn't that

imply a problem in need of solving?

so, okay.

here's my question: when does criticism become art?

i've been asking myself this a lot lately.

some prominent leftie youtubers have expressed dissatisfaction with the "youtube formula"

as it were, and have started experimenting with the form.

on one side you've got lindsay ellis, whose trilogy of videos about the hobbit films takes

its textual criticism as an invitation to explore the ramifications of nostalgia on

fandom, on economics, and even international politics.

over time it morphs from a fairly standard talking-head video essay into something of

a road film about a person flying halfway across the world in search of some kind of

personal truth.

and then on the other side, you have hbomberguy birthing himself out of a full-size canvas

print of loss.jpg. yes.

YES. wow.

both of these toe the line between criticism and art.

lyndsay's endeavor is certainly the more... socially acceptable of the two,

but neither video is an altogether objective presentation of evidence in support of an

argument -i mean, there's a lot of that, obviously,

these are still fundamentally argumentative video essays.

but the argument is inextricable from the expression -the facts here, such as they are,

are only important to us insofar as they relate to the narrative they've been tied to, whether

that be personal, political, or esoteric.

so, that in mind... it must needs be remarked that we do not judge criticism by the same

standards as we do art.

hbomb's third serious lore analysis, in my opinion, is a scattered and difficult to follow

bit of criticism, something he'd be chided for in a journalism class.

but, as a video about hypocrisy and fractured identities, that same scatterbrained assembly

actually helps the point he's trying to make.

so, as pure criticism, it fails... but, as art, it succeeds.

now, there's a whole epistemological debate to be had here about the boundaries of the

categories i just carted out for the sake of my argument, but we're not going to go

into that because i don't want to.

youtube, i think we can all agree, is a strange intermediary medium that we don't tend to

approach the same way we do television or film.

even as someone who respects the creative capacity of someone like hbomberguy, generally

i go into his videos expecting criticism, arguments, a point.

there are many expressive, artistic elements in his videos, but i tend to see these as

the flavor that makes his brand of argument special.

i wouldn't call most of his stuff art, and i'd hesitate to call most things on youtube

art.

now, i don't think it's controversial to say that there is art on youtube, but it isn't

"youtube art," so to speak.

a short film hosted on youtube is taking advantage of the platform, but it isn't of or for the

platform.

it isn't what people think of when they think of youtube, and the flipside of that is, in

my very limited realm of experience at least, there's an opinion that what a person thinks

of when they think of youtube is anathema to "art," that "art" and youtube are mutually

exclusive.

that's nonsense.

people have said that about every new medium and they have always been wrong.

but this does beg a question- what does "youtube art" look like?

and this gets us to contrapoints. and yeah, i know, i'm sorry, i know how that

sounds.

just... go with it.

alright. if you haven't seen The Aesthetic, here's the gist: it's a Socratic dialectic

(helpfully conveyed by the statue of Socrates on the tv here) about the importance of aesthetic

womanhood in the public discourse by and about transgender women.

Justine, who passes as cisgender, criticizes Tabby, a black-block communist catgirl

"actually i'm an anarcho-syndicalist" for her perceived lack of femininity and her

disinterest in attempting to pass.

so, for the uninitiated, a dialectic is a philosophical argument in the form of two

fictional characters having a debate -and yes, like all academic terms, dialectic conveniently

only has the one definition, which is why absolutely no one will show up in the comments

to "well, actually" me.

dialectic is often deployed as a way of implying objectivity -but, of course, it's just as

subjective as any argument, and the conclusion of a dialectic often tells us a lot about

the author. and the contention around The Aesthetic seems to be the result of a... shall

we say, ill-defined conclusion.

we don't like Justine, we don't like how she treats Tabby, we don't like that Tabby barely

gets to defend herself, and we don't like that the video seems to fail at adequately

criticizing Justine's transphobic, harmful rhetoric.

we want Justine to admit she's wrong, or for Tabby to finally be allowed to smash something...

we want some kind of catharsis and release, but instead, it just ends with them saying

"i guess nobody wins," and we cut to a sex joke.

it is, put charitably, ambiguous in its messaging, which makes us wonder what the author's intended

message was.

a major hangup in this conversation is, are the opinions expressed in this video the opinions

held by the characters, or are they the opinions held by natalie wynn? more specifically, is

the oft-reiterated statement "gender isn't who you are, it's what you do" natalie's personal

conclusion, the socratic truth she's trying to convey?

and this is where that ambiguity really fucks us, because a whole hell of a lot of people

give a shit what natalie has to say, and when we're not really sure what she's saying, we

start jumping to conclusions. for non-passing or nonbinary trans people, maybe this feels

like a revocation of identity from someone they admire; for passing trans people, maybe

this is a confirmation that non-passing and nonbinary trans people hurt the cause; and

for bigoted-ass cisgender people, maybe this is an endorsement of their campaign to spread

their very bad opinions on every image board from here to 4chan.

fittingly enough... nobody wins.

except, i guess, the cis people, because... i mean, they always win, don't they?

now, natalie has spoken about a lot of this stuff before.

these questions have been litigated constantly, sometimes very explicitly, in previous videos,

and she's expressed on twitter some skepticism about the idea that a twenty-something kid

assigned male at birth can just call themselves a woman without "becoming" a woman.

but it seems like this is more a feeling than a hard and fast opinion, and while i don't

share her skepticism, i also don't think she should avoid trying to explore that feeling

in her work.

let's take it as read that The Aesthetic doesn't really succeed as dialectic, and that natalie

herself doesn't provide much clarity on the subject.

so, why don't we take an... admittedly difficult step back from all that, and look at The Aesthetic

not as dialectic, but as art.

first of all, if it's art, we shouldn't even be having this conversation about intentionality

-at least not yet.

the "word-of-god" debate exhausts me because it's almost always the least interesting aspect

of any text.

"but what was the author's intention?" who cares? the author is dead.

let's look at the thing and see what it has to say for itself.

now, obviously the beliefs of the author are relevant, and since we all agree that everything

is political, then art must necessarily reflect the politics of the artist.

but the message intended isn't always the message received -rarely so, in fact.

so let's just set all that aside and look at the text.

so, we start with a new character, Tracy Mounts, who is an homage to Divine, the drag queen

whose performances in several John Waters films natalie has referenced previously.

"kill everyone now, condone first degree murder, advocate cannibalism, eat shit!" "filth are

my politics?" and this isn't even subtle, i mean, like... there's a poster for pink

flamingos right between tabby and justine.

now, i haven't seen pink flamingos, but i know it by its reputation as a vulgar, bizarre,

offensive film that is ultimately a celebration of the freakish (a moral that natalie echoes

in a previous video).

John Waters is known for being an articulate and personable guy who is unapologetic about

the way his art offends the delicate sensibilities of mainstream movie audiences.

in a recent interview, waters said of the subject matter he's drawn to:

"I'm most fascinated by subjects I don't really understand, that there's no easy answer to,

that I'll never understand.

and I'm always drawn to subject matter like that and I like to bring my audience along

with me, to be a little surprised by it and made nervous by it.

i never understood why people say "i like feel good books."

I already feel good!

I don't need a book to make me feel good.

I like to be troubled.

I like to go into a world that troubles me and amazes me, that I can't understand.

and then, after reading a book, think maybe i understand that world a little better."

so, in just the first minute of The Aesthetic, we're already signaled that this isn't going

to be a delicate experience, and that its content is going to be evocative in ways we

probably won't be happy with.

there's a lot in this framework that suggests some of the philosophical problems on the

author's mind.

tracy describes herself as "a lady who used to be a man dressed as a man dressed as a

lady", which is already complicated enough without taking into account that "tracy mounts"

is a character created and played by natalie wynn, thus making her a lady who used to be

a man dressed as a lady who used to be a man dressed as a man dressed as a lady.

identity! what the fuck is it? tracy is here to talk about quote unquote

color praxis, "colors! what the fuck are they?" which we're led into by youtuber Dan Olson

delivering a fifteen second monologue about color schemes.

"analogous color schemes use the main color plus one or more adjacent colors, while complementary

color schemes use any two colors directly opposite on the color wheel."

it happens so fast you might not even realize it happened, and it maybe seems like a nonsequitor.

but it's so specific- we're talking about color schemes in a design, the main highlight

being the difference between an analogous color scheme and a complementary color scheme.

later, we get this particularly telling digression about the shadow illusion- "same wavelengths,

different colors."

to my mind, this is a clarification of how we are to approach these bizarre fragmentary

identities -not as wholly distinct, but as different wavelengths of the same color, as

it were. and this isn't, by itself, a terribly revelatory inclusion -the very nature of natalie's

one-woman-many-characters dialectical style basically makes it impossible for the audience

to forget that these are fragments of natalie wynn.

what is revelatory, i think, is the focus on analogous versus complementary. if we look

at the wide roster of contrapoints characters, who talks to whom isn't just a strategic argumentative

decision, but a stylistic or, if you will, an aesthetic one.

sometimes these dialectics are complementary, and sometimes they are analogous. and it's

notable, i think, that when we are told about the difference between analogous and complementary

color schemes, the image itself is black and white.

just file that thought in the back of your head for now.

tracy poses a question, "what matters more, the way things are, or the way things look?"

before taking us to an "instructional video," IE an episode of The Freedom Report where

Tabby threatens Abigail Cockbane for misgendering her.

this is another short segment that, nominally, sets up the context for justine's criticisms

of tabby later on.

but when asked whether misgendering someone ought to be illegal, abigail has this to say:

"liberation from the oppressive institution of gender begins with freedom of speech."

i want to take a second to just analyze that statement.

abigail's goal is liberation from the oppressive institution of gender, which she insists begins

with freedom of speech.

a freedom she then exercises as a way of delineating and categorizing tabby's gender, and to insist

that pronouns refer exclusively to chromosomal sex -exercises which, undeniably, reinforce

the oppressive institution of gender.

i think abigail absolutely recognizes the logical inconsistency here, and she cares

less about that than... well, this whole speech feels canned, like a rehearsed talking point

she has on the ready for these situations.

the only moment she seems invested in what she's saying is, at the end, when she hands

it off to tabby with a pronounced misgender, and a vicious smile.

this isn't a good-faith argument, this is a trap, and it's one that tabby falls for.

"that's a human rights violation! i'll smash your fucking face."

abigail, instead of being surprised by the outburst or worried for her safety, immediately

launches into another diatribe about transgender ideology being a smoke screen for male violence.

she relishes delivering this speech, because she knows that she's already won the war of

optics.

we then cut back to tracy mounts, who says, "gender's just like a color.

some people see yellow, some people see blue.

it's all a matter of opinion.

or is it? it's not."

this is the first real indication of the confrontational in-your-face-ness we ought to expect based

on the John Waters connection, with tracy immediately undermining the suggestion that

gender might be subjective.

now, i could go through the rest of the video at this level of detail, but we're only three

minutes in and i've got shit to do.

so, go watch the video for yourself if you haven't already, and when you come back i'm

going to throw out a few observations that i think are significant.

ya back?

okay. first, let's briefly touch on the mise-en-scene, which is a pretentious college-degree-signalling

way of saying "all the stuff you see with your eyes."

we got the aforementioned pink flamingos poster -notice that divine's gun is aimed at tabby-

above which is a poster of the painted breakdown frames from another contrapoints video, Tiffany

Tumbles.

hm, that probably won't come up again.

with tabby there's chairman mao partially covered by what looks like a picture of the

golden one, and with justine there's oscar wilde.

contradictions! satire! mise-en-scene! okay, so the debate begins with justine laying

out the boundaries of the idea that "womanhood" as a socially constructed role is an exclusively

aesthetic phenomena, and that one cannot be a woman if they are not performing womanhood.

she calls it verisimilitude, a term i don't hear much outside of film criticism, so its

use here is, i think, intentionally dehumanizing.

honestly there's a lot that justine says in this video that is... woof. you watched it,

you know.

we get an interesting aside in the middle where justine brings up the debate "between

blaire white and that youtuber with the pink wig... what was her name?"

referring to a livestream natalie appeared on early in her youtube career which marked

a pretty big turning point for her public persona.

justine says that, while natalie may have won logically, for all intents and purposes

she lost the debate because she looked, according to justine, embarrassing and awkward.

as harsh as this is, it's hard not to see her point.

in the 2016 presidential debates, a lot of people -myself included- felt that hillary

clinton wiped the floor with trump, but a whole heck of a lot of people thought otherwise,

and they thought that because trump always looked in control, he just said things instead

of ever defending a position, which is rhetorically suicidal but optically powerful.

after receiving a long series of insults and judgments from justine, tabby starts to stick

up for herself, and we get this exchange: "all your devices just try to turn me into

you.

well, that's not what aesthetics is.

aesthetics is the expression of an inner truth, and i'll only ever be a second rate justine,

but i can be a first rate tabby."

"well kids, this week we learned a valuable lesson about the importance of being yourself."

"shut up!" this eventually devolves into a rapid fire

debate about the practical applications of gender identity that ends with this: "who

do you think benefits, and who do you think gets hurt, when you go out in the world and

represent trans women as masculine and violent?" "who do you think benefits when they trot

you out to be meek and feminine and acquiescent?"

"I guess we can't win, can we?

Wanna just chill out and watch youtube videos?" the supposed youtube video they watch is fascinating,

it's caitlyn jenner threatening ben shapiro, or whoever this dweeb is, repeated at lower

and lower framerates, intercut with right-wing trans woman blair white talking about damage

control.

then we get clips of the hindenburg crash, some bigoted youtube comments, and flashes

of the word "plague."

so, "plague" still puzzles me, and it's kind of the only thing i'm not really sure about

yet? it makes me think of the clip at the end of lindsay ellis's RENT video, of a gay

activist admonishing others in the queer community for their infighting and inability to garner

support in the wider public "Plague!

We're in the middle of a fucking plague!

And you behave like this!"

i don't know if this was intentional, but it fits and it's the best i got.

this montage mirrors the freedom report clip from earlier

"cut that out now" "that's a human rights violation"

"or you'll go home in an ambulance" "i'll smash your fucking face"

we then return to justine and tabby, then we return to tracy, and then it's over.

after the patreon credits, though, we see three things -a chess board, tabby hissing,

and then a kitchen with a bottle of svedka. and now we're getting intertextual.

obviously, all of natalie's videos are in conversation with one another.

in this case, we're led to one of tabby's early appearances, called 'the left,' which

is another dialectic between tabby and justine.

it's very similar to the aesthetic, it even ends on a similar note, with basically the

same joke.

"I think it's stalemate."

"No it's not- my queen is wide open."

"I love you."

"what?"

i'm also thinking of tiffany tumbles, another video exploring the question of permissible

feminine expression, and this is where some of that color theory seems to come in.

near as i can tell, 'the aesthetic' and 'the left' are analogous -similar shades that meld

together consistently.

meanwhile, 'the aesthetic' and 'tiffany tumbles' are complementary, opposing colors that stand

out from each other, but create a clear image through contrast.

so, how do we bring all of this together?

'the aesthetic' obviously has some harsh subjects on its mind.

as a trans person who's only been out a year, a lot of what justine says i say to myself,

at least on my bad days.

i think that's true for most trans people.

watching this video was painful, frightening, it kind of fed my demons a bit, y'know? but

that's precisely why i like it.

a lot of youtubers, myself included, pick a topic that shows some kind of problem and

then solve it, or anyway pretend to solve it.

'the aesthetic' doesn't do that.

see, when i go through this process of tearing myself down in this way, i never "resolve"

it, there's no catharsis.

i just feel like shit for a while until i forget to feel like shit.

no bones about it, this video is deeply problematic, and it is for that reason we ought to examine

it critically- because it is deliberately showing us a problem, showing us something

harmful, embarrassing, and true about ourselves that we don't like to admit.

"we don't say it out loud, but we all know it, and we all think it."

what does it mean that we feel so uncomfortable witnessing this debate, especially as trans

people? doesn't it kind of shore up justine's argument that other people hold the validity

of your gender in their hands, when we feel our own validity threatened by a youtube video?

but 'the aesthetic' is also reminding us that it does not exist out of context.

i think the "plague" montage is meant to show where this whole charade of disagreement is

heading, a parade of fractured, segmented identities unable to communicate or empathize

with each other "and i feel like, on my end, i'm always damage controlling."

this compounds when we consider the intertextual elements, that we can't take this one conversation

on its own.

neither a self nor a community is built by one road, one dialogue -it's a complex weave

of analogous and complementary elements.

you can't take just one color and expect to get the whole picture.

you need the analogues and the complements, together, to approach a totality of self,

to stave off self-destruction by way of fragmentation.

you need this whole picture because the hungry people on the outside? they don't see the

differences from one color and the next.

all they see is black and white.

the last point i want to make addresses a separate criticism.

some insist that, by not taking a side, natalie has taken the wrong side, and they point to

reddit threads that show cis bigots being validated in all their bigoted nonsense, comments

on the video from disappointed and wounded fans. and like... yeah, you know, that is

an issue.

like i said at the top of this video, that sucks, and i hate it.

as much as i like this video, even with my wildly debatable interpretation, i do think

it could have done just a bit more to reassure natalie's audience.

and i say that specifically because natalie has become a flashpoint of the transgender

community, and she knows it.

no one elected her, she didn't ask for the position, but people hang on her every word

now -kind of myself included.

her dysphoria video is one of the things that helped me come out and start transition.

whether she likes it or not, she has a responsibility to her audience.

but, all that said... aren't we kind of missing the forest for the trees here?

like, yeah, 'the aesthetic' has great potential to do harm, arguably it already has.

some folks have said they wished cis people weren't allowed to watch this video, and yeah,

i kind of agree with that, but we don't live in that world.

and this ammunition we're worried that natalie has given to the bigots... you really think

they wouldn't have found something else, somewhere else, to justify doing or saying the awful

shit they already wanted to? we're focusing so much on the negative impact of this thing,

and yeah, it's real, it's worth talking about, but in stopping there, in stopping at saying

that it's problematic and therefore shouldn't exist, aren't we doing exactly the thing that

justine does to tabby? we're essentially saying that the only permissible expression in the

trans community is that which is optically advantageous.

it has to make trans, nonbinary, questioning, and allied people feel good about themselves,

while simultaneously not feeding the trolls. it's got to be unambiguously self-affirming

of trans people, or unambiguously critical of nontrans people, unless you're critical

of the bad ones that we all agree are bad, like blaire white.

in short: it can't be problematic. and the painful reality of art is, it's all problematic.

there's a bit in an episode of the podcast behind the bastards where host robert evans

talks about the anti-nazi hollywood films that were accidentally pro-nazi.

"when we think of nazi propaganda, we think of triumph of the will.

when germans thought of effective nazi propaganda they thought of gary fucking cooper.

the nazis also loved mr smith goes to washington.

they looked at it and saw, well, here's a movie about how shitty democracy is, and one

guy with a vision has to come in and fix this corrupt town.

a lot of it is not even that there's direct collaboration going on, it's just that the

way movies work as entertainment really wound up reinforcing nazi beliefs."

"is the matrix a fascist film?"

"kinda, right?

a little bit." "if you want to view it that way..."

"if the matrix had come out in 1936, I think the germans would have loved it."

i think about this a lot when critical debates turn towards the question of what messages

the wrong audience will take from something.

lindsay ellis actually has an excellent video about this, link in the description, and the

fact is, barring some truly inspired bit of mel brooksian satire, it is impossible to

avoid giving ammunition to the people who want to hurt you.

every time you open your mouth, put pen to paper, every time you walk out your door,

you are making mistakes, you are contradicting yourself, you are undermining the causes you

claim to care about in ways microscopic and macroscopic in turns.

and yeah, you can mitigate the damage by being aware of it, and i think natalie is still

figuring out how to do that.

just two years ago she was mumbling over grainy camcorder footage; now, she's one of the very

few youtubers making something that approaches "youtube art," art that could only exist on

youtube. and she's doing it as a trans woman who is still very early in her transition!

it's fine to be critical, but we have to be willing to give someone the benefit of the

doubt because when all we can focus on is the harms produced by a work, we inherently

devalue the good.

we devalue the right and desire of a transgender artist to depict her own pain in a way that

isn't safe or kind or helpful or easy to digest. we might as well be insisting that what you

want to say is less important than what we want the world to hear. and look, you don't

have to like The Aesthetic, or any of Natalie's work, or any work at all.

you don't have to like how it affects your friends, or how it gives ammunition to your

enemies.

but we ought to at least recognize that the endeavor itself is justified and valid, and

that the text is still worth rigorous examination.

wow, thank you for watching this video that is longer than the video it's talking about.

i wasn't gonna do all my normal shilling at the end of this one, but at this rate there's

no way the video that was supposed to come out in september is going to come out in time,

so i'm just going to take this opportunity to shout out the september names.

special thanks to: austin mccauley, amy mims, richard daly, and anarcho duck.

these are my ten dollar a month patrons over at patreon.com/ltas. for as little as a dollar

a month you get access to, among many other things, a thirty minute video essay! in case

you haven't read enough of my stupid words.

i also have a podcast, the trans questioning podcast, where i talk about being transgender.

recently i had youtuber may leitz of nyx fears, and that was a fun little conversation, you

should go check it out.

links to all the music and sources and everything else in the description, and that's all the

things.

thank you for watching, good bye.

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Addict to Convert: Carli's Story - Duration: 24:45.

Well guys, welcome to 3 Mormons. We are here with my friend Carly and she's

gonna tell us her wild conversion story. You are going to be shooketh like unto

a dish. You're going to be....No it's tight like unto a dish. I know. It's shooketh like unto a

brother of Nephi. Hmm? Oh I got it.

Carly tell us about where you're from. Um so I actually say that I'm from

New York, but I've actually was born in Hawaii. I've moved to California, Florida,

New York, and then back to Hawaii, then back to New York, and went to Arizona

State and went back to New York and basically moved to Utah of January of

this year. Wow. So I've kind of lived everywhere

but if somebody asks me "Where are you from?" I just say New York cuz that's

where I spend most of my time. It's where I've had the most growth in my life I

think. Okay yeah, you're very New Yorker I know you, you're very much a New Yorker.

Like she doesn't text, she calls you and she'll be like, "Hey you almost here?

get over here." Like it's very much New Yorker. No time.

Yeah and you just joined the church, a little while ago. I did. So I just had my

year anniversary. I was baptized on July 8th of 2017. You were baptized two days

for my birthday. No way? July 10th is my birthday. Here we go.

And well basically let's just start about let's talk about how it started.

So I do want to preface my conversion story by saying that I in no way endorse the way

that I was living and I in no way want to indulge in the darkness of my past.

But by saying these things and sharing these things I'm just setting the

standard and setting the precedent. For me moving forward with faith

wasn't easy but a true understanding of repentance and the atonement was

absolutely necessary. So the first time I heard the word Mormon I was maybe like

10 years old, it was in the sixth grade. This kid named Elias McMore, who will

probably watch this. I'll send this to him. He pipes up and he like "I'm Elias McMore

and I'm a Mormon." And at that time I was going to a

Protestant middle school. So I go to my Protestant Baptist pastor's wife and I

asked her you know "What's Mormon?" and she proceeds to tell me about how bad Joseph

Smith is and like how bad the Mormon Church is and this

like just feeds my investigations. And I'm like alright well you know I just go

about my life. Anyway that was my first, that was my first real encounter. And I was

like ok like this kids Mormon, like they exist. Yeah. But my second encounter was

just like people in high school I knew where Mormon

didn't really pay attention to them. So um Protestant Baptist middle

school. So I went to a Catholic elementary called Saint Ann's in New York.

JLo's mom was my middle or my kindergarten gym teacher. Jennifer Lopez? Jennifer

Lopez. So if you search Lupe Lopez she was my gym teacher at Saint Ann's parish

school in New York. Went to a Catholic elementary school and then I went to a Protestant

middle school and high school. Okay wait but so were you predominantly any

of these religions like growing up. So like God was not this foreign or freaky

concept to me I was always surrounded by it. I was intelligent, like I went to school

like it was everywhere so I was like okay God exists right. So what I

did believe was that if I were to die and I did something wrong like steal the

cookie out of the cookie jar that day and I didn't repent that night I was

going to hell. So I was kind of one of those people that believe like okay I

just like ask God to forgive me right before I go to bed or right before I die

I will go to heaven. But it was out of fear of going to hell. The fiery pits of hell. So that just came because you

went to these schools that were religious or did your family go too? They

kind of just like stuck me into school and they were just like God is good, you

know. So they didn't really um my family dynamic is pretty interesting. So I

didn't really grow up with my mom and my dad. So my dad was in the military, my

mom's a nurse. They divorced when I was nine but I didn't find out til I was 12.

So for most of my life or most of my childhood like my parents weren't really

present so I had like nannies, babysitters and it was just like that's

just how I lived my life. I've learned how to take care of myself I had to it was like

society raised me yeah right so like the community I just taught me what I know

and I had to learn everything else on my own and when my parents divorced my aunt

my uncle had raised me in Hawaii and so my aunt my uncle well my aunt

ended up passing away in high school and from there my mom was like well all I

know how to do is kind of like send her to somebody else who's gonna take care

of her so that's when they sent me to New York so I kind of had this what does

it call this geographic relocation every like every every so often but when I got

to Arizona State I was definitely more I was getting older right and I was like

okay like I need to figure out what I want in my life and I was living a life

that wasn't necessarily good you know when I was on the state well that's a

top party school in the nation ASU one doubles reliance so ASU so you get to

Arizona State and tell us tell us what your lifestyle is like well my lifestyle

kind of started way before then so obviously like I kind of covered that

like my fan family dynamic was very different I didn't really have like a

mom and a dad I just had myself and that's what I had to depend on so by the

time I was 13 years old I was definitely indulged in an active drug addiction it

was the first time I didn't start off with like most kids start off with

drinking with smoking I was like nope ecstasy at 13 years old really fast

really fast I went like straight into all of that and then I was diagnosed

with ADHD and they gave me at all so by the time I was 13 it was like I saw that

these things made me feel better you know they were like they were taking the

real Carly to sober Carly that's in front of you right now and they were

like let's make her the Energizer Bunny so I was like all right off to the races

so from 13 years old I was active in this addiction and my parents don't

really or like my family didn't really know what to do they were just like

something's wrong with her but she has these friends she like does well in

school she plays sports so on the outside it's like this picture-perfect

life but by the time I was 18 it was it became overdoses multiple suicide

attempts because when you're up and down for so long because of

drugs the downs are really low that's why it's called getting high so by the

time I was 18 my family had just given up right they were like all right you've

got a bend by yourself so when I got to New York I had overdosed for the first

time I ended up in like rehab and in the hospital and my family was just done

they were like how could you do this to us how could you know and my family ever

watches this I just want to clarify that you know they're amazing people and they

did the best they could in the capacity of which they knew how but with me they

didn't know what to do I had become resentful and entitled and

I kind of wanted to live my life in a certain way that just wasn't like

socially acceptable by anyone by any means so my addiction has started and

then my parents had completely cut me off so I was right when I got out of

rehab I kind of had nothing I was living on the streets this was in New York City

this is in Newark well it's in Westchester so right above New York City

and this is and what age are you in rehab 18 so I was in out of rehabs from

the time I was 18 to 19 so I had I managed to accumulate some sober time

and then by the time I was 19 this family friend random totally random

reaches out to me and she's like have you heard of like it Arizona State like

I couldn't my sister goes to Grand Canyon University I moved out to yeah I

moved out to Arizona and I was like why would I ever move to Arizona like I've

never heard of yes so anyway for some reason I just end up moving out there

and I realized Arizona states this huge party school so I'm like yes I can

supplement my lifestyle and pretend to be a normal kid

so I remind you I don't have like mom I don't have dad I don't have this family

I'm just like you here by myself but I managed to seem like I was normal

by like making all these friends by like drinking and I tried to convince myself

that okay drugs are like socially unacceptable right like you don't need

to do drugs like that's not okay but I could drink like a normal person yeah

definitely not yeah like once you once I have that added personality it's like

you're gonna drink everything site so you transfer to ASU and you're

partying it up you know you're having some having some fun yeah and and then

what what happens so that's when finally I got introduced to drugs again so for a

while I was just trying to supplement with drinking right so I had gone to

rehab gotten sober and then I was like okay well now I can just drink drink

maybe smoke some weed you know so I was like I just won't do coke and I just

won't do I just won't do any of the hard stuff so um I'm living this life and my

due when I was 18 I had met this man right

his name was Marcus Allen in a perfect world he would have been the perfect man

so I fell in love when I was in New York but I wanted to supplement my active

addiction so I moved to Arizona but the whole time we had stayed in touch so met

him when I was 18 and this is now I'm like 21 right I'm in Arizona I just got

my first corporate America job and I'm still talking to this guy from New York

and we're like trying to sever our relationship and one day I'm like coming

off a lot of cocaine and I'm just crying and I'm at this bottomless pit where I'm

just like you know what like I can't do this anymore I don't want to live like

this like it just hurts too much like there was just no getting high anymore

like my body could not take it so I tell him I'm like I can't do this anymore

and he looks at me and he's just like Carly you don't have to you don't have

to live this way anymore and he's like we can work on our relationship we can

you know build a future for ourselves so here I am withdrawing off of drugs at my

first real job yeah and I'm like trying to work 9:00 to 5:00 and I'm just trying

to be like a functioning member of society right and I'm coming home every

day and asking this guy for like help but wow I'm at this job two of the guys

that I happen to work with were LDS so I see this guy and I see that he's around

my age of 21 he's 23 he's married he's got kids he's got a house he's got the

sweetest wife in the world he's like bringing us pizzas yeah like I'm just

like well what's he got that I don't yeah you know what's he doing that I'm

not doing um and it was just the light of Christ you know what I know now is

what impressed but he was just doing everything that I had wanted you know he

had a second baby on the way and I was by no means like was I close to this

person and he just worked with me and I just saw this example and I was like

okay I want that you know what like I'm getting sober like I want to be this

person in my life that I never had so I never had like a mother I never had a

father and I was like so you know what yes I was like I saw the importance of

you know the role of the family in life and I was like well Mormons they love

their families like they put this huge emphasis on is true for their

relationships and they just they're just good people you know they don't drink

coffee they don't do drugs like they don't like you know they've got all of

these like coffee do you know they by all means like they don't have sex

before marriage you know like they're they're trying to do everything right so

I'm like bull all right let's try to change my lifestyle so I go home to

Marco so I'm like listen like we've I want to do what he's doing whatever he's

doing we've got to do it and so wait Marco says in New York so right yes you

guys was like calling every night calling every night facetiming and then

eventually so I moved back to New York in October of that year okay so I moved

to New York I move in with Marcos and we're like building this relationship

right so we're basically married living this my in my world right the perfect

life I was like yes like I got the man I can make my family now I'm sober like

I've got somewhat of a moral compass but so here I am thinking that this is it

and the whole time that I'm living with Marcos I'm kind of like asking these

questions like okay well like Mormons have they they value family right but

what's their view on the Godhead because growing up going from a Catholic school

to a product very different views there were the only thing that I really saw

was like the view on the Godhead right or the own Holy Trinity that was like

really what separated me between the two churches yeah so I was like whoa what

makes why it's different like what do they think about the Holy Trinity

so that was one of my other investigating questions because I I knew

this Mormon girl when I was in Arizona so I just texted her one day and I was

like hey why do you guys like Mel you family she sends me the proclamation and

a few days later I'm just like hey like what do you guys think of the Holy

Trinity she sends me some like article in LA I saw everybody on the Godhead

yeah I'm just like okay well like you know this is all good and gravy so I go

to Marco said I'm like Marco's you know like what's up at the Mormon Church and

he proceeds to show me the anti-mormon the band anti-mormon Jesus and my marcos

had grown up Catholic he's a Greek so he grew up like believing certain things it

was just like this is what Mormons believe and I was like you don't really

think I watched this cartoon I was like you don't really think that like a

millions of people believed it was extreme but in a perfect rule like that

this was going to be my life and I had to accept Marcos for who he was in

January of 2017 he had relapsed and his own addictions and by April of 2017 he

was dead so here I am like I'm living with this man and like the person I knew

and had fell in love with right just completely changes and Here I am like

trying to stay so close to faith and trying to find the church right right so

after he passes away a lot of people or like everybody kind of like tries to

take care of you and I'm like what's going on everyone wants to help and

they're there for you and one of one of the care packages I had received the

Book of Mormon in it so I start reading this book right and

I'm like I asked if it is true whatever you know I I'm not thinking too much

about it but I was like you know what Mormons are doing something right I want

to join this church and I just don't know how so one day

hi I'm living closer to the city now and after I'd marcos had died and I go to my

neighbor's house one of my good friends and I'm like hey Kim like what do you I

want to join this church and I just don't know how she's like listen there's

this girl in this building I'm pretty sure she would say like Salt Lake City

Utah something but I'm pretty sure she was Mormon instrumented Utah I'm pretty

sure she's Mormon yeah that's a pretty sure assumption yeah I've never met

someone from Utah who wasn't Mormon so you're trying to figure out you like you

you you know you were to join the church you know much about it but you were just

because the lifestyle is appealing but yeah so there's something different

about so you find this a secure connection - yeah

so this woman I like reach out to where I get her phone number and I'm just like

hey wanted you in the church and I just own a home so she gives her number to

the bishop the bishop gives my number to the missionaries the missionaries set up

to meet with me the next day in a park so I'm sitting with these two Mormons

apart war is so fast so here I am and I'm like

crying cuz I'm like my boyfriend just died like a month ago

like my life is like I don't know what I'm doing with my life right so I'm

meeting with these two little like missionaries I have the baptism

questions and just yeah tell me what's up and they invited me to be baptized on

July alright so yes true so so like when they told you you know Jesus Christ son

of God not the father not the spirit like they so you asked me the Holy

Trinity yeah yeah yeah they wouldn't you know Joseph Smith and his

so yeah so visit the restoration then you just like alright I'm in I'm in so I

like that's hella sorry yeah they're just like July 8 so you joined the

church you get baptized wait is it was that like a crazy process at all or did

you two go smoothly um honestly I feel like that point of time was definitely

like a blur I was like searching for it and I had wanted it and I wanted to

learn more right like when you're first investigating at the church you're just

like tell me everything tell me everything I need to know and I think

that for a long time like I thought a lot of people were just like oh she's

been Mormon her whole life and I'm like that's pretty awesome though well I

think that I just had this like gift of just understanding and just getting it

like yeah hearing something and realizing okay well like I'm gonna

question that but do I feel whether or not it is it's true like there are

certain things like the Mormon cartoons where I was like that's insane like who

does believe that so I get baptized in New York and it was a little bit of a

rough transition just because I had this kind of perfect conversion right I was

surrounded by not only like people who were personally and professionally

successful but people who were also extremely spiritually fit like these

were to this day they're the most celestial people I've ever met in my

life yeah and they're just examples of I'm just like you're ready for the

second go was great to have that example especially like you're saying like a

majority of her life has not you haven't had that yeah so I was from like one

extreme to come into the church amazing leaders and people that help you yeah so

you know I made best friends my best friend's to this day are the people who

have you know kind of showed me the church the missionaries had to introduce

me to a girl named Camry Smith who was now Camry dance congratulations very

cute name every dance is it very yes um and she's my best friend to this day the

missionaries introduced me to her and from there she was able to you know have

her own missionary experience too she served a full mission in Hong Kong and

she was praying for this missionary opportunity and Here I am this little

investigator who's like be my friend and she's my best friend of this day but

then you but then you move back to Arizona right yes so during this whole

weird period of time this family offers to kind of take me in and show me the

church right there like this is what it's like to be Mormon come out to

Arizona we'll pay for a semester of tuition and like will kind of take care

of you you know so you know you know a Legally Blonde the hairdresser oh yeah

sorry thank you black no I'm legally blonde in real life though you know I

went to beauty school for a little bit and I went back to college and then I

was like law school here I come you are well you're yeah so I moved back to

Arizona I do my semester I do a semester of school there and I'm just sad right

I'm like kind of like you know why like I just joined this church and I'm really

far away from like Arizona State's campus so I'm away from like everything

that I've ever like known and grew up with and Here I am in this like why I

say word were like the girls are like 18 and like the kid the boys are like just

home from their missions and I'm kind of like I just came from New York City were

like you were like very different I don't want to be critical of this board

that I was in but I was just I had come from a very it was a very interesting

transition for me it was very um I had gone from young adults who are you know

very ambitious and driven and I went to kids who have never lived outside of

their parents homes yes it's a very different very different environment

where New York City is like go get them and Arizona and Mesa Gilbert was you

know very comfortable mm-hmm so here I am and I'm kind of Miss ruin

I'm calling my friends from New York so all of my friends that were in New York

were all in internships in New York City and they happened to be students at BYU

there it here in Provo Utah and they were like Carly do you belong in Provo

and I'm like why would I ever move to Utah what I never thought I was gonna be

in Arizona - I never thought it was gonna be Mormon move to Utah so I drove

around I'm like listen I get a job in Provo Utah I will

move Heavenly Father was like here's a job offer so I am later anything and

also when you're in Arizona you met you met Keeton Keeton he'll yeah it's my

good friend and your good friend and that's why I met you yes guess what you

moved to Provo Utah and Here I am and I met her today I didn't know like most of

this until right now so you have any questions you know I know it was kind of

like fast and kind of like whoa I'm from New York we talk for us I do have one

question when you compare your life now as a latter-day saint as in the Relief

Society presidency of your board to life before what is like what is what is the

biggest difference like besides the gospel like what is the biggest

difference you've seen in you I feel like I have more of a purpose no I of

course like my patient call blessing plays a huge role in that I've kind of

went from living my whole life thinking well as soon as I turn 18 that's it like

I thought I was gonna be dead but you know now like I thought I was gonna be

dead by the time I was either 18 or before I was 21 and I was I really

didn't have like a life to look forward to and I always thought that I had to

work really hard for what I wanted and I didn't know why right you know I didn't

know what the purpose of was of you know why do I even want these things why do I

want to be a wife why do I want to be a mother

and a lot of it was giving somebody else like what I never had and gospel

definitely gave me that and gave me an opportunity to become someone who was

worthy of doing these things right one thing I really liked about your story is

that just because you became a member of the church your life didn't become

perfect yeah and I and I think that's a lot of people look for like expect that

almost when they joined the church is that suddenly it's like okay now my life

is better because the God but your life is better because of the gospel yeah

you're still you show me your now you have assistance of the Holy

Ghost and the principles of the gospel absolutely and it's definitely it holds

me more accountable it holds me to a standard where you know I didn't know

existed before yeah you know and I'm not perfect by any means but you know it

does give me a chance to realize that if Saul could become Paul you could change

your life forever that's yeah Wow well thanks so much for coming on the show

this is a beautiful conversion story and I think we're going to touch a lot of

people thanks for coming thank you guys so much for having me I enjoyed being on

the show if you're not already following them or if you're not already subscribed

make sure to click that button right there make sure to follow quick ooh and

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Mini Gun vs Metal Target #407 - Duration: 6:48.

[music]

hello folks this is Yamil Sued for Gun Stock Reviews and you know I've done some

incredible torture tests in the past MGM targets just tested their new targets

with about every firearm known to man with a bunch of people shooting other

targets over two days this is incredible

[music]

I'm absolutely impressed by them I've been shooting steel now for a little

over 20 years to be honest after seeing 22-250 up into that thing at the

distances that it was the I'm I am actually speechless it's it's impressive

to see its performance to know that it could take that kind of a hit and keep

on rolling even with multiple strikes from everything we've been shooting

today the ability for just to keep on taking a hit and keep on kicking is it's

pretty impressive been working with MGM targets and Dillon precision out here

testing out their new line of AR 550 targets awesome incredible pieces of

work we have been shooting a lot of calibers which is impressive to see how

the steel is handling even just the feedback that the steel gives it doesn't

move too much it it handles the the absorption of the round really well the

base itself I'm sure we're focusing a lot on the on the target itself but the

base is really great the idea is great I definitely would like to see this in

shoot houses around the country especially since I'm running in them but

not only is it held up really well it's been really easy to just to keep on

painting and repositioning it's easy to assemble it's easy to move and because

of the quality of the product it's held up really really well to everything

we've thrown at it from bolt-action rifles we've tested 338 Lapua, 300

win mag to shooting anything from just standard 556. at pistol,

for practice for the team it didn't degrade at all, it didn't warp didn't have any

issues so far as I've seen from all these weapons they've been fired at it

it held up better than anything I've ever seen in the past I was very

surprised that the 22 250 didn't just punch straight through especially inside

of a hundred yards that's incredible you know and the punishment we laid on it

with the belt feds and the 134 yesterday it's astounding

. It's better than anything I've seen.

what I've seen over the last

two days it's just a really rapid acceleration of the aging process I've

never seen steel stand up the way this stuff has

[minigun rapid fire]

I haven't seen a single safety

hazard or issue once the entire two days I've been here yeah the idea that we are

as close as we are it instills a lot of confidence in the product to see that

you can work it through a lot of different distances that are all still

safe within that regulation and know that it's going to perform

[minigun rapid fire]

no I have not seen anything you know I'm one of the few that's probably been on ranges where

steel was a real issue even within our safety boundaries and I haven't seen

anything here to make me think that it was unsafe or dangerous no spalling no

bounce-back no nothing nobody there's a crowd of people standing back here

nobody took any ricochets any issues at perform great rang well

we're we're well within some some close range shooting of Steel especially with the calibers that

we have been shooting we've been shooting some decent calibers and

there's been nothing splashing back it's safe to be around even the crews have

been standing around pretty closely and it's it's great I feel like it's a it's

a good safe product.

pistol or rifle they just stood up really really well and no

danger issues whatsoever

no issues at all the spalls going down and back

and they take a beating and these things just keep on chugging away especially

the 22-250 I've seen them man they just eat through steel left and right I think

we just shot it at about 80 yards and barely damaged the plate so yeah like to

see this like I said on my home range either professionally or my personal range.

I plan on using them in my backyard right now after watching what's

going on the last couple days

apparently I'm big fan MGM I would

definitely use them in our programs as well as any other place you know that required steel

as the owner of a shotgun company it makes sense to shoot a

product like yours that's safe for the clients with the target stand and the

whole system the way it is it's easy to recommend

[Mini Gun rapid fire]

I think that there's three things that it's we've seen today is not just the

quality and performance but they understand that MGM is about its

customers and the service to those customers so if you're confident buying

a premier product you know that the customer service there support you with

that performance of that product as well as the quality that stands behind

recommending that product to anybody

[Mini Gun rapid fire]

[Cheering]

it's awesome you know I need to smoke a cigarette after that.

okay folks it's amazing we spent two days at the range ten or

fifteen shooters thousands of rounds of ammunition is amazing that targets

survived so actually oh by the way you see the guy in the blue shirt at the end

of the video shooting the minigun that's me so stay tuned to Gun Stock Reviews for

more torture tests that we have coming for you

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Improve Your Overhead Squat - Stick Mobility Exercises - Duration: 2:24.

Hey you guys struggling with your overhead squat, maybe just want to make it a little bit more efficient get in there better

Feel it own it don't hurt yourself. All right. So here's solution for you. We're gonna open it up first

We're gonna do a double stick

Monkey hang to open up their structure right? Give us some better

Access to shoulder mobility and then we'll go prime it after and get you ready for your overhead squat

So you see Dennis got two six-footers here. We're just going into monkey. Hang. Just grabbing up top

Ignite that grip and this let your body sink down so dead weight just drop it down legs go outside, which is also helping right?

Pulling those knees apart opening up the hips

So we just learn to sink down in there so we can do anywhere for you know

10 to 20 second hang you could do multiple reps, right, but let dead weight and then access that grip

Squeezing hold in maybe we also go. He's gonna pull the sticks apart a little bit away from each other

So then we access these guys here a little bit deeper into posterior chain

So we can open up those shoulders when you're going down into your squat. So this will be number one monkey

Hang double stick monkey hang just open it up. And then we're gonna go in and prime that overhead squat

All right, part two. So grab your stick

Need rack cracks Dennis get set up in here. So if you can use your Jay hooks or something

That's gonna be solid eight. You could push up into kind of starting in that front rack position

He's going to push we got to make it solid. He's going to pull the hands apart, right?

So we get to that

Posterior chain like we did on the stretch and now he's priming it and he's gonna start dropping into his squat

So you have the irradiation going on you are pushing this load up overhead

You're turning everything on so we could see the shaking happening

His body's working learning to own this position and get access in there. So we're strengthen it we're priming it

We're turning it on it worked about

50% get a couple reps in so we want to get down there, you know, you could be anywhere

You're priming it like three six second hold

Pulling apart pushing up in there good 50% Look at that position

Pull yourself out. I'll show you one more rep

access drive into here

We open it up first now we're priming it or turning everything on

So then you can go and get right into your overhead squat after and make it look better

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Arianne - Primeiro Amor (Quero Voltar) (Ao Vivo) ft. Priscilla Alcantara (REACTION) - Duration: 11:01.

Hey everybody we're BROTHER! I'm Terry and I'm Terrell

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Sing ya'll!

Hallelujah!!

Hold me. Hold me

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You are amazing. This song was amazing Wow. Yes.

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Mango Quinoa Salad Recipe | The Hungry Health Coach Episode 54 - Duration: 9:35.

hello everybody my name is alexandra napoli welcome to health by napoli where we only cook healthy food that doesn't suck

I probably couldn't have done that any faster if I tried

what are we are working with today is mangoes quinoa bell pepper carrot red

onion avocado cucumber jalapeno citrus garbanzo beans also known as chickpea

and cilantro so naturally we are going to be making a

dope quinoa salad it's a really delicious recipe so let's dig in

okay so my general plan with most salads it's just start with the onion and kind

of the flavors that need to be marinated a little bit because you want the

flavors to be in there but you don't want them to be so powerful that they

overwhelm everything else so I'm gonna start with the red onion just a little

bit less than half of the whole onion very finely chopped up your red onion

because it's a salad you definitely don't want really big chunks in here

okay so this goes directly into the bowl and then we're gonna take our lemon and

lime juice insert to get it marinate it so just fresh lime juice squeeze it in

so I'm gonna do the juice of two whole lime and one lemon why I don't know cuz

that's what I've decided one second ago

when you're rolling out citrus it's nice to kind of like actually roll it before

you cut it and then the juice will flow freer free flow and juice is a lemons

definitely have seeds so be careful for those okay so now our onions are really

nicely in the citrus so that's just is gonna help kind of bring out some of the

flavor kind of mellow it out a little bit so by adding the citrus at the

beginning you're really helping bring that sweetness out next up we're gonna

get into the jalapeno because we want it marinating in the juices also the

hottest part of that jalapeno is the seeds so if you just take the top off of

it and then kind of like squeeze it and roll it a lot of the seeds just kind of

fall out naturally if you're not a person who likes spicy you can just

skip the jalapeno altogether until I'm just gonna cut this up

nice is plenty the sweetness of the mango I feel like a little bit of hot a

little bit of spicy it's kind of a really nice combination so I want to

chop these really fine so I'm gonna go through it with my knife and kind of

like a back and forth motion okay and I'm gonna be a weirdo and not touch it

at all with my fingers because that's how you get jalapeno eye and there is

nothing worse than a jalapeno eye you could have jalapeno other parts of your

body that would suck okay so again let's get the mixing up in our lime and lemon

juice okay now it doesn't really matter what

were you going so I'm just gonna continue with the cucumber this one I

think it's called a Persian cucumber and so it doesn't have that really seedy

core there's half if you think the skin is a bit bitter you can peel the inside

of the skin obviously so just kind of placing the cucumber into like I don't

know eighths or something like like I don't I slicing it lengthwise into

smaller pieces and then dicing it across into the bowl next up we have a bell

pepper a really easy way to cut into a bell pepper cut the bottom off and then

cut the top off now obviously we have the core of the pepper here so all you

have to do is make one slight incision in the pepper and then kind of go around

the side and then when you get to this last one now you've cut out the entire

core but all the seeds are attached you haven't made a big huge mess and now we

have this nice long piece of pepper that you can cut that way and then chop up

nice and small you can use any kind of pepper

any color pepper I thought orange would be nice because it's a bit of a sweeter

pepper and also because the color will be really nice did you know that all

peppers are the same I know pepper like orange and red and

yellow but it's just like different stages maturity what color pepper are

you in your life let me know in the comments below

I think green is the youngest and then it would go from green to red to orange

to yellow so then you take the two bits that were left over from the top and the

bottom of the pepper and just slice them up into cubes into the bowl next up we

have our carrot I bought three shredded carrot sometimes it's okay to buy

pre-chopped veg guys it's not cheating okay next up we have our mango so when

you're picking out a mangos they will ripen on your counter but I didn't have

time for that business so I decided to get these mangos instead but these are

called alfonzo mangos and they are considered to be among the most superior

varieties of fruit in terms of sweetness and richness of flavor win

straight down the middle there is a pit in it but it's smaller and easier to

manage than the pit of a regular mango then we have our little trick here that

I've shown you in other videos where you take the lip of a cup and you slide it

along the inside of the skin so that it takes the whole mango out of the skin

now because we're making a mango salad what I'm gonna do with this it's just

kind of squeeze it into the bowl so that's gonna give us a lot of really

great flavor all right so then just take it with a little core that's gonna be

hard to eat and chew really simple you can kind of you can see it and you can

feel where its rough and then let's just chop this into chunks ah I feel like my

favorite part of cooking is when you get like dirty it's like it's like play

in the mud when you're kid but it's like playing with your food which is like all

the things that you're never allowed to do when you're an adult and you're at

home by yourself you can do whatever that's the other fun thing about cooking

for yourself at home it doesn't really matter if you're doing it wrong it's

just for fun

okay we just have a very few ingredients left to go and then we will be done and

mixing up our salad garbanzo beans chickpeas delicious high in fiber and oh

so good I've drained these I've rinsed these I'm adding them now we have our

beautiful bunch of cilantro I have thoroughly washed this because cilantro

can get really kind of dirty in the store and like dusty so you really want

to make sure that you rinse it you soak it you give it some good time have a

like like a nice beautiful bath with your cilantro and so then I'm just gonna chop

it up I'm gonna use the whole bunch of cilantro because I love it it's all oh

my god this smells so good I know some people don't like cilantro if you wanted

to use parsley you could definitely use parsley if you are gonna use parsley probably

don't use as much I feel like cilantro is a much I don't know easy

herb to kind of incorporate you could also use like spinach you know some

people just really effing hate cilantro so do whatever you want alright guys we

are in the homestretch I'm gonna take this avocado I'm gonna cut it in half go

all the way around the pit very carefully peel it apart oh I love it

with that happen okay so I'm gonna gently kind of like spoon this out so

that I can have the entire avocado in my hand flip it onto the cutting board did

you hear that flip that was really fun and then I'm just gonna chop this into

chunks I can't believe how perfect this avocado is that's another reason why we

want all the citrus in here because that's gonna keep the avocado nice and

green and fresh so it doesn't oxidize now we are gonna add our quinoa so this

is already cooked quinoa and this is actually cold but if you just made it

that's cool just let it like hang out while you're making everything else and

then try to let it cool off a bit before you

add it so that you don't wilt your greens or anything like that okay so now

it's super easy let's just dress it up a little bit we've got some sea salt like

again I love good amounts I like things a little bit salty maybe a little bit

too salty and then we've got the pepper adding that it let's do a nice drizzle

of olive oil and then for vinegar you could use apple cider vinegar you could

use red wine vinegar you could use white wine vinegar I happen to own the

balsamic I own it but I can't open it okay so just give this a nice little

dollop and then mix it all together this is so bright and colorful okay so once

it's all mixed and incorporated just have a taste test and decide if you want

a little bit more dressing for me that is perfect just the way it is seems like

a little bit of heat from the jalapeno everything is just perfectly seasoned

this is so good yeah we have this beautiful summer mango tropical quinoa

salad it was so easy the main thing is just chopping everything up it's

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